Falling Deeper for the Billionaire..

I'm sitting in front of a big mirror, wearing a bath robe and many women are taking care of me

now. All of them are paying attention to me, my hair is done, and now they are putting on make

up.

"Your husband is lucky, ma'am, you are beautiful and you look happy." The earring was handed

to me after my make up was fixed, I smiled and remembered Draven who was also fixing now,

anytime we would share a chest.

"I'm luckier, because my wife is smart." I walked to the gown and they started to put the gown on

me, I couldn't lose the smile on my lips, I want to see Draven, but there is a superstition that I am

not allowed to meet the bride on their wedding day. We should meet at the church.

Even the night before the wedding day, Draven and I were separated. The speed of the day, it

seems that we were going through only problems, but now we are here, on the day when we will

be together.

We will get married again not because of the talk, because we have fallen in love and Draven and

I have the same heart. With the speed of the day, I didn't notice, my feelings were getting deeper,

that he was what my heart and mind were looking for.

I didn't think I would be able to love again, after what happened to Navier and me. I finally

accepted that we can't be together again, that I let my heart be freed from the pain of the past.

And this is the result of letting go of everything, a new life, with the man I never thought I would

love more than I thought. Draven knows my strength and weakness. He knows how to take care

of me, accepted who I am and loving me without hesitation.

He is a kind of man who will fight for you, love you and understand you, I know Navier did this

to me before, but my situation is different, everything is different when Draven makes me feel

this way.

I can't help but be impressed by my husband, because even though I knew my shortcomings

before, he didn't scold me, he understood and loved me more. I didn't think he could do things

that seemed impossible in our situation.

I smiled and finally put the gown on me, they were very happy and Sheen and Yhra entered the

room, they were mesmerized by me and hugged me. "You're so beautiful now jusko, if I were

Draven I wouldn't be able to wait for the honeymoon!" Sheen pinched me and I laughed, Yhra

was crying and looking at me.

"You're beautiful, annoying and envious. That's why when I get married you should be there

too!" I hugged it and we took a picture for a while. "We'll wait for you at the church, we'll be

first!" I waved at them and looked at the time.

My chest pounded harder and harder, the door opened again and it was Mama. Even though my

mother is old, her beauty is obvious, she cries and wipes her tears.

"My son is so beautiful, I don't know how to calm down." Mama walked to my direction, gently

caressed my face and smiled. "I am proud of you son, you deserve this kind of happiness, oh my

god my makeup!" Mama wiped her tears and turned her back to me.

"My grandson and I will go to church first, remember the superstition. Draven is not allowed

here!" It signaled to my roommates and I laughed as Mama left.

I sat and waited for the wedding coordinator to call me and I turned around as they tried to let my

husband out, but Draven overcame them. His jaw dropped when his eyes landed on me.

"Oh my god, you just took away my breath honey." Draven quickly knelt in front of me and

wrapped his arms around my waist, making my roommates uneasy.

"You are not allowed here, Mama will be angry when she sees you. Shouldn't you be at church?"

I asked as Draven moved away from me and caressed my hand.

"I can't wait, Kourtney." He smiled and stood up, shaking his pants before kissing me on the

forehead. "I love you so much," he said before walking away.

The wedding coordinator called and we are going to walk now. I stood up and they helped me

up, lifting my gown as we walked out of the hotel room.

We made our way out of the hotel, the limousine was there, they took me there and closed the

door, we waited for about two minutes before leaving.

As the car started, my chest pounded, my hand was shaking and I was restless, a mixture of joy,

fear and nervousness.

I'm afraid that I might make a mistake or be lazy there, I'll walk down the aisle alone, because I

don't have a father. But it's okay and I understand, I'm happy that Mom and my relatives are with

me in the church, we turned and this church.

My chest is heavy and I feel like crying right now, I love this day so much and Draven and I have

waited for it, so I have nothing to fear.

We stopped at the door of the church, it was open and there were people outside, I rolled down

the window and whispered to them.

"Man, wait a minute, the groom seems to be in traffic," Draven's Aunt joked to us and I laughed.

"Alright ma'am, I'll just park the car." She nodded and Tita waved at me.

"Wait a minute, we'll call the driver, he should have been here earlier." I pulled the car aside and

took out my phone today.

I typed a message for my husband, waited for his reply and the car used to bring Draven stopped,

because Draven wasn't there. It means that he used his car.

I got out of the car and the driver was scratching and Tita looked angry. "Man, why did you

agree?" Tita said and I walked towards them.

"Ma'am, Sir is insistent because he wants to see ma'am Kourtney." Tita looked at me and there

was a trace of fear on her face. "Kourtney, Draven came to you earlier?" I slowly nodded and

was stunned.

I called Draven and walked to the car, Draven was coming so I had to be inside, but his phone

was unattended.

A police car stopped at the entrance of the gate, Tita was called and they talked. Tita fell down

and I was stunned now. My heart beat faster and faster, I felt like I was going deaf and someone

approached me, the slowness of his words.

"Kourtney, it's about your husband."

My hand was shaking and the speed of the pang yayare, I was stunned by the people where my

husband's car fell. There are a lot of police, the rescue team is messing around and even the

media is in the distance.

The media is trying to get closer to us, Mama hugs me and I'm still stunned, I can't believe what

happened, because Draven was with me earlier, he passed by the hotel and told me that he loves

me very much.

Draven and I are married, we should be happy and not in this situation, I shouldn't be grieving

like this and we should have been at the venue, happy and with our loved ones, why is this

necessary, why are there so many people my wife has experienced this kind of hardship.

"Calm down mija, don't lose hope for your husband, I believe Draven is alive." Mama caressed

my back and kissed my head. My grip on Mama tightened, the rescue team went up and the sun

was about to set.

I was dumbfounded by what the police were doing, they lifted my husband's car little by little,

slowly lowered it and when they lowered it, there was no body there. I cheered up and handed

Draven's gear to me.

"Ma'am, we will look for your husband's body downstairs, the car crashed quite far away, its

brakes are broken." A plastic of Draven's stuff was handed to me, it was full of blood and my

hand was shaking as I reached for it.

"It might take us a long time to find-"

"I will wait here, I know he is alive and I will not leave here until I see my husband." I shook my

head and they couldn't do anything, I was still in my gown and my veil was gone, I sat inside our

car, holding Draven's stuff and Mama left, I'll come back later when my son and I get home.

My spirit is alive and well, it's getting darker and darker, people are disappearing and there are

only a few of us left. Sheen came with food and clothes, when I got out of the car he hugged me

tightly. "Be strong Kourtney, don't lose hope, come and get dressed in my car, it's heavily tinted."

I nodded and reluctantly entered.

Even though I was struggling, I took off the wedding gown, put on pants and a shirt, Sheen had a

jacket with him so I put it on. It was cold outside and after I was done, I immediately went out of

the car.

"Have you eaten?" she asked and I smiled at her bitterly. "I don't feel like eating," I answered

without showing any interest on the food that she just brought, Sheen took a deep breath and

reached for my bag. I simply smiled and accepted it.

"Take a bite now, maybe hunger will get to you. And for later you have the strength, I know you

won't leave here." I nodded and sat in the back of the car, opened the food, I stared at the food

and reluctantly reached for the spoon.

I've only had four bites and I have no appetite, I feel like I'm full. I shook my head and closed the

food, the police were still busy downstairs.

I took the cigarette out of my bag and lit it, holding my husband's stuff, I couldn't keep it away

from me, I wanted to rest my mind and body, because I feel so tired now.

I put down the cigarette and hugged my thigh, hoping and taking a risk that Draven would come,

hug me and make me sit now, like he always does to me.

I know deep inside my mind that he is all good, he is not sick and he will come back to me right

now, because that is what he promised, he always does what he promised and I know that he

cannot see me miserable.

I inhale the smoke, look at the sky and closed my eyes, I want to question the man who created

everything, because why am I always alone, why am I always hurt and failed like this, can't I

love and be happy with my life?

He gives happiness in my life, completes me at those times when I have no one to cling to, be

close to and lean on. Draven is such a good guy, he has a pure heart and I don't want to compare

him to Navier, but god knows that my husband is a good husband and father to my son.

I can't say anything bad about my husband, because he is so perfect for me, my life and our

family.

I bite my lips and let my tears fall down on my cheeks, stunned at the cliff and waiting for the

people to rise. "Honey, I am waiting. Please come back to me, I don't know if I can handle it if I

lose you." My hand turned into a fist as the rescue team went up.

I got down quickly, Sheen helped me get out of the car, we ran closer and their shouting seemed

to deafen me, slowly lifted the body bag and it was as if I was covered with dirt and dirt.

My knees fell to the ground and Sheen was holding my hand now, one of the police officers

approached and showed me the pictures from his camera. "Mrs, we found a body and based on

the wounds and scars it happened a few hours ago-"

"No, that's not my husband, he said that he will always be here and, no, not my Draven." Sheen

hugged me and my eyes darkened, I shook my head and didn't believe, how did this happen, he

said he will never leave me and will always be by my side.

They took me to the ambulance and our driver was the one who drove my car, I was in Sheen's

car and we followed the ambulance, I was gasping for breath and Sheen handed me water. I'm

stunned at the dashboard and speechless now.

As if I was speechless and didn't know my reaction, I turned to the window, we were leaving the

site and I saw a man, standing in the path of me and Navier, he was wearing black and holding

an umbrella, my chest pounded now.

He was smiling and just as the heavy rain poured down, his smile registered in my brain, I don't

know what to do, my head feels like it's going to explode with the amount of things I've seen and

my situation now, my husband is dead and he really is .

We quickly reached the nearest hospital, my husband was taken to the morgue, I left Sheen and

ran there, the rescue team stopped me and waited for me there, I was standing outside and when

they said they had put I entered slowly, my chest was pounding hard and I couldn't believe it.

We stopped in the middle and the nurse left, I removed the blanket, I was shocked and felt like

my heart was being torn by what I saw, I couldn't recognize his face, but the body and the clothes

he was wearing were my husband.

I clutched my chest, catching my breath and knelt in front of Draven, "No, how can you do this

to me Draven. I can't believe that this is the first and last time you didn't keep your promise," I

said between sobs, I was stunned by the absence and quickly hugged the body, it was very cold,

its heartbeat was gone.

"I love you, I really do." I said and held his hand. "I can't believe this why with you?" I continued

and the door opened, Sheen held my hand and Mama was with him. Mama's eyes were puffy and

she grabbed my arm.

"Son, come on. We have to go home," Mama's voice trembled and I could see that she was sorry

for me now. I shook my head and tightened my grip on my husband's cold body.

"I can't, I want to be with Draven now Mama, I don't want to leave him now. I can't, I can't

handle it." My knees dropped, they helped me out of the morgue and carried me to a chair.

Little by little, the memories of my husband and I flashback, his promises, smiles and our happy

memories. They are all vivid in my mind and all of them are making my chest tight now.

I bite my lips, hold my hand, where is the ring that Draven gave me. "Everything is gray now,

everything that I build with him is falling apart. I can't accept everything that happened to us

today, this day supposed to be happy moments with him, but look what just happened, this day

will be the end of his life." My shoulders fell and it was up and down, my sobs finally stopped, I

was gasping for breath and the people came in to take me to the funeral home.

"You need to be strong for your family, son, your world doesn't just revolve around Draven, you

also have a son." Mama held my hand, wiped my tears while she couldn't stop crying.

"Your family and I are here to support you." I nodded and hugged Mama, I closed my eyes and

felt the speed of my heartbeat. I feel like it's the size of my lack, Draven didn't even hear that I

love him, I didn't tell him my feelings when he was alive.

It feels like I made a biggest mistake, that I didn't tell him my feelings, because I'm not really

strong, I just want to go home, go back to the day when my son was waiting for them to come

home from work and school, eat that we are and every weekend we go out, go home to the

province.

"I love him so much, I wish I said it earlier."

...

We are at home, my husband is already in the jar, we haven't beaten it yet, it hurts me more if

there are people who sympathize with us, I would rather be alone and stay in silence.

"Rest too son, I'm just going to see my grandson." Mom kissed me and went upstairs, the sun

was shining and I was holding the jar where Draven's ashes were.

"You don't know how much pain yoy brought to me, I don't know how to start without you by

my side," I said and smiled in the absence. I stood up, walked over to get some wine and lit my

cigarette.

I returned to the sofa and the telephone started ringing in the study room, I ignored it and opened

the wine.

The real hell gonna start now, everything won't end because my husband died, the series of pains

and problems in my life will start.

I leaned back on the sofa, gulped down the bottle and brought the cigarette filter to my lips,

smiling as the tears flowed unceasingly. "You said, this marriage will be the happiest day of our

lives, but why is this happening, those almost six years are just a free trial?" I asked and laughed.

"Or is this my karma, from dumping Navier and lying to him?" I blew out the smoke and took

off my jacket, sat on the floor and tried to calm down, but I felt like I was being suffocated by the

scenarios replaying in my head.

"I just want to calm down a bit!" I hissed and pulled my hair, I don't know if I can get through all

this, if I can handle it alone.

"You broke everything, I'm losing everything, everything's just hurting me, don't I have the right

to be happy?" I asked and drank the wine, finished it before throwing stones at the sliding door.

I'm falling again.

A day later, it was full of messages and Draven's attorney was leaving our house, I couldn't leave

our room, I didn't want to talk to anyone, I couldn't see anyone other than my mother and my

son.

I calm down more in the silence of the room, I don't want to stay in the place where I remember

my husband, but I can't stop thinking about him and I can't act as if everything is gone.