Her Protector

Prelude -

"Bro, are you sure about this? I mean... this is huge," Alex said. I had been looking out of the office window and spared him no glance as he had been talking; I was too scared. I was too scared to leave her alone for even a moment.

"I know," I said facing him somberly. I immediately turned back around to face the window and look at my beautiful mate.

She looked so beautiful and happy and I wanted her to stay that way forever; happy and safe. Her face glowed as she and Noni splashed water playfully at Alex Jr. She looked better than she had in days. Her face and body had grown pale and sunken after the attack, but now she was the definition of radiant... I was lucky to have her as my mate.

"Maxon!" Alex shouted, trying to regain my attention. "Maxon, look at me."

As much as it pained me, I looked at him and smiled sincerely. I was so sure that I was doing the right thing... I mean after everything that we had been through this was the best option for everyone, especially Nova and our pups. With everyone coming for them... nothing felt more important.

They will be safe and protected and that's all I want. I thought to myself. For them to be safe...

"Yes, I am sure." I answered calmly.

I wasn't going to allow Alex to sway my mind on this.I wasn't going to choose anything else over Nova ever again; I never wanted either of us to feel that pain again.I had almost failed her before, nearly losing her in the process, and now our pups were in danger? I wasn't going to repeat that mistake. There was nothing I wouldn't do for Nova; wasn't it the same for Alec and Noni?

WE won't repeat that mistake twice, my wolf said interjecting my thoughts.

That's right, I agreed.

"Think about this for a minute, Maxon... do you really think that Nova would want you to do this," he asked.

Scoffing and rolling my eyes, I couldn't help but to mentally laugh and sigh. I couldn't believe he was going to play that card with me... I'd make Nova mad a billion times over if it was to protect my family. I'd give any and everything I owned for them to stay safe and come home to me every day. I'd give up who I am, what I am... I smirked to myself sadly, I kind of am already, aren't I?

I looked around the room that was once my office. I wouldn't have given a damn about any of the crap in it if it weren't for Nova. We made this room of furniture into a room where we laughed and cried together. We lost and gained so much in this very room together; heat flooded my body as I thought about all the things Nova and I had done on that couch, the desk, the chairs, and the floor...

Now that I think about it I'll have to talk to Alex about getting new furniture for himself and Noni.

I pulled myself away from the window, making sure to touch everything in my path. I wanted to remember everything the way that Nova and I left it. I was halfway across the room when a scream rang clean through the air; alerting my wolf and I.

It was hers... I'd know that scream anywhere. Before I could even blink my body was back in front of the window peering down at the trio. Tension filled my body, making me stand straight and poised ready to protect my family at any cost.

My body ached as the tension faded and I saw the pearly whites of her teeth formed into a smile... She was exactly the way I had left her only a few seconds ago; my wolf and I immediately relaxed as she glanced up at the window. Her smile broadened and she waved haphazardly, and I returned the gesture. My wolf wanted to come out and see her himself to see if she was really okay... but I couldn't trust him, or myself to not go to her.

We weren't moving away from the window again that was for sure... he wouldn't let me.

"Maxon. Come on man, you can see yourself that she's fine. You don't have to do this," he said trying to reason with me; but it was useless. I had already decided.

"Alex, this isn't about what she wants or what she thinks is best. It's about what my family needs, what I need in order to stay sane...to stay alive, and right now they need to be taken somewhere safe. She needs to be somewhere where no one will know where she is," I explained.

"Yeah, but--"

"But what? You told me I had to take her away to keep her safe, that it was the only way to keep her safe," I asked, cutting him off.

"You'd do this for her?"

I growled at his question.

What the hell did he mean? I thought angrily. We'd die for her if we had to...

When it came to the world versus Nova, everyone else was guilty and she was the only innocent my eyes or heart knew. I knew I would kill anyone who thought to go against her in any way. I'd die for her everyday if that was what I needed to do. Words alone couldn't explain what I would do for her.

"Yes, I'd give her the world if she asked for it. I'd do whatever I could and can to keep her safe. That's why you're the Alpha now."

"She's going to flip her fucking top when she finds out. She'll never talk to Noni or me again; fuck man what about Aj?" He asked.

"We will come back from time to time, but right now I have to get them away from here... between everyone wanting to kill my pups and Nova's gifts not working we have a lot on our hands at the moment."

Alex choked on his spit. If he hadn't raised his fist to his mouth I wouldn't have been sure he had made a sound at all... he covered it up so quickly.

Pushing through to the front of my mind, my wolf growled furiously. We couldn't take any more secrets from any of them... they swore to tell him everything from now on. Just because I wasn't Urathi didn't mean that I couldn't help my family...

We walked to him menacingly. "What do you know?"

"I can't tell you."

We grabbed him by the shirt, extending our claws and canines at the same time. He might have been my brother, but nothing was more important than my family... my children. He was supposed to be helping me help them... not hindering me protecting my family. Nova needed her gifts; if something happened to her, she needed to be able to protect herself, protect the pups.

"Why not?"

"She Alpha ordered me... I literally can't tell you and you can't overturn it. I can tell you she's not even sure if it's the truth... she just wants to do more digging."

I grunted, stubbornly letting him go and putting away all my sharp parts. It was like her to do something like this... to keep me out of the loop to not worry me... I couldn't help the embarrassment that shaded my face knowing Nova thought she was sparing my feelings.

"Maxon..."

"What," I asked; the word came off stronger than I wanted it too and seeing him flinch from the force made me tame the beast inside. "Yes," I said smoothly.

"Don't be upset with her... you're going to have questions and having her tell you I don't know to them all would be frustrating... let her work it out and tell you on her own time," he offered.

I looked away from him embarrassed and keeping my eyes trained on the floor, I nodded. My mind began to race with different possibilities on what could be wrong with my mate. What could she want to hide from me? What did she have to hide?

Months Earlier -- Maxon

I watched her sleep; it was the first time in months she had done so without waking up screaming or crying, and I was taking all the credit for that... The minute she told me, which in itself was a fight... but when she did finally tell me, I made sure she was too tired to dream. Some nights, I won the battle and others ended with her crying herself to sleep in my arms. Tonight, she was sound asleep.

Nova had been having nightmares, hellish visions of torture and pain... it was always women, little girls screaming and begging for it to end. They were herded and trapped by stronger looking women who were nowhere near the crying group of women but they looked as if they were restrained... their screams bouncing off what seemed to be cave-like walls. All in all, I could understand why she was waking up the way she was.

She repositioned herself, uncovering herself in the process, and I steeled myself so she wouldn't wake. My eyes raked hungrily over her naked body, lingering on her neck where my mark rested. It was a beautiful, woven knot and if you looked close enough you could make out an N and M. Above my mark, Nova had gotten my name tattooed in a soft feminine script. It made me swell with pride, and other things, to see her wear my mark and name so proudly, not to mention how sexy it looked.

Her soft smile widened and she snuggled closer to me, sighing contently when she found her most comfortable position. She looked so peaceful as she slept... nothing haunting her.

Reaching out, I brushed a strand of her dark locks from her nose, I was sure it was tickling her nose because it was crinkling it in the cutest way. It was the moments like these that were some of the best in my opinion. The times when she was cuddled into me and had an iron grip on my hand. These were the nights that sleep was the best and I often found myself wondering how I used to sleep without her. I was her safety and she was my home.

Normal mate thoughts, I mused slightly chuckling at myself.

"Maxon," she moaned and cuddled closer into my frame. I suppressed a groan of delight and tried to think of other things before my lower half came alive and begged for attention.

It had been a year and a half since Nova and I mated. After seeing how things would have ended had we continued on that path, Nova and I wasted no time confessing our feelings and coming clean. It had been a weird sight for many to see that school year but we didnt care, we were happy.

Cliche as it sounds, the mating was the best day of my life and I was so happy that I would be able to have that part of her everyday if we willed it. Sure, I hadn't been a virgin like her but it had felt as if it was my first time. Every feeling and sensation had been new and exciting...

Almost two years later and I am ready to propose to her, I thought happily. I was finally going to make Nova my wife.

I had been planning it for months and hopefully she didn't know; it would most definitely ruin my plans if she did. I had only told one other person my plans and that was to Alex, and I had to Alpha order him not to say anything to anybody even his mate.

It was almost a week after everything happened before we first saw Noni, for real this time... She was like what Nova and I saw in the premonition but somewhat different. Nova and Noni's relationship hasn't exactly been the same as before, even though they had both known the other was coming, they didn't have the bond that they created while in Marc's pack. In time, the bond grew and they both were as they had been in the premonition.

Alex was only happy to finally meet her, but she spent most of time with Nova the first couple of days, much to Alex and I's disappointment. We hadn't told our friends, or the pack for that matter, about the premonition... Even though Nova was a known Urathi, explaining a seconds long premonition that had felt like months was hard. As it turns out that Noni had been having dreams about Nova and Alex, hell even me, but I was what she referred to as a dumb ass Alpha who needs the dick shit kicked out of him. After we explained everything to Noni, she agreed everyone else should've been left in the dark...

"Maxon," Nova moaned again. I groaned. Seriously, what was she dreaming about?

Peeking inside her head quietly knowing that if she caught me, I would definitely be in trouble but curiosity was definitely killing the cat tonight. Closing my eyes, I followed the tether from my mind to hers, taking extra special care not to alert her to my presence. Opening my eyes, I looked around and noticed I was standing in my old room at the pack house.

She was dreaming about our first time, I thought happily. It wasn't a day, or night, that I could quickly forget. I could still remember it clearly as if it had just happened...

***

"Maxon," she breathed. My ego swelled knowing that I could get this type of reaction from my mate by just kissing her neck. "Maxon, more please."

Not needing to be told twice, I roughly bit into her neck, the place where my mark would soon be; she squealed sexily and pulled me into her. Grabbing my face, she pulled my lips to hers, forcefully kissing me. My wolf and I both groaned and growled from our mates' dominance. I bit her bottom lip gently, begging her for entrance and she immediately and slightly opened her mouth allowing my tongue in, sucking on it gently.

Her breath hitched again as I ripped away her clothes. I could feel her anger about her clothes, but I didn't care; clothes were going to take too much time, and that was something my wolf and I didn't have to spare. I wouldn't let it be another repeat of that vision; Nova and I were going to mate even if it killed us and with the way she grinded her lower half against mine a sweet death wasn't far. I could smell her arousal coming off of her in waves, and it made me grow harder every second. I couldn't wait to slide into her sweet honey pot.

I slowly ran my hands down her smooth skin, teasing both her and myself with the millions of tingles and shocks that came from us touching, she whimpered and grinded herself harder into me. I had to bite my lower lip to keep from moaning like a female.

What was this woman doing to me, I thought to myself. Nova grabbed my hand from her waist and guided it down to her clit, shivering slightly as my thumb made contact.

"Maxon stop daydreaming," she breathed. Had I really been daydreaming?

Nova was dripping wet, even before I began playing with her core. So instead of taking my time to arouse her I shoved my middle finger slowly inside of her; my finger was so deep that after seconds I had her juices running down my forearm. I made agonizingly slow motions with my finger and she ground against it.

"Fuck Maxon," she moaned angrily. "Stop teasing me."

"Tell me what you want then," I growled in her ear. A shiver ran through her body as she creamed on my fingers.

"I want you inside me Maxon. Now," she said flipping me over and getting on top.

Maxon, are you in my head, she asked.

Wait...

That part didn't happen. She never asked me if I was in her head. I ran through that night in my head at least a hundred times a day and I never remember her asking me that question.

"That's because I didn't," she giggled, snapping me out of her dream.

Looking down, I noticed that Nova was now awake, she was even more beautiful now than she had been before. I wanted nothing more than to take her right now again, but I knew she was tired. She had barely been sleeping lately, that I don't take blame for. It was those damn letters that had sparked Nova's fear in the first place... just the thought of those letters was enough to cause me to begin shifting.

"Maxon, calm down." I felt my chest erupt into a million tiny tingles and shocks of electricity, which instantly calmed me.

"It's just that you've been so scared recently," I said. I saw she was about to protest, but I just tapped at my temple. "You can't hide your emotions from me Nova. I don't even have to read your mind to feel your fear."

She sighed. "It's just a lot on my plate right now, Maxon. With the letters, my nightmares and now my gifts not working right. I just don't want anything to happen and I am the weak link again. I want to help."

It hurt me to see the frown on her face and the tears that were close to falling from her beautiful hazel orbs. I felt all of her pains and worries flow through my body in full force, and I couldn't help but feel the block she had on some of her thoughts. I thought to make a mental note to ask her about it later. Right now, I had to take her mind off of her problems...

I rolled over top of her and crashed my lips onto hers. Balancing myself on one hand I let my fingertips brush against her mark. Her arousal filled my nose instantly making my chest rumble happily. She moaned, pressing herself into me gently rubbing against my erection. I growled and gripped her hips to keep her still.

"Babe, I would love for you to help but if your gifts aren't working then I would feel a hell of a lot better if you were somewhere safe. You are Luna now... so maybe you could try and bonding with the women in the pack," I said huskily. I was still thoroughly turned on from her grinding.

"You want me to be sidelined while you, Alex and Noni are off fighting. I think not," she scoffed trying to push me off of her. I wouldn't bulge; without her gifts Nova was just like a regular femme.

"I didn't say that but think of AJ. Think how happy he would be if he was staying with someone he actually knew instead of all those old, smelly women. I don't even get why we are having this conversation. It's not like anyone is leaving the pack to go and fight..."

"That was a low blow Maxon. How am I supposed to turn down such a cute face like that," she sighed. "Fine. I'll stay with the smelly, old women."

She turned on her side and pouted. I knew he was really upset about having to sit out, but she still looked cute while pouting like a little girl who couldn't get her way. She growled at my thoughts, causing me to laugh.

"You shouldn't be ease-dropping then," I told her. She continued to ignore me, so I leaned into her neck and slowly licked her mark. "Cum for me baby," I whispered in her ear.

I felt her womb quiver as she released her juices; the smell of her sex filled the room. Her breathing was uneven, and she was moaning softly, but she still had not turned to face me yet. I roughly flipped her back onto her back and spread her legs eagle, ramming a finger into her dripping wet center. We both let out quiet moans together. I dragged my finger in and out slowly making sure to brush against her G- spot each time. I loved watching my mate squirm in ecstasy.

"Are you going to talk to me now baby," I asked. She was still ignoring me, so I added another finger.

Her moans grew louder, filling the silence in the room. I made quicker motions with my fingers and pressed harder into her G-spot every time. She began to grind into my hand and clutched my back, dragging her nails along my skin.

I growled. She didn't know how good that felt.

"Talk to me baby. Say my name," I whispered. I could see that she was about to but then wised up and narrowed her eyes at me and then looked away. She never stopped grinding against my hand though, so I added another finger; quickening my pace.

I was slamming my fingers deep in her. The only sounds from the room were the sloshing sound from her center and her moans. She clenched her muscles around my fingers, and I growled and tried to fight my wolf off. He wanted to feel her throbbing muscles clenched around my erection. I looked at Nova as she clenched her muscles tighter. She knew what she was doing. I growled as I felt my eyes darken.

I quickly withdrew my fingers and flipped Nova over and made sure she was on all fours before I rammed inside of her making sure the base of my shaft was touching her ass. I didn't move in and out of her, I only made circular motions as I pressed against her G-spot. Holding on to her hips tightly so she wouldn't move, I pulled her up, so I could whisper in her ear; ignoring her growls and whimpers of frustration.

"Tell us what you want Nova," I said. I felt the shiver run through her body as my wolf and I spoke to her. She still didn't speak though.

I pulled the hair that had fallen onto her neck away and blew on her mark making her scream out. I gripped her neck tightly, "Tell us what you what." I used my Alpha command to make sure she answered this time.

"Fuck me Maxon. Please. Right now. Take me," she breathed.

Wasting no time, I pulled out of her and slammed back into her. I pushed her back onto all four and repeatedly slammed in and out of her. Her screams were loud enough to wake out Alec, Noni and AJ, so I decided to switch positions. Without leaving her warm core I flipped her onto her back and started back with my rhythm.

"Maxon," she moaned. "I love you."

I growled. That was not what she was supposed to call me.

"What's my name?" I slowed my strokes down. It was agonizingly slow, and it was painful for the both of us. I just hoped she called out to me properly before I caved.

I watched her body shake and convulse in pleasure. She tried to cover her moans with her hands, but I ended that as I clutched both of her delicate wrists in my hand. I gently pressed down onto her stomach and slammed into her.

"What is my name Nova," I said through clenched teeth as she tightened her muscles around me.

"Fuck," I swore. I leaned forward and grabbed one of her nipples with my teeth, rolling it between them. Nova arched her back and tried to break her wrists free. "My name, Nova."

"Daddy," she moaned. I happily let go of her wrists and gripped her hips unmercifully slammed my stone hard member in her.

"Fuck Nova. You feel so good baby," I groaned.

Her moans were ear piercingly loud, but I didn't care anymore. All I could do was focus on the feeling. The grip that her core had on me was irreplaceable; I wanted this moment forever. My thrust became quicker as I felt my climax coming in fast. I bent down and snuggled into her neck lapping at her mark.

I could feel Nova's claws extend into my skin, marking my back. I hissed as the thin line between pain and pleasure disappeared and merged strictly in pleasure. "I'm cumming Maxon," she cried.

"Me too baby," I moaned. I felt my canines extend as I bit down and remarked Nova making us both explode in pleasure.

After regaining some of my breath I rolled off of her and brought her closer to my chest; sleep gnawing against our heads like hammers.

"I love you Nova."

"I love you too Maxon," she said. That was the last thing I heard before I fell asleep.

**

Unfortunately, sleep didn't last long enough because I was jerked out of my sleep by Nova's shrill screams. I instantly sat up and grabbed her body and cradled it into mine, stroking her sweaty face. "Nova, baby wake up."

Her body shook violently scaring me shitless, especially since she wasn't reacting to my touch. "Noni! Alex!"

They both came running into our room with a screaming AJ. When Noni saw Nova, she gently but quickly handed AJ to Alex and walked over to the bed. She looked at me with questioning eyes.

What happened, she asked.

We had sex about, I turned and looked at the clock, two hours ago and then we fell asleep. I woke up to her screaming. When I told her to wake up she started shaking.

Hand her to me Maxon. I need to take her to the pack doctor, Noni said, speaking cautiously.

I growled and held onto my shaking mate looking at Noni with hateful eyes. She wanted to take my mate away from me when she was like this? No. I wouldn't let her. In an instant Alex was standing protectively in front of Noni, who was now holding AJ.

"You. Will. Not. Take. Her. From. Me." I spoke through my teeth. I was grinding them slightly to keep my wolf in check.

It was no secret to anyone that once Nova and I had fully mated I had become overly protective of her. She would always say she understood and wouldn't give me as much shit about it everybody else. Truthfully, I couldn't help it. It was that damn premonition! It was a constant reminder of how I had failed to protect her time and time again, which is not a god feeling for an Alpha wolf.

"Maxon, she needs a doctor," Noni pleaded from behind a stern looking Alex.

"I'll take her."

"Maxon, you touching her might have caused this. Just give her to me and I swear I will protect her with my life," she promised.

My wolf and I whimpered knowing that there was a slight chance she was right. I had mentally made the choice to let her go but my wolf was fighting me every step of the way. I stretched out my arms and handed her over to Alex. Once in his arms she stopped shaking, slightly causing my heart to crack. My wolf howled as we watched the four of them leave. I got up to follow, but Noni stopped me.

Give her some time alone Maxon, she said kindly. Let's figure out her problem and then we'll work on you seeing and touching her, okay?

I nodded, not able or trusting my voice to speak coherent words. It was killing me with every step they took. Her not being with me or close was a hurt that I wouldn't wish or anyone. There wasn't a single intelligent thought running through my mind. No... there was one.

What the hell was wrong with my mate?

Maxon

Nova, can I come see you now?

My question hung between us for minutes. It had been weeks since I had seen Nova and to say it was killing me was putting it nicely. It was like the first and second time she left me combined, and those were even real times. I couldn't even get up to do any of my Alpha duties, and they automatically fell onto Alec's shoulders; it also left Noni angry with me but what could I say? I couldn't bring myself to leave my room. Nova's scent was everywhere, and I feared that if I left it I'd wake up and find out that this was just another dream. A really bad one...

Nova, I called. I knew she was there, just hesitating on an answer. Again, I felt that block in her mind. She was definitely hiding something from me, and maybe it was what caused her seizure.

You know you can't come here Maxon. That was all she gave me before she shut out the link and blocked me.

My first reaction was to get angry and throw and break shit left and right in the room, but the only emotion that poured from me was sadness... immense and deep, depressing sadness. It is a rare occurrence that I cry, I can't even remember the last time I – no wait, it was when Nova rejected me... but that didn't count because it wasn't technically real. These tears were worse though. These were no holds barred tears. They ran freely and rapidly down my face; I might have even had snot draining from my nose as well

I stood up from the spot I had taken on the bed and began pacing the room. Now that the crying was out of the way I grew angry. I was – I am her mate! She should want me by her side, especially right now when something was clearly wrong with her. I was supposed to be there to take care of her and cater to her every desire. It was supposed to be me! Not some stupid pack doctor!

I growled.

Was she cheating on me? Did she have someone else?

Whoever came up with the notion that guys didn't panic over shit like this was a stone cold liar... we just never let it show, but right now with my assumptions running wild jealously was rearing its ugly head and with me being Alpha it was ten times worse than anyone could ever imagine.

She's cheating on us! She found someone else, I growled to myself. I could feel my wolf agreeing and that only angered me more. My wolf was making his way to the surface and I wasn't going to stop him.

I walked to the wall and immediately slammed my fists through it; repeatedly. The thought of our mate's body in another wolf's hands was driving us insane. The images and audios of Nova making love and moaning another wolf's name killed up but fueled the rage that was building even more. I began slamming my fists into the wall faster. Every negative thought I had I tried to pound away using the wall.

Sometimes I wish I wasn't born an Alpha, maybe if I hadn't been things would be a lot easier for Nova and I, and I wouldn't be as moody and temperamental as I am... As that last thought races through my mind I stopped punching the wall.

Was it my fault that Nova didn't want me around?

Did I do something wrong?

Forget something?

Hurt her?

Not love her enough?

My mind was swimming with possibilities on what the answer could be. If it was my fault and I did do something wrong, why couldn't she be a normal female and tell me? At the very least shout at me and call me stupid and insensitive, anything was better than what she's putting me through now.

Nova, I said firmly through our link. Hopefully she would answer.

Yes Maxon? Her voice sounded tired and irritated, like she didn't want to talk to me. Just the thought of that made my wolf whimper and had me close to tears again. Fuck! I hate having a mate sometimes, I thought.

Did I do something wrong? Did I forget something, I asked her. I hated how weak I sounded. Soft and un-Alpha like, but she brought that out in me. Any femme would bring that side out of her mate...

She didn't reply as quickly as I had hoped, but when she did, I was hoping it was something more profound. If you did then why would I tell you?

Shit, I thought. I did forget something. But what?

So, you are angry with me and that's why I can't come see you?

Yes. When she said it, it sounded more like a question then a definitive answer, but I didn't waste time on that, although I should've.

That's a bit childish don't you think, I grumbled.

Nova might have been only a year under me but sometimes I think that what we did to her in high school ruined her a little. She never got to go out and party and go crazy like the rest of us did. She never got to get it out of her system. There's not a day that goes by that I don't hate myself for teasing her and my father for pressuring me into it. So now while we are all growing up, she suppressed her childish self and now it was out to play...

So, I'm childish now Maxon, she asked angrily. I could hear her wolf growling, but whether it was for her or me was still unclear.

No. You're being childish, I corrected.

Same difference.

No. It's not.

Fine, whatever Maxon, she said angrily. Her tone was really starting to bug me, and I could feel myself losing control. Soon words would just start flying from my lips, most will be dripping with venom.

I don't want to argue with you babe. I was trying to calm down. All I wanted was to see her, to feel her, to kiss her. That's all I wanted. This extra shit was becoming a nuisance.

Well it's a little too fucking late for that Maxon. I am already pissed off and angrily with you, she spat.

What the fuck is wrong with you Nova! All I want to do is to come see you and kiss you; to tell you how much I love you and how sorry I am for whatever I did to put you where you are but all you are doing is pushing me away! Why, I shouted.

Because I don't want you here Maxon! You fucking put me here so why would I want to see that wolf that put in the hospital?

Her words stopped my breath. I know I blamed myself for being in the hospital, but I never once thought that she blamed me too... she never once even lead on that that's what she thought. I couldn't find the right words to form any type of coherent sentence that would even begin to tell her how sorry I was.

Nova, I'm sorry, I said softly. It had been the same words she had been hearing all week, but these words were different. They were laced with another emotion other than guilt. Sadness.

I-I-I-I don't want to see you Maxon, she stuttered.

Nova, I-

No Maxon. I just really don't want to be near you right now. She closed off the link again before I could say another word.

I started pounding into the wall again. How the hell did she not want to see me? Her mate? This was Nova and I's first fight ever since seeing that damn premonition. I have been the perfect mate and she doesn't want to see me? I had this fucking house built for her in two weeks because she didn't want to stay in the pack house, and she didn't want to see me? I gave all she ever wanted and desired and she didn't want to see me?

I took half of my frustrations out on that wall and by the time I was done that wall could've passed for Swiss cheese. I closed my eyes and tried to calm my wolf down.

1

She didn't want to see me...

2

She was cheating on me...

3

You mean us, my wolf added.

4

Yeah whatever... just help me calm down, I told him.

5

She loves us...

6

She can't cheat on us. She would never do that...

7

She's just mad about the fact I put her in the hospital...

8

Yeah, that's it.

9

What about the secret she's hiding, my wolf asked.

10

Not important now nor is it helping.

I opened my eyes and looked around the room. I wasn't as shocked as I should've been when I saw that the room was in complete shambles. I didn't even notice that I was moving not to mention throwing and breaking shit. Before I knew it, Alex and Noni were standing in my doorway gawking at the mess.

"What the hell happened here," Alex asked or more like shouted at me.

I growled at him, not in the mood to be yelled at again, and then answered. "Your sister happened..."

"What happened," he asked. I just growled and turned away from them. I couldn't even bring myself to look at Noni. I knew she was with Nova when we were arguing, and she didn't even try to help me.

As an Alpha, it felt weird to want help from a lesser wolf, but this was about Nova and I so if I needed help with anything I would ask. I wasn't afraid to ask for help with her. I was never the guy who had stable, committed relationships, so this was all new to me. Noni is Nova's best friend, so of course she would know what I needed to do to make this better, but she had been avoiding me the entire week, so I gave up on her and eventually grew angry with her...

"Ask your mate," I spat.

Right now, I hated that word with a passion. Why would the Fates mate me with someone who could break me so easily? I am an Alpha. I needed to remain strong at all times, but it seemed like the more I was with Nova; the further she broke me down. I was just physically and emotionally tired.

"Noni? What does she-, "he turned to Noni quickly and scowled at her. "What have the two of you been doing all day?"

"Maxon and Nova had a little fight," she whimpered, probably from his expression. I still refused to look at her.

I scoffed. "A little fight? That's what you call it when your mate doesn't want to see you? That's good to know."

"You're being dramatic Maxon. It wasn't –, "

I growled, whipping around and made my way to her in an instant; towering over her. Alex tried to get in front of her but once I used my Alpha command in a growl, he had no choice but to obey. I turned my attention back to Noni, who was looking at me defiantly. I stepped towards her, being mindful not to push Alex too far. The closer I got the more her defiant look faltered, my wolf and I smiled at the victory.

Lucky, she wasn't a male or I would've taken that as a challenge, my wolf growled out. I agreed.

"I am being dramatic? Has Alex ever told you he didn't want to be around you? Has he ever told you the most hurtful things just to keep you away? Made you feel less than loved?"

My words were harsh, but soft. I wanted her to understand that I am more hurt than angry. I wanted her to know that what my mate, her best friend, said to me was more painful than anything I had ever experienced. I would never say something like that to her, even in our worse moments.

Noni whimpered and shook her head no.

"Has he ever kept secrets from you? Blocked you out so you could have no contact with him whatsoever?"

Again, she shook her head no.

"Then don't fucking tell me that I am being dramatic! Nova is my mate," I said spitting the word mate out of my mouth like it was acid. "She is the only one on the planet that could get away with hurting me like she has... and believe me she has hurt me deeply."

"Maxon, she-, "she started, but I immediately cut her off.

"Just get out, the both of you. I won't trash the room anymore. Just go," I said. I couldn't see my expression, but I must have looked pitiful because of the looks they were giving me.

"Maxon I'll try and figure out the problem bro'. I'll try," Alex offered slapping me on the shoulder briefly. His attempt at support and comfort didn't help at all.

I nodded my head and went to the bathroom and turned the showerhead on, signaling that it was really time for them to leave. They both looked as if they didn't want to leave and it was upsetting. Noni wasn't even my friend so why was she here?

"Did Nova send you," I asked her. She nodded softly and opened her mouth to speak but I held up my hand. "Save it. Whatever she has to say to me she can either say it herself of just not talk to me at all... I'm done with her secrets."

"Maxon she has-, "I growled.

"Just leave him be," Alex cautioned. She nodded and they left the room.

I wasn't sure about what I had meant about being done with Nova's secrets just yet. Did I mean that I was going to reject her or that I just wasn't going to talk to her until she decided that I had a right as her mate to know what was wrong? If it had been me keeping secrets from her, she wouldn't have wasted time trying to get away from me, so why shouldn't I do the same to her? Didn't know what I was going to do, nor did I know what I wanted to do, but I knew for sure is that I didn't want any damn visitors; and I made sure the whole pack knew it.

EVERYONE LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE! I shouted through the packs' link. I could feel the cringes and whimpers from everyone in the pack, including Nova but I didn't care.

"She doesn't care about me... she doesn't want to see me..." I said aloud to myself sadly. I hadn't felt like this since before Nova and I had mated; I felt so alone now.

It was only seconds after I sent the message that glass shattered somewhere and people started screaming, Nova started screaming... Do I run to save her, or do I leave her alone like she wanted?