He takes my breath away

Prologue

To tell you our story I guess I should tell you a little bit about ourselves first. I'm Stacia and I am a full-figured sassy as can be spit fire of a woman, or so I'm told. I love who I am and am proud of each and every curve on my voluptuous body. I am not everyone's cup of tea but to someone one day I will be his everything.

I am a plus- sized model trying to break into the acting scene because that is what I have always wanted to do. I was so excited when I got a part in a commercial. Not only was it my first acting gig but I was also going to be working with Darius my celebrity crush. Now let me tell you this man was so sexy that he could make your panties melt off just by being in the same room as you. I should have known a man that fine would only end up being an ass.

Darius thought he was God's gift to women. He tried giving me the number of a personal trainer to help me loose my fat ass. His words not mine. Can you believe that. I don't care how sexy and famous he was he had some balls talking to me like that. I mean sure maybe he was having an off day but that's no excuse to be acting a fool.

Of course, he tried to use some lame ass apology and even asked me out to dinner. I told him no and laughed in his face. It never hurts to play a little hard to get besides his ass needs to put in some work to get me after how he had acted at first.

I thought I had heard the last of him, but wouldn't you know fate had a different plan for us. All it took was one drunken night and we would end up being tied to each other forever. Could a man like him truly ever be happy with a woman like me?

Chapter One

Stacia's pov

I was so excited I got a call back for a commercial and some promo photos. I was beyond happy when I found out who I would be working with. Darius was the "it" guy in Hollywood right now, and I of course had a huge crush on him. I mean who wouldn't this man had abs for days.

I see Darius in a few of his movies. Okay that's a lie I've seen every movie his sexy ass has been in. I can't believe I get the chance to work with him. I wondered why he was even doing this commercial. He's a Hollywood heartthrob and in pretty much every movie coming out right now.

I wondered if Darius would be better than how I imagined him to be. It was surreal that I am getting the chance to work with my crush. Not a lot of people can say that. This is a dream come true and a major step up in my career. I guess hard work really does pay off. So glad I didn't give up after hearing no after no at first.

I wondered if Darius would be on set when I got there tomorrow morning. I knew he would be doing a part in the commercial and then we would be doing promo photos for the product together. So, I knew I would at least get to meet him. I wasn't going to be able to sleep tonight I was so nervous and excited.

The next morning when I got on set I saw everything and got nervous. I have never done anything like this before. That little inner voice we all have started telling me I couldn't do this. That I was going to fail. I shut that shit down held my head up high and walked over to check-in. They took me right back to hair and make-up. This was so exciting.

I wondered if Darius would be even sexier in person. Everyone says he's a funny guy and super sweet. That he made working with him fun. I really hoped that was true. I mean you hear stories, but you never know what's true and what's not. The tabloids all say he's a player and a total ass. I didn't want that to be true. I would be crushed.

I wondered if he would even notice me. A man like him probably had a million women chasing after him. I needed to get myself in check. The last thing I wanted to do was act like a total fan girl and embarrass myself. I needed to just calm down and believe in myself a little more. I can do this.

I loved getting my hair and make-up done it relaxed me. The ladies doing my hair, nails, and make-up were super sweet so that always helps. Finally, I started to calm down. They made me feel right at home. They all stopped what they were doing so I looked in the mirror to see if they were done. That's when I saw him walk in. He was truly a sight to see. I get why everyone stopped what they were doing and just looked at him.

I thought maybe I should go introduce myself since we were working together. Plus, I just really felt this pull to him. I told the ladies I would be right back, and they looked at me nervous. I wondered what that was all about. I walked right up to Darius and put my full mega watt smile on. I just needed to play this cool he was just a guy nothing more.

"Hi I'm Stacia."

"Yea I don't have time for autographs right now but if you stick around when I'm done I can get you the number for a great personal trainer that can help you with your weight problem. Now run along."

I just stood there with my mouth open as he walked away from me. I walked back to the ladies but didn't say a word. I can't believe he said that to me. Who did he think he was? The ladies thankfully didn't comment on what just happened. I was so hurt and felt like I could burst into tears at any moment. I snuck a glance at him in the mirror and he seemed angry. I wondered what his deal was. How was he the angry one after he just insulted me? The nerve of him. Now I was pissed.

I was about to turn around, so they could finish with me when I saw Darius was pointing at me. What the hell could he be so upset about? I wondered what he was telling them. I did nothing wrong. All I did was introduce myself. I didn't think that was such a big deal. He was the one that came at me like he did.

I decided to just walk over there so I could defend myself since he was pointing right at me and screaming. Who knows what he was saying. So, I walked up behind him where he couldn't see me, but I could still hear what he was saying. I wasn't going to let him talk bad about me or try and ruin my career before it even got started. He acted like I was scum. The worst kind of human. He didn't even know me. All I did was say hi. How could that make him this angry?

"I have been acting since I was a kid and worked my way up then made a name for myself. I am the guy everyone wants to hire. There is no way I am working with some no name fat ass. All she's going to do is make me look bad. I didn't sign up for this. Someone better fix this now!"

By this point I was heated. Here I was excited to finally meet my crush until I actually met him in person that is. He's such an egotistical jerk. The things he was saying about me had me seeing red. I wanted to crush this fool, but I was not going to make a scene. I am sure that's exactly what he wanted. I had more class than that I wasn't going to stoop to his level.

I loved who I was and how I looked. I wasn't going to let some jackass bring me down. I should have known he would end up being a jerk. They aren't called crushes for no reason. They are meant to do exactly that, crush you. Well this little boy had another thing coming. I don't go away that easy.

I wouldn't allow him that satisfaction, nor would I let him crush my self-esteem. It's not my fault his feeble little mind can't handle all of this. Guess he just doesn't have the right equipment. With a smile on my face I walked back to let them finish getting me ready. Once they were done they told me I looked beautiful. They took me to wardrobe and I hoped by the time I was done Darius wouldn't be around or he had a major attitude adjustment. I was ready to get this over with and get as far away from him as soon as I possibly could. I wouldn't be able to bite my tongue for much longer.

Once I was done getting dressed I sat there and waited a little bit. Thanks to him I was starting to second guess all of this. I was no longer excited. I was letting this jerk get the best of me. Time to put on my big girl panties and crush this commercial. I'm not going to let anyone get in the way of what I am here to do. I've dealt with jerks like him all my life. I am going to just smile through this.

I was sitting in a room waiting to hear when I was needed on set. I know I'm not famous so if Darius has it his way I'll be replaced. He wants someone that makes him "look good." Pretty pathetic if you ask me. I didn't have time for this. I wasn't just going to set around while he threw a temper tantrum like a damn child. Just when I was about to walk out a young man came in and smiled at me.

"So sorry for your wait they are ready for you on set right this way."

"Thank you."

I was no longer nervous. I was going to rock this then laugh in Darius' face. When I got on set he was no where to be found. Guess he didn't want to work with me so he just decided to walk off. Fine by me. I didn't have time for someone like him. I was here to do a job I was hired to do so I'm going to do just that.

I got the commercial done in two takes and it didn't take long to get the photos done. The producer thanked me and apologized for how I was treated by Darius. He told me he informed his manager, so I should be expecting an apology because she didn't stand for that kind of thing. I just hoped with the wat I handled myself today that it would maybe lead to jobs in the future.

I went back and changed back into my clothes and grabbed my stuff. I couldn't wait to go home after the day I've had. I needed a hot bath and a bottle of wine. I was so over it all. Darius had ruined my great day. He was such an ass. I hoped I never had to see him again.

I guess I spoke to soon because when I walked out Darius was standing against my car. What was he still doing here and why the hell was he by my car? I didn't want to deal with this jerk right now. I have had enough of him for the day. I held my head up high and walked right up to him. I was not going to take any of his crap.

"What do you think your doing by my car?"

"I wanted to apologize for how I acted earlier."

I wanted to laugh because a man like him didn't know the meaning of the word sorry. No, he was only doing this because the producer called him out on his shit. If he was so sorry he wouldn't be here with that smug smile on his damn face. He would mean it. This was all for show. I wasn't a fool, and I was done with this clown.

Him acting like he did showed what kind of man he was. I no longer had a crush on him and just wanted him to go away. His attitude made him ugly. He was just some fool that thought he was all that. I would tell this lil boy what he needed to hear so he would run a long and I could finally go home.

"Look it's fine can I go now?"

"Let me take you to dinner and make it up to you."

Okay I was not expecting that. Was he out of his damn mind? This man called me fat and said I needed a personal trainer and now he wanted to take me out? This boy must be tripping. What was his angle? No way would I ever go anywhere with him. Maybe before I knew who he truly was I would have but nope not now. I almost laughed in his face.

"That won't be necessary now I need to go but don't worry I forgive you for your narrow shallow little mind."

I moved him out of my way and got into my car. I left him there with his mouth hanging wide open like he had done me earlier. He didn't even know what had just happened. He looked dumb founded. He seriously thought I would say yes? That boy is such a fool. I have dealt with people like him for as long as I could remember they no longer had any effect on me.

Once I got home I put everything down and went into my hall closet and got me out a towel and my favorite fluffy robe. Then I went to the kitchen and grabbed a bottle of wine. I went into the bathroom and started my jacuzzi tub and put in my favorite bubble bath. Once it was full I got in and started to drink my bottle away. I let the jets melt away all my stress from the day.

Darius' pov

I got my start in commercials at the young age of five and have been in the business ever since. My ma uprooted her life at the time, so I could follow my dreams. When I got paid for the first movie I starred in I bought her a house back in our hometown to thank her. She wasn't cut out for the Hollywood lifestyle so once I was of age she went back home. Now I was out here all on my own with no family. It got lonely at times.

I've had several managers since I've been in the business but none of them ever truly believed in me. The manager I have now is close to my age and had really helped me to branch out. It was as if I had hit stardom overnight. Now I was the guy getting all the roles. I never got any time off I was on such high demand. It burnt a person out pretty fast.

The only reason I was doing this commercial was because my manager wanted me to make a good impression on this producer, so I could get a role in his new movie. Guess that wasn't happening now. The producer was not happy with how I acted. I can't say that I blamed him. I was very unprofessional. I doubt he would ever hire me for anything now. I messed up big time.

Needless to say, my manager was not happy with me right now. After all I was supposed to be cleaning up my image. She told me I better find Stacia and fix things. That everyone seemed to love her. That she was the type of sweet girl I needed to be seen being nice to. That it could save my image. How could she save my career? I've never even heard of her. I tried to question this, but my manager wasn't having it. She's gotten me this far so guess I really should listen to her. So, guess this means I needed to go play nice.

While they had Stacia back in some room they took some promo pics of me and had me do my part for the commercial. Then had me leave so she could do her part. I found out what car she drove and decided to just go and wait by it. I hated having to do this. I felt like I was a child being scolded for doing something wrong when I was a grown damn man. I did act like an ass. I mean I thought she was just another chick trying to play nice to get what she wanted from me. I just needed to swallow my pride before I ruined my career and apologized.

I really didn't want to be seen out here waiting for her like I was some stalker. This was not me. I was the type of man that was with women that made me look better and helped my image. The women that were thrown at me by my manager. I was all about my career. I didn't have time for anything else. I guess if it helps my career and gets me more parts I'll be nice to her, but I am not going to date her. I am done with them telling me what to do.

When she walked out I expected her to smile and play nice. She didn't look happy at all in fact she looked down right pissed. I tried to apologize to her but all she did was put me down. This chick didn't know who the hell she was talking too. I could end her career. I thought this was going to be easy guess I was wrong. She had the nerve to turn me down then drive off. No woman has ever turned me down before. She's got courage that's for sure.

I got into my limo and told my driver to take me home. I just wanted this day to be over and then I remembered I still had a date tonight. No use worrying all this drama right now. I will call my manager later and tell her I did what she wanted. I just didn't want to deal with her right now. I doubted being a jerk to one woman was going to ruin my career.

I made me who I am today. No one else but my ma helped me do that. I worked hard. No one will ever take that away from me. It'll all be fine. My manager just worried over every little thing. I did the commercial I apologized to everyone, so it was good. My manager needs to realize she works for me, or she can be replaced. I was done with people trying to control me.

Ever since I got to Hollywood I've had to deal with one person after another trying to change me. It was a dog eat dog world. I had to change the way I talk, dress, act, and look. They had control over every aspect of my life. They even tried to pick the women I dated. I've made all these people rich, so they needed to just back off.

I have done everything they have asked of me now it was time to do what I wanted. As long as I stayed away from the paparazzi, I should be fine. They were the ones blowing everything out of proportion. Maybe instead of going off on me they should hire a new P.R. person to fix the problems. If no one leaked what happened today, then she had nothing to worry about.

Besides they are the ones that got me this bad boy reputation. They wanted me to be seen with this girl and that girl. I had to be seen at all the latest clubs. Now they want to complain about all the bad publicity that they started. I never wanted any of that. I just wanted to make movies.

I never wanted to date all the women they threw at me. Half the time they would call the paparazzi and tell them where I was going to be. That got old fast. I never had any privacy. Now I was the one they wanted to blame. I was just sick of it all. Sometimes I wondered why I even do it. Was it even worth it anymore?

I called my date and told her I was running late but that I would be there. This woman was super sexy. I met her when she was an extra in a movie I was starring in. We hit it off right away she seemed really laid back and sweet. She was just what I needed to take my mind off of this crazy day. Yet I wasn't really feeling it.

Tomorrow night I had to be on my best behavior and make and appearance at this hip club. They were paying me to be there. So tonight, I just wanted to have some fun and unwind. I didn't want to be the Hollywood heartthrob. I just wanted to be a normal guy going to see a beautiful woman and spending some time getting to know her.

I pulled up outside her house and looked around. I should be excited but all I wanted to do was turn around and go home. I didn't want to be an ass, so I got out of my car and knocked on her door. She answered wearing nothing but a barely there bra and panty set. She only wanted me because she thought it would further her career. This is why I stopped dating. All they ever wanted was to be famous. Can't even have a meaningful relationship when all they wanted to do was use you.

I looked at her and just turned around and got in my car to head home. I mean yes, she was sexy, but I was over being used. I was tired of it all. I kept thinking of Stacia. Bet she would use a guy just to get a part. I get why she turned me down even though I was shocked. I loved a woman that stood her ground. I did feel bad about what I said to her. I was angry, and I took it out on her. The way I acted wasn't me at all.

If my ma saw me this way she would have me right back home trying to teach me a lesson. I needed to apologize to Stacia and this time mean it. I just thought she was another fangirl wanting me to make her famous. I didn't even give her a chance. I had some major ass kissing to do. I just hope she gives me the chance.

I decided to shut my phone off for the night order a pizza and just me normal for a night. I didn't want to be anyone but me. After my pizza came and I of course signed a few things for this guy I sat down on my couch. I put on an old cheesy movie grabbed a beer and pigged out like I never have before. It was just what I needed.

Chapter 2

Stacia's pov

Last night I drank way too much but I did laugh about everything that happened. I called an ex that is now a good friend he always made me feel better about myself. It was just what I needed. I went to bed with a smile on my face.

I woke up this morning and thought about everything that happened yesterday. I was still kind of heated. Who the hell treated people like that? He ruined my first ever acting gig. I just hoped he didn't ruin my career before it even got started.

Men like Darius make me sick. He thinks he has the right to talk to people any way he wanted. He thought he was God's gift to women. Well I for one would not be charmed by that snake. I mean sure he was sexy as sin, but his attitude made him an ugly person. I can't believe I ever had a crush on him. He was a total playboy. The tabloids were right about him.

I wasn't going to think of him for one more second. I know there will always be haters, and I was fine with that. That only made me work that much harder. I loved who I was, and I wasn't going to let anyone bring me down. Yes, I was a big beautiful woman it's not my fault he couldn't handle all of this. One day I will find a man to cherish each and every pound of me.

I did laundry and cleaned my apartment then poured myself a glass of wine. I decided to sit down relax and binge watch something on Netflix. My friends were all going out tonight, but I just wasn't in the mood. I was in my favorite over sized shirt and yoga pants with no make-up on. This was a perfect night for me.

I was about to start my movie when my phone rang. I looked to see who it was. It was my manager which made me nervous. I really didn't want to answer it. I didn't want to hear whatever she was going to bitch about. Was it about yesterday? Was Darius going to cost me this commercial? I guess I better just answer it.

"Hello."

"Hey Stacia, I was just checking in to see how you are doing and to apologize for what you had to deal with yesterday. I heard from the producer about what went down."

Okay I was not expecting that. My manager wasn't the nicest person at times, but she always got me jobs, so I stick with her. She has never called to see how I was doing before. I wondered what all she was told.

"It's fine haters only fuel me to work harder."

"That's a great mindset to have. The main reason I called is to tell you that you really won over the producer. He can't wait to work with you again, but don't worry Darius won't be involved this time."

"Wow that's amazing thank you for letting me know."

"I will let you know more once I have all the details worked out. Have a good night."

"Thank you have a good night yourself."

I hung up and squealed. Things were really starting to happen now. Sure, for now it was just commercials but that's how most get their start. I was excited about all this new work I would be having come in. Now I just wish I had a good man in my life to share it with.

I started second guessing my night in. I should be out celebrating. I called up my girls to see where they were heading tonight. Once I knew where we would be heading I went into my closet to see what I had to wear. Tonight, I was going all out. I hurried to get ready, so I could meet up with everyone. Maybe I could meet a guy while I was out. It was time to start getting back into the dating scene again.

I was feeling sexy and confident. Things were really looking up for me. Everything that had happened yesterday was now a distant memory. My friends were at some hot new club I have never even heard of. I called a cab because I was going to let loose and have some fun tonight.

I sent a text out to my girl Serenity letting her know I would be there soon. She seemed excited that I had changed my mind and decided to come out tonight. Maybe this was just what I needed. A night in would have been nice but I can do that any time. A night out dancing with my girls was rare. It was going to be an epic night. I could already tell.

The cab driver kept checking me out and trying not to get caught doing it. It gave me a much-needed ego boost. I knew I looked good tonight. I'm not being cocky just feeling very confident. It took me a long time to get to who I am now.

Darius' pov

Last night was so needed. I had more fun just being at home relaxing than I would have doing anything else. My manager kept blowing up my phone. She was harping on me about making my appearance at this hot new club. The owner paid good money for me to show up and be seen having a good time there. Which meant paparazzi would be out in full force trying to catch me acting a fool.

I couldn't bring a date tonight. I needed to look available, so all these women could fantasize about being with me. It sold movies I guess. She didn't say I couldn't call up my boys and hang out with them. I mean I had a whole VIP table to myself and I wasn't going to set here by myself all night.

I kept thinking about what a fool I made of myself yesterday. So far, I haven't heard anything about it. There were no rumors swirling about. I guess the producer made sure everyone kept it hush, hush.

I had never had anyone talk to me like Stacia had. I knew I deserved it though just wasn't used to it. Most people kissed ass now that I was famous. She was different though. She was brutally honest and didn't care if she made me mad. She didn't take any shit from no one.

She even turned me down. That has never happened before. Hell, I was just trying to apologize and do what my manager wanted me to do. I literally had women throwing themselves at me yet was thinking of the one that didn't want me. Of course, none of them wanted anything real. Why was I even fussing over all of this?

I mean sure if I was being truly honest she was sexy in her own way. If you liked bigger curvy women that is. I have never had the pleasure of dating a curvy, confident woman like her before. She was self-assured and sassy that was very appealing to me. I mean here she had me still thinking about her. I needed to see her again.

I really did hate how I acted. My mama would be so disappointed in me. She didn't raise me to be like this. I deserved everything Stacia said to me. Maybe I would find a way to get a hold of her, so I could give her a real apology. Then again to save my pride from being bruised again maybe I should just send her flowers and an apology letter.

I came up with an even better idea to get her to forgive me. A buddy of mine wanted me to do this movie he is co-producing so, maybe if I got Stacia a part in it, it would make up for me being such an ass. I called my buddy and told him I'd do the movie on one condition that he found a part for Stacia.

He knew who she was which surprised me. Guess she was making a name for herself already. For some reason that made me smile. The producer of the commercial seemed to be taken with her as well. My buddy kept saying how sexy she was, and it pissed me off. I wanted to rip his damn head off for saying that. What was going on with me?

I got in the limo my manager sent over and headed to pick up my boys. I really wasn't in the mood for this tonight, but I had too. I hated this part of my career. No doubt Paparazzi will be everywhere tonight. I wouldn't be able to sneeze without them knowing about it.

I couldn't stop thinking about Stacia after what my buddy had said about her. He thought she was super sexy and I'm sure other men did as well. Hearing him go on and on about her had me seeing red. This girl was getting under my skin. Honestly, I wasn't even sure how I felt about that. I needed to squash that shit down and fast.

She hated me and the chance of me changing that any time soon was nearly impossible. She wouldn't even let me take her to dinner. No way would she ever get with a guy like me. I needed to forget all about Stacia before I actually caught feelings for her.

I got her a part in a movie. I think that more than makes up for me being a fool. It was time to put that behind me and enjoy my free night out with my boys. I rarely get night out like this even if technically I am still working. I know my boys and I will have fun and they will keep me out of trouble.

I needed a woman that was all about having fun. I wasn't ready for the kind of relationship that a woman like Stacia demanded. I was so busy that I was more of a one-night stand type of guy. Somehow, I didn't see her being down with that. She was more of a put a ring on it and tie that shit down type of woman. The type you bring home to meet your family and make your wifey.

The guys kept talking about what kind of woman they were looking to take home tonight. Ethan and I just looked at each other and shook our heads. Guess we were the only ones not looking to get into trouble tonight. It just got old after a while. I just wasn't feeling it tonight.

I have known Ethan since we were kids. Way before I had gotten famous. I considered him a true friend. I knew he would always have my back. The rest I met through acting jobs. They liked the perks of knowing me more than really being a true friend it seemed.

I got a text from my manager telling me to stay out of trouble. I just still needed to give off the appearance of the Hollywood bad boy since that's what sold movies and made everyone a ton of money. They wanted who I played not who I really was.

Sometimes I forgot who I really was because I have changed so much just to please others. I did what I needed to do to survive. I kept saying I was doing it to make my ma proud. Sadly, she would not be proud right now. She would be knocking some sense into me and say I was acting crazy. Man, I loved my ma, I needed to get back home and see my family.

We pulled up to the club and I was right Paparazzi was everywhere. We got out of the limo and I had to pose for like a million photos. When I was finally done and got into the club we were immediately taken to the VIP section. This was the perks that came along with being famous.

Before I even sat down I was having drinks put right in front of me. I never got used to this kind of treatment. Some of my boys however had no problem dropping my name to get these perks. I looked around it was a really nice club, but I just wasn't into it. I just rather be at my place instead of here faking it for the cameras.

I rather be at home grilling out and just relaxing with Ethan. I could tell by the way he was acting that he really didn't feel like being here either. Women were trying to throw themselves at me, but I just wasn't having it tonight. I had to be here, but I also had to be on my best behavior. I was trying to be nice, but I just wanted to leave already.

I wondered how long I had to stay before I could leave. I was not going to be closing this club down. I know I am being paid to be here, but I never agreed to being here all night. I never actually agreed to this at all. My manager set it up without even asking me first. She was setting up jobs and then telling me I have to do them. I feel like I work for her instead of her working for me. I was getting burnt out.