I am a Damaged Goods Without Alpha

I kiss daisy on the head as I put her hair in two pigtails, I wear her one of her faded but better-looking dresses.

"mummy, when do you think I can go to school with the other pups?" she asks looking at me with hopeful eyes.

"soon sweety." I whisper to her giving her a smile. "now you know the drill, don't come out of the room. And if someone opens the door hide and only come out when you're sure it's me." I wipe off invincible lint from her dress. She nods at me in understanding, she is quite smart for a four-year-old. I get up and put my hair in a messy bun before heading out of the room, I turn just before I completely lock the door behind me to blow her a kiss and wave her bye one last time.

"bring something tasty." She says. "I will honey." I reply completely closing the door completely.

I hurry to the kitchen, immediately getting started on breakfast. I try my best to work as fast as possible in brewing coffee, making fresh jugs of fruit juice all the while flipping pancakes and making scrambled eggs. I begin to plate them and set it all on the table, just as the first set of people come in. I sigh. Here we go again!

I hide at the side again and breakfast is filled with lewd and rude comments from the pack members. A couple of name calling and hair pulling and soon they all began to file out of the kitchen. The man from yesterday gives me the stink eye before exiting the kitchen. I take a gulp of air, because I sure as hell need it. I wash the dishes and scrape all the leftovers into another plate. Today's left overs were a lot, enough for daisy and I to eat actually. I hurry up with the food and go back to the basement with it. I open the door but she's not within the sight. "it's me honey, it's okay to come out." I say and she peeks out to make sure it's really me before coming out completely.

I rush to her with the plate of food and the one good glass of juice I could get. Her eyes widen at the amount of food I could swipe for us today, I place it on the bed and we sit and begin to eat. After a couple of more bites of the food I leave the rest for her and she hurriedly finishes it. She gulps down the juice before letting out a huge belch. We both giggle, I place a loving hand on her head and she smiles up at me. She's so tiny and scrawny, I know she looks malnourished and I almost weep for all the times she had to sleep hungry.

"what's wrong mummy?" she says her eyes filled with concern.

"nothing sweety, I'm going back to work now and don't forget to hide."

She nods in understanding and proceeds to hide. I leave her and go about the rest of my chores, cleaning various rooms in the pack house, I do a bit of laundry and proceed to make lunch for the pack. They file in at lunch and eat, little hair pulling and name calling but otherwise it went smoothly. I snuck some food back to daisy before going back to my work.

I finish up the last of the dishes from dinner and pick up the leftovers taking it with me back to the room, when a woman from nowhere suddenly stops me. she eyes the contents in my hand. "what are you doing with that?"

I look down but don't answer her question, she puts a hand under my chin and forcefully raises my face to face her. "answer me when I talk to you."

"I-I-I'm g-g-going to-to eat it." I stammer out.

"so, you're stealing food?" she says anger lacing her tone.

"n-no, I'm n-not st-stealing it."

"are you calling me a liar?" she yells in my face before she hits me across the face.

The food I'm holding nearly drops from my hands as the blow hits me but I hold it tightly. She hurriedly knocks on a closed door and the person inside opens up immediately. "what Karen?" the man yells. She rolls her eyes before responding to him. "I just caught the freak stealing food from the kitchen" she says.

The man looks tired and in no mood to deal with her or me right now. "just report her to the alpha or you get someone else to punish her as well." He says shutting his door in her face. I hope to the moon goddess she doesn't take me to the alpha's office, I can't let daisy sleep hungry again. "p-please just let me take this one, I won't do it again." I say tears welling up in my eyes. I hope she's one of the kinder ones and actually lets me go with the food.

"let you go? You're not only a cheap slut, you're also a thief and you want me to let you go just like that? No way!" she says forcefully taking the food from my hand and throwing it on the floor, she then proceeds to kick my stomach and I fall on my knees. Tears stream down my face but I don't cry out, I don't want to draw attention so others like her won't join in. she suddenly grabs my hair painfully and I'm sure my face contorts in pain. "you're proving tough aren't you, you little slut."

I shake my head no and she drags me by hair up the stairs, my body continuously hits the stairs as she drags me up to the alpha's office. Please don't let him be in there! Please don't let him be in there, I pray fervently. We get there and she knocks, she doesn't wait for him to say anything she states her mission immediately.

"alpha! I caught a thief!" she yells.

The door opens and all the fight is drained from me.

The door opens and I immediately fixate my eyes on the floor, I hear the sound of heels walking towards me and I groan in my head in double frustration. Great! Just great! I get the dynamic duo of doom for dinner!

"well, well, well, if it isn't the pack slut." Penelope says. She's the alpha's chosen mate. Chosen as in he picked her for himself and rejected the one the moon goddess gave him which is me. I don't say anything or look up. She kneels in front of me and grabs my face forcefully just as the other woman did earlier. There's hate and venom and all things wrong in her eyes. I try to avoid her gaze and decide to the woman who brought me here instead. There's a satisfied smirk on her face, she must be feeling really pleased with herself. What better way to feel shitty about your life than to make someone else feel shittier than you feel?

"Luna!" The woman greets. "I caught her stealing food from the kitchen."

"oh really? Was she now?" she says sarcastically.

"t-they we-were le-left overs." I say trying to defend myself and get out of this sticky situation even though I very well know it never ends well for me either way.

Penelope gasps and looks at the woman. "did you hear that? They were just leftovers." She says turning to look back at me. the woman shakes her head in mock sympathy for me.

"now if you eat all the leftovers, what will the racoons eat?" she says.

I look down not saying anything. "don't you know were supposed to save all life, how can we do that when you eat what's meant for them." She still says with mock sympathy on her face.

I still say nothing to that and she slaps me across the face again. I feel a stinging pain first before it just becomes numb. I've gotten slapped more times than I can count that it doesn't really hurt anymore, it just stings and then the pain stops.

"I wonder if you'll talk when I let the alpha know what's going on?"

I immediately look up at her and shake my head no my eyes wide in fear. "what do you think?" she asks looking at the woman who brought me here. "should we inform the alpha?" Penelope asks. This was torture and she knew it.

"I think you should Luna." The woman says nodding her head vigorously in the affirmative.

"good answer candy." Penelope says standing up and walking back to the office. "actually, it's Karen." The woman that brought me says after her. I almost laugh at that, I would if I wasn't about to get beaten to a pulp. You do all this for attention and they don't even care enough to get your name correctly. I hear the thundering steps of alpha Kayden; his boot clad feet stop directly in front of me while Penelope stands behind him.

"I thought I instructed you to always be out of sight?" he bellowed out. I don't respond and simply look down awaiting my fate. I hear him pull out his belt and there's a moment of silence. I see some pack warriors rush upstairs to where the current scene was about to unfold.

"take her to the dungeon and tie this ungrateful bitch up. I want her hanging." He says with so much anger you would think I was a rogue. "yes alpha." The pack warriors say at the same time. They both dive in and take me by my arms dragging me to the dungeon. I say nothing, I don't yell, I don't scream. What good is any of that going to do anyway? It's simply going to make him angrier and he'll lash out more at me.

We get to the dungeon and they chain my hands with silver so I was dangling and I'm trying to keep my weight balanced. The searing pain from the silver becomes unbearable and I scream thrashing around trying to break free. I'm in so much pain that I don't even hear the alpha and Penelope come in. his belt on my body makes me scream louder.

"shut up! You're disturbing the rats." Penelope says with anger. Alpha strikes me with his belt a couple more times and I scream every time it makes contact with my skin; my body hasn't completely healed from last nights lashes. He suddenly stops. "can I take over?" Penelope asks making lovey dovely eyes at him. He says nothing but simply hands her the belt. She takes it from him and tests out her strike on the wall before she suddenly lashes out at me. I bite down on my lip so as not to scream; she strikes me again but this time harder than before. I can't hold my scream in anymore and scream as she hits me. I can feel blood trailing down my body and she strikes again but this time it lands on my face. I feel blood trail down the side of my cheek at that.

"enough!" alpha says. I'm breathing heavily as I dangle right to left, back to front on the chain. "why do you always go easy on her? Do you still love her?" Penelope suddenly turns angrily to him.

He rolls his eyes at her," if I did, I wouldn't pick you as my Luna."

"then why haven't you gotten rid of her?"

"soon enough, when she stops being of use, we'll dispose of her. The little runt in her care is not old enough to do the things she does, once she's of age we'll get rid of this bitch here."

"you're right, we do need someone to make breakfast and other things. I hate to admit it but her food actually tastes pretty great."

"now can we go." He says his voice turning seductive.

"why don't we do it here, in front of her."

"anything you want my Luna." He says.

I close my eyes and try to block my ears to the sound of them going at it right in front of me. he absolutely has no care about how it affects me, he doesn't hear the sound of my heart breaking with each moan and groan from them. Just kill me already.

Its been days since the incident with the food. It was another time of me wishing the moon goddess would just take me and end it all for me. I was left in the dungeon till the next morning where I was released to go make breakfast, my eyes and lips were swollen shut. When I got back to the basement and daisy saw me, she cried. She cried so hard I'm sure she had a headache. I can remember her begging me. "mummy, lets just leave this place, they don't want us here." She cried hugging me.

I sighed in defeat as I finished stirring dinner, I covered it to allow it simmer. Alpha Kayden plans to kill me when he no longer has any use of me. I don't have a problem with that but the problem I have is what he plans to do with daisy. I can't protect daisy if I'm dead! I've tried my best to shield her from the horrors of this pack. Even if it meant dying to ensure she never feels the way I've felt everyday for the past seven years, then I'm willing to do that. I would make sure I get us out of this pack alive, mostly her. My eyes were still swollen but they weren't completely shut. My body was littered in ugly bruises. I was ugly and despicable.

I looked round and there was no one in the kitchen or around it, I immediately reach inside my bra and pull out the bottle I swiped from the room of one of the guards. I look around me again and dump all of the contents of the bottle inside the pot cooking on the stove. I stir it once again and set the dining while it all boils together. I grab a bottle a couple of smoothies that I made earlier mixed with my secret recipe and head to the rooms of one of the guards. I knock and wait for a response.

"who's there?" he asks on the other side.

"I-its m-me." I stutter out. There's silence on the other end for a while before I hear shuffling feet and the door opens. He looks down at me a frown on his face as he stares at me. I picked him because it seems he fancies me or my body whichever one it is. I smile shyly at him and then look down.

"what do you want Francesca?" he asks calling my name. I look up at him in shock, members of the pack never call me by name. its usually 'freak', 'slut', 'bitch' and other wonderful vocabulary.

"i-i- wanted to give you these." I say stretching the contents of my hand to him.

"why?" he asked looking at me surprised at the gesture.

"i-i- just th-think you a-and the ot-other guards a-are working r-really hard and d-deserve to enjoy something. I made it myself." I say looking down and shifting my feet uncomfortably.

He takes them from my hand but his fingers linger on mine and I pull them away suddenly.

"thank you, Francesca." He says with a huge smile. I almost feel bad for doing this, but I have to do what I have to do. I smile back at him though.

"when I come back from patrolling the western border tomorrow, can we talk?" he asks me.

I nod my head yes shyly. That's if ill be here or anywhere close to this territory.

He nods his head as well with a huge grin on his face, then he greets me bye and goes back in. so far everything is going according to plan, I hope nothing spoils it. I go back to the kitchen, I put off the stove and stir its contents. I serve it up and keep two special plates for alpha Kayden and Penelope aside. The pack members gobble their food, some of them pick on me as usual. But I don't feel bothered because this is the last time they're going to see, the last time they're going to treat me this way. Some of them don't get to finish their food before they start to yawn and feel sleepy, some leave their half-eaten meals and go up to their rooms to sleep. Thanks to the moon goddess for being on my side for once.

Some of them sleep off on the dining. Ugh! I can't have that, there's a possibility that alpha Kayden or one of the guards would walk in and it'll be awfully suspicious if a good number of the pack members were asleep on the dining. I use all my strength to lift them one after the other to their rooms. I'm not sure if I get the rooms correctly, but that would be their headache when they wake up in the morning.

I sigh in exhaustion when I carry the last person to their room and step out of it. I wipe the sweat from my brows and quickly proceed to pick up the plates I set aside for alpha Kayden and his beloved Luna. I walk up to his office and knock on his door. I hear kissing sounds from the other side of the door, I try not to let it bother me.

"who's there?"

"I-I-it's me."

There was silence and then I heard a gruff. "come in." I push the door open and step in with the tray of food I even added a bottle of their favorite wine. "what do you want?" Penelope asked looking real comfortable on his lap. "I-I-I brought y-you d-dinner." I say looking down.

I see alpha Kayden motion for me to come with his hand, I move closer to them and set the plate of food and wine on his table. I pick up the tray and stand in the shadows. "you can leave." Penelope said with a wave of her hand.

"I-I w-want t-to c-clear up the plates when you're done." I reply refusing to move.

"why don't we give her a show, while she's here honey." Penelope says with excitement. I'm guessing he nods but he doesn't verbally respond. They eat and make out while I stand there, their movements become a little sloppy. I still wait for them to get dizzier and just before they both completely succumb to the darkness; I move closer to alpha Kayden.

"I Francesca Chadowsky accept your rejection of me as your mate and Luna. From this day henceforth you alpha Kayden Andrew seize to be my mate and alpha."

It was all sealed with a searing pain on my neck.