For five years, my husband, Courtland Johnson, had me locked in a rehabilitation center, telling the world I was a murderer who had killed my own stepsister.
On the day of my release, he was waiting. The first thing he did was swerve his car directly at me, trying to run me down before I even left the curb.
My punishment, it turned out, was only just beginning. Back at the mansion I once called home, he locked me in a dog kennel. He forced me to kowtow to my "dead" sister's portrait until my head bled onto the marble floor. He made me drink a potion to ensure my "tainted bloodline" would end with me.
He even tried to give me to a lecherous business partner for the night, a "lesson" for my defiance.
But the cruelest truth was yet to come. My stepsister, Kinsley, was alive. My five years of hell were all part of her sick game. And when my little brother Aspen, my only reason for living, witnessed my humiliation, she had him thrown down a flight of stone steps.
My husband watched him die and did nothing.
Dying from my injuries and a broken heart, I threw myself from a hospital window, my last thought a vow of revenge.
I opened my eyes again. I was back on the day of my release. The warden's voice was flat. "Your husband has arranged it. He's waiting."
This time, I would be the one waiting. To drag him, and everyone who wronged me, straight to hell.
Chapter 1
The rehabilitation center was a sterile white box on the edge of New York City, a place designed to erase people. For five years, it had been my world. The walls were bare, the air smelled of disinfectant and despair, and my only view was a sliver of gray sky.
I looked down at my reflection in the polished floor. A gaunt face stared back, with hollow eyes and pale skin. The clothes I wore, a loose-fitting uniform, hung on my bony frame. They were a constant reminder that I was no longer Anastasia Quinn, the celebrated darling of New York's elite. I was a number, a patient, a murderer.
Five years ago, my husband, Courtland Johnson, had me committed. He did it after I was accused of killing my stepsister, Kinsley Alexander. He told the world it was an act of mercy, a chance for his broken wife to atone for her terrible crime.
I kneeled, my bare knees pressing into the cold, hard floor. It was a familiar pain. In front of me was a framed photograph of Kinsley, smiling. This was my daily ritual, my forced penance. I had to kneel before her for two hours every morning and two hours every night.
One thousand eight hundred and twenty-five days. I had counted each one.
A sharp rap on the door broke the silence. The warden entered, her face impassive.
"Get up, Quinn. You're being released."
My head snapped up. Release? The word felt foreign, impossible.
"Your husband has arranged it. He's waiting."
Five years. Five years in this living hell, orchestrated by the man who was supposed to love me. The man everyone saw as a devout, compassionate saint for not divorcing the woman who murdered his beloved sister-in-law. They didn't see the truth. They didn't know Courtland.
He wasn't a saint. He was the devil who had meticulously crafted my purgatory.
I walked out of the center, blinking against the unfamiliar sun. I expected to see a friendly face, a family member, anyone. But the curb was empty. My friends had abandoned me. My family had disowned me. I was utterly alone.
The warden handed me a small box. "Mr. Johnson's instructions. He said you are to continue your penance at home. This must be with you at all times."
Inside was the same framed photograph of Kinsley. A cold dread washed over me. The prison was changing, but the sentence remained the same.
A black car pulled up. The Johnson family driver, a man who used to greet me with a warm smile, now looked at me with open contempt as he held the door. The ride back to the mansion I once called home was silent. The house was just as I remembered it, opulent and cold. But now, I was not its mistress. I was its prisoner.
The maids and butler lined up, their whispers like the hissing of snakes. They looked at me not with pity, but with scorn.
"She's finally out."
"Look at her. She looks like a ghost."
"The master is too kind. A woman like that should have rotted in jail."
I ignored them, my mind clinging to a single thread of hope. A promise I made to my dying grandmother years ago.
"Ana," she had whispered, her hand frail in mine, "no matter what happens, you must protect your brother. Aspen is all you have left."
Aspen. My little brother. He was the only reason I had endured the last five years. He was my only reason to keep living now.
I clutched the photograph to my chest and walked toward the grand staircase, my steps unsteady. I had to see him.
Suddenly, the screech of tires echoed from the driveway behind me. I turned just in time to see a silver sports car swerve directly toward me, its engine roaring. I froze, my body refusing to move. It was going to hit me.
At the last second, I threw myself to the side, tumbling onto the manicured lawn. The car screeched to a halt inches from where I had been standing. My knees were scraped raw, and my heart hammered against my ribs. I instinctively checked the photograph in my hands. The glass wasn't cracked. The thought sent a chill down my spine-my first instinct was to protect the symbol of my torment.
The car door opened.
Courtland Johnson stepped out, his tall frame clad in a perfectly tailored suit. He looked the same as he did five years ago: impossibly handsome, with an air of cold piety that captivated everyone he met. His eyes, the color of a winter sky, found mine. There was no concern in them, no shock. Only a flat, chilling indifference.
It was him. He had tried to run me over.
My breath hitched. The fear I had lived with for five years coiled in my stomach, suffocating me. This man was not just my tormentor; he was the great love of my life.
I remembered the girl I used to be-vibrant, a little wild, chasing after the elusive and cold Courtland Johnson. I had changed everything about myself for him. I softened my edges, learned his quiet hobbies, molded myself into the perfect, demure wife he seemed to want.
For a short time, I thought I had succeeded. Our wedding day was the happiest of my life. I had finally won the heart of the man I adored.
Then Kinsley died, and my world shattered.
Now, standing before him, bruised and trembling, I was that girl no more.
I scrambled to my feet, my voice a raw whisper. "Courtland... I need to see Aspen."
He walked toward me, his gaze sweeping over my disheveled form with disgust. He stopped right in front of me, so close I could feel the cold radiating from him.
"You are in no position to make demands, Anastasia." His voice was low and smooth, the same voice that had once whispered words of love.
"Please," I begged, the single word tearing from my throat. "Just for a minute."
He didn't answer. Instead, he made a small, sharp gesture to the two large bodyguards who had emerged from the house.
"It seems five years of reflection haven't taught you humility," he said, his voice devoid of any emotion. "Your punishment is not over. It has only just begun."
The guards seized my arms. Their grip was like iron.
"Take her to the kennel," Courtland commanded, turning his back on me as if I were nothing more than a piece of trash to be disposed of.
The kennel. He was going to lock me in a dog cage.
Panic clawed at my throat. "No! Courtland, no! Please!"
They dragged me away, my pleas echoing unanswered in the vast, empty courtyard.
My knees scraped against the gravel as the guards dragged me across the courtyard. The rough stones tore at my skin, but the pain was nothing compared to the crushing weight of humiliation. I was being pulled like an animal toward the large, wrought-iron dog kennel at the far end of the garden. It was home to Courtland's prized Dobermans.
"No, please, don't do this," I whimpered, my voice cracking.
The household staff had gathered to watch, their faces a mixture of morbid curiosity and cruel satisfaction. Some of them held up their phones, the small black lenses capturing my degradation. The sound of their snickering was a physical blow.
"Look at the 'murderer.' She's getting what she deserves."
"She belongs in a cage."
The guards threw me inside the kennel and slammed the heavy door shut. The metal latch clicked into place with a sound of finality. The Dobermans, agitated by the commotion, began to bark, their deep, menacing growls filling the small space. I scrambled to the back of the cage, pressing myself against the cold bars.
"Please, let me out!" I cried, my voice lost in the cacophony of barking.
Courtland stood outside the kennel, watching me with those same empty eyes. He was a statue of righteous judgment, unmoved by my terror.
I clutched at my chest, my fingers searching for something, anything, to hold onto. They found a small, smooth object in the pocket of the cheap uniform I wore. A lapis lazuli bead, a gift from my grandmother. "For protection," she had said. It was the only thing from my past life I had managed to keep.
The smooth stone was cool against my skin, a small point of reality in this nightmare. My mind flashed back to the years I had spent trying to earn Courtland's love. I thought I could melt his icy exterior with my warmth. I had been so naive. All my efforts, all my love, had been for nothing. It had all led to this: a cage.
My pride, once the talk of New York society, was now a forgotten relic. He had systematically stripped it from me, piece by piece, until nothing was left. The physical pain, the constant fear, the public shame-it all blurred together into a wave of despair that finally pulled me under. The world tilted, the barking faded, and everything went black.
I woke to a sharp, stinging pain on my cheek. Courtland's mother, Eleanor Johnson, stood over me, her face contorted in a mask of pure hatred. I was no longer in the kennel, but on the cold marble floor of Kinsley's memorial room.
"You worthless creature," she spat, her voice dripping with venom. "You faint from a little time in a cage? Kinsley is dead because of you. Dead!"
She pointed to the enormous portrait of Kinsley that hung over the mantelpiece. "Courtland wants you to kowtow. One hundred times. To beg for Kinsley's forgiveness."
My body was a dead weight. I couldn't move. One of the maids grabbed my hair and forced my head down, slamming my forehead against the hard floor. Once. Twice.
"I'm sorry," I whispered, the words mechanical, meaningless.
"Louder!" Eleanor shrieked. "Does that sound like you're sorry?"
Again, they forced my head down. A warm trickle of blood ran down my temple. I repeated the words, my voice a hollow echo in the silent room. "I'm sorry, Kinsley. I'm so sorry."
The memory of that night five years ago played in my mind on a loop. Kinsley, falling. The shock on her face. And then Courtland, finding me beside her body, his face breaking not with grief, but with a terrible, cold rage. "You will pay for this, Anastasia," he had vowed. "For the rest of your life, you will live in hell to atone for what you've done."
He had kept his promise.
I slammed my head against the floor again. And again. The pain was a distant thrumming. I counted each one, a litany of my suffering. Ninety-eight. Ninety-nine. One hundred.
I finished, my forehead bleeding freely onto the pristine white rug. I was dizzy and nauseous, but a single thought pushed through the fog. Aspen.
I looked up at Courtland, who had been watching silently from the doorway. "I've done what you asked," I rasped. "Now, please, let me see Aspen."
A flicker of something-was it pity?-crossed his face, but it was gone as quickly as it appeared. He walked over to a small table and picked up a vial filled with a dark liquid.
"You want to see your brother?" he asked, his voice deceptively soft.
I nodded, hope warring with terror in my chest.
He held out the vial. "Drink this. Drink this, and I will let you see him."
I stared at the vial, then at his unreadable face. "What is it?"
"A medicine," he said smoothly. "To ensure a murderer like you can never bear children. To ensure your tainted bloodline ends with you."
My blood ran cold. He wanted to make me infertile. He wanted to take away the one thing a woman holds sacred, the possibility of a future, of a family of her own. All for a crime I didn't commit.
I looked from the vial to his cold, determined eyes. It was a choice between my future and my brother.
There was no choice at all.
For Aspen, I would do anything.
With a trembling hand, I took the vial. I brought it to my lips and drank every last drop.
The liquid burned a fiery trail down my throat, settling like a hot coal in my stomach. The heat of the summer day outside felt like a cruel joke compared to the inferno raging inside me. This was Courtland's final solution. He wouldn't just punish my present; he would erase my future. The kind, devout man the world saw was a monster, and my love for him had been the architect of my own destruction.
But I had to live. For Aspen. The memory of my grandmother's dying wish was a mantra in the chaos of my pain. I had to protect him.
My knees buckled. A wave of agonizing cramps seized my abdomen, so intense it stole my breath. I bit down on my lip to keep from screaming, tasting the coppery tang of blood. The pain was a living thing, twisting and tearing at me from the inside.
I collapsed onto the floor, curling into a ball. A violent cough wracked my body, and I spat a mouthful of blood onto the white marble.
Across the room, Courtland flinched. For a fleeting moment, a flicker of something-unease, perhaps-crossed his perfect features. It was the first crack I had seen in his icy facade in five years.
"Get a doctor," he snapped at a nearby maid, his voice tight.
"No," I gasped, forcing the word out through the pain. "No doctor. Aspen. You promised."
He stared at me, his face a mask of cold fury once more. He turned on his heel and walked out of the room, leaving me writhing on the floor in a pool of my own blood.
The hours that followed were a blur of excruciating pain. A doctor came, a stomach pump was used, and the world faded in and out in waves of agony and unconsciousness. I woke up not in a hospital, but in a small, damp room in the servants' quarters. It was a cell.
My body was a symphony of aches. I felt hollowed out, a fragile shell that could shatter at any moment.
The door flew open with a bang, making me jump. A maid I didn't recognize stood there, her face a sneer of contempt. She threw a bundle of fabric at me. It landed on the thin blanket covering my legs.
It was a dress. A ridiculously short, flimsy piece of black lace that looked like it belonged in a strip club. The fabric was cheap and scratchy against my fingers.
"The master's orders," the maid said, her voice laced with mockery. "You are to wear this tonight."
"No," I whispered, my voice hoarse. I pushed the dress away as if it were a venomous snake.
The maid's sneer widened. She strode forward and slapped me hard across the face. "You don't have a choice." She ripped the blanket off me and, with the help of another servant, forced my protesting limbs into the humiliating garment. "Mr. Johnson is entertaining a guest. He wants you to serve them."
They dragged me out of the room, my body trembling uncontrollably. In the polished surface of a hallway mirror, I caught a glimpse of myself. I was a scarecrow dressed in a prostitute's rags, my face pale and bruised, my eyes wide with terror. It was hard to breathe.
They pushed me into the private dining room. The table was set for three, with crystal glasses and gleaming silverware. Courtland sat at the head of the table, looking as serene and untouchable as a god. He didn't even glance at me.
He was going to parade me in front of someone like this. He was going to sell my last shred of dignity for his own sick satisfaction.
A large, greasy-looking man in his fifties sat opposite Courtland. His eyes roamed over my body, a lecherous grin spreading across his face.
"So, this is the little treat you promised me, Courtland," the man boomed, licking his lips. "She's a feisty one, I hear."
Courtland finally looked at me, his eyes cold. "Mr. Harrison, Anastasia is here to ensure you have a pleasant evening."
He was giving me to this pig. As punishment.
My mind went blank with horror. I stumbled backward, trying to flee, but the maids held me fast.
"Courtland, no," I begged, tears streaming down my face. "Please, don't do this to me."
Mr. Harrison laughed, a horrible, wet sound. He got up and lumbered toward me. "Don't worry, darling. Your husband just wants me to teach you a lesson. He told me to be thorough."
He reached for me, his fat fingers grabbing my arm. The world spun, and my last conscious thought was a scream that never left my lips.