Fear, Control or Love?

FEAR. It is the most basic human emotion and in Aiden's case the most common too. He was pretty much scared of everything, but his fear increased ten fold after he met Dylan Hunt.

CONTROL. It is the one thing which Dylan needed in his life. Whatever he did he wanted the things to be in his control. He never listened to anyone not even his parents. So, the moment he laid his eyes on Aiden he had the urge to control this fearful innocent boy.

LOVE. The most beautiful emotion. It is said that when one falls in love everything in this World seems beautiful. That same feeling was experienced by Noah when he first met Aiden. Aiden had built up walls of fear around his heart and would not allow anyone to enter, but Noah had decided he would break those walls and fill it up with his love.

So who would win? Fear, or Love?

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PS: The book contains mentions of abuse and dark themes.

It was a chilly winter day. 8-year-old Aiden was hiding under the bed of his small bedroom, shivering in the cold as well as in fear. He was hiding from his parents to avoid getting beaten. They were too drunk today from early morning itself and Aiden had also seen them inhaling some white colored powder. On such days, they were extra violent and often vented out their anger on Aiden. As soon as he saw them with that powder thing he immediately looked for a place to hide. He shuddered thinking about the last time the abuse he had to take from his parents.

They had beaten him black and blue until he lost consciousness. The next day when he woke up his body was covered with purple bruises. It was aching all over and he got up with much difficulty. He wanted to tell someone about his abusive parents but they often threatened him if he told anyone they would not hesitate to kill him. His parents were small-time thieves who earned their livelihood by pickpocketing and stealing from others. They often asked Aiden to drop out of school and assist them in stealing. They knew that people can easily get fooled by kids, but Aiden always refused to result in being beaten up.

Aiden heard a loud crash sound outside in the living room and hid further inside as much as possible. He could hear his parents fighting hurling curses against each other. Aiden was silently praying to God, his parents shouldn't come looking for him. He heard more crashes and banging sounds and whimpered in fear. Then he heard footsteps coming towards his bedroom. He clamped his mouth tightly with his hand to avoid making any sound.

Suddenly he heard his mom call for him creepily "Where are you Aiden? Where's my baby hiding? Won't you come to Mama?" Aiden shuddered at his mom's sickly sweet voice taunting him. Tears started pooling in his eyes and he cried silently staring at his mom's footsteps around his room. He heard the bathroom door open and close, then the closet. Now he knew his mom would surely check under the bed as his house was quite small and there were not many places to hide. He jumped up in fear as his mother appeared in front of him and gave him a creepy smile and said " Found you. You can't hide from me".

Aiden's mom held his leg and tried to pull him out from under the bed. He was now crying hysterically desperately trying to pry his mother's hands off him. He was so thin and malnourished and did not have enough strength to get rid of his mother's steely grip on him. She easily pulled him out and dragged him to the living room where his father was sitting on the sofa, smoking. Aiden's mom threw him on the floor beside the sofa where his Dad was sitting. His dad gave him a death glare and he started moving back trying to escape from him, but it was too late. His dad held his arm tightly and placed the burning cigarette on his arm. Aiden screamed in pain but his dad did not stop, rather he got angrier and said: " Stop shouting you freak, it's so irritating." Aiden clamped his hand on his mouth again to muffle his scream. Aiden's Dad looked at his mom and said " Get my belt, we need to teach this ungrateful kid a lesson".

Aiden was so scared and stuttered out " PPP...Please Dad, I I I... ammm... Soorrryy... Pleaseee ddon't hit me with the belt... IIItttt hurtssss." His Dad scoffs and says angrily " You deserve it. We should have killed you the day you were born".

Aiden whimpers and starts crying again when he sees his mom coming out with the belt. She gives the belt to his dad. He swings it hard and a hit lands directly on Aiden's hand and back. Aiden screams so loud in pain and he couldn't stop the tears which were now flowing from his eyes like a river. Aiden's Dad raises his arm again and Aiden was about to get up and run when suddenly the main door bursts open.

All 3 people in the house look towards the door and see few policemen enter holding guns. One of the officers shouts "Freeze". Aiden's parents are suddenly scared and his Dad drops the belt which he was holding.

One of the officers tells his colleague " First, get the child to safety."

An officer comes near Aiden and he moves backwards in fear. The officer speaks to him calmly saying " Don't worry kid, we are here to help you. Come with me, I will not harm you."

Aiden was contemplating what to do. He looked at his parents who were busy looking at each other contemplating how to get out of this situation. While the officers were busy with Aiden, his parents take an opportunity to try to escape from there, but the officers catch them and put them in handcuffs.

The officer near Aiden goes to him and says " I am officer Bruce, we came here to save you. We got complaints from your neighbor saying they heard noises from your house frequently and they doubted a child being abused."

Aiden felt this man was good as there was hardly anyone who spoke to him so nicely. Also, he had learnt in school the Police always help the people. He thought of trusting him and asked " Where are you taking my parents?"

Officer Bruce says " We are taking them to jail and you are also coming with us for now."

Aiden gets scared and asks " Are you taking me to jail too?"

Officer Bruce shakes his head and says " Oh no Kid, you will not be going to jail. Do you know anyone with whom you can stay like an Uncle or Aunt or your grandparents?"

Alden shakes his head and says " I have only been with my parents. There was no one else."

Bruce then says " OK then don't worry, we will take you to a suitable place to stay"

Bruce then takes Aiden's hand and steps out of the house. Aiden sees two more officers dragging his parents away and putting them inside a car. His parents were looking at Aiden in anger as if to say it was all his fault. Aiden shudders at their glare which Bruce notices and tells Aiden " You don't have to be scared of them anymore, they can't harm you anymore. Come, I will take you to the Doctor to look after your wounds."

Bruce informs his senior that Aiden needs to be checked by a Doctor and goes to the hospital along with his partner and Aiden. At the hospital, the Doctor checks Aiden and tends to his wounds. The Doctor asks him how he got those bruises and Aiden reluctantly tells the Doctor about the beatings he received from his parents on regular basis. The Doctor calls the police officers and says "Aiden has many bruises on his body both old and new and has been abused physically, mentally and verbally for a long time. He seems to be emotionally scarred and is very jumpy about his surroundings. It's obvious he is very scared and he needs a good and healthy environment to lead a normal life. See to it that he gets into a good family."

Bruce gets angry hearing the Doctors words. He thinks about how can someone harm their own child like that. Aiden was just 8 years old and already had such a hard life. He mentally makes a note to inform his senior to build a strong case against the couple so that they get locked up in jail for a long time. Bruce assures the Doctor that he will send Aiden to a good orphanage for now so that he can be adopted into a good family. He thanks the Doctor and leaves from there with Aiden.

Once out of the hospital he calls the Orphan Shelter home he knew about and asks whether he could get a child there. They agree immediately.

Bruce is very happy and smiles at Aiden saying " I have found a home for you. It's an Orphanage I know about and they take good care of the kids. There you will find new friends and even many good families come and adopt kids".

Aiden finally smiles back at him thinking about his words. The idea of having new friends and family seemed very appealing to him. He never had a friend as his parents never liked him having friends. They drive for around half an hour and Bruce stops in front of a gate. The guard at the gate comes to enquire and Bruce says he has spoken to Mrs Cecilia who was the head of the Orphanage. The guard opens the gates and Bruce enters inside. They then stop in front of a building. Aiden gets out of the car and looks at the building in front of him. It was a simple 3 storey building which seemed to be well maintained. On the left side, there was a garden with many flowers and plants. On the right side, there was a huge playground with many playing equipment like the swing, see-saw, slide etc. Aiden was happy seeing those and imagined himself playing on them. Bruce then holds his hand and takes him inside the building.

They enter the building and go towards an office. Bruce has visited this orphanage many times before so he knows it properly. They enter the office and see a middle-aged lady sitting there. She looks up and greets Officer Bruce. Bruce greets her and sits down. Aiden was just shyly looking around not knowing what to do. Mrs. Cecilia looks at Aiden and asks Bruce " Is this the child you were talking about?"

Bruce nods his head.

Mrs. Cecilia smiles at Aiden and asks " What's your name, child?"

Aiden shyly replies " Aiden."

Mrs. Cecilia then looks at Bruce and asks " Where did you find him? What about his parents?"

Bruce then reluctantly looked at Aiden and Mrs. Cecilia understood he didn't want to talk in front of Aiden. She calls a caretaker into her office and asks him to show Aiden around the orphanage. A caretaker John comes to take Aiden away. He was reluctant to go and was looking at Bruce. Bruce assures him he will be safe with him and asks to go so he nods and leaves.

Bruce then speaks to Mrs. Cecilia saying " We rescued Aiden today. We had received a complaint from his neighbors stating there was a couple who were thieves and the neighbor suspected they abused their child. Today morning they heard fighting and banging noises so we immediately went to the location and caught them red-handed abusing the child. His parents were both drug addicts and often beat him up when they were high on drugs. I had taken Aiden to the hospital and the Doctor said there were many bruises on his body and he was abused for a long time. He suggested being extra careful with him as he is a very sensitive child and gets scared easily. "

Mrs. Cecilia grimaced at Bruce's words. She knew such type of kids. It was always a pain to take care of them. For the past 10 years, she was the head of this orphanage which she inherited from her parents. She has seen many types of kids come and go around and knew very well how to take care of them. The abused kids are usually so introverted and difficult to handle. The parents who come to adopt want smart kids who don't cause them any trouble. These kids usually remain in the orphanage for a long time without getting adopted. Mrs. Cecilia's main goal was to see to it that most of the kids get adopted into good families. It's not because she was too good at heart, it's because if the families are happy with the kids they adopted, they usually are very generous with their donations to the orphanage. This kid Aiden was not only abused but his parents were thieves and drug addicts. Lord knows what kind of things he has been taught by his parents. He might also be a trouble for other kids. Mrs. Cecilia didn't want to take Aiden into her orphanage, but she could not refuse the Police. Also, she had an image to maintain.

Mrs. Cecilia gave one of her best fake smiles and says " Don't you worry Bruce, I have taken care of many such kids before. But, I want to know one thing, was Aiden involved in the stealing along with his parents?"

Officer Bruce was about to reply when they heard some noise outside. Few kids were peeping through the window trying to eavesdrop on them. Mrs. Cecilia got up and went towards the naughty kids and asked them to leave. She then sat down and asked Bruce to continue.

Bruce nodded and said " I have got no such reports about the child being involved, and also he is just an 8-year-old who seems to be too scared about everything. "

Mrs. Cecilia nods and assures him she will take good care of Aiden. By then John comes back along with Aiden. John had already shown him the rooms, dining room, the gardens, playground etc. Aiden seemed to like this place as it was far bigger and better than the small 4 room apartment which he shared with his parents. Also, the people here seemed good as they spoke to him so nicely.

Bruce smiles at Aiden and asks him "How did you like this place?"

Aiden brightens up and replies "It's very nice."

Bruce is happy and says " You can stay here from now. I will collect your things from your house and get them tomorrow. So, I will be leaving now."

Aiden thanks him and Officer Bruce leaves. Mrs. Cecilia stares at Aiden. She wanted to explain the rules to him today, but as Bruce will be coming again tomorrow she decides she will talk to him the next day.

Mrs. Cecilia gives a fake sweet smile to Aiden and says " You must be tired today, so you can go to your room and rest, I will explain the rules to you tomorrow."

She then informs John to allocate room no 5 to Aiden. John nods and takes him to room no. 5 which was on the ground floor itself. The room was quite spacious and had 2 beds placed at each corner. Beside each bed, there was a study table and a chair. On the other side of the bed was a closet. Besides the study table was a window which was facing the playground. There was an attached bathroom as well. Aiden liked the room a lot.

John informs Aiden " You will be sharing the room with another boy Dean who is 10 years old. Dinner will be at 7 P.M, so be on time" saying this John leaves from there.

Aiden sits on his bed and thinks about the events of the entire day. He looks at the bruises on his hands and is relieved to be away from his abusive parents. He now has a good place to stay with caring people and can probably have proper meals too. He can now make friends like other kids of his age. He smiles and thanks' God for finally answering his prayers.

Life at the Orphanage was not as good as Aiden had imagined and hoped.

At 7 p.m. as instructed, he went for dinner at the dining hall. He saw many kids lining at the food counter. The other kids looked at him and started murmuring among themselves. Aiden was already very shy and he felt more awkward now. He joined the queue at the food counter and tried to talk to the boy who was standing at the end of the queue, but the boy just ignored him. Aiden was embarrassed. He just quietly stood in the queue and took the plates as the other kids.

When it was his turn, the guy who was serving asked him "Are you new here?"

Aiden nodded and left taking his food and looked around for a place to sit. He couldn't bear the stares he received so he sat at a corner alone. The food looked really good, far better than what Aiden ate at his house. There was Bacon and Broccoli rice bowl along with some vegetable salad. He got a small serving of chocolate pudding as well. Aiden tasted the food and it was delicious. Instantly, his mood improved and he devoured his food since he hadn't eaten anything from morning.

Once the food was done, Aiden saw few kids keeping their used plates at a counter. He followed them and kept his used plate there and went to drink water. He saw a group of children giggling looking at him.

As Aiden was drinking water he heard one of the boys say " Did you look at the way he was eating? It looked like he never had any food in his life."

Aiden was not sure whether they were talking about him, but the words he heard next proved otherwise. He heard a girl say " I think he has never had good food before. When it's stolen food, you have to make do with whatever is easily available."

The water Aiden was drinking seemed to be stuck in his throat. He dared to peek a glance at the group of giggling kids and they were now shamelessly gawking at him. His suspicions were confirmed that they were indeed talking about him. He was so embarrassed, he just left the dining hall and ran towards his room. Before leaving, he could hear the kids laughter which echoed through the dining hall.

As Aiden rushed back to his room, he saw a boy already sitting on the other bed. Aiden thought this guy must be Dean. Aiden forced a smile at him and stuttered " Hiii... I..I...I a...a...am Aiden, Youuu must be Dean.

Dean just gave him a disgusting look and asked " You are the thief?"

Aiden was shocked at his words. He reluctantly asked, " W...w...what do you m...m...m...mean?"

Dean scoffed and replied " I know all about you. The 'Pranks Gang' heard the Police Officer talking to Madam Cecilia. He was saying your parents were thief and drug addicts and so they were arrested. Were you also involved in stealing with your parents?"

Aiden was on the verge of tears at the accusation. He barely managed to say " I...I...I...I a..a.am not a thief."

" We will know that soon, but I am warning you, if you try to steal any of my stuff, I won't spare you" threatened Dean. He then got up and went inside the bathroom.

Aiden couldn't stop the tears from flowing now. The kids already knew about his background. They also thought he was a thief like his parents. His wish to make friends crumbled even before he could give it a try. He laid down on his bed, hid under the blanket and cried himself to sleep.

The next day, Aiden was called to Madam Cecilia's office. Officer Bruce had got his things from his house. There was nothing much, just a few clothes, shoes and books. Bruce wished him good luck and left.

Mrs. Cecelia then had her chance and asked Aiden to sit down. He was a bit intimidated by her tone now which seemed different from how it was the previous day.

Mrs. Cecilia got up from her seat and said sternly " I have heard all the stories about your parents, who and what they were, so I don't expect a good upbringing from them. But, I will make one thing clear to you, whatever you did in the past does not matter anymore. In this orphanage, you have to live according to my rules and I do not tolerate any kind of insolence or mischiefs from any of the kids. You will be punished if you do not follow the rules and, by any chance, if I hear that you are stealing and robbing in my orphanage then you would be sorry."

Aiden was shocked at Mrs. Cecilia's sudden change of attitude. He jumped up in fear when he heard Madam Cecilia say " Do I make myself clear boy?"

Aiden couldn't muster up the strength to speak and just nodded his head.

Mrs. Cecilia then sat down and said " Your admission has been done at a school nearby and you will be starting from tomorrow. Also, many parents will be coming here regularly to adopt the kids. You have to be at your best behavior in front of the parents if you want to get adopted to a good family. Also, I maintain a logbook wherein I note down the good and bad deeds of each kid. The parents often refer to these logbooks to decide whether they have to adopt a child or not as many parents prefer smart kids." She then calls John to come to her office.

John enters the office and Mrs. Cecilia instructs him to take Aiden away and explain the rules.

John takes Aiden to his room and says " There are a few rules which every child here has to follow. First of all, you must wake up at 6 a.m., take bath and get ready for school. Breakfast will be served at 7 and after that, you leave for school. After you are back from school you will have to first finish your HW and if you complete it soon you will get 2 hours of free time to play or watch TV. Dinner will be served at 7 p.m. You must sleep at 8 p.m. and no one is allowed to go out of their rooms after 8 p.m. Remember to always follow the above schedule and maintain discipline and no fighting with the other kids. See to it you adhere to these rules or else you will be punished." John was a no-nonsense guy who always spoke to the point. Citing the rules he simply left the room without even giving Aiden a chance to speak.

Aiden was the type who was scared of punishments. Being a child who was constantly abused by his parents, he was adamant about avoiding the punishments at any costs. So he recited the rules again and again in his mind.

The next morning, Aiden woke up at 6 a.m. and got ready for school. He had his breakfast and left for school on the school bus with the other kids.

Aiden's experience at school was nothing better compared to his orphanage. He had hoped to at least make friends at school, but most of the students were from the orphanage itself who had already briefed the other students on Aiden's "supposed" background. So, as a result, Aiden was a target of disgust and hatred from students and teachers alike. He soon realized he was better off being alone and avoided others just to stay out of trouble. His biggest fear was getting abused and bullied by others. He tried to stay invisible and immersed all his time in his studies. Aiden was content being on his own in the orphanage and at the school. Even though he was alone and had to be constantly ridiculed by others, it was manageable.

It went on like that for a few weeks. Aiden fell into a routine. Wake up on time, have breakfast, go to school and once back get immersed in his books. He preferred to stay in his room even in his break time so that he can avoid facing the others. He always wanted to play in the playground but not at the cost of being bullied by others.

Blame it on Aiden's rotten luck, he was soon accused by one of the kids at the orphanage for stealing his toy car. As Aiden was getting back from his dinner one evening, he was stopped by Brett and his gang. Brett and the gang were known as the 'Prank's Gang' around the orphanage. They liked to often play pranks on the other kids as well as the caretakers.

Brett grabbed Aiden's collar angrily and sneered " You thief, Why did you steal my toy car?"

Aiden was shocked at the sudden assault and stuttered in fear " W..w..what are you saying? I...I...I didn't steal anything."

" Don't lie to me. Give me my toy car back now " roared Brett. By now all the other kids had gathered around to watch the scene unfold.

Aiden was scared and tried to get away from Brett's tight grip but failed. He was on the verge of tears and whispered " I..I..I didn't steal anything."

Brett raised his hand to punch Aiden when he was stopped by Madam Cecilia who had come to the dining hall.

"What is happening here? Leave the boy now" sneered Madam Cecilia.

Brett immediately left Aiden's collar and said " Mam, this boy stole my toy car".

Mrs. Cecilia raised her eyebrow and stared at Aiden and asked " Is it, true boy? Did you steal his toy?"

Aiden stuttered " I...I...I dddin't sssteal his toy, Mam."

Brett scoffed and was about to attack Aiden again but Madam Cecilia roared " Stop it, Brett. Don't you dare to fight in front of me. Let me handle this."

She then turned to Aiden and said " If you are telling the truth then you should have no problem in having your belongings checked."

Before Aiden could say anything, Mrs. Cecilia called for John and asked him to search Aiden's room. Mrs. Cecilia, Aiden, Brett and his friends followed John to Aiden's room. John entered room no. 5 and started searching Aiden's closet. He didn't find the toy there. Then he checked Aiden's study table and inside the drawer was a red color toy car. John took it out and asked Brett whether it was his toy. Brett nodded and took the car from John and glared at Aiden. Brett wanted to hit Aiden but stopped himself once he remembered Madam Cecilia being present there.

Aiden couldn't understand how the toy car was found in his drawer. He looked desperately from Brett to Madam Cecilia and said " I...I...I really don't kkkknow how the car came to be in my drawer, bbbut I..I..I ddddin't ssssteal it."

"I knew you are a thief, the police should have arrested you along with your parents" scoffed Brett angrily.

Aiden whimpered at Brett's loud tone and tears started flowing from his eyes. He wanted to explain himself but didn't know-how. He knew no one would believe him even if he tried. They had already started blaming him as soon they knew about his parents, and now when the toy was found in his drawer, they would surely blame him. He thought who hated him so much to frame him by keeping the toy in his drawer.

On the other hand, Mrs. Cecilia who wanted complete order and discipline in her orphanage was enraged at this incident. It was merely a few weeks this small boy had come to her orphanage and he had already started stealing from other kids. She had to teach him a lesson so that he does not repeat this mistake.

Madam Cecilia looked at Brett and said " You got your toy back, you can leave now".

She then looked at the kids who were gathered and said " All of them go to your rooms now."

The kids started leaving and Madam Cecilia told Aiden " You, follow me."

Aiden was very scared and reluctantly followed Madam Cecilia. The other kids headed to their respective rooms gossiping about Aiden. He could clearly make out 'thief', 'shameless', 'pathetic' and many other such offensive words being thrown at him. The kids had mixed reactions. Few were shocked and appalled, few disgusted and few happy at Aiden's misery. The happiest was Dean because he had managed to so easily escape from this situation. Actually, Dean was the one who had stolen Brett's toy car. Brett and his gang had pranked on him the previous day, so Dean wanted to get back at them. He stole Brett's favorite toy and hid it in his closet. As Brett saw his toy was missing his friends suggested the thief must be Aiden. So, after Brett openly confronted Aiden in the dining hall, Dean was scared he will be caught so he ran into his room and hid the toy in Aiden's drawer.

Aiden followed Madam Cecilia to her office. She seemed very angry and Aiden was expecting the worst.

Madam Cecilia sat on her chair and stared at Aiden. She sneered " Hadn't I told you about the rules earlier. I had warned you boy, but you still dare to steal at my orphanage. " She said the last words so loudly that Aiden was frozen in fear. He didn't dare to utter a word due to fear of getting beaten. He wanted to say that he didn't steal the toy but he couldn't muster up the strength to say anything.

" You will be punished for this boy. I won't let you off so easily " continued Madam Cecilia. She said " You will have no breakfast and dinner tomorrow. You can have your lunch at school. Also, you will be cleaning the entire dining room for next week, alone by yourself. It should be done properly, I will personally inspect your work and if it is not clean then you have to do it again. "

Aiden just nodded his head vigorously and agreed to whatever Madam Cecilia said. He was already used to household work while staying with his parents and skipping meals was a regular occurrence there, so this punishment did not seem that bad. He was thankful to God he did not receive any beatings.

Madam Cecilia then told Aiden to get out of her room but not before warning him again. Aiden rushed out of the office and ran back to his room.

The following week for Aiden was nothing but trouble. Previously there were at least a few kids and caretakers who were not certain what kind of boy was Aiden. They would have given him the benefit of doubt, but the recent incident changed their views completely. Now Aiden was certainly a thief in their eyes. The sneers, curses and stares increased. He was ridiculed and made fun of when he had to clean the dining room alone, for next week. The 'Prank Gang' had found their new and regular target. So, as Aiden cleaned one section of the dining hall and moved on to the next, they dirtied the section which was already cleaned. When Mrs. Cecilia inspected Aiden's work, she forced him to redo it. This continued for the whole week.

After the punishment week was over, Aiden tried to stay even more hidden, but it was not always possible. Even if a kid lost his pencil, Aiden was the one to be blamed. The other kids often snatched away the food and deserts from his plate stating he had previously stolen something from them. Dean who had so easily escaped after stealing for the first time was now doing it regularly and always blamed it on Aiden. Aiden was often punished by Madam Cecilia in the form of skipping meals, doing the cleaning, making him kneel down for hours in the playground under the hot sun, standing up outside her office with raised hands etc. Aiden was rather grateful that she never hit or beat the kids as a punishment nor allowed any other kids to do so. His logbook was full of bad deeds so obviously he was not the most desired child to be adopted.

2 years went by at the orphanage and Aiden was now 10 years old. He had no friends at all, except for a stray cat which often came into the playground in front of his room through a small hole on the compound wall. He was now used to the gossips, ridicules, pranks and punishments. In between all these troubles, there was one good thing for him. He was very good at his academics and the topper in his class. He dedicated all his time to his studies and ignored everything else. In this way, he could make his living in the orphanage bearable.