Happiest Moments

CONNOR'S POV

I've been mentally exhausted lately and unable to live life as I should.

Thinking has been something I can't overcome.

(phone rings)

I turned to the other side of my bed to pick the call and it was my boss Mr Harris.

As I picked the phone from the floor and took it to my ear, I said hello with a bit of confusion and tiredness.

"Mr Harris?"

"Ah, there you are, Connor," he spoke as if he were in pain or something.

"What do you want?" I asked impatiently, I didn't know why I was getting called down to work this early but whatever his problem was it sure wasn't going to be my fault.

"It's your friend Sarah, Connor, she seems sick," Mr Harris paused for what seemed like forever before continuing,

"I'M NOT SICK! I JUST FEEL LIKE LOSING A FEW FEET," I could hear the annoyance seeping into Sarah's voice on the other line.

"And you don't know how that happens?" I ask sarcastically.

"Yes, Connor, yes I do. In fact I've been diagnosed," she huffed at me, sounding like she was about to snap.

"Well, can you tell her that she can wait until another day, when it's actually afternoon where I'm not just waking up in the middle of winter," I replied with a slight bite to my words.

"That won't work, She's just overreacting because she misses her ex boyfriend so much.

You need to go over and bring her some breakfast, I don't think she has had anything to eat." My boss replied

"I'm not missing that monster, I told you I've been diagnosed and I'm not acting out" She yelled from the background

"No sir," I say simply, ending the conversation before I can get fired.

I put the phone back on the receiver and lay back down on my bed.

Some part of me wanted to really attend to Sarah and make sure she's alright but again I just don't want to, neither do I want to go to work and besides she does this almost all the time to get me to work when she clearly knows I can't come.

I knew I should have gone to work today, but I had a feeling that I wouldn't be able to concentrate anyways, I've not been concentrating at work for a long time now. Infact I've not been able to concentrate on living at all for a while now.

I got out of bed and went to the bathroom to take a shower.

As I showered a lot of thoughts came flashing through my head, the fact that I'm a single Twenty five years old and also the thoughts of my Happiest Moments kinda flashed through my head afterwards.

You may wander, when was my happiest moment?, well it was when I was in this dreamy relationship with a guy named Jeff.

Jeff was a really sweet guy, a great actor when it came to showing affection.

He would always remind me how beautiful I am and how he loves the fact I embrace my masculine side and how he can't take his eyes off my beautiful brown eyes.

He was the sweetest and my first real boyfriend.

The other thing I remember fondly, however, is when we were walking home from the grocery store one afternoon and he kept talking on how much he loved being around me and how I'm different from his exs.

"I love being with you, it makes me feel alive," he explained to me.

"Yeah? How come?" I blushed

"Because you make me feel happy, when we walk together I see all kinds of happiness spread over your face to crown it all you are not a boring person" he continued.

I looked at him shyly and said,

"you really mean that?"

He nodded his head excitedly, looking back ahead and smiling at the street.

That is actually one of my happiest moments, just being with him and hearing him tell me how important I was to him.

I Never thought I would be important to anyone except Heidi, seriously, but the moment Jeff came into my life he made me realize I too can be important to someone, I too can be special and wanted.

One of the things that attracted me to Jeff was his physique, he was a tall handsome guy who could make anyone fall in love with him any day of the week.

His chisled jaw looked well crafted and his chest was a sight to behold.

I also remember seeing him shirtless for the first time while walking along the beach and thinking how beautiful he was.

That day we went out on our second date and I picked the beach because I love the beautiful sight. I actually had a lot of fun that day and I would want to experience that again.

Jeff made me happy even though he was a bit of a cheat and I guess it's probably one of the reasons that he broke up with me after a few months.

I felt insecure telling him how I felt about his cheating behavior because I know that I couldn't live without him or I thought I wouldn't.

After everything I experienced with Jeff, I hoped for it not to change, I hoped we stayed together forever, I didn't want him to leave me but unfortunately he did and here I am showering alone in my bathroom and I might probably end up alone but who cares.

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Immediately I was done with my shower, I dried off, and dressed myself. My hair was dripping wet with the water that hit my back, but that's the only reason I was bothered by the weather.

I decided to put on a pair of black jeans, a black hoodie and headed downstairs.

Upon arriving I could smell the familiar scent of bacon and eggs that was emanating from the kitchen.

My stomach let out a small gurgle when I saw my best friend, Heidi, sitting on the couch eating some bacon and toast.

"Hey there," I greeted with a smile.

"Hi Connor," she responded giving me a small wave, still immersed into her meal.

"I thought you won't be waking up today" she added as she smiled.

I gave her a weak smile as I grabbed an apple out of the fruit bowl and walked past towards the counter.

Once grabbing a glass of orange juice, I turned back to face her.

Heidi, my best friend is same age as I am but is more taller than I am, she's little bit at the plus size and she has this beautiful long hair and this captivating brown eyes that sparkles when she smiles.

She had come to spend the night with me after I almost took my life that afternoon, Hmm, Silly right? I know and Yes, I'm quite sucidal.

Jeff didn't just leave me like a normal guy who breaks up with his girlfriend, he left me with half of the money in my account gone just like that.

He made sure he took as much money as he wanted before he walked out of my life.

I only realised what he had done a day after he packed his things and left my house.

Well now as I eat breakfast and look at my friend Heidi I couldn't help but to be grateful for having her as my best friend or should I say a sister because she was all I had left in life.

Immediately after breakfast, she stood up and told me she would be going back to her house but she didn't leave without a warning.

As the both of us walked to the door she turned to me

"Don't try to kill yourself again else I'll kill you myself" she said as she walked out of the door.

I smiled and said goodbye to her before I shut the door behind her.

I walked straight to the kitchen to clean up the mess.

Once I finished cleaning up the kitchen, I walked towards the stairs and started taking them two at a time.

I made my way upstairs and stood outside the door to my room.

As I stared at the door I thought of Jeff.

"Was he a con artist or something? why did he make me so happy only to dash it all away in a twinkle of an eye.

Did he ever loved me as he said he Did? Did he even consider me as his girlfriend for once? I asked myself as I still stood rooted to the ground.

He was someone who came into my life when I was literally broken and alone, my only surviving blood relative, my brother had just died and I was in so much pain and anguish. I was literally finding it hard to picture living without my brother and I'm the midst of all this emotional chaos Jeff came into my life with hope.

I can remember vividly the day we met, it was in a hospital. I know it's not a romantic one but that day was so special to me.

I had just been told of the death of my younger brother Miles and being unable to breath nor believe them I ran outside to breath in some fresh air as the news was literally choking me.

As I ran with painful tears in my eyes I bumped into someone.

I looked up to apologise only to behold the most beautiful man who instantly caught me.

The way his eyes softened as he gazed at me, I was mesmerised.

I managed to mumble the word sorry to him before I tried to leave but fortunately or should I say unfortunately he held my hands stopping me from going any further.

He looked at me in the eyes and gave me his handkerchief.

As I took it from him, it had the nicest scent I've ever perceived.

"Use this to dry you tears" he said with the sweetest voice ever.

"Thanks" I replied with shaking voice.

He led me to the empty seat in front of the hospital without saying a word.

As I sat next to him, I subbed in the silent for a while and after a long while of silence I started thinking of what to say to break the silence between us but as I was about to thank him and leave he started telling me what brought him to the hospital.

He told me of how he had lost his sister to cancer that morning and how he Knows I just lost my brother since his sister's ward was opposite my brother's.

He told me how he had come back to clear the pending bills only to bump into me.

I couldn't say a word to him but he didn't give up, he changed the topic immediately and honestly he was very good in keeping a conversation flowing and in no time I was laughing and talking with him.

That was actually a happy moment. He made my brothers loss less for me and for some reason he was as funny as my younger brother and I guess that's one of the things that got me so attached to him. I saw him as the missing piece in my life.

Coming back to now, I sighed heavily after having those thoughts, opened my door and walked into my room.

I laid back on my bed wishing it was all a dream, wishing I would just wake up to Jeff beside me and he will hold me and say 'dont worry connor it was just a bad dream' but unfortunately it's reality, a reality I couldn't embrace.

The image of him walking out of my life has been imprinted inside my mind, more like printed and stamped.

I closed my eyes, trying to find the comfort in my surroundings but I only ended up crying .

That moment as I laid on my bed, I wished I didn't take a leave from work because anytime I'm at work, I think less of Jeff and more of work or maybe it had a lot to do with Sarah since she was always over me telling her silly jokes and fighting so hard to make me smile even if I wouldn't end up talking to her that day, which is kinda crazy.

I took my cellphone and called Hieldi and since she was busy with her boyfriend I had to end the call to return back to my head which was filled with the painful thoughts of Jeff.

CONNOR'S POV

The day went by with me thinking of Jeff, I can't tell if I'm angry at him, angry at myself or not but what I don't understand in this whole drama is why he stole from me like why did he do that? He should have just told me it's over and left than making it all so unbearable for me or Maybe just tell me he needed money.

I couldn't tell if that had been his motive all along or something but anyways I'm on a journey to forget everything about him which seems not to be working out since I had most of my unforgettable Moments with him.

THIRD PERSON'S POV

"Hmm, this is harder than I expected" Connor whined as she rolled to the other side of her bed.

She looked at the ceiling and in no time tears started gathering in her eyes. She wiped it with the back of her palm and tried so hard to sink in the tears by deceiving herself into thinking happy thoughts but it only fueled the sadness within.

After struggling to no avail, she allowed the tears to flow freely.

CONNOR'S POV

Hours later, my phone rang and it was Heidi Calling to check up on me.

"Hey girl, hope you've not killed yourself yet?" She asked jokingly immediately I picked the call. I smiled without saying anything.

"Hope you've eaten too?" She asked further

"Yes I have" I lied realizing that if I tell her I've not eaten again after the morning except a small packet of Pringles she won't be Happy with me at all.

"I'll tell you all about today when we see, I think it will cheer you up" She said "and don't forget to eat tonight" She added.

"I won't, thanks." I replied

"Alright, just take care of yourself and call me when you're not feeling too good" She replied while I agreed.

She's indeed the best person I've ever met in my entire life.

After a little conversation with her she ended the call.

I looked at the time it was 5:32 pm, I stood up immediately from my bed.

I couldn't believe I was on bed for so long snacking on the packet of Pringles I do keep very close to my bed on my drawer and battling with my thoughts at the same time.

"I guess I have to leave this room for a while" I muttered to myself as I walked to my wardrobe.

I took my coat sluggishly and left the house with the motive of taking an evening walk to exercise my muscles all to avoid cramps.

As I stepped outside, the cool wind brushed through my hair giving me a sense of calmness.

I went on to walk down the street hoping to end up doing something fun but unfortunately I walked pass the cafe Jeff and I always go to on dates and that made me remember the day he said goodbye, the day he messed my life up.

That's when I broke down crying.

I ran into the first store I could find and locked myself inside one of the changing rooms.

I didn't even realize I was sobbing and screaming until I heard someone knock on the door.

"Hey! Is everything alright in there?" It was the same guy who works at the café I usually go to.

I sniffed as I wiped my tears away with the sleeve of my coat opened the door and nodded before I tried walking out.

He looked at me concerned "Are you ok? Do you want to talk about it?" He suggested.

"No I'm fine" I replied shaking my head while still looking down.

The guy put his hand on top of mine which startled me making me look up at him with a puzzled look

"You sure? You seem pretty distressed." He said further

"Really I'm fine." I repeated while shrugging.

He sighed slightly and then asked

"If you ever need anything just let me know ok?". With that said he left and went back to work.

With that said I made my way back home, trying hard not to cry nor think of that day again.

You might want to know what happened that day.

It started off as a normal day and the night before that day was an unforgettable one.

We had just come back from our evening walk, getting to the sitting room he carried me upstairs to the bedroom and while he needed to the bedroom he kept saying things that made me laugh so hard.

Getting to the bedroom he laid me gently on the bed, with his arm supporting his weight on the bed he looked at me and I felt his sweet minty breath and it was refreshing, as we kept Making eye contact, he leaned closer supporting his weight with his elbow and kissed my lips. I didn't want to let go of the kiss as I pulled him more closer to me and kissed him back.

The kiss should be the longest we've had.

Refraining from the kiss he laid down beside me on the bed, removing his jacket, shirt and pants and leaving his boxers on he placed them around the side of the bed and then laid flat on top of me, kissing along my neck.

He pulled my dress so easily as he continued kissing me down my chest to my stomach.

He lifted up slightly so that I could look at him in the eyes and then he began kissing his way back up again, stopping briefly to suck my nipple and lick softly over the areola.

I gasped out loud when he did this, and I felt my pussy getting wetter. He sucked hard on both nipples before moving back up to lick down my stomach towards my aching vagina.

My hips were gyrating against his face as he licked the outer lips of my pussy, teasing me with soft tingling sensations which made my pussy throb in anticipation for what was yet to come.

As he continued to tease my pussy with his tongue, he moved lower until he reached my clit. It was swollen from arousal, and he took it into his mouth, sucking on it and flicking it with his tongue, sending waves of pleasure through my body and I cried out in bliss.

He was always good at making me feel this way.

His hands came up to hold onto my ass cheeks as he ate me out. When I felt him begin to move further inside me, I knew I was about to have an orgasm.

He pushed his tongue as deep as he could into my vagina, as I orgasms, and when he finally stopped, I lay there panting and trying to catch my breath.

"Oh God," I said. "That feels amazing."

"You taste delicious," he whispered.

I smiled at him and kissed him, tasting myself on his lips.

The kiss turned passionate quickly and we were fucking each other's faces hard and fast, our tongues touching and swirling together as they fought for dominance.

I grabbed his hair and pulled his face against mine.

He went down with his fingers and I moaned loudly as he worked my clit with his fingers. I screamed out loud as he gave me an incredible orgasm.

When I could talk again, I told him that I wanted him to fuck me, so he rolled off of me and I got on my knees between his legs.

He spread his legs wide apart so that I could see his cock laying there, hard and ready. I wrapped my hand around his shaft, feeling the smooth skin of his dick, and pumping it once or twice, just to get a feel for his size. I looked up at him, I saw desire in his eyes, and I knew he was waiting for me.

I straddled his hips, guiding his cock to my opening and lowering myself onto it, taking all of him inside of me, and I moaned as he filled me completely. He grabbed my hips and held me firmly against him, thrusting into me slowly at first, then increasing his pace as he began to move faster.

His hands reached up to grab my breasts, groping them and pinching my nipples as he fucked me hard and deep. I let my head fall back as I enjoyed the sensations of being fucked by this sexy man.

I felt my pussy becoming wet and slippery with his cum and I realized that I loved having him inside of me.

I was reaching a climax and I could tell that he was too, because his breathing sounded heavy and ragged.

I felt his cock swell inside of me, and I felt him throbbing against my insides.

I began to tremble as I neared my own orgasm, and I closed my eyes as I felt my pussy contract around his cock in response to the feelings he was putting inside me. I was coming and I could feel his cum shooting inside of me, and I cried out as I had my second orgasm of the night.

Afterward, we lay on the bed together, still joined by our bodies. He stroked my hair and kissed me softly as we talked through the night not even realizing when I slept off.

CONNOR'S POV

The next morning, Jeff woke me up with a kiss before leaving to get ready for work.

Come to think of it, I Never visited his work place and according to him, he worked as a manager to a construction company so anytime I suggest to visit his work place he would decline.

"My work place is not a safe for my Queen" he would always say with a kiss which always makes me forget and makes me feel so special and lucky for having such a loving and caring man in my life. He filled that void that I got from my loveless childhood and that really got me loving him more than I loved myself.

That morning started off normal but the only odd thing is Jeff didn't make nor eat breakfast. He kinda rushed out of the house.

Through out the times we lived together whenever he wakes up before me, he puts it upon himself to make breakfast but I didn't really reason it since he seemed like he was running late to work.

As he rushed out, I bade him goodbye and went straight to the room just to see his cellphone lying on the bed.

I picked it up only for a message to come in.

HI BABE, I'M WAITING FOR YOU AT THE BAR. DON'T KEEP ME WAITING. LOVE YOU!

As I read the message I remember I was shocked to my bones. I couldn't even move, I was rooted to the ground staring at his phone.

That was not the first time I'm seeing such message on his phone and the worst part of it all is that they were always coming from different girls as the names of the people that sent it were all feminine names.

I got myself moments later and decided to read through his chat with the girl who was Hei by name.

The name was quite weird, what is there in writing someone's full name, I muttered.

As I read through the chat, I found out that I didn't even know the human being I was dating.

Hei had a daughter for him who probably died after birth, and he was also a wanted criminal in Canada.

The whole thing was like a blow to me, I subbed for a while and decided to just wave everything off, maybe he's now a changed person and the fact he is hiding the fact that he once had a daughter from me may be because he doesn't want to hurt me.

These were the words I used to console myself just so I can feel better. That was how much I loved him, I was willing to live with his criminal history.

I can remember going to work that day without concentrating on what I was doing, I was typing a speech for my boss and I can remember using the word 'daughter' instead of 'taught her' and I used words like 'fuck' and meaningless gibberish.

My boss was going through it when he noticed the mistakes that I made. He was so furious at me, he deserved to be.

Immediately he was done confronting me about it, I was ordered to concentrate and prepare a better speech.

A few hours later at the office I was sent home by my boss.

"Connor, it's as if you are not in your right frame of mind today, go home and report back to the office tomorrow to finish the speech" he said, I thanked him and immediately walked out.

Well my Boss is actually the best person to work with, he relate to us like his children and he's always concerned about our welfare.

He's actually the best person I've worked with and he was like a father to us all.

As I packed to leave, my heart felt heavy and I just wanted to lay down and sleep for days.

I walked to my car and turned a relaxing music on.

I was driving on autopilot and before I knew it I was pulling into my driveway.

As I opened the car door and came down from the car, I saw Jeff standing by the door looking so angry which was unlike him.

He didn't wait for me to walk inside the house before he began yelling at me.

"You fucking slut! What did you do?" He yelled at me.

All I did was stare at him, completely confused, my heart shattered and my eyes filled with tears. He called me slut.

"I thought... that after all those years we have been together, you actually cared about me." I mumbled while my voice was trembling.

He just shook his head "Oh yeah Connor I definitely didn't care about you. But I guess you were too stupid and desperate to notice the big difference between us! I'm leaving you right now and don't even try to call or text me because I'm not coming back. You ruined it all yourself" he yelled.

Everything happened so fast and immediately he said those words to me my heart shattered into many pieces.

I cried and pleaded with him to at least tell me what I did wrong but obviously it seemed like he was looking for a way to leave me all along and that fateful day was his lucky day.

He went inside, grabbed his stuffs and quickly walked off to his car.

He just walked out of my life with no reason to give.

As soon as he shut the car door and drove off, I broke down once more. I went inside the house and fell onto the couch crying my eyes out.

When I came through I heard a voice calling my name.

"Hey babe, it's Heidi and I'm sorry if I scared you" She said

"What is the matter, why are you crying?" she asked as she came closer

"Jeff broke up with me" I cried

"What! why ? when?" she asked in shock

"I don't know, I can't tell, he didn't even tell me what I did wrong he just packed his things and left" I replied in tears.

She gave me a full glass of water and sat down next to me cursing Jeff and telling me it will all be fine and that everything was going to be okay.

She kept telling that to me until I finally stopped crying.

After some time passed she told me I should get some rest, I agreed and laid down on the bed.

It wasn't even 10 minutes before I fell asleep.

I woke up at 11 am only to see Heidi by my side.

She had slept over and that really made me so happy to have her, she actually knew how to take care of me when I'm down.

Heidi and I have been friends since when we were teenagers. We met in school and became good friends right away.

We were both the sort of people that would be best friends for our entire lives; we're alike in everything except for our personalities. Heidi is a kind and sweet girl who likes animals and dogs, she was more of the pink girly girl, I've always loved nature, dark colors, cats and horses.

Growing up I engaged more in riding bikes and playing soccer while she was the leader of our cheerleading team, she was so into fashion and I really supported her.

When you look at us you'll always assume that we look exactly like each other especially because of the fact we hang out every single day.

I love Heidi very much, she is the only true friend that had been there for me even after my parents died.

Her family took my brother and I in as their own. They supported the both of us till my grandma came and took us back.

My grandma was the only family we had but she died when we were almost done with college.

Her death wasn't much of a shock because she actually lived so long for my brother and I and I was really grateful for her and I'm really happy and I hope she's In a better place now.

As for Heidi, It got to a point I wanted to be her only friend, well I'm also quite possessive and I have to admit that I'm always jealous when she's around guys because it seems like she gets closer and closer to them forgetting me entirely but when it comes to guys she likes I keep off and let her get as close as she wants with him.

My friendship with her was literally all I cherished.

She made a lot of bad experiences a lot easier and sincerely she's making my break up with Jeff easy too.

Most times I wish I never met him that fateful day at the hospital but other times I just wish I was not born.