Her secret, her truth

Chapter one:

Her pain

There were sounds of running water from the bathroom.

Kamara sat up from the bed with so much guilt, hatred and pain.

She picked up her dresses on the ground and put them on one after the other.

He came out after taking a shower, in silence he wiped his body with his towel and sat down casually on his bed, with his horrified face, he gave a mocking laugh.There was a streak of cruelty in his eyes.

" You can never be with him," he exclaimed.

Chill poured into her heart, She froze.

"No.. please, no." She shook her head madly, yet could not cry out loud as tears softly dropped on her dress.

Kamara turned her head and stared at the old man with her dark eyes.

He was wrapped in a bath towel, revealing his old folded ugly chest.

" Oh." Kamara suppressed the pain in her chest and tried to make herself seem natural. She managed to get up with her face covered in shame and guilt.

" Please let us be," she said as she cried with her face down.

He looked at her in distaste.

" You are a whore."

After forcing himself on her he went on accusing her of being a whore?

Kamara wiped her tears lying to herself, "This can't be true. It is a lie." she said.

He walked out and slammed the door, leaving her in the room.

She wiped her tears.

Kamara made her way out, on arrival at her house she felt so much pain and all that could come to her head was to give up in life.

" I certainly would fight to be with the man I love." she screamed out loud.

She changed her clothes and took the bus to the hospital..

As soon as kamara entered her department, she overheard her colleagues talking about Dr. Jason son's engagement.

" Kamara, do you know that Dr. Jason's son is getting engaged?" He is such a handsome man who studied engineering in France!" Dr. Mary said.

One of Kamara' s colleagues took out her phone enthusiastically, searching for the photos of Dr . Jason's son as it was earlier uploaded in their group chat, and showed them to kamara.

" This is him, is he not handsome?"

Kamara put on a fake smile.

" I don't know him." she replied.

" Oh yeah, he is very handsome." She added.

Kamara averted her gaze and smiled.

She suppressed the ache in her chest and looked away.

" I forgot that you are a loner who doesn't pay attention to outside matters." One of them said to her.

Her colleagues kept talking.

Kamara raised her head and looked in the direction of Dr. Mary.

Dr. Mary is her closest friend and colleague in the hospital .

Kamara was surrounded by her colleagues as they discussed an outing they hope to attend at noon.

She didn't show interest in the conversation and immediately put on her white coat and went on her rounds in the outpatient department.

This was her way of excusing herself, unfortunately Dr. Mary followed her trying to find out what troubles her.

If only anyone knows what she is passing through, they would have dropped any form of conversation regarding Dr. Jason and his family.

Dr. Mary walked up to her , grabbing her hands she said to her..

" Kamara, my good friend."

"You have been acting weird."

"Your face has now become dull, please could you share with me ?"

At this point all that kamara needed was a quiet moment, she had earlier promised herself to fight the battle alone and she is very optimistic about that.

" Dr. Mary, thanks so much for caring for me." she responded softly.

"I will be fine I promise you, pls don't persist."

" Kamara, why did you not attend the last meeting we had with the junior doctors, you know how significant your presence is ?" she asked.

Kamara's breathing was a little ragged.

This question sparked the guilt in kamara and reminded her of that ugly incident that she is trying to forget as she was with Dr. Jason that very day.

" I wasn' feeling too well." she responded.

Although Dr. Mary didn't believe that could be the reason because Kamara's face gave her out .

After some time, she had a voice that sounded like Dr. Jason's, she was so scared and wouldn't want to bump into him, she instantly excused herself.

" Please Mary, can we continue this chat some other times?"

Dr. Mary kept wondering what could be wrong with kamara.

" What is the matter?" she asked.

Without skipping a beat, she responded.

" I have told you everything is ok!" she yelled.

Dr Mary at this point got offended, I mean who wouldn't be?

" I'm very sorry for yelling at you." She apologized.

Dr. Mary nodded her face in acceptance of her apology while giving her a hug.

Truly kamara needed that hug so much that she held her tightly while tears rolled down her eyes.

" Are you going on a date? I haven't heard you say that in a while now."

"Yeah. Everyone does that but certainly I am not going on a date today."

Mary is still confused.

" Let's see tomorrow then." Kamara said.

Dr. Mary replied , " Is alright. Take care of yourself."

She took the bus to go home.

On reaching home, she removed her dresses, rushed to the shower. After she finished from the bathroom, she grabbed a mirror and looked at her face.

" Do I really deserve this pain?"

" It's been one whole month," she began, "my life has been on hold, Loneliness and depression have become my best companion."

She thought to herself, while holding tightly his t.shirt

" I told him, 'Don't ask for a break from me.' But he did it anyway!"

Does Kamara really deserve what's happening to her?

She made a promise to herself to fight for what is rightfully hers.

Is kamara really supposed to feel guilty?

Let's find out as she tells her story

My high school lover

" Fight back if you can, no one can save you!" They shouted.

" Stop! Stop!Stop!" A voice shouted.

" Do you people want to kill her?"

" What has she done?" He kept asking.

My face was all covered with tears, I could barely see who was talking, but was surprised at that tender voice that stopped them from beating me.

" Who does this one think he is?" One of my classmates asked.

" My name is , I have just been admitted in grade six."

" Grade four?" All asked in Surprise.

" Please you people should stop bullying her, or i will report to the principal."

He came close to me, helped me up and wiped my tears.

All the boys that were beating me ran away.

" Why would your fellow classmates beat you? You mean you can't even report to the principal.? He asked again.

" Thanks for saving me today."

" I have just been admitted into your class, don't worry I will protect you." He promised.

" You are my Friend now." He said to me.

" What is your name?"

" Kamara ." I responded.

From that day henceforth, none of them bullied me again, as cypril was always with me.

We became good friends, and never left each other's side while in school.

I used to be so skinny that some of my classmates bully me all the time. But all that stopped when cypril came into my life, he would fight for me and scared any that tried to bully me.cypril and I did a lot together including registering in a singing club in our school, we would go for singing competitions and would emerge victoriously most times. We were known as the singing Angels in the whole school.

My parents named me kamara as the only child they had, the name suggesting that I would be a famous star in the world, unfortunately both died in a Ghastly motor accident on there way from an Event party when I was in grade 4 in high school, my Aunty took me in and decided to make my parents wish come through by sending me to school and ensuring I studied the course of my choice.

After we graduated from high school I gained admission to study medicine in a renowned institution in my home country while cypril was sent to France to study Engineering by his family.

Cyprils parents were very wealthy,A famous medical doctor whose family was well respected in their hometown.

Cypril is their only son with three daughters.

We were very close even as we both were distanced, it didn't affect our relationship in any way, we would call each other a million times in a day, even as a medical student I dedicated much time to him as I did to my studies.

One faithful day in my 5th year I received a call from Cypril.

" I will be visiting the country for summer break." He said.

" Wao! Wao !" I screamed excitedly.

" I'm so glad to hear this." I added.

On hearing this, a ripple of excitement rushed in me that I will be physical with the love of my life. My stomach was filled with butterflies,my lips trembling with fears, and my entire body filled with goose bumps. I couldn't believe it to be true as his parents had told him from the beginning that he wouldn't be visiting until after graduation. I had mixed feelings as the last time we saw each other was five years ago, we were both young, I was scared if he could still love me, my friends tell me am so beautiful but yet I didn't know why a part of me wasn't so confident with my looks, also I was scared of my friends mocking me in the end as I had so many suitors and people that wanted me for themselves. I love cypril so much that I remained faithful and showed great commitment in our relationship. My friends would invite me to parties but I wouldn't go as I was very scared to lose my innocence due to carelessness from having too much to drink, I rather stayed home studying.

Cypril and I made promises to each other not to be with anyone else, even as those promises were made when we didn't know anything, I would always remember the promise I made to him to protect my virginity with my life.

Few weeks had past and he hasn't said anything about his visit, I would ask him and he keeps saying he will visit but my instincts told me all were not ok with my love, I was worried and confused because we promised not to keep secrets from each other, unfortunately this was happening when I was preparing for one of my professional exams so I tried not to get distracted and focused on passing my medical exams.

After we wrote the exams, I was very confident that I would pass and had envisioned cypril to be around when the results came out to celebrate together, but unfortunately he still didn't come.

I grabbed my phone and called him.

" Hello, Cypril."

" I have good news for you."

" Please tell me, I am curious."

" I passed my exam!" I said joyfully

" Congratulations my love, this calls for celebration, I am so delighted."

" I will get you a gift once I come home."

That promise reminded me of what he told me a week ago that he would be around , for a few seconds I was silent.

" You are not saying anything, what's wrong? I will be home to my love."

" How about your parents? Trust they are doing alright."

Silence!!

" My. Pe.pe . rents___ he stammered.

"They are ok." He responded reluctantly

I knew immediately that his parents were behind his constant cancellation of his visit, but what could it be?

On a LovelyTuesday morning,I woke up so late to an environment so peaceful and quiet which is unusual,one could hear birds singing melodiously, I was very happy because is been months we had such cool atmosphere. i usually would have to recite some songs when the atmosphere is peaceful, I sang while the serenity lasted.singing most times reminds me of the love of my life as we did recite a lot of songs together in high school, while enjoying the moments of reminisce it turned so Emotional for me, I bursted into tears, as I miss him so much.

The next day I spoke with him about his visit, he rather not talk about it, we quarreled and spoke hurtful words to each other, this was the first time we were in such mood, it was bad that I didn't take his call until the next day, I was hurt that I remained in doors throughout that day even to go for my singing practice I wasn't able to.

With two weeks remaining for summer break to be over, I had lost hope of seeing him again during this holiday. I was sad about it but more angry over the fact that he is keeping a secret from me.

On coming back from my ward round, I met one of my patients brother who looked exactly like cypril, I almost ran into him, thanks to a call I got from a strange number, on picking it was cyprils voice, he told me he was around, I shouted out loudly with happiness, I quickly rushed to my house packed my things to travel to his hometown to visit cypril and his family.

Phone call!

" Hi, ." I greeted excitedly.

" How are you doing ?" He asked.

" Am very well thank you."

" My love, I will be coming over to your school to visit you."

" Why Change of plans?I thought we agreed that I would come over to your place to meet with your family."

"I was always excited to meet with his family and now this! I thought to myself.

" Please tell me why I can't come to see your parents." I pleaded.

" Is just about my parents and their opinion over our relationship."

I kept pondering in thoughts what their opinion could be, were they the reason he is keeping a secret from me?

Could external factors come between two young lovers, let's find out what would happen to these love birds as we progress!!

I went to my usual hospital ward round check and bumped into one of the newly employed house officers.

"Good morning Dr. Kamara." Dave greeted me with smiles.

" Morning Dr. Dave, you again?" I responded.

Dr. David popularly called Dave who has been crushing on me on his first sight of me when we met during one of our round sections.

As we both walked along the accident and emergency department,

" Oh kamara, it is nice to bump into you again, I am glad we did as I haven't stopped thinking about you."

Noises!

Ambulance alarm kept disturbing my ears, it was damn too much to bear.

" Had lunch?" I asked.

" Of Course yes I'm famished as well, "

"Can we have lunch together?" He asked

" Right away."

We got to the nearby eatery in the hospital premises, unfortunately they didn't even have what I love to eat, but I just have to settle for what was available right! I was damn hungry.

" I would love to get to know you more Kamara."

" But Dr. Dave________

" No but kamara, yeah you will not regret our friendship."

While I grabbed a glass of water , he held my hand, unfortunately our eyes locked together.

" Eehmm_____."

" You don't have to say anything now." He said softly.

At this point I felt I should give the friendship a chance as I have never been friends with the opposite sex apart from Cypril. I told myself I am a mature lady now, I should be able to set boundaries and stand strongly on ground over my words.

" Can I have your contact?"

" Sure!"

" Thanks for having lunch with me."he smiled.

Bid bye!

At exactly 3: pm on Sunday.

Bing Bing Bing!!!!!

Phone rings.

"Who could be calling me now? I am trying to have some rest, I thought!

" Oh, Dr. Dave." Sigh

" Please, I will be at your place in 30 minutes time, choose your preferred location." He stated.

We agreed to use one of the fancy restaurants close to my house as I was scared of going far with him.

We set out on our first Date, He ordered prawn and coconut juice for himself.

" Pls order what you would like."

" Water is ok, thank you."

He made an angry face over my choice.

While we were having our conversation,it flowed smoothly as we discussed my exams and gave me advice on how to relate and manage with stubborn patients. This smooth conversation was paused and he looked directly into my face,tried to hold my hands but I was not just shy but uncomfortable, I quickly pulled out my hands from his.

" Pls you are making me feel uncomfortable."

" Am cool with just being normal friends, no feelings attached, Remember we both agreed on that?"

" Am sorry, if I made you feel that way, he began, 'I love you from the very first day I set my eyes on you, pls give us a chance."

"What!" I screamed

" I have a boyfriend, I can't cheat on him, you have to respect my decision or forget about our friendship."

" Is ok, I won't touch that topic again, I promise to respect the boundaries."

" Better." I said with smiles.

As I got home that day, I called Cypril to let him know of Dave as we literally told each other everything. He was cool and happy as I have a senior colleague as a friend, at least he could help me out with some assignments. I was happy he didn't take it the wrong way, he rather said I trust my woman.

Finally I consented to Cypril visiting me here in school as I really was curious to know what his parents opinion about our relationship would be. He was happy I did that. I was very enthusiastic as well as I will be physical with him after Five years.

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