Hate That I Love you

Chapter 1

"Happy anniversary, Babe!" I congratulated my boyfriend for getting close and hugged him very tightly "Are you okay? Do you seem sad now?" I'm worried about the question

"I'm okay. Just stressed about the thesis" he smiled at me. He hugged me back before planting a kiss on the head

"Happy anniversary" he whispered to me.

After a while, I saw behind her Kim my best friend and Mark her boyfriend and Prin's best friend. Kim gave me a beautiful smile while Prin's face was wrinkled "What happened to your boyfriend?" I whispered as Kim approached us "That's just not in the mood. Let it go" he said laughing

"Hey, help me later. Let's fix my condo. It's our anniversary. I'll surprise him later" I excitedly told Kim

"I'm in" he also whispered to me

Kim and I grew up together. Our mommies are best friends, that's why when they found out that their daughter will be the same girl, they were very happy. They still plan to get pregnant at the same time, which is why Kim and I's birthdays are only one day apart. We are both only children, that's why we found a sibling in each other.

"Babe, Kim and I are leaving first, we're just going to buy you and Mark some bonding first" I said goodbye

"Where are you taking Kim?" her boyfriend asked

"Just letting you know. Babe, I'll text you later "I smiled and went back to Kim to ask her to buy some design for our surprise later. I also plan to cook Prin's favorite carbonara to make him happy.

Prin, Mark, and Kim are doing business. They were in the same class, only I was separated because I took architecture. Our families are known in the field of business. My family owns chains of hotels, because of the only child they wanted me to handle our business, but I declined because I wanted to make my own name I do not want to depend on them though I am really grateful because they give me everything I need. They are not strict with me either. I can do whatever I want. Sometimes they say I have a headache but they still love me "I don't know but I'm nervous for later. Come with me and let's surprise Prin" I said to my friend.

"Of course. I'll take the pictures and video. What's the point of me being your bff if I can't support you"

It was almost 4:pm when we finished all our shopping. We immediately went to my condo to fix it. Kim made all the decorations while I was busy preparing the food.

I hope Prin likes it

It was 6:pm when we finished and we were ready. Kim texted Mark and Prin to go to the condo.

The light was off and only heart shaped candles illuminated the whole place. I was standing in the middle of it holding a cake with a message written on it. "Happy 5th anniversary Babe!"

Little by little we heard the turning of the doorknob

They are here!

The song "More Than Words" immediately started playing. The door opened and Prin's shocked eyes were the first thing I saw. It was replaced by joy and little by little I could see the smiles on his lips. He approached me while shaking his head. He stood in front of me.

"I should be the one doing this not the other way around Baby" he answered with a laugh

"I love you. This makes me happy. Seeing your reaction makes me happy" I said tearfully

He took the cake I was holding and handed it to Mark who I didn't notice was with him. He and Kim are standing next to each other and looking at us. Prin touched both of my cheeks.

"You deserve a guy better than me. I love you even if things are against things. I love you. Even if our situation seems vague, I love you and when I can I will shout that I love you so much" he said before giving me a kiss on the lips

Confused by the words he said, I closed my eyes to feel his kiss.

He let go and I could see his teary eyes. I turned back to where he was looking and saw that our two friends hadn't left yet. I suddenly felt ashamed I ​held his hand.

"I prepare something for you" I said and pulled him to the veranda to show him the dinner I prepared for the two of us.

Prin hugged me from behind.

"The luck of your marriage" he whispered to me

"And that will be you, idiot" and hit his arm "Let's eat" my nanny said

"I think we need to go" said Mark while holding Kim's hand. I gave him a thumbs up to show that our plan was a success.

He gave me a smile.

"You can stay. Arisse seems to have prepared a lot "It's your anniversary Prin. We'll let you have your night tonight and I'll take care of my girlfriend first" and hugged Kim.

"Oh, okay" Prin nodded

I stood up to hug Kim.

"I owe you a lot. I'll make it up to you next time. Super thank you. I love you" I whispered to him.

"Enjoy the rest of the night"

They left and Prin and I were left behind. I noticed that Prin suddenly became silent. I'm the only one who constantly asks him questions and stories "Is there a problem Prin?" I noticed his somewhat surprised reaction before smiling

"Nothing. I'm just shy because I didn't prepare anything special for you"

"No need. You are enough for me. I'm doing this cause I have the time. I understand that you're busy" I said with a smile

He went next to me. He held my hand.

"Thank you for the love Arisse. I really appreciate this. Your love is so grand. Your love always covers me. It makes me feel that I am really special. I don't know what I did in the past life to experience this. I am happy with you. I've been truly and genuinely happy with you" this tearful statement

"I am happy too. We won't last this long if I'm not happy"

"If the day ever comes when I hurt you too much, will you still forgive me? Will you still love me? I can't see you crying because of me. It will really hurt me" tears continued to fall from his eyes. He bent down before bringing my hands to his lips and kissing them

"Hey, I know you won't hurt me and if that ever comes, I know my love for you is big enough to forgive you. My love for you is enough to accept whatever it is" and wiped the tears from his cheeks .

He hugged me tightly and cried on my shoulder.

"Believe me when I tell you that I love you. You are a gift, Arisse"

I smiled and hugged him too. The night ended and he slept in the condo. We even went down memory lane on how we started.

I am truly happy with him. His love is more than enough for me. He is the man I want and I have chosen to stick with.

"You saved me Mark. Thank you" I said in the middle of my tears.

"Hush now. Come on and I'll take you home"

I broke away from hugging him. He wiped the tears from my eyes.

"Like a child" he said before smiling

He helped me fix myself before going to his car "Please, don't tell anyone about this" I told him

"What do you mean? What about Prin? He needs to know this!" Mark said angrily

"Don't, please Mark. I don't want to talk about it. When I grow up I don't know how to deal with Prin" I said crying

"He's your boyfriend. Do you think he'll change his opinion of you just because of that?! Your opinion of my friend is shallow"

"No. It's not like that. I just don't want it Mark. What will others say? For sure, when Prin finds out, he won't allow himself to not get revenge. I'm afraid of what might happen to him Mark. So please, let's stop here. Don't to convey even to Kim. I don't want them to worry and he will tell my parents. I don't want bodyguards. Please Mark" I begged him

"How about that asshale. What do you plan to do with him?" he asked me

"I don't know" and looked at the front of the car Mark hit the steering wheel

"Arisse, you need to do an action about this! What if he does it again and this time I'm not there to save you? What will you do?" it shouted

"What should I do then Mark?"

I looked at him and looked for an answer from him

"We will file a case against him. Tro"

"Okay. Will you help me?"

He was silent for a while.

"Fine. Let's go straight to the precinct now"

I nodded in agreement. After entering the precinct, I was suddenly nervous because the police were looking at us. I grabbed the sleeve of his t shirt. He immediately looked at me

"Hmm" he asked

"I'm nervous"

"Don't worry. My uncle is an officer here we will go to him" and Mark grabbed me by the shoulders to show me the right way

When we entered, a middle-aged man greeted us and immediately took care of us. Mark gave all the details that I couldn't answer because of crying.

The questioning ended and we were told that it would be up to them to inform Gian of the action we took.

Mark took me to the front of my condo unit "Are you good? Can you do it?"

I showed him a forced smile.

"Yes. Thank you very much Mark. As long as we talk about it, only we can find out"

He didn't answer right away. I held his arm

"Please Mark. I just asked you for a favor today"

"Yes! But if I see him approach you again and he does something again, I will tell Prin"

I nodded in agreement.

"Where is Kim?"

"Nobody left. They have a 3 day immersion going on right now," he explained

"Owww, I see"

We were both silent after that conversation

To Be Continued..

Chapter 2

"Alright, come in. Drink some calming tea" he instructed me

I hugged him before I finally entered the condo "Thank you" before I closed the door.

I sat on the sofa in the living room and that's when everything that happened earlier sunk in on me I was harassed. I almost got raped. Without Mark, I don't know how much Gian can do with me

Tears welled up in my eyes again.

Oh God! Thank you for coming Mark!

I buried my face in my palms and cried. My tears don't stop. I feel fear, anger, pity I am sorry for what happened to me. I was protected by the people around me but now I am tainted. Someone just tainted me. I cried even more than I thought. I stopped crying when my cellphone rang. It was an unknown number.

I answered the call but didn't speak right away. No one spoke on the other line either. I sobbed because I couldn't stop crying and I was running out of air.

"stop crying"

I recognized the voice and began to cry even more. Mark's voice comforts me.

"I said stop crying, you cry more" he said annoyed

I smiled at what he said.

"Open the door. I brought you food" it ordered

I was surprised by what he said and quickly wiped away the tears. I ran to the door and there I saw Mark with a jollibee.

"I asked Kim and she said this is your favorite food. Can I come in?"

I opened the door wider for him to enter He placed the food on the center table and brought out the food one by one. He brought Jolly hotdog, oreo sundae, fries, and yum burger.

"Prin also said you love donuts" and took out the chocobuttenut.

"They know?" I was afraid to ask him

"No. I just said I saw you and you looked sad so they told me to bring you that" he said before taking some fries and eating them.

I sat down and started eating the food he brought. These are my comfort foods. I got some fries and dipped them in the sundae. I immediately noticed Mark's frown.

"It's good. You should try" I said because I realized he hasn't tried the fries and sundae tandem yet.

He did what was offered. There was no reaction on his face, so I don't know if he liked it, but when he repeated it, I smiled.

I just ate while I saw Mark turning to me several times.

"I'm okay Mark. You don't have to worry" I said amidst the silence.

"You cried after I left so I don't believe you're okay. You got almost raped, Arisse. I don't know how you can say you're okay" I held my breath. Tears welled up in my eyes again.

"I'm scared" I said while bending down. "I hate Gian for what he did to me. I felt dirty. I can still feel those tight hands on my face and hands. I can still feel his filthy lips in my necks. I can just feel him and I hate it" I said and trying not to cry Mark couldn't answer what I said.

"I'm scared of what people might say. What my family will do. I'm scared for them, for Prin, for Kim, and even for you. You hurt him and we all know how powerful their family are"

"They can't touch us, Arisse. I guarantee you. I don't know how to erase those thoughts that linger on you right now but I want you to feel that you are safe. You are safe with me, with Prin. You don 't have to worry. We got you" he reassured me.

"I think you should sleep now"

I stood up to follow him. I cleaned my body and I know I spent a lot of time in cr because I soaped my body several times. When I came out, Mark was still there "You sleep. Open your bedroom's door. I'll stay here on the couch until you fall asleep okay. You can see me here from your bed. If you need anything just call me. I won't leave"

I nodded and got a pillow for him to use. I went straight to bed. I turned to lie down and I could see Mark lying there with his eyes closed. I stared at him until sleepiness gradually pulled my eyes I woke up because of the laughter I heard from the living room. I immediately went to the kitchen and saw Kim, Prin, and Mark talking while eating

Prin stood up and immediately approached me. He fixed my messy hair.

"Mark says you need us. Something's wrong babe?"

"Nothing. I just don't feel well"

Mark and I looked at each other quickly but he just shook his head. Kim also approached me and hugged me.

"I thought your immersion was 3 days?" I asked curiously

"Should I replace you in the immersion? What did you do to make your eyes look like that? You can call me if you're sad," he continued.

"I don't want to disturb you"

"But it's okay for me? Tsk" laughed Mark Prin and Kim both laughed

"Miracle. You seem to be okay now. This is new" Prin said in amazement "Come here babe I cooked breakfast"

I sat next to him. I hugged him sideways. Feeling the warmth of Prin's body brings tears to my eyes again

Here's my comfort. I am safe now. Prin is here Mark and I met our eyes. I mouthed "thank you" to him. He just politely nodded.

"Eat now and your food will be cold" Prin commented so I immediately ate too The next few days were not easy for me. Every time I enter the room, I feel a great fear that I might see Gian again, but after the incident happened with Gian's shadow, I never saw him again. So little by little I also returned to my old enthusiasm.

"Arisse, your daddy needs you" Mommy cried while calling me

"Wait, 'My calm down. Where are you?" I said confused

"St. Lukes dear. Please come hurry! Your daddy got shot"

I stopped at what Mommy announced. I feel doubly nervous.

Oh God! Not now please!

"Can someone pick me up?" I left the room and didn't know where to go

"No. He is with us now. We might transfer your daddy so I need him here"

"Okay Mom I'll find my way to get there" I said and ran down our building.

Right when I got off, I saw Mark, Prin, and Kim going to my building. They were laughing and didn't seem to notice me They were stunned when I stood in front of them panting.

"Babe, can you drive me now?"

"Are you going to cut class, Arisse?" Annoyance was evident in Prin's voice

"Dad got shot. He needs me Prin. He needs me" my voice trembled as I said this My three friends looked at each other "Babe, I still have meeting. I will go directly to tito after this but I can't drive you right now" this sad response

"What?! Really Prin? Meeting over the life of my Dad? Really?" I couldn't believe his answer and turned away from him.

I'll just commute. It's up to him. I am so disappointed with him. I know he's busy with us graduating but hell! It was dad. I'll drop everything for him just to be with him in this kind of situation. There is pain in my heart while thinking about it. He is the one I hope I can lean on at this time and I just can't believe he just rejected me like that.

I tried to walk fast, but before I could get out of the gate, someone pulled my hand. A warm hug enveloped me.

"I'm sorry. I really do. I want to be with you but this is important too, babe. Please bare with me. I promise to be there. I promise" Prin whispered in my ear. I hugged him tightly.

All my annoyance disappeared after hearing what he said. Maybe I was just too emotional this time that's why I acted like that.

"Arisse, Prin and I will go there together after the meeting, I promise I'll take her" I heard Kim's gentle voice.

I nodded in response. I need to go now.

"Mark will drive you to the hospital" added Kim

I looked at Mark but I couldn't see any reaction in his eyes or even on his face.

Maybe he doesn't want to?

"Let's go?" It's my nanny

We followed him. I was surprised when he rode the motorcycle. He handed me a helmet.

"Where's your car?" I can't stop asking him "Coding" is the answer

"I don't know how to ride"

"Don't worry I won't drop you" he answered sarcastically

Prin took the helmet from me. He planted a kiss on my lips before putting the hemet on me.

"Be strong Babe okay? Wait for me there"

Mark started the car. Prin supported me to ride "Hold tight" said Mark before starting the motor.

I was holding his shoulders. At first he was just running slowly. Others of our time are even ahead of us

"Mark! Sorry but can you speed up maybe I can't reach anything" I shouted because he might not be able to hear because of the wind hitting our faces.

He suddenly sped up. I was so unprepared that I almost fell. He accelerated the speed of his car and because I was afraid that I might fall, I immediately hugged his waist.

I don't know what he was thinking but my mind was too occupied. I'm afraid of what will happen in the hospital. I'm also preparing myself for what I can hear.

A few minutes later we arrived at the hospital. I quickly got off the motorcycle. I quickly ran into the hospital but immediately someone stopped my arm. I turned around and it was Mark.

I looked at him in wonder but he only answered with a knock from the helmet I was wearing

What a shame! I didn't take off the helmet! I didn't know how to take off the helmet but when Mark noticed that I was struggling, he took it off himself. I patted his arm.

"Thank you. I'll get back to you soon, promise" I said and hurriedly ran into the hospital.

I saw Mommy crying while walking back and forth.

"Mommy" I called

He ran between us and hugged me tightly.

"Arisse, your daddy, your daddy" Mommy couldn't finish what she was going to say because of her crying.

I could see a lot of blood on his clothes, even on his cheeks and hands.

What happened?!

"How is he?" I'm worried about the question "They're inside the OR. He got shot multiple times. He protected me that's why he hit many times" explained Mommy

"How about you 'my. Have you looked?"

Mommy immediately shook her head

"I want to be here. I want to be the first thing your Daddy sees once he wakes up "Mommy, do you think Daddy will be happy that you look like that. Look at you?" The tears I'd been holding back rolled to the side "You're full of blood mommy. It's Daddy's blood. Let's clean you up first" I said while wiping the dried blood from Mommy's face.

To Be Continued...

Chapter 3

Mommy's hands touched my cheeks. Tears have already escaped from my eyes. Mommy smiled at me.

"I'm sorry for making you worry. I'll clean myself now. You wait for your daddy. I'll be back as soon as I can."

I nodded in agreement

"Here Auntie"

A bottled water came from behind. Mommy accepted it and drank it. When I looked back, I saw Mark standing behind me. I just smiled at him as a thank you "Where's Prin and Kim?" Mommy asked in surprise

"Mommy is in a meeting, but they will also come here afterwards" I explained

"Okay. Mark can you stay with Arisse for a while?"

"No problem Aunt"

We took Mommy to her room at the hospital. He didn't want to agree at first but didn't do anything because Mark and I convinced him. I was with Mark waiting outside the operating room. There was a chair between the two of us "Are you hungry? I'll buy us food. What do you want?" It asked me

"I'm fine. Go ahead and buy it, then if you want to do something else, I'm fine here. Prin is probably coming."

"I'll stay. Kim will also go straight here"

it's a frugal answer

He stood up and walked away. I stared at his wide back. Fortunately, he was chosen by Kim. I secretly smiled for my best friend. She is in good hands. Mark may look cold hearted but he has a warm heart.

I waited another minute until the hour came. Mark hasn't come back yet, even Prin hasn't. Maybe because of the tiredness, my eyes gradually fell asleep.

I felt a soft pat on my cheeks. When I woke up, I saw that my head was resting on Mark's shoulders.

"You're sleep talking, Arisse" he said softly I quickly settled down. I fixed my hair. I turned to the clock and was surprised to realize that I had slept for almost 2 hours. I looked at Mark who was also looking at me.

"Why didn't you wake me up? I'm sorry, maybe you were upset"

"Just keep your head light. It's no big deal"

"Are they Prin not there yet?"

"It's in Tita's room. She and Kim brought some food so she brought it there so she didn't wake you up because she saw you sleeping soundly" he explained He was cut off because the door to the OR opened. Our family doctor came out. I immediately approached him.

"He lost a lot of blood. We got about 7 bullets from him. It's good that no internal organs were hit. He's stable for now and we're going to transfer him to his room. It's a successful operation Arisse" smiling he said before leaving

I looked at Mark and with so much joy I immediately hugged him. The tears I had been hiding for a while fell.

"He's safe now. He's safe" I cried

"When it's safe, you'll cry" he said while patting my shoulder. I lightly hit his shoulder before pulling away from him. We quickly went to Mommy's room.

When we opened the door, we found the three sleeping. Mommy in the hospital bed while Kim sleeps on Prin's shoulder.

Mark approached Kim and sat next to her. He took his head from Prin's shoulder. Prin woke up quickly because of what Mark did.

"I'll take over" said Mark smiling

Prin stood up and approached me. He hugged me tightly

"The operation was successful. He will be moved to the room" I said reassuringly

"That's good. I know Uncle can do that" Prin reassured me.

"Did you eat already?" I shook my head in response as my stomach rumbled. Maybe just now feeling hungry because of what happened

Prin laughed and pinched my nose.

"Let's go. I'll buy you your favorite food" he held my hand. Before leaving the room, I glanced at the people left inside. My eyes immediately found Mark He caresses Kim's cheek gently. I smiled at what I saw. Mark seemed to notice my expression so he looked at me too. I smiled at him and gave him a finger heart because I could see that he was taking care of Kim but I was surprised when he gave me a hug in response while laughing.

"Let's go babe you're still teasing Mark" said Prin noticing what I did while messing with my hair.

We left the hospital holding hands. Feelings were light and no fear ran through my heart

"See Mark and Kim to the end?" I couldn't stop asking Prin while we were eating fishball and kikiam.

He frowned when I looked at him.

"I'm happy for Kim, Prin. I'll admit that at first I didn't like Mark because he seemed like he was mean, he was stuck up. I didn't know that he might just hurt Kim but seeing them now, I know that my best friend is with a good person . I can also see how genuine his love for Kim. I am really happy for her. She's like my sister babe and I will be at ease if Mark is really the one she can stay with" I said smiling.

"Mark is really good. That's selfless. He will always be there for you even if he's busy or he will make time for you. He is also true to his words. You have nothing to fear for Kim. If they are, they really are "How about us? Can you see me in your future, Prin?"

Prin stopped eating for a moment.

"I don't want to rush things babe. I want to enjoy what we have right now. I'm happy and comfortable with you. You are my comfort zone. Whenever I see you, I can feel warmth inside my heart. You are one of the person I treasure the most" he said smiling before hugging me very tightly.

"I don't know what to do when you leave me" Prin sighed after letting go of these words

"And why would I leave you?"

"When you get bored?" this laughing answer

"I choose you. Being with you is my choice. It's a commitment. Not because I'm tired of leaving immediately. Loving someone is not all about the thrill babe. It's choosing to love the person over and over again even in times when he is dear, dear. I will always choose you"

Prin stared at me. I can see so many emotions in his eyes but I can't tell what it is. It's like pain, pity, joy, regret he conveys to me. There seems to be something wrong with the way he looks at me. He slowly closed his eyes and held my hand.

"If ever we are not at the end, please still choose to stay with me Arisse. You are my person. You are my comfort zone. You know me so well, even things I don't know about me you know. So, please stay choose to be my person until the end"

"I will stay by your side. You don't need to ask me for that because I will choose that. No matter what happens you will always have a special place in my heart"

He smiled but those smiles did not reach his eyes.

Daddy also stayed in the hospital for more than 2 weeks to recover. After the incident, Daddy put bodyguards for me because he was afraid that I might also be affected. Based on the investigation, it was Daddy's business opponents who did the work. Even though it was against my heart, I agreed so that my parents wouldn't have to worry. My bodyguards don't see you. I just asked them to stay near me and only come closer if they notice something strange.

We have also been busy because graduation is approaching. It's funny because we're all in latin honors. Prin and Kim cumlauded. I am magna cum laude while Mark, being the best at everything is suma cum laude. We are so proud of him.

I also noticed that Prin was wasting time with me. I can't even keep up with him because he picked me up first and I'm going home to the mansion and not to the condo. I rarely see them. I can only hear Prin's voice when I call and we often only communicate via text

I miss him badly

So that day I decided to surprise him by going to his condo. I know he doesn't have school so for sure he is there.

I brought our favorite foods so we don't have to deliver. When I got to his condo, I immediately pressed the password. It opened. Quiet throughout the condo. No one seems to be there.

"Babe, I'm here." I shouted to make my presence known

No one answered but I heard his cell phone ring. I noticed that it was sitting on the side table in the living room so I took it.

"I miss you baby" I read the text that appeared on his screen.

Maybe wrong send?

I opened his cell phone and there I read the conversation between him and the girl I feel like cold water was poured on me from what I read. I love you. I miss you. I want to see you. I want to be with you I don't know what to feel. My hands were shaking and my tears started to fall. My heart seems to be crumpled because of what I read.

The sick shit!

I let go of Prin's cellphone and quickly left his condo.

Since when? When has he been cheating on me? Why? How did he do it? Did I do something wrong? Just last night he told me he loves me. He just told me he wants to be with me. Then why? Lady. It hurts!

I cry while walking on the road without caring about the people I meet. I just want to cry. I want the pain in my heart to go away.

I don't know how I ended up in a night club but I just found myself drinking whiskey.

I want to forget! I really want to!

I drink one after the other regardless of whether the alcohol is hitting me. There are also some men who approach me but I immediately push them away because I don't have time for them.

After a while a familiar woman approached me.

"Kim! OMG you found me" I said laughing.

"Why are you here? Come let's go home" and he pulled my hand

But I didn't stand up

"What are you doing? Don't you miss this. Ever since you and Mark became friends, we haven't been here. Let's stay for a while please" I begged him.

"And when did you go back to the club. You ditched this lifestyle of yours a long time ago. So what's your problem now?" This annoyed question

"Nothing. I just want to have fun. You know super stressful at home and at school. Just unwind" I said laughing

Kim shook her head as she stopped me from drinking

"Let's go. Aunt and Uncle are worried about you. They thought what happened to you because your bodyguards couldn't find you. What's wrong with you Arisse"

"Nothing! I just want to be happy" I shouted and raised my hands

"Let's go home. Mark is waiting outside" there was finality in his voice

"I don't want to. Go home if you want" I replied to him irritated

"Arisse Mae Delos Santos you don't want me to be mad at you"

I gasped because he mentioned my full name. Every time he does this I know his patience with me is running out.

He pulled me and I just let go. After we got out, we were immediately greeted by Mark "You're wasted" he sparingly commented to me

I just tormented him in response.

"Where's Prin? Why isn't he here with you?"

I just shrugged my shoulders at his question.

I don't have time to think about him anymore. I don't have the strength to face him either.

Mark took me to the mansion and Daddy was very angry because of what I did "Not now Dad please. Scold me tomorrow" he went up to my room.

After closing the door I sat down. I hugged my knees and cried there.

Why Prin? Why? What's wrong with me? Why did you cheat on me? Is that it? Is that what you were saying in the past? Are you preparing me for those times? I hope you set me straight and not like this?! The pain pain!

I fell asleep on the floor because of crying. I'm still trying to be okay in front of Mommy and Daddy. At school, I do everything I can to avoid my friends. I still can't talk to them and especially I can't see Prin. I don't attend our graduation practices because I don't want to have the opportunity to see them.

I'm also full of clubs every night. I drown myself in alcohol to hide the pain I can't get out. Until now, I still don't accept what Prin did to me. I don't answer even one of his calls or texts. Whenever he goes to the house, I don't let him out or else I run away. I do the same when Kim comes to the house.

Wine is the only witness to every tear that comes out of my eyes. The club is the witness of how I drown myself to hide the words I can't get out. There wasn't a night that I didn't get drunk and every night that Kim found me without fail. Sometimes she was with Mark, sometimes she was alone.

I know he's just waiting for me to talk and tell stories but I'm not ready and I don't know if I'll be ready.

Until it seems that Mark has already tied the rope to me because Kim has been almost destroyed several times after finding and forcing him to come home to me.

"Could it be Arisse, I know you're a b*tch but don't feel sorry for Kim! Look, I've always caught her here taking care of you when you're drunk! She's a sensible woman, don't make her look like you" Mark yelled at me

Because of what he said, I seem to have come to my senses. I am not only destroying myself. I was also putting Kim in harm's way, so that night I chose to tell them the reason for what I was doing.

"Prin is cheating on me" I exclaimed.

No one spoke and only silence reigned inside the car.

To Be Continued....