I shouldn't love you but I do

Prologue

Hi, I'm Destiny and I have a huge shameful secret. I am in love with my twin sister's fiancé. They have been together for a few years now. What Desiree doesn't know is that I had him first, or well so I thought. He was my first and only so called one-night stand. He was the man I gave my virginity to. I thought he cared about me and that we would end up together.

He is the love of my life, and he doesn't even know it. Or maybe he does but just doesn't care. He treats me like I'm his sister and it hurts me deeply. I mean we once slept together and now it's as if it never happened. I sit back and watch the man I love be with my sister silently wishing it was me he was touching.

Sometimes I feel like she is flaunting their relationship in front of my face. Did she know about our past? Or did she notice the way I looked at him. She has nothing to fear it's all one sided. He acts like I am just some pest that he has to deal with because he's with my sister.

Sup I'm Aiden. I'm dating Desiree but I'm secretly in love with her twin sister Destiny. She is who I've always wanted but I was told she was with someone, so I went for Desiree since she actually seemed interested in me. I thought it would be fine that I would forget all about Destiny. Boy was I wrong.

Now I am around the woman I love all the time yet can't be with her. I have to look at her every day and pretend I feel nothing for her. It's the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I can't ever let Desiree know what Destiny and I once shared. I don't want to hurt her. She has been very good to me.

Hey I am Desiree. I have been keeping a huge secret from my fiancé and my twin. See I saw Aiden at a party and wanted him. I knew he had slept with my sister and that he wanted to be with her. Neither of them even knows that I know about that.

He wanted her, and I just couldn't allow that, so I lied and told him that she had a boyfriend that she really loved. That she was even thinking of marrying him. So, he ignored my sister and she was heartbroken. She was shocked when two weeks later he showed up at the house as my new boyfriend.

He asked me out only two weeks of being with her, so she must not have meant that much to him because he got over it pretty fast or, so I had thought. We were happy and so in love everyone thought. My sister now has this super sexy boyfriend and is happy so it all worked out for everyone.

I see the way she looks at Aiden and it really bothers me because he has started to look at her as well. We weren't as happy as we pretended to be. I needed to do something drastic, so I could keep my man. I couldn't lose him. I loved him so much. Don't I deserve my happily ever after?

Hi, I'm Luciano. I'm Destiny's fake boyfriend. Yes, you heard me right we are pretending to be together. We have been best friends for years now, but everyone thinks we are way more than that. What they don't know though is that I am actually gay. Or well so I tell Destiny that I am. I have been with only guys before, but Destiny makes me question my own sexuality.

Destiny is such an amazing person. We are closer then I ever have been with anyone else. Maybe that's why I'm so confused by my feelings for her. I trust her completely. A part of me even thinks I may be in love with her.

She told me all about the man that she loves that broke her heart and is now with her sister. She said that she feels as if she's dying inside every time she sees him with her sister. So, I told her that I would be her fake boyfriend. I lived a town, or away, so no one knew anything about me. They didn't know that I was gay or that what Destiny and I had wasn't real.

Destiny and I kissed and made out a lot in front of others and it turned me on a lot. I am so confused about all of this. I don't know how to tell her how I feel. Would she even want to make this real? Is she still so in love with Aiden that all she can see is him?

These are the secrets and lies that will all be revealed within this story. It's a story about love, pain, sadness, lies, and heartbreak. Will there be a happily ever after once the lies come to light or will everyone just end up broken hearted?

Chapter 1

Destiny's pov

I feel so alone being the third wheel between my twin sister and the man I love that just happens to be her fiancé. I know what your thinking. That I am jealous of my sister, and that I am trying to cause problems. Well you'd be half right I guess. See he was mine first. He took my virginity swore that we would be together then I never heard from him again.

Then all of a sudden, he shows up and is madly in love with my sister. She brags non-stop about their relationship like it' some sort of contest. As if she knows exactly how I feel about him and is trying to hurt me with it. Why would she even do that though.

Luciano is a great fake boyfriend. Sometimes I find myself wishing what we had was real. That we were really together. He's the only person that gets me. He even makes me forget all about Aiden when we are together. He makes me happy even on my darkest of days.

Tonight, we were all going on a double date. I kind of just wanted to stay home and watch a movie with Luciano. Now we have to be all lovey dovey. I'm sure he's getting sick of it. Luciano is gay and is just pretending to be with me. He can't find someone for himself because he is always here for me.

We always kiss and make out when someone else is around. Even when we are alone we cuddle up to each other. Kissing him feels pretty damn good, but I'm sure it's torture for him. He hasn't complained about it not once. He just goes with the flow and always has my back.

I really do need to end this fake thing we have. It's not fair for me to put him through this. He has been great, but I need to let him go. I need to just get over Aiden. I had my chance with him, but he chose my sister over me. He broke my heart so even if he did want to be with me I just couldn't do it. I could never trust him again.

Aiden treated me like I was a sister instead of a girl that let him willingly take her V-card. Guess it meant nothing to him. Then again, a guy like that I'm sure doesn't care about anything. I never act like it bothers me. I didn't want him to know that he still has an effect on me. He will never know how much he once hurt me, or that I am still in love with him.

I heard the doorbell, so I ran downstairs to get the door. I was hoping it was Luciano. I didn't want it to be Aiden. I don't know why he would ring the doorbell though since he was now living here I guess. I really needed to move out, so I didn't have to endure this pain every day.

My sister was off getting her hair done so she wouldn't be home any time soon. I didn't want it to be Aiden because I didn't want to be alone in the house with him. When I got to the door and opened it my heart dropped. Just my luck it was Aiden at the door.

"Hey squirt where's your sister at?"

I hated when he called me that considering I was actually taller than my twin sister. Did I really mean nothing to him? He acts like we never had anything together. As if I just imagined the whole thing between us. He made me so angry. I needed to get away from him.

"She's getting her hair done so she will be here later. Why didn't you just use your key? You know what it doesn't matter. I need to finish getting ready before Luciano gets here so make yourself at home."

"Yea thanks."

I walked up to my room and slammed the door all the way shut and locked it I thought. I wanted to finish getting ready, so I could run down and get Luciano when he got here. I didn't want to leave him alone with Aiden. They didn't get together very well.

I was in the middle of putting on a new shirt when Aiden just walked into my room. He just stood there. He must have liked what he saw because he kept looking me up and down. What the hell was he doing?

"Aiden what the hell are you doing in here?"

"Sorry but I got bored down there all by myself."

"OK that's no excuse for you to be in my room. Can you please get out, so I can finish getting ready?"

"No go ahead it's nothing I haven't seen before."

Was he kidding me? He acts like nothing ever happened between us until now. Does he really think I am going to let him stand there while I get dressed? Does he think that little of me? He was my first and only lover. How dare he treat me like this.

"I have a boyfriend that I love and would never cheat on. I wouldn't screw that up for someone like you. Your engaged to my sister or did you forget that? Now get the hell out and don't ever try this again."

He looked hurt for a second before he recovered. What does he have to be hurt about? He ignores me and treats me like I am some pest. Now he wants to act like this? I just wanted him to go away and leave me alone. I just couldn't deal with this.

"Yea right like he's your boyfriend. Everyone knows that shit is fake. He can't spark passion in you the way I can."

I didn't like where this was going at all. He didn't let me finish putting on my halter top before he pushed me up against my wall and kissed me. I wanted so badly to get lost in his kiss, but I couldn't. I shoved him back and slapped him. He must have gotten the hint because he let me go and walked out of my room. I slammed the door shut and made sure it was locked this time.

I hurried and finished putting on my top then got my skinny jeans on. I put on my boots then grabbed my leather jacket just as the doorbell went off again. I hurried downstairs knowing that this time it would be Luciano. I opened the door thankful to see him there. I didn't even think I just threw myself into his arms.

I grabbed his arm and pulled him up to my room. He looked over saw Aiden and said hi before following me up to my room. I locked the door so that Aiden couldn't just walk in again. I mean it's not like he would with Luciano being here, but you never know. I just wanted to be as far away from his as I could get.

I can't believe Aiden kissed me. I wonder what he meant by everyone thinks my relationship with Luciano is fake. Could they really see the façade we tried so hard to keep up around everyone? Everything was such a game with Aiden. I don't think I ever meant anything to him. I am just someone he thinks he could easily play. Well he was wrong. I wasn't falling for his shit this time.

I told Luciano everything that happened. I know he's not my real boyfriend, but I still feel guilty like I did something wrong. He looked angry. I just hoped it wasn't at me. I felt like everything was falling apart. Aiden just continued to ruin my life. It's as if he got off on breaking me down.

Chapter 2

Aiden's pov

Seeing Destiny every day was torture. I loved her so much, but I know she doesn't feel the same for me. She had a boyfriend that she was madly in love with. She has forgotten all about me and what we once had. Besides I am with her sister now.

I know I screwed up by kissing her, but I needed to feel her lips on mine again. All the same feelings came rushing back. I told her everyone thought that her relationship was fake, but I lied. I guess it was just wishful thinking. You can clearly see that they are very much in love and it hurts so bad.

I treated her like my sister whenever anyone else was around and I hated doing that. I did it, so I wouldn't hurt Desiree. She was good to me and didn't deserve to be treated like that. She doesn't know I was ever with her sister and I never want her to find out. She just thought I once had a crush on her twin.

Desiree was the one to help mend my broken heart. So now here I am planning on marrying the sister I didn't truly love. It was driving me crazy knowing That Destiny was up in her room alone with another man. I hated him so much. If it wasn't for him I would be the one in her bed right now. Now I felt sick thinking about her being in bed with him.

I needed to get out of the house and try to forget all about her. I grabbed my keys and was heading to the door when Desiree walked in. I thought she was at the salon getting her hair done but it looked the same to me. She looked at me and she had this glow about her. She looked really happy. She gave me a kiss then looked around.

"Hey baby I have some amazing news is my sister here, so I can tell everyone at once?"

"Yea she's in her room with Luciano."

"Okay I'll go get them and be right back."

I tried to keep the venom out of my voice when I said his name, so Desiree wouldn't notice. I wondered what her good news could be, and why does she want to share it with everyone. They all came back downstairs, and Desiree came and sat on my lap. She was always clingy when others were around.

Destiny looked over at us then hurried to look away but not before I could see the pain in her eyes. She looked sad. Could she be feeling what I'm feeling? I needed to find out before I made a huge mistake and married her sister.

"Well I'm so glad everyone's here. Like I said I have some amazing news. I went to the doctor today and found out Aiden and I are going to have a baby. Isn't that wonderful news?"

No this couldn't be. How could she be pregnant? We barely ever had sex and always used protection. I looked over at Destiny she had a smile on her face, but I could clearly see the sadness in her eyes. A baby changed everything. There would be no way I could ever leave her now. I could never walk away from my child.

This baby should have been mine and Destiny's. Now I was stuck with Desiree for the rest of my life. There was no way of getting out of marrying her now. I needed to forget all about Destiny and start my future with Desiree like I should have been doing all along. No matter how hard that was going to be.

I should have fought harder for destiny back when I had the chance, but none of that mattered anymore. I was going to be a daddy. I kissed Desiree and pretended to be happy. Destiny gave her sister a hug told me congratulations then left with her boyfriend. I guess they wanted to give Desiree and I some time alone to talk.

I wanted to be with destiny making sure she was all right. I didn't want to sit here alone with Desiree. How did my life get so messed up? I should have ended things with Desiree a long time ago. I stuck with her because she was the only way for me to stay close to the woman I loved. Now everything is so messed up.

"Are you happy baby?"

I was so lost in my own thoughts that I almost didn't hear her say anything. She looked as if she was about to cry. She deserved to be with a man that loved her. Now she would be stuck with me. I didn't want to hurt her. I wish I could love her. I have tried so hard to be with her, but she isn't who I want. Now I was going to marry her and raise this baby with her. I had no other choice.

"Yes of course I'm happy."

"Good. I also have some other news."

"Oh, and what's that?"

"I have to leave tomorrow for an emergency business trip and I may be gone for a few weeks or longer depending on how long it takes me to fix someone else's mistakes."

Desiree was a no-nonsense business woman. Her career was very important to her. She was one of the youngest in her trade. She moved up the business pretty fast. Her career came before anything, so it was no surprise to me that she was leaving the day after she told me she was pregnant.

"Will that be ok in your condition?"

"Of course, I already got the ok from my doctor."

"I'll miss you." I said.

She just turned around and started packing like she couldn't wait to leave. I just wondered why she didn't tell me about this trip before now. I mean I really didn't think she should leave after just finding out she was pregnant. What was going through her mind. Desiree was a hard person to read.

"Don't do anything crazy while I'm gone."

"Of course, I won't I love you."

Hearing that seemed to make her happy finally. She was acting very strange. Maybe her going away wasn't such a bad idea after all. I was looking forward to time apart. Having these last little bits of freedom. Maybe I could spend some time with Destiny. Yes, this could be a very good thing.

I knew once Desiree got back she would push for us to get married right away. If I was ever going to get closure with Destiny it had to be while Desiree was gone. Now that we lived in the same house she couldn't avoid me for very long.

I asked Desiree to wake me up early, so I could give her a ride to the airport. She said I didn't need to trouble myself. Now I knew something was up because normally she would want me to. Maybe she was stressed out. It wasn't like we planned for a baby. I told her to come lay down in bed and let me hold her.

The last thing I wanted was for her to be stressed. I knew that couldn't be good for her or the baby. I had to be the one to assure her. To be strong for the woman that had my child growing inside of her. I didn't want to be the reason she could end up losing our child.