Forever Yours: From the start till the end

"Is he... Is he really here?" I asked, totally not believing what my pretty small eyes saw. I was quite mesmerised, but to say I was in shock, is an understatement.

"I guess so, his eyes are of same colour and looks exactly like you described" Samantha, my best friend, said.

"But... But how?"

"You should know it better" she replied and left me all alone there.

He was back. The best of the 'bestest' friend of me. But he doesn't remember me. Doesn't recognise me and that's what hurts the most. Because he was not just a friend to me.

I had a crush on him since I was 8.

Giving me a small glance of his beautiful blue eyes, he stared at me for a while, making me realise that I'm not the one he knows, and it's not a tradition to just stare at someone like that.

At least not for a girl to stare at a boy like I was just doing.

I lowered my gaze, finding it difficult to meet those eyes again after all these years, when I knew it just wasn't easy for me now to stay in the same school as him.

I was still looking into those blue eyes. They didn't change in those six years. He was talking to some other boys and hasn't seen me. So, yea, I was looking in those eyes sideways. Just then his gaze turned towards me, and I didn't notice it until he started to stare at me back. I looked down in embarrassment and turned back. I was about to leave when I heard a voice.

"Hey girl!" someone had said.

Even if I didn't hear that voice in the last six years, I could sense that it's no one else's than Ryan. But the voice has deepened and it is way huskier than the cute clear one he had way back.

I turned around again, facing him, not knowing how to react. I even thought... Maybe he remembered me?

"What?" I asked slowly, still not meeting his eyes, cause they do different magic whenever I look at them.

"You must really like me!" he said. I looked at him in shock.

What did he just say?

"What??" I asked stunned.

"You were staring at me for the last 10 minutes I suppose, " he said and I could really feel the embarrassment pass through me straight. "Stop that already, " he said with a smirk on his face.

I didn't reply and went to the washroom. As expected, Sam was already waiting for me there.

"I'm sure... He's back... Ryan Carson... Sorry... Ryan Swift and... He has completely changed! I'm out of my mind right now... He was so shy and so quiet before... And now he's so bold!! I don't want to be in the same school-" I was cut off by Sam.

"Oh cool down my dear!! It's fine!! He doesn't remember you anyway"

"He doesn't! And he shouldn't!"

"I know right. Just don't act weird" she said and dragged me to my classroom. I and she were bench mates, so we sat together. Well, it was the first day of our 10th class, so we can decide on the bench we want.

"You know what Hannah, just calm down, " Sam said to me again, as she looked towards my dull face.

"You know I shouldn't be sad when he returned, but what can I do? It's bad for me as much as it is for him! You just saw how much he has changed!"

"How can I see that, when I haven't met him before?" she said.

Oh yeah. She hasn't.

"Well, earlier, he was just as cute and handsome as he's now, he was cool and talked in a decent manner. He was a disciplined boy and was just too shy to talk to anyone!"

"Then?"

"Well, it's a long story, but what I now know, is that he's a completely different person I knew once"

"And don't tell me you still have a crush on him?"

"Well... Yes"

"Go and die!"

"Why?"

"You're never gonna understand! I mean just get over him already!"

"I can't! I tried!"

"Leave it. The class is gonna start!" she said.

I looked towards the door and waited for the teacher to come. But someone else came at the door followed by the gossips of the young girls in the classroom.

Don't tell me, Ryan, & I are in the same class!!

And he came in my row. I closed my eyes because I was so embarrassed. I was startled when I felt a breath on my neck. A shiver went through my body on the hot breath of someone.

I desperately wanted to know what was there that increased my heartbeat to god-knows-which number. But I just wasn't ready to face it.

"You're lucky. I'm sitting behind you" he said, right, he was Ryan.

Oh god. Just kill me already!!

I didn't dare to look back or face him, he went and sat on his seat. While I was earning glares from my classmates, Samantha was dumbfounded.

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I waited for the class to get over. When I saw that the total length was 40 minutes, and it's been just 10 minutes, I decided to make a plan.

"Sam, I'm going to the washroom, come after me, " I said to her. Usually, teachers don't allow two students to go out at once, but she won't pay attention, I guess.

"Ok fine, which washroom? Lower one?"

"No, this floor"

"Ok, " she said and I stood up.

"Mam, may I use the washroom, " I said and she allowed. At a fast pace, I walked and walked and didn't stop until the washroom. At least here I was safe... It's a girl's washroom.

I waited for Sam who came to me a little while later.

"What took you so much time!!" I yelled as she entered the area.

"You don't know Hannah, I had to act like it was so urgent! She wasn't allowed!"

"Oh, ok, thanks. Now listen. What the hell am I gonna do?!?"

"Firstly, would you please tell me what the hell happened to him six years back? I never asked because you became a cry-baby whenever I did!"

"Oh really...."

"Yes really!"

"Fine fine. I'll tell you"

Hannah's POV

"Ok, ok, I'll tell you, " I said.

"Yes, please!!" Sam replied.

"It all started in middle school. He was so lonely, without any friends. I was lonely too, with no friends of my own. But I was not shy, actually, as he was. So, I made the first step to ask for friendship. He agreed and we became friends. Best friends. Slowly, we started sharing each & everything about ourselves. He was always there for me, and I was too. We were inseparable"

"Then?"

"I got to know his family. He was Carson. Ryan Carson"

"But... isn't his surname Swift?"

"That's where it all ended for me and started for him"

"Hmm... you don't usually make riddles, do you?"

"Huh, listen. It was a normal day, like any other, but the most unfortunate one for me... For him... For us"

"........"

"We were returning from our school. His parents always hated him, as I saw, but he didn't mind them much, because he knew he could please them someday. But they have had enough of him, so they... they decided... they decided something that was... horrible"

"What?"

"They decided to... end him"

"E-end him? What the fuck are you talking about?!"

"They planned his... his... death... That day... When we were returning from school, we went to my house. My parents welcomed us and after that, he decided to go back to his house as usual"

Someone entered the washroom, so I stopped. She went to one of the washrooms and I started speaking again. But I spoke very slowly, at least not be heard by that girl.

"Then?" Sam asked.

"I remember clearly he was happy and smiling when he left in the car... but all I know after that was that he had an accident... and... He was admitted to the hospital by the people"

"Woah? How the hell did he-"

"Listen, Sam! So, I was broken at the thought of him being in an accident. But I build up my courage and went inside his room after the doctors have treated him..."

"And?"

"I talked to the doctors, and they told me something I never thought I will ever listen"

"What???"

"They told me that he had amnesia and he is in temporary memory loss... and you know what?" I chuckled at the words they spoke so easily, the next. "they told me that he would be in his worst if he ever remembers me, for that would make him remember everything, about his family's betrayal, and trust me, he was not a kind of bearing betrayals"

"Wh-"

"But... I did what they said. I left him there. I made sure he doesn't see me even for a second. My parents kept me away from his sight while making sure he gets adopted by a different family because he was young and worth it"

"You... you just left?"

"Or what? Stay there just for my sake? Ruin his life? No, never Sam! I loved him, I loved him so much- I don't know for how long was I in depression after that"

"But, he? What happened to him?"

"He was adopted by the Swifts. Got a new life, with plenty of friends. I heard he just transferred here to complete his 10 + 2"

"So now what? What will you do?"

"He has seen me. I don't know if he will ever remember me or not - but it's best for him not to. There's not a single thing we will ever get by making him remember-"

"You will get a lot, Sam. His friendship"

"No. I won't. I don't even know if he wants to be my friend or not. He has changed so much. Why would he want me as a friend now that he's so full of friends?"

"You're wrong Hannah, the first friend is always special"

"But..." I was confused.

"So, what are you going to do now?"

"I don't know, I just want-" I stopped when I heard footsteps behind me, at the door. Samantha's eyes went wide on seeing the intruder, so I turned back.

No, my eyes went wider than ever.

Ryan.

"Bloody hell, wasn't this girl' washroom!?!" I whispered to Hannah looking at the floor, not wanting to look at his face, which carried a soft smirk.

"Bloody yes!" she whispered back.

"hi, Evelyn" Ryan spoke and I looked back, to where his eyes trailed, and I saw that same girl that entered a few minutes back.

"Hi babes, but you shouldn't be here, you know" she replied with a smirk, washing her hands under the tap.

"Yeah, but you know how much I miss you" he spoke.

"You've been not leaving me alone even to let me go to the washroom, you know!" she yelled sarcastically.

"Sorry babes, " he said and then he grabbed her arms and pulled her close. I looked the other side while my heart was breaking down at the sight.

Oh god. He has a girlfriend.

Hannah's POV

I still didn't have enough courage to look in their direction, but then I felt the footsteps retreating, becoming fader and fader, and then I finally looked at Samantha.

"Oh god, now you should really get over him, " Sam said.

"Yaar! You should be supporting me, and what the hell are you doing to your friend. I mean, did you see that girl? I haven't seen here around yet"

"Yup, she has been transferred along with Ryan"

"WHAT THE HELL"

"No. No hell if you don't behave like a crazy teenager!"

"I'm a teenager for god's sake!"

"Fine, Fine. Just you know, he has a girlfriend, so it's a dead-end"

"No. I don't feel that girl is okay"

"Ya sure. Why would you, you have an everlasting crush on him!!"

"You know that's not the reason, so stop nagging"

"You know I don't approve of you having that stupid crush on some guy from your fucking 9 years!"

"You know I don't care if you approve that or not!"

"Oh, believe me, you do"

"Well, whatever, but I want to do some research on that girl"

"Fine. Fine. Your detective is here, anyway" she said.

Yes, I know she's a little irritating, doesn't like me having a no-leg-and-hand-crush on a boy who vanished from my life after 4 years of our friendship, and remember just nothing of it, but she's good. She has been always there for me, and she's reliable. And as she herself told, a great detective she really is.

"Then find about that girl, " I said and we went back to our class, separately of course.

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He is sitting behind me. That girl, whose name is Evelyn I suppose, is sitting in the third row, from ours. But they are constantly staring at each other and smiling. Yea, I noticed that a few times. But then I noticed Evelyn. She looked at me with a scowl on her face. Then she smirked, but I didn't understand anything. I looked in front when Samantha said something slowly.

"Why are you two sharing glances, don't tell me she's gay and you're picking on her" she whispered, and I cringed at that thought, but suddenly burst out laughing at picturing her as one.

YES, I freaking burst out laughing like a freak.

"What's so funny, Ms. Quinn" the teacher snapped at me, and I could do nothing, but got embarrassed.

"If you got nothing to say, then leave!" she yelled and I left the class, I knew I just got detention.

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I was in the detention room, covered by boring books all over when I heard footsteps. I was happy, Sam is here.

"Woah. How come you-" my happiness faded when a pair of legs followed her, and it was none other than Ryan's.

"What the-" I whispered to Sam. Ryan gave me a smirk and said, "Hey, Ms. QUINN" he said in the same manner the teacher said, and it didn't feel bad.

"Detention on the first day, huh?" I said to him, in a friendly manner, as I forgot that we aren't even friends.

"That's the way to spend time with someone, " he said and I was damn sure who's coming inside right now.

Evelyn.

"You should give us some private time, Ms. Quinn, " he said.

Not wanting to end my conversation, and not wanting him to call me Ms. Quinn, I told him my freaking name.

"Hannah, " I said. "I have a name, Hannah, as in Hannah Quinn"

"Hannah" he repeated my name, and then it struck to me, I should've changed my name. What if he remembers everything?

"Easy name" he continued and smiled. "So, as I was saying, will you, I suppose please, give us some privacy and please, again, would go to another room?" he said with a smirk.

Samantha was dumbstruck. WHAT THE HELL DID HE JUST SAY?

"It's a freaking detention room, mister!" I said to him, "I ain't going anywhere for your stupid private time!" I said and he was shocked that I could say something like that.

"Woah. Easy, girl!" he said and smirked. "You don't wanna leave me alone, do you?" he asked and that question had a hint of truth, but that was embarrassing.

"There's nothing like that, mister, so stop dreaming and go to your freaking girlfriend, she is standing at the gate, and she's looking at you just like a slut!!" I blurted out, and then I knew that I said just what I wanted, but I shouldn't, because he was burning in anger now.

"TAKE YOUR BLOODY WORDS BACK" he sort-of commanded.

"I... I won't" I said as I saw her smirking.

"I'm warning you of the consequences, Ms. Hannah Quinn!" he said.

NOW. WHAT. IS. THIS.

"W..what? what will you do??" I asked, and Sam kept a hand on my shoulder, partially telling me to back down, but I wouldn't.

"You're a bitch" he cursed. "Let me deal with you like one, " he said and then took out his phone, and before I could even understand what he was doing, he clicked a photo of me.

"HEY!!! That's illegal!!! YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO TAKE PHOTO OF ANY GIRL LIKE THAT!!" I yelled, but he smirked. He then gestured for Evelyn to come near him.

"Do a little editing, babes" he said, and then she took his phone. I tried to stop her, but Ryan stood like a freaking wall between us, and just in a fraction of minutes, she was done.

"Now, do you like that, Ms. Quinn!?!" he said and showed a picture.

OH. MY. GOD.

If that gets out, I'll surely die of embarrassment!!!

"Hey, you, delete it right now!!" I yelled.

"Scared, are you?" he said and smirked. "Behave then, and apologize to her right now, " he said, and I had no other bloody option than to apologize. "Sorry, " I said, she smirked, followed by Ryan's smirk, and then they deleted that fucking picture, but no, it is not the end.

I'll make her pay.