HIS TRUE BEAUTY

"I don't understand why you are angry".

Beauty said slowly,a bit embarrassed.

"If you aren't so fat! Maybe the ring would have been your size!"

That was the furious voice of her boyfriend Steven.

Beauty felt her legs weak and her heart pounding,as she tried to conceal her tears.

Every head in the shop turned towards them and all eyes were watching them as the scene was successfully established like Steven had wanted.

"We have larger sizes for her to try sir".

The jewelry store owner said to him politely.

Feeling sad for the poor girl, she had to come to the rescue.

"My fiance may be hot tempered but I am sure he does love me...as much as I love him but..."

Beauty paused..

This wasn't the first day she's having this conversation with herself.

"It doesn't matter what size you have,it won't suck those fats away!"

"Baby can we try another one please"

Beauty managed to say that with a smile on her face.

"Are you deaf!"

He yelled so loud that Beauty lost her power to hold back, her tears streamed successfully down her cheeks.

"I am so sorry Steven,I promise to go on a strict diet again".

She sobbed.

The jewelry store owner was left in the awkward situation unsure how to convince the couple to buy the ring.

It was supposed to be her engagement ring,since Steven didn't know her size so he asked the big question before they set out to get the ring.

"Please Steven".

She kept crying.

The people watching started murmuring to one another.

"Another day of making people think I am a monster in public, good job Beauty! I am done"He snapped and walked out coldly.

"Steven!"

"Steven please".

He didn't look back or act like he knew what name that is.

The door closed and another customer entered the room.

Beauty stood there,her head down crying bitterly, she opened her eyes to see her cold feet ... .a big size feet. Not the feet, a feminine lady should have.

She felt her blood drained and her skin turned pale at that instant.

"Don't worry,he will change his mind,that I am sure of".

The jewelry woman consoled her.

Beauty looked up embarrassed knowing that her eyes are now on her after that scene.

She pressed her lips and nodded.

Slowly like a dying rat, she walked out of the jewelry shop,her steps unsteady and her vision blurry.

She felt heart pounding aggressively and her palms sweaty.

"He isn't fed up with the ring not fitting, he is fed up with me,just like Tim,like Nathan,and now Steven, they all dumped me with any slightest chance".

She suddenly felt a drop from my left eye and dried it off immediately.

"It's not the first time to get used to this already,fat is ugly..I am fat..beauty is privilege and you are the opposite of your name,you are ugly...get used to...."

Starled, she looked up and saw a vehicle driving towards her, she gasped out loud. Someone grabbed her by the hand and pulled her back roughly.

"Hey!Watch it you fat pig! The light is still red!"

The man who saved her snapped.

Beauty apologized to him but the man cared less about her apology

She panted heavily,still unsure what just happened.

It started raining heavily ,the light turned green and she was almost pushed down by the crowd running towards a shelter and running from the rain.

She was the only one relaxed under the rain, and didn't mind getting wet from the rain,its the least of her problems now.

She had the flashback of Tim,the first man to confess to her

He was her first love, and he loved her too...maybe..

After our first night together,he made known his intentions to her.

Beauty thought she was gonna die back then.

"It's my first time".

She had whispered to Tim who had laid down exhausted,sweats dripping down his neck,her nervous hand twisting the duvet ,cheeks burning with embarrassment and shyness.

"I can see that,"Tim sneered.

Beauty expected more than that reply,but she shouldn't make a deal out of it,she thought and smiled back at him trying to hide her disappointment.

"I'm glad it's you".

She said huskily, blushing.

After a few minutes of silence, Tim stood up from the bed.

"I am done".

"Huh..".

She chuckled rather confused.

Beauty thought maybe she heard him wrong, or maybe he was pulling her leg, her brain was unable to process the reason behind that utterance.

"I only dated you because I wanted to know how it feels like being with a plus size".

"Tim what are you saying.."she asked softly, more confused.

"Do you think I will ever walk hand in hand with a girl three times my size?"

That statement got her speechless for a second.

"Tim! What the hell are you saying to me?"

She sobbed loudly.

"Look shit happens sometimes, I had to go, clean up the red stains before leaving".

He dropped some bills on the bed and started dressing up.

"Tim....,don't treat me like a whore Tim,it's my first time".

"Get over it,not like I forced you to give me your virginity".

He snarled.

Beauty's heart pounding,and her tears flow endlessly.

He left and slammed the door after him.

Beauty lost words, she couldn't even think straight or say anything at that moment.

She didn't even cry out loud either and had no idea if I could still breathe anymore.

She loved Tim so much that it hurts alot ..... well you know ,a first love.

Beauty was only 16 when she got dumped by Tim, after confessing to her parents,they said she was going to heal and find someone better.

Beauty tried to forget Tim,but it wasn't so easy. However, 2 years later, she met Nathan at senior high school.

He made her believe in love again, calling her beautiful, thick and sexy.

He even flaunted her in front of his friends. Something Tim said he would never do.

Beauty was happy,very happy, finally found love ,someone to love her genuinely.

Beauty was visibly glowing and happy, she went to gym and started dieting at a young age but unknown to her, she was only just a mere object of satisfaction.

That particular day she had walked into her boyfriend's house ,a surprise visit only to find him in bed with some girl.

Nathan didn't even flinch or apologize, even ran after her,he ignored her presence and led the girl on.

Beauty left the place shattered after some few days of not calling each other, she decided to go patch things up with him.

She didn't tell her parents about another love story crasher but kept it to herself.

Getting to the door of Nathan's house, she

overheard and heard horrible things,Nathan spilled out to his friends about her.

She was called fat and senseless by the same man who called her beautiful and bold.

He went on and bragged on how she can't do without him because she lacked love and dying for some love and affection due to her insecurities.

"She's sick of being alone, man the bitch got me and can't afford losing me".

Nathan said with air full of pride.

His friends laughed out loud.

"But how good does she skip?"

One of them asked.

"Just a heavy bag of pudding, nothing interesting,the last time I let her be a cow girl,I almost lost my life and urge,lazy pillow princess, though she got hand and blow job skills I must confess,she can take you to heaven with her soft palms, you know what I mean".

He laughed,and his friends joined him.

"So you are ditching her for Kira".

Another asked.

"Well, you can't blame me,Kira is a whole upgrade more than the fat cum bag, you guys really don't expect me to be with her".

They laughed loudly.

Beauty froze at the spot staring at her reflection on the glass door,her tears were flowing ceaselessly and hand glued to the door handle.

Hearing all he had said, she told herself not to blame him.

"If I got to choose a girlfriend for myself,as a guy ....I won't choose me".

She mumbled to herself, staring at her reflection.

Nothing interesting in the image she saw, a bare face full of freckles,a brunette hair put up in her favorite pony tail,wearing baggy trousers and shirt to hide her body size, she cleaned her face and slowly let go of the door handle.

She turned around and headed home,there's no need wasting her life with a man who sees her as just an object of satisfaction and mockery.

She thought to herself.

That was 6 years ago and presently, there's Steven,whom she had opened my heart to and shared my past with.

He just unapologetically dumped her same day he proposed

Beauty opened the door to her room and shut it.

Leaning against the door,with her soaked clothes dripping wet.

She removed her clothes and went into the bathroom. After minutes of crying there,she got out and dried her body.

She put on her pajamas and climbed on the bed.

Steven's words echoed in her mind.

"If you ain't so fat maybe the ring would have been your size".

"Wow! What a lady you are, Beauty,I am so sad for you".

She said to herself and kicked off the stuffed toys on her bed and buried her face in a pillow ,crying her soul out.

She flinged the pillow and sat up, crying loudly again.

"I hate my existence, I hate everything about me".

She screamed out bitterly.

"If...only ..I was as beautiful as everyone else..".

Minutes lapse

It's past 8pm, 4 hours after her mother had ceaselessly called her to have her dinner but she ignored her.

A knock sounded on the door again and her mother opened the door slowly.

"Honey, you are going to starve to death, you are still young to worry about him,you will still have a lot of men interests in the future"she said softly.

"Why? Why am I fat and ugly! I have been bullied from my junior high till date".

"Beauty..".

Her mother sadly called for her daughter.

"Mom,you are ageless,a visual bomb and a nice body shape, why am I not like you?"

Beauty's mom was an ex beauty queen,people said she was the fat version of her mother.

"Sweetie, having your father's body isn't a curse,you are beautiful the way you are,look at those flesh most of them bullies envy them,you don't even have belly fat,you're thick..and chubby but definitely not fat,you have a healthy body mass index,who cares what people think,they are just jealous".

Beauty knew she was only trying to cheer her up, no one will ever envy a fat lady,Men want the slender and tiny waists.

Beauty just went mute ,her lips shivering holding back from crying in her presence.

"You know, I am gonna tell you a secret".

Her mother said,trying to change the topic.

Beauty gazes at her with interest .

"What secret?"

She asked curiously ,wiping her face with my palm.

"Promise you won't tell your dad".

Beauty hesitated then nodded impatiently.

"Okay, yes,I promise".

Her mother started.

"Well I...."

She pressed her lips together like she was about to say something really heavy.

"I..kissed my cousin".

"What...eww".

Beauty snapped.

"Fresh kiss,we made out!"

This time her jaw dropped.

"Mom! You did what?"

"Don't act so innocent to me,"her mother laughed.

Beauty never imagined her mom to be that type,incest? That's so gross!

She covered my ear.

"I don't want to hear about it".

"We got all smoochy smoochy...and almost had sex,"

"What the...,he is your cousin mom! That's rough,and so grossing me out now".

She chuckled at irritated Beauty and continued.

"I was a wild teenager and got drunk at my sixteen birthday, you know my couz Edward?"

"The one with a weird mustache?"

Beauty replied.

She nodded with a satisfactory smile.

"Yep,that was him".

"How could you!"

Beauty snapped loudly with a triggered anger.

"Calm down, like I said, we didn't actually get into it completely, I was drunk and asked him to kiss me,we both tight and you know ,we kissed and ended up in the bedroom, don't taste alcohol,I got a little and went crazy,not sure you can keep up with it too".

"Ewww! Mom!"

Beauty yelled.

"I remembered he was a bad kisser and his baby mustache was there,remembering it now,it disgusts me".

Beauty slapped my forehead.

"Mom you are really ...".

"Oh did I mention before we get all naked and stuff your dad found us?"

Beauty's eyes rose up almost reaching to her forehead.

"Whaaaaaat! You knew dad then?"

"He was my first and only love".

She said it like a voice actor in one of those fairy tale movies.

"Dad's gonna kill him"

"No he was like.."what the heck is going on here, Vanessa you fuckin your couz?"

I was dead drunk to even get those words right".

Mrs Vanessa laughed.

"Wait, he did not kill Edward?"

"Of course not,I mean he is still alive right,he wouldn't be living now ,if your dad had killed him years ago.

Nevertheless he landed in the hospital, almost a week ,they are yet to discharge him from the hospital,your dad visited him at the hospital out of pity,he said but only to dislocate more bones the nurses saved him,poor Edward".

Beauty cracked up and laughed out loud.

"Just look at the mirror reflection and tell me how could anyone who isn't bitter call this angel ugly".

Her mother's voice came calmly.

Beauty's smile faded slowly,her face clouded,as she stared at her reflection, eyes slowly getting wet with tears.

"I hope one day you will realize how beautiful and precious you are and flaunt your charms without giving a f**k what they say".

Her mother whispered.

"Mom..."

"Yes sweet".

She replied and detangled her daughter's hair with her fingers.

"Can you let me be alone for now, Mom?"

Mrs Vanessa sighed out loudly.

"Alright ,take care, okay, please don't take anything harmful. You may not be so lucky like last time, and please know that I and your dad love you more than anything in our existence,please,see yourself the way I see you".

As soon as Vanessa shut the door, Beauty cried loudly and vowed to herself to save money for surgery,that the only way to fit into the world beauty standard,and escape from their hatred,bullying, shaming and judgemental nature.

3 YEARS LATER

Location:

Famous & Fabulous fashion company,New York City.

**BEAUTY'S POV**

My friend Jessi showed me a pic on her phone.

"Whad'ya think?"

"Wow jessie this is perfect, you're so perfect".

I exclaimed, admiring everything in the picture,she's a runaway queen for sure.

"Oh please , it's just the editing"Jessie chuckled blushing.

"You are a natural jessie".

I continued.

"Stop it already!"

She got all red and laughed.

"Let me see the second one"I requested,she swiped and showed me the pictures.

"Isn't this from our summer collection from last year?"

I asked curiously.

"Yup,I kept them and recycled them because they look so good on me".

I shook my head smiling.

Our company's indeed lucky to have her as their model. She was the first friend I made in the company, actually more like my only friend.

I smiled at her as she went through the pics,showing me each of her favorite pieces asking about what I think of it.

After a while she got busy with chats

I faced my designs and at a point confused in making a choice.

I got her to help me out.

"Which do you think will be nice Jessie, the purple or red?"

I showed Jessi my latest designs.

"I will go for the purple,it's elegant but red romantic and suits the theme".

We got a call to the meet with the CEO, last meeting,the CEO Mr hathaway announced his son Bruno as the m

CEO of his company.

"I'm sorry father,but I don't deserve to be the CEO,I appreciate the offer as your child but I will love to work my way to the top,please let Ferd be the manager, he got more experience than me,for the good of our company, when I am qualified for it,I can take your place".

Bruno replied.

Talk about a terribly good looking person, even the ladies are jealous of his good looks, he hardly communicates with anyone,we all guessed he was a proud snub at first but when I got to know him more from his body language ,I realized he is just not a social person.

"Bruno ,I think you are being silly"

His father snapped.

"Silly?"

I muttered to myself, he made a lot of sense, Bruno's the only child of but he is so humble and sometimes surprisingly very humble for a young billionaire, who is also very good looking with a good body proportion,if I am that beautiful,half of my problems will be solved.

Mr Hathaway doesn't seem to welcome the idea of Bruno not taking over the company today, but he had no choice but to dance to his tone.

I stole a quick gaze at Bruno,even his side profile could make every fluid in your body dry and leave you thirsty for him.

I gulped hard and looked away.

Sadly it's been 3 years since I had a secret crush on Mr Bruno.

Who wouldn't, what a joke!

He will never notice me,I am literally the ugliest in the company.

I don't even have that body that most girls have. I was known as the visual hole of the company. Sometimes customers write reports for me to be removed from the front desk as I am not pretty enough to represent a Beauty company as big as F&F.

Suddenly my friend Jessi cuts into my mind.

"When are you going to tell him you've been crushing for 3 years! Girl you can't keep giving him that dirty stare as if you would eat him alive. He will never notice you that way, it's not your fault though,he is every lady's dream man ,rich ,calm,humble,caring,and overall handsome. Gush! He is so handsome for this world,I gave up a year ago though...."

"Jessi..we are in the conference room."

I snapped in a whisper.

I tried not to make it obvious,but she wouldn't stop.

"I don't know if he's gay,he can't be seduced. I tried and failed,try your luck though".

Jessie whispered into ears again.

"Jessie!"

I snapped out loud,it attracted others' attention and heads were turned towards us.

Mr Hathaway paused and gave me a dead stare,I know what follows after that, I didn't mean to say Jessi's name out loud.

"I am sorry sir".

I quickly apologized with my head bowed.

Mr Hathaway is completely the opposite of his quiet son.

"I allowed you into this company because of your talents and skills. We all know you don't belong here,I risked the image of this company keeping a bag of beans like you here,so don't ever interrupt me when I am talking about something again".

I felt that deep in my bones,I knew this or something close to this was gonna happen after all,so I should endure it.

After that statement of his,I heard some silent chuckles , most from the ladies side.

"I'm sorry sir,it wasn't intentional".

My hands were shaking nervously and I couldn't look up.

I felt a wet drop on my feet, it's from my eyes,I had to rub it off my eyes with a thumb.

"Sorry for yourself".

Mr Hathaway bluntly replies then he turns around and continues, "As I was saying... .

Bruno interrupted.

"I think those words are harsh ,very harsh actually".

There was a moment of silence after that statement.

Everyone was shocked and I was beyond shocked. Bruno never questioned his father's choice of words or anything at all which doesn't relate to him,even if he disagrees with it,he never cared to say it out loud.

He only answers questions and that's only if it's directed to him.

"What did you just say?"

Mr Hathaway's voice raged.

The room turned to a quiet graveyard.

""Bruno!"

My heart raced,my hands won't stop shaking nervously.

"All I am saying is...she apologised and doesn't deserve such treatment from you, she is one of our best designers,without those designs our company won't be at the top,she brought more to the company than the pretty faces you claim to represent".

"Leave us!"

Mr Hathaway announced.

Everyone of us quickly rushed and grab our files,and left the conference except Bruno.

Who was sitting calmly on his seat while his father was staring at him like a predator.

I looked at him one more time before finally getting out of the conference room. Did he just call his father out about his rudeness towards me?

I hope he doesn't get in trouble because of that. Why would he even do that?

How will I pay him back for standing up for me? I got to my office and dropped on my seat, immediately I heard laughter from the opposite side. I don't need a prophet to tell me that I am the laughing stock.

"I'm so sorry Beauty"Jessie came to me,her eyes were filled with empathy for me.

"It's okay I am used to this".

I replied and smiled at her with wet eyes.

She wasn't convinced, she patted the back of my hand gently,I closed my eyes and exhaled deeply

. "I am fine Jessie please, don't create more scenes please".

I said, holding back tears.

She noticed immediately and sighed.

"If you insist".

She muttered and left my office.

**SOMEWHERE IN THE EAST ASIA**

SHELLEY'S POV

"I have a twin?"

"Yes".

Mrs Joyce, my supposed mother, replied beaming with smiles.

"She's just like me but chubby..she's so cute and gorgeous".

I stared at the image of her on my phone screen, it's like looking directly into the mirror,well a mirror that can make you appear fat.

"Actually you two are very identical and even birthmarks but you are lucky to have your mom's body and she got your dad's fat,isn't that interesting".

"She's also lucky.....she doesn't look so happy in this photo,I wonder how she is coping,where is she now? How do I meet her?"

"Calm down young lady,you're gonna meet her someday,I promise".

"But why..are you telling me this mom?"

"I promised your birth mom I will tell you when you are of age,so I am fulfilling that promise".

She replied softly.

I smiled at her and hugged her tightly.

"Thanks mother you don't know how happy this made me,having those strange feelings and all the twin effects,I thought I was going crazy".

"When you are done admiring your sister,come join us for dinner".

She pecked my forehead and left the room.

I jumped happily, tossing my pillow here and there,taking a closer look at the pic, something doesn't seem right.

I became very worried. The pic was a happy graduation pic. Everyone was laughing except her. She stayed there like an outcast with wet eyes,two students in the background were pointing at her.

"She's with her real parents,so she will be good I guess".

I thought but now I have this feeling that everything isn't good with her.. I mean in this judgemental world, it's obvious she was bullied or body shamed by the photographer,I feel her emotions in this pic.

Another me is out there,and I am going to help her boost her confidence.

"Shelley! Are you coming?"

Mom's voice called.

"Will be there in a minute!"

I yelled out,I smiled back once again at the picture and got up,arranged my bed and walked out of the room,heading to the dining.

**BEAUTY'S POV**

I walked to the company's restaurant, downstairs,since it's lunch break.

After what happened back there in the conference room, I didn't know how to feel,except from feeling useless ofcourse.

"I want potatoes chips and veggies please".

I told the cook. She looked up at me and completely ignored me,not the first time though,it's like everyone here hates me except Jessi of ofcourse,what did I ever do to them?

"What do you want from me,handsome boss?"

The woman snapped suddenly, smiling uncontrollably at me?

Definitely not me. I looked back ,my heart paused at that point,I had to tilt my head back to look up at him.

He stood like a tall rigid wall behind me. Only if that wall is sexier than 99per of human males.

I quickly turned to the cook,my fingers clenched nervously,my heart was racing!

"Noodles and sauce please,"he replied calmly.

It's him, Bruno! Beads of sweat clouded my face ,it suddenly turned red with nervousness.

He was standing right behind me,so hot I could feel the heat melting me!

"Oh ... .you ...you..are here first."

I turned slowly and pointed to my chest.

"You talking to me?"

"Yes..emm...I apologise,tell her what you want..".

His calm voice always sends chills to my body like how can someone be so gentle,kind and handsome,altogether.

Bruno is perfect,a man like him will never notice someone like me,I wish I had a body like JESSI'S.

Maybe I could get a chance.

"Miss?"

His voice cuts in my thoughts.

"Eh?"

I snapped absentmindedly,my eyes widened.

"Tell her what you want".

His ocean blue eyes were sparkling.

How can a human's eyes be so dreamy? I think I am drooling.

"I want you...I mean.. I...mean..pie, chicken pie".

I chuckled nervously,turned away from her,then slapped myself on the cheek hard. get it together bitch!

The cook was glaring at me.

I turned back to him and smiled awkwardly.

Bruno stood there wearing a blank expression,he must've thought. What a weirdo.