His Sweetest Addiction

I never knew that I still had hidden feelings for him if I hadn't seen him yesterday before this tragic thing happened to me.

I am in a place where only the humming sounds of birds can be heard outside throughout this location. A huge space with only the rays of the moon can illuminate this dark room that comes from a small hole in the roof.

Sitting here in the corner, tightly tied to this chair with this piece of clothing covered over my mouth to prevent me from making noise.

I was trying to remove the leash from my hand, but my strength was not enough for me to escape.

My eyes grew wide open when somebody interrupted my struggle - my adrenaline rush when a masculine man standing right in front of me. I looked up to see who it was but only a glimpse of his deep brown eyes illuminated by the light.

How did he end up in front of me without even me noticing that he was coming?

And suddenly I felt a warm heavy breath in the crook of my neck saying, "Attempting to escape honey?" He said in a sexy husky voice. "You can't do that 'cause you're all mine again." Just mine!" He emphasized the word mine as if he hadn't done anything bad to me yet his sexy voice seemed to fill my lost energy and I wanted him to utter more words 'cause it could easily be caught me in an instant.

But a little embarrassment took over me and I came back to my lost sanity when he spoke again. "No one would dare to steal you from me, if somebody would do that he would be living a hell in a lifetime." He grumbled.

I couldn't even speak one word because of what he was saying but instead, I narrowed my brow because of confusion.

Instantly, the entire space was filled with lights and a mischievous grin greeted me so well that plastered on his face and everything came back in one blink. Letting the darkness consume me once more.

It's him Liam Archer - my heartless ex-boyfriend who left a dark scar in my past.

Note: Play the Song, (Little Do You Know by Alex And Sierra) when you read this chapter.

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Samantha's POV

"Let's break up." Firm yet hurtful words came out of his mouth. A blank expression was written on his face.

I stared at him intently straight into his deep brown eyes which incredibly showed disinterest when his gaze met mine.

I hold back my tears but I know that my heart is slowly breaking. My whole being shattered because of his stupid words uttered by his f*cking mouth.

I do hate cursing but this guy deserves it.

"Are you out of your mind?" I stated, my voice now deep as I glared at him.

His eyes widened as if he was shocked by what I said, " I fell out of love, I think you deserved someone who could love you more than I do."

A sudden pang in my chest that I couldn't even feel before.

It's painful, right?

He said those words easily as if no one would be hurt. Standing here like I was the most pitiful person he had ever seen.

He completely changed. He is now a cold and indifferent person standing in front of me.

There was me slowly showing my weakest side to this man. Does he need to see me like this? My heart was breaking into pieces as tears were already crashing down my face. I was hurt and fragile. I couldn't help but cry in front of him. He saw how my eyes became gloomy, and that was the most painful part when he saw that I was hurt, but he didn't care.

After he witnessed how fragile I was and said those words, he walked instantly as my heart drowned in tears. He seemed so unbothered by what he said, he didn't care about what he said as if he didn't love me. He just simply broke up with me and left me in tears.

"What did I do to you to hurt me like this?!" I couldn't hold back my emotion anymore and it made me shout at him at the top of my lungs so he could hear every word I proclaimed.

"Nothing, just go home so you can rest." He said without even looking at me.

"Huh! Are you even concerned about me after all the heartbreaks you gave me this night?" I exclaimed.

He even kept stepping away without even glancing at me for just one more time.

I was dumbfounded, hurt, and had nothing to do with his stupid decision. I was left unanswered. I just watched him disappear from my sight, waiting for him might say that those words he said were just a prank or what, but he just took more and more steps to get away from me.

Many questions keep running through my head, and my brain will explode at any time. Like what did I do to him? All I know we were okay all this time, yes we had fights but it was fixed right away.

But why did it end up like this without any valid reasons? He fell out of love, why? Am I not good enough? Did he cheat or did he commit a sin that I don't even know? I asked those questions to myself while whimpering as if I found an exact answer to it.

His words held a sword that pierced my heart instantly. I cried so much like it was the end of everything. After sobbing for a couple of minutes, I took a deep breath and started to make a single step.

As I take a few steps, the cold breeze caresses gently on my skin. I paused to make myself calm even just for a moment, attempting to feel the void of emotion then I looked up, and I saw how the sky got dark. It seemed to understand how hurt I was.

I left that place where I carried so much pain and suddenly the rain poured out; it synchronized my tears, and no matter what I did, my chest ached in pain.

I knelt on the sidewalk, with this broken heart of mine, while the rain poured on its climax. It's like all the rain is on me, focusing on me. The rain meets me well. It bleeds inside, and it seems I ran out of breath.

It made my heart tear up. The inside of me was already broken, and it felt like it would be torn apart into a million pieces. He didn't care about my feelings anymore; he just ignored them and left me in the middle of nowhere.

I snapped back to reality when someone tapped my shoulder from the back. I fixed myself and got up with my blurry sight, I slowly turned around my head to see who it was.

An elegant man wearing a raincoat standing in front of me, half of his face covered with the cap on his head. Then a sudden glim of light arced on his lips, those cupid bow lips have seemed so familiar to me.

"Here, take this." He said while handing me an umbrella. "Next time please don't forget to bring an umbrella the weather is too bad for your fragile heart, you hard-headed ." He added while laughing secretly.

"And who are you to call me hard-headed? And besides who the f*ck are you?" I said with a little irritation that was barely visible on my face.

"You will know too soon." He said.

"Hmm, a concerned person coming out from nowhere handed me an umbrella, that sounds suspicious huh, maybe you have planned something bad for me?" I furrowed my eyebrow together with these puffy eyes of mine.

"I don't have any bad intentions for you and besides, I'll be going now, the rain seems to stop within this hour," He said in a cold tone voice while turning his back from me.

He took one step and stopped. "I don't want to see hurt, it hurts me more when I see you cry. And please don't you ever beg him to come, if he is true to you, he won't make any excuses to break you" He added with full sincerity in his manly voice.

I was shocked by what he said he didn't want me to hurt why? Besides, I don't even know him in the first place.

But I just ignored it immediately 'cause I didn't want to think about anything that related to this man. I just directly replied to him with a little smirk on my face.

"Yeah you're right, I'll make him regret his decision to let me go. It's his loss for breaking up with me, not mine." I said with a bitter smile on my face.

"Wait am I discussing the happenings of my life to a stranger?" I spoke while crossing my arms.

"You still haven't changed, Sam," He said while waving his bare hand as a sign of goodbye and that made me stiff on my stand and shocked causing my eyes wide open when he called me by my name.

He left me wondering-

Why the hell does he know me...

The sun rising as the sky gets bright allows light to pass through the curtain. Still on my bed, thinking how did it go wrong when our love was perfectly fine.

I poured out all the pain inside my room. Thinking about what happened yesterday. I could feel nothing but the emptiness in my heart. I don't have any idea why he did this to me.

I can say that our relationship has been good for the past five years that we've been together. What I have done wrong?

I gave everything but still not enough.

I wiped my tears that kept on falling. I feel like I'm losing myself. I don't know where to start. I feel like everything has fallen on me.

I rose to get some food in my refrigerator, I needed to divert my attention to other things, I needed to focus on myself from now on. That guy who made me like this will regret it soon.

"Ugghh..." I yearn as I taste the creamy and cheesy giant burger and savor the deliciousness in my mouth. This yummy burger can alter my love problem and I deserve to taste this as I forget all the bad things that happened to me at the moment.

I stood up and went straight out to on the radio but damn the song greeted me so well that would make me cry even more.

It's you, it's always you.

If I'm ever gonna fall in love I know it's gonna be you.

It's you, it's always you.

Met a lot of people, but nobody feels like you.

So, please, don't break my heart.

Don't tear me apart.

I know how it starts.

Trust me: I've been broken before.

Don't break me again.

I am delicate.

Please, don't break my heart.

Trust me, I've been broken before.

The abundant tears started to rush into the corner of my eye. Every lyric seems to crash inside of me.

I decided to turn it off before I burst into tears.

I just made my way back into the kitchen and started eating again. With every bite, I felt like I was pouring out the pain and hatred.

After I ate, I went into the bathroom and took a shower, letting the water flow into my body. And another tears welled upon my face. I can stop myself from crying.

It took an hour before I got dressed. I slowly lay down on my comfy bed, thinking about what happened recently causing me to burst into tears again.

As I continued crying, I suddenly heard a voice.

"Thanks to holy God, I thought you were drunk."

I raised my head to see the girl who owned that beautiful voice, it was Cheska my best friend. She stood up all five feet three inches, with a look of mercy on her pretty face. She placed her phone on the table pulled out a chair and sat.

"Why didn't you knock on the door?" I look at her coldly straight in the eye.

She just ignored what I said and asked some questions about me.

"How are you, Samantha?" She asked while pointing out my heart while watching me sobbing.

"I love him even more Cheska," I replied

"Stop crying Sam, come here," She hugged me tightly and tapped my back gently. "Hush, everything will be alright Sam," She comforted me.

"The pain that you have been feeling right now will have vanished soon." She said calmly.

"Am I not enough? What I have done wrong to our relationship?" I said while my voice cracked in pain. The tears gradually dripped down my face.

"You have done nothing wrong, Sam," She said

"Then why he left me?" I asked hoarsely

"Maybe there is someone better than him," She said in a low tone voice.

I sighed and nodded at what she said.

After our short conversation, she took me into the living room. She started to clean up my house and I just stared at her all day without any expression on my face. Cheska knows me very well that I didn't want to do something if there is undesirable happened to me. I can just count on my fingers how many times I blink. I was stunned all day remembering those happy moments that we had.

Cheska said something but I didn't pay attention to it. I just realized that she was already right in front of me, tapping my shoulder.

"Sam, I'll be leaving. If you need something please don't hesitate to approach me." She said in a calm voice.

He left quietly before she slowly slammed the door.

I was left alone, wondering how could I stop myself from crying. Silence prevailed in every corner of this room which made me even more miserable.

I was thinking. What if I will burn out all our photos until it will become ashes?

Will the pain I feel will be vanish?

Instead of thinking that way, I made my way into the kitchen and took some alcoholic drinks.

I took a glass and poured some alcohol on it. I gulped it directly into my mouth as if I was very thirsty. I don't care about myself anymore. The man that I love the most already left me hanging.

Then I poured another shot of drinks into a glass then I immediately drank it. Another one more shot until I feel dizzy.

I look at the ceiling while lying on the cold floor. All I can see is the face of him. How can I remove this pain I feel throughout my system? Do I deserve this kind of pain?

As I closed my eyes tightly, my breathing was considerably heavy. I promised myself that this would be the last tears. There are no more tears to fall over the same things.

I leaned my back against the wall, pressing my arms, because I started to feel numb all over my body.

Maybe tomorrow there will be no more tears that kept on falling. The last thing I knew was that I was letting myself sleep while carrying the heaviness inside of me.