MARINA
One thing I learnt for the past three years is that the most beautiful sight to watch is watching the sun set. Some say it is more beautiful when you watch it with someone you love but I think it's still nice watching it alone.
Now I am sitting alone at the park which is not so far from my apartment, crying because the pain is just so unbearable, today after coming from work I planned to surprise my boyfriend cause today makes it a year of us being together, I went to his house but instead of me surprising him he was the one that surprised me, I walked in on him and my close friend making out on the couch, he didn't look fazed at all instead he just looked at me and said "I prefer someone who can give me what I want".
His words still resounding in my ears. I felt I loved this guy. My surprise for him today was to give myself to him. The reason why we haven't had sex was I felt I
wanted to give my virginity to the right person but no, the idiot was just another asshole. I'm glad nothing happened between us.
The pain of being cheated on is not nice at all, it is painful, I gave my all to something and this is what I get in return, so bad I wish my brothers were present now they are the only ones who can give me the comfort I deserve.
I looked around me to see a couple on their blanket cuddled together, which lay on the grass as they were cuddling. I wish I had my love. My perfect love.
Tears kept streaming down. I don't even know why I am crying for the asshole but it just hurts a lot right now, I don't even know what to do. My main aim of coming to the park was to let my feelings out to feel the evening breeze caress my skin to soothe the pain, but I don't think it's working at all.
"Aunty why are you crying," I heard a little boy voice beside I turned to my side to notice two boys staring at me while standing by the bench one seem to be around eight years while the other boy lets say three, the older one looked nice with his black hair scattered everywhere and his grey eyes to compliment it, while the younger one also had black hair and blue eyes, blue like the sky he looked quite cute and innocent.
"Why do you think I'm crying, darling?" I asked him, paying all my attention to them. The older one looked as if he was scanning me, then smiled.
"Your eyes are red, my brother and I have been watching you for quite some time," he said, which made me look at the younger one. He looked cute.
"I'm okay darling, just trying to let out my emotions" I said which made him frown. "Did anyone make you cry" he asked and I nodded "Lets just say my boyfriend cheated on me" I said to the boy.
"Sorry, auntie." "Thanks, darling, so...uh. What's your name?" I asked him with the best smile I could muster right now. "My name is Vincent, and my little brothers name is Xavier," he said, smiling widely
"That's good to know, I'm Marina," I said, stretching my hand to pinch Xavier's cheeks, which earned me a giggle from him. "Are you guys here alone?" I asked, wondering if they came with their parents.
"We are here with Daddy. This is the first time he brought us to the park after a long time, but he had to attend to a call," Vincent said, smiling so brightly
I turned to Xavier to see he was already looking at me "Darling would you like some ice cream?" I asked him, and he nodded vigorously saying "Yes".
"Then let's get some ice cream," I say as I stand up from the bench, helping Xavier get down from the bench. We walked to the closest ice cream stand we could find.
"So what flavour do you boys like?" I asked them as I faced them, "Chocolate," Vincent said, and "Vanilla," Xavier said.
I turned to the vendor and said, "You heard the kids," and he nodded immediately. "Coming right up, ma'am," he said, then turned to prepare the ice cream.
I faced the kids to keep talking to them and then "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING WITH MY KIDS" I looked up to see the owner of the voice just for me to see a man looking over at me.
He was tall and muscular, his muscles tight against the soft material of his shirt, and his sleeves were folded up his forearm showcasing his muscles. His face looked so heavenly with that sharp jawline, mostly trimmed beards adding to his intimidating appearance.
I gulped as I stared back into his dark grey eyes that resembled something like an abyss, his eyes glaring at me. "I'm so sorry, I didn't mean....".
"Just shut the fuck where do you think you were taking my kids to" He half yelled as I guess he didn't want to make a scene.
"I'm sorry, I just wanted to....."he cut me off again, "just shut up and get out, " he said through his gritted teeth to show he was angry. Tears were already in the corner of my eyes threatening to fall. I held them in. My mind is always in chaos whenever someone raises their voice at me. It kind of scares me. I actually don't know why. "Daddy" I heard Vincent call his father which made both of us look at him but his dad was glaring at him asking him to shut up and the father immediately looked back at me telling me to get out, his voice cold as he stared at me dead in the eyes.
I looked back at the kids, holding my tears back perfectly. "Bye Vincent, bye Xavier," I choked out and walked away as fast as I could. My way home was a blur as I viewed the world with eyes filled with tears.
MARINA
"Marina, I told you before please can you take my shift tonight" Lucy said, giving me the best puppy she could ever make and I couldn't say no to those big brown eyes, they are cute.
"Okay, I will do it," I said, and she squealed loudly. "Thank you, thank you, "she said happily as she walked to her locker.
Lucy is kind of the only friend I have in the hospital, I don't really like interacting with people cause I feel they don't like me because of my skin colour or who I am so I kept to myself but Lucy is the only person I can call a friend in the whole hospital.
Lucy and I are both nurses in the emergency unit so as nurses we all have shifts, my shift was during the day but Lucy has a date with Cameroon, her boyfriend tonight and now I have to fill in for her.
Lucy is someone we call an epitome of beauty. She has those legs, long blonde hair, and most especially her big brown eyes. Sometimes, I get jealous of her, but what can I do? I'm not God.
"I promise I will give you details of the night," Lucy said as she came back with her bag smiling happily, and I just returned the smile.
"I will love to hear, but please keep it, PG," I say laughing, she just shook her head with a smile and walked out.
I got dressed back into my scrub and walked out of the female locker room to the reception, waiting for any emergency, which I don't pray for to occur this night.
Sitting down alone I noticed a little boy looking outside as he stood by the door with his smoothie in his hands, he reminded me of Xavier.
"Please, he is having an asthma attack." I heard someone shout, which got me springing out from my chair just to see a middle-aged man, maybe in his forties, carrying a little boy. Immediately, I walked fast to them to have the little boy, and the boy was Xavier like my Xavier.
I'm very sure he is not yours.
"Hey Xavier, you have to breathe with me," I said to him as I rushed him into a ward. He was breathing rapidly, his eyes were glistened with tears, and he looked so pitiful right now.
"Have you used his inhaler?" I asked the man, and he nodded vigorously. "I used it for him on the way here, but he isn't responding to it," the man said
I ran out of the ward immediately, I got a Nebulizer from the next ward and ran back to his ward with the aerosol in my hands.
With hurried hands, I arranged the machine, wore the mask for him and put on the mask, and switched the nebulizer on.
Waiting for almost ten minutes, he was still breathing the same way. It didn't look like it had that much of an effect on him. I'm not thinking I removed the mask. "Hey baby, look at me," I said to him, which made him look at me. Tears were in his eyes.
His chest heaving rapidly.
"I want you to breathe with me, you see in and out, in and out, in and out you can do it" I tried controlling his breathing with shaking hands I opened the drawer beside him and brought out a Ventolin inhaler.
"Xavier, once I puff this in your mouth don't swallow it immediately. Keep it for three seconds, then you can swallow it" I said, and he nodded. I puffed it in his mouth and saw her hold it in "1...2...3 now swallow" I said, and he did so.
"Now I want you to breathe with me, in and out just like we did the other time." I said, and he was doing it. He was calming himself. He is really doing it.
After five minutes, I saw his breathing was back to normal. He looked at me with a smile.
"You okay, baby?" I asked, and he nodded as he jumped into my arms, making me hug him as he hugged my neck.
"Ohhh, thank God," I heard someone breathe out, I turned to see the middle-aged man that brought him in, was behind him. I look up to see the idiot himself, Xavier's father looking at me emotionlessly.
Xavier squeezed my neck, calling my attention to him. I looked at him, and he was looking up at me with a scared expression. "I'm scared," he said shakenly.
"There's no need to be scared, baby. You just have to control it. When you feel you are not alright, try calming yourself, hmm?" He nodded, trying to smile.
"Xavier," a deep voice resonated in the ward, sounding so dark and husky but appealing at the same time.
Xavier peeled his hands from my neck and looked behind me to see his father there right behind me "Daddy" he said smiling as he stretched out his hands for his father.
His father lifted him off the bed and held him close to him tightly. "Mi hai spaventatto ragazzino," he said as he kept holding him.
(You scared me, little boy)
"Are you okay?" His father asked him, and he nodded. His father turned to me, his dark grey eyes staring me down, which had me looking down immediately, wondering what he was going to say. I momentarily looked up at him, watching as he clenched his jaw and formed a fist by his side before walking away, without uttering a word to me.
Bye auntie" Xavier waved as his father carried him away.
A thank you would have at least been nice.
Wow, I never expected I was ever going to see them again, but seriously, I actually saw them. It felt so nice to see them, even if their father was being a meanie.
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Waking up on my bed, I checked the time it was some minutes past ten, I left the hospital around 6 in the morning, and as I got home, I headed for my beautiful, comfortable bed.
I cleared my house, giving the house a very nice and comfortable look.
There was nothing for me to do so I think the best thing to do now is to bake, I love baking I use it to pass time whenever I'm bored, my mum never wanted me to bake because I was fat as she likes to call me but I know I was just thick, she says I'm fat and I still want to bake that who does that but little did she know I have passion for baking.
While turning the batter, I heard my phone ring a payphone by you know Maroon5. I walked back to the living to get my phone, checking the caller ID. It was Katherine, my best friend, the first friend I made when I moved here.
"Hey Katie" I said, connecting the call, "hi bitch, how are you doing" she screamed at the other end of the phone. "I'm always good Katie, how's work going too busy to call your bestie" I said trying to form a sad tone.
"Don't say that I'm the one to say that you didn't call me, I called the last time" she said fake crying.
Yeah, we do this a lot. Sometimes I wonder why we are friends. We are so completely different from each other but we make the best pair.
"Okay, I'm sorry for not calling, how's muffin hope she's good"
"Muffin is doing great I'm sure she misses you"
Muffin is her cat which I adore a lot, that girl is so cute and adorable I actually miss her.
"Tell her I miss her too,"
"So, how has life been without me for the past few months?"
"It has been good same time boring, you know the man I told you about"
"Which one, is it the idiot that shouted at you when you were just trying to be a nice and civilised person" she said, ever since I told her about the incident of me meeting Xavier and Vincent, she already hates their father just by hearing about him without even seeing the person.
"Yes, he is the one. Yesterday night, Xavier was rushed into the hospital. He was having a severe asthma attack,"
"Oh my God, the little boy, I hope he's okay now," She asked, sounding so concerned about him.
"He is okay now, and I also met his father yesterday......." she interrupted immediately
"Don't tell me the idiot also accused of trying to kidnap his child in the hospital." I could hear she was starting to get angry.
"Actually, he didn't do that. He was being a meanie as usual, he couldn't even say thank you, he just carried Xavier and walked out"
"I'm not surprised, he shouted at you just for taking his kids for ice cream," She said with a huff.
"It's okay Katie, let it go" What about Tristan?" She asked, I haven't told her about Tristan, I don't know how to break the news to her.
"Hey girl, why are you silent?" I guess she was already getting suspicious.
"Tristan is fine," I said immediately, which made her cough. "Now Mari baby don't lie to mama, what did Tristan do" Immediately the dam broke loose, I was crying again the tears came out rapidly, whenever that image of Tristan and Chloe appeared in my mind it brought tears it hard to forget a heartbreak.
"Marina, what did he do?" Katie asked seriously, I have no other choice than to tell her the truth.
"On our anniversary I went to give Tristan a surprise visit but I walked into he and chloe making out in the living room, he didn't look ashamed or remorseful, he just look at me and told me he prefers being with someone that can give him what he wants, he even called me a black bitch" I explained to her in between my cries.
"Wait.....so you are telling me Tristan did all these and I'm just knowing, I knew that Chloe girl was a bitch but I didn't just pay attention to her, forgetting that why didn't you tell me Mari?" she calmed her tone at the end.
"I'm sorry Katie, I didn't know how I was going to tell you, I didn't want to disturb you,"
"You are not disturbing me Mari, never, I think he had the guts to do these because I wasn't home, but no worries, I will be home soon," She said
"Okay, I miss you so much, Katie," I said to her. I miss my bestie so much right she is the best bestie one can ever find.
"I miss you too, Mari.....Sorry babe, I have to go now. My boss is here," she said, and the call was cancelled.
Talking to Katie is a very nice therapy. I dropped my phone back on the table and went back to the kitchen to keep making my own homemade cookies.
I'm checking the time now. It's now five in the evening. I packed my cookies in a jar, placed them in a bag, and walked out of my apartment. I took the elevator down.
"Good evening, Mr John." I greeted the old man who stayed at the gate of my apartment complex, and he smiled and waved back at me.
I began my journey to the park. I love going to the park and watching the sun set. It is a very nice view and taking in the outside breeze was another thing entirely.
Getting to the park, it was a little bit scanty, there were not really a lot of people present today. I walked to an empty bench, got myself comfortable, and then I started reading a book I brought along with me. It was a very interesting book which I haven't finished, it was The Godfather by Mario Puzo.
"Hello." The voice greeted, too familiar.