I waited seven years for Jax Vetti, the youngest Capo in New York, to finally claim me. Instead, five minutes before our scheduled engagement, he called me a burden behind a velvet curtain.
Standing on the center stage of the Gala, he didn't reach for my hand. He took the hand of Chloe Davenport, his rival's daughter, and announced to the underworld that she was carrying his heir.
When the explosion tore through the ballroom moments later, Jax didn't hesitate. He threw his body over Chloe, shielding her completely, and dragged her to the safe room.
I was left behind, exposed and helpless, until a massive crystal chandelier crashed down, crushing my legs and slicing my throat.
While I lay bleeding out on the cold floor, Jax returned. He looked at my shattered body not with horror, but with disgust.
"You're a liability, Savvy," he sneered, ordering his guards to dump me in the courtyard like trash so I wouldn't upset his pregnant fiancée.
I clutched the bullet casing he gave me years ago-a blood oath he swore would bind us forever. He had promised to protect me, but tonight, he stepped over my broken body to comfort the woman who was secretly plotting his demise.
His second-in-command found me before the cold took me.
"He's lost his mind," Ben whispered, scooping me up and driving me to a private jet bound for Sicily.
I didn't die that night. But the girl who loved Jax Vetti did.
Six months later, I returned from the dead. Not as his victim, but as the woman who would turn his wedding into a funeral.
Chapter 1
He called me a burden exactly five minutes before he was scheduled to put a ring on my finger.
I stood frozen behind the heavy velvet curtain of the smoking room, my hand hovering over the cold brass handle.
Inside, the air smelled of expensive cigars and the sharp, metallic tang of betrayal.
"She's a child, Ben." Jax's voice was low, a rumble that usually made my stomach flip with excitement. Now, it just curdled the champagne in my gut.
"Savvy is a relic of a past I'm trying to outgrow. She's sweet, sure. But sweet doesn't secure the southern territories."
"She worships you, Jax." Ben's voice was tighter, hesitant. "She's waited four years. You gave her your word."
"I gave her a soft 'maybe' to keep her docile," Jax scoffed. The sound of ice hitting glass echoed in the silence that followed. "I need the Davenport ports. Chloe brings me power. Savvy brings me... what? Blind loyalty? I have dogs for that."
My breath hitched in my throat.
I wasn't supposed to be here.
I was supposed to be in the ballroom, fixing my lipstick, preparing for the moment Jax Vetti, the youngest Capo in the history of the New York families, would finally claim me.
Jax was a god in this city.
He'd killed his first man at sixteen.
By twenty-five, he controlled the docks, the unions, and the police force.
He was violence wrapped in a bespoke Armani suit, a man who could snap a neck with the same hands that used to braid my hair when I was twelve.
I touched the cold metal of the necklace hidden under my dress.
It was a bullet casing.
When I was fifteen, a drive-by shooting had shattered the windows of my father's bakery.
Jax had thrown his body over mine.
He had taken a bullet to the shoulder that was meant for my head.
He gave me the casing afterwards, warm and jagged.
Keep this, he had said, blood soaking his white shirt. It's a blood oath, Savvy. As long as you have this, you're mine.
I had believed him.
On my eighteenth birthday, I confessed I loved him.
He had smirked, touched my cheek with a thumb rough from gun oil, and said, Wait until you're twenty-two. If you're still pure, maybe I'll keep you.
I had turned twenty-two yesterday.
Tonight was the Gala.
Tonight was the deadline.
I stepped back from the door, my heels silent on the plush carpet.
My chest didn't hurt.
It felt empty, hollowed out, like someone had reached inside and scooped out everything vital with a jagged spoon.
I walked back to the ballroom, my legs moving on autopilot.
The room was a sea of diamonds and black ties, a display of wealth built on blood and silence.
Omertà.
The code of silence.
Tonight, it applied to my heartbreak, too.
I took my place near the edge of the dance floor, smoothing the silk of my white dress.
I looked like a bride.
I felt like a corpse.
The double doors opened.
Jax walked in.
He was devastatingly handsome, dark hair slicked back, eyes like cold obsidian.
He owned the room.
Every man feared him.
Every woman wanted him.
I watched him, waiting for his eyes to find mine.
He scanned the crowd.
His gaze slid over me like I was part of the furniture.
He turned back to the entrance and extended his hand.
Chloe Davenport stepped into the light.
She was everything I wasn't.
Sharp, wealthy, the daughter of the rival Don.
She wore red.
The color of war.
Jax tucked her hand into the crook of his elbow and led her to the center stage.
The room went quiet.
My heart hammered against my ribs, a frantic bird trapped in a cage.
"Family." Jax's voice projected without a microphone, commanding absolute attention. "Tonight, we unite North and South. I am proud to introduce my intended, Chloe Davenport."
Applause erupted.
It was a thunderous sound, drowning out the ringing in my ears.
I stood still.
Chloe looked at Jax, her hand drifting down to rest on her flat stomach.
It was a subtle gesture.
But in our world, it screamed.
She was carrying his heir.
The room buzzed with the implication.
I felt the eyes of the other women on me.
Pitying glances.
Mocking whispers.
Poor Savvy. She really thought she had a chance.
She's just a soldier's daughter. A placeholder.
I looked at Jax one last time.
He was smiling at Chloe.
Then, he looked up.
His eyes locked with mine across the crowded room.
There was no apology.
No guilt.
Just a cold, hard stare that said, Know your place.
I took a step back.
Then another.
I retreated into the shadows, the cold metal of the bullet casing burning a brand against my skin.
I wasn't part of this family anymore.
I was just a ghost haunting their celebration.
I turned to leave, desperate for air, desperate to escape the suffocating weight of my shattered life.
But I didn't make it to the door.
The explosion didn't register as a sound.
It hit me as a physical force-a concussive punch to the chest that evacuated the oxygen from the room in a single, violent instant.
Glass didn't just shatter; it vaporized.
Screams tore through the air, instantly replacing the polite applause.
Gunfire erupted from the mezzanine-a rhythmic, mechanical pop-pop-pop that sent the criminal elite scrambling like rats in a cage.
The shockwave swept my legs out from under me.
I hit the floor hard.
Dust and pulverized drywall rained down, coating my tongue in chalk.
I coughed, struggling to push myself up, but my ears were ringing with a high-pitched whine that drowned out my own voice.
"Jax!"
The name ripped from my throat.
It was a reflex.
A fatal habit.
My eyes snapped toward the stage.
Above the center platform, the massive crystal chandelier groaned, swinging dangerously on a snapped chain.
Jax was there.
He was already on his feet, his sidearm drawn, scanning the upper levels with lethal precision.
Then, he looked at me.
For a split second, our gaze locked through the haze of plaster dust.
I was on the floor, exposed, a sitting duck near the main exit where the shooters were converging.
Above him, the metal groaned again.
Chloe was cowering behind a podium, screaming, her hands over her head.
Jax didn't hesitate.
He didn't come for me.
He turned his back.
He threw his body over Chloe, shielding her completely, and dragged her toward the reinforced safe room behind the stage.
The chandelier gave way.
It didn't hit them.
It swung wide, crashing into the floor near me and sending a tidal wave of crystal shards and twisted metal in my direction.
I tried to scramble back, clawing at the carpet.
I wasn't fast enough.
A heavy brass fixture slammed into my shins.
I heard the wet snap of bone a second before the pain registered.
Then, a jagged shard of crystal the size of a butcher knife sliced across my neck.
Hot wetness immediately flooded my collarbone.
Blood.
So much blood.
Darkness clawed at the edges of my vision, threatening to pull me under.
But I didn't pass out.
The agony wouldn't let me.
I lay there for what felt like hours-though it must have been mere minutes-until the gunfire ceased.
Security teams swarmed the room like angry hornets.
"Clear! Sector clear!"
Two guards heaved the debris off my crushed legs.
I screamed, the sound wet and gurgling in my throat.
They didn't use a stretcher. They dragged me-literally dragged me-to the family's private medical suite in the back of the hotel.
The room was bright, sterile, and chaotic.
And Jax was there.
He was pristine. Unhurt.
He stood by a bed, holding Chloe's hand.
She had a small cut on her forehead. A scratch.
He was dabbing it with a tenderness that made my stomach turn.
"It's okay," he murmured to her, his voice low. "You're safe. The heir is safe."
A doctor was stitching my neck. No anesthesia. There wasn't time.
I gritted my teeth, hot tears leaking from the corners of my eyes.
"Jax..." I rasped.
He turned.
His face hardened the moment he saw me.
"You're alive," he said flatly.
"You left me," I whispered, the betrayal stinging worse than the needle. "You chose her."
Chloe looked at me then. Her eyes held no fear. They were triumphant.
She whimpered, clutching Jax's bicep. "Jax, she's looking at me like she wants to kill me. It's scaring the baby."
Jax's jaw tightened.
"Savvy, stop it," he snapped. "Stop being dramatic. We had to secure the high-value targets first. That's protocol."
"I'm not a target," I choked out. "I'm... I was..."
"You're jealous," he cut me off, his voice dripping with disgust. "And it's pathetic. Look at you. Bleeding all over the floor, making a scene while my fiancée is in shock."
He turned to the guards, dismissing me with a wave of his hand.
"Get her out of here. She's upsetting Chloe."
"Sir, her leg-" one guard started.
"I said get her out!" Jax roared. "Put her in the courtyard to cool off until the transport arrives. I don't want to see her face."
The guards hesitated, terrified, then obeyed.
They dumped me into a wheelchair.
They pushed me roughly through the double doors, out into the biting cold of the night air.
The cobblestones were uneven.
The guard pushed too hard.
The front caster jammed into a drainage grate.
The chair tipped.
I flew forward.
My head slammed into the stone rim of the central fountain.
The impact was blinding.
I felt the fresh stitches in my neck burst open.
Warm blood sprayed over the cold water, swirling into the fountain.
I couldn't move. My broken leg was twisted beneath me at a sickening angle.
Jax stepped out onto the balcony above.
He looked down at me, sprawled in my own blood.
"You're a mess, Savvy," he called down, the flare of his lighter illuminating his cold face. "A liability. If you can't handle the life, maybe you should just leave."
He turned and walked back inside to his pregnant fiancée.
I lay on the freezing stones, staring up at the uncaring stars.
Something inside me finally snapped.
And for once, it wasn't a bone.
It was the tether that had bound me to him for seven agonizing years.
"Savvy?"
A shadow fell over me.
Ben Miller.
Jax's second-in-command. My brother's best friend before my brother was buried.
He knelt beside me, his hands shaking as they hovered over my broken body.
"Jesus Christ," he whispered. "He's lost his mind."
"Help me," I gasped. "Not... to the hospital. Away. Get me away."
Ben looked up at the balcony where Jax had disappeared.
Then he looked back at me, broken and bleeding on the ground.
"Okay," he said, his voice hardening into steel. "Okay."
He didn't wait for a stretcher. He scooped me up in his arms.
He didn't take me to the family doctors.
He carried me to his personal sedan, bypassing the security checkpoint with a sharp nod to the gate guards.
He threw a heavy duffel bag into the backseat.
"There's cash," he said, firing the engine. "And a passport I made for you three years ago. Just in case."
I looked at him through swollen, tear-filled eyes.
"Why?"
"Because you're not a dog, Savvy," Ben said, peeling out of the lot, leaving rubber on the pavement. "And he just treated you worse than one."
I leaned my head against the cool glass.
I watched the lights of the gala fade into the distance.
I was bleeding out.
I was broken.
But I was leaving.
And I swore, if I survived this, the Savvy who loved Jax Vetti would die in that fountain tonight.
The SUV bottomed out against a pothole, and a lance of white-hot agony shot up my leg.
I clamped my teeth into my lip, tasting copper, desperate to keep from screaming.
Every jolt in the road was a physical reminder.
Jax's hand on Chloe's back.
Jax's back turned to me.
A liability.
The word ricocheted inside my skull, louder than the roar of the engine.
"Stay with me, Savvy," Ben's voice was tight, laced with a panic I rarely heard from him. He was driving like a man possessed, weaving the black SUV through the gridlock of New York traffic.
"I made a call," he continued, his eyes darting to the rearview mirror. "I have a contact. A private airstrip in Jersey."
"Where?" I wheezed, clutching the towel Ben had pressed to my neck. The fabric was already heavy, soaked through with warm, sticky blood.
"Sicily," he said. "The Rossi family. They owe me a favor. A big one. Jax's reach is long, but the Rossis... they don't bow to New York thrones."
Sicily.
The old country.
I closed my eyes, the darkness rushing in to greet me.
I drifted into a fever dream.
I was back at the gala. The crystal chandelier was falling, a glittering guillotine.
But this time, it wasn't an accident.
Jax was holding the rope.
He looked at me, offered a cold, regretful smile, and let go.
I woke up screaming.
We were in a cavernous hangar. The acrid bite of jet fuel burned my nose, stinging my throat.
A man in a dark suit was waiting by the steps of a Gulfstream. He spoke rapid-fire Italian to Ben.
They loaded me onto a stretcher. The movement sent fresh shockwaves of pain through my body.
"You have to go," I told Ben, my fingers gripping his wrist with whatever feeble strength I had left. My hand was trembling violently. "If Jax finds out..."
"Let him find out," Ben spat, his jaw set in granite. "He broke the code tonight. You protect your own. He didn't."
"Go," I insisted, my voice barely a whisper. "I need eyes here. I need to know... everything."
Ben looked down at me. He saw the change in my eyes.
The girl who baked cookies for the crew was gone. Dead on the ballroom floor.
"I'm seeing you safely to the Rossis first," Ben promised, his voice dropping to a vow. "Then I go back. And I'll watch him burn."
I woke up three days later in a room that smelled of lemons and sea salt.
My leg was encased in a heavy cast.
My neck was bandaged tight, the pressure constant.
A doctor was standing over me, an older man with kind eyes but a mouth set in a grim line.
"You are lucky, Signorina," he said in heavily accented English. "The cut on your neck... two millimeters to the left, and you bleed out in three minutes."
He handed me a hand mirror.
I took it, my fingers stiff.
My face was pale, mottled with bruises.
But the neck...
An angry, jagged red line ran from just under my ear down to my collarbone.
It was ugly.
It was permanent.
"It will scar," the doctor said apologetically, clasping his hands behind his back. "Badly."
I lowered the mirror.
"Good," I said. My voice was a rasp, shredded by the trauma.
"Good?"
"It reminds me never to be stupid again."
Ben had left a burner phone on the nightstand.
It blinked with a message.
He's spinning the story. Says you had a mental breakdown. Says you ran away because you couldn't handle the pressure. He's playing the concerned leader.
I typed back with one hand, the keys clicking softly.
Let him talk.
A week later, I was sitting in a wheelchair on the terrace, looking out at the glittering expanse of the Mediterranean Sea.
I overheard Ben on the phone inside. He had stayed these few days just to ensure the security detail was impenetrable before returning to the States.
"It wasn't an accident, Marco," Ben was whispering, though the wind carried his voice to me. "I checked the security logs. The chandelier supports were cut manually. And Jax... he knew. I heard him talking to Julian. He needed a distraction to get Chloe out before the hit went down."
My blood ran cold.
It wasn't just that he chose her.
He knew the attack was coming.
He sacrificed the room. He sacrificed me. Just to solidify his alliance with the Davenports.
He didn't just let me get hurt.
He engineered the stage for it.
I looked down at my hands.
They were shaking.
Not from fear.
From rage.
Pure, unadulterated rage.
It burned hotter than the shattered bone in my leg.
I remembered the elders talking about loyalty. About family.
It was all a lie.
Just a pretty wrapper for their greed.
I wheeled myself back inside.
Ben hung up the phone immediately when he saw me.
"Savvy..."
"I need a tattoo artist," I said, my voice steady.
Ben blinked. "What? You're still healing."
"I need an artist who knows Kintsugi," I said. "The Japanese art of repairing broken pottery with gold."
I touched the bandage on my neck.
"I'm not going to hide this scar, Ben. I'm going to highlight it. I want everyone to see exactly where he tried to break me."
"And then?" Ben asked softly.
I looked at the small wooden box on the table.
Inside was the bullet casing Jax gave me years ago.
The blood oath.
I picked up the box.
"And then," I said, staring at the brass, "I'm going to learn how to break him."