I lay on the gurney, body shattered in a pile-up, my baby coming too soon.
Rushed to Northwood General, I found a small comfort knowing my husband, Ethan, the hospital's trauma surgeon, would be there.
Then I saw him. Ethan. He knelt beside another gurney, his face etched with concern, but it wasn't for me-it was for my cousin, Jessica.
My voice, a weak croak, was ignored as he prioritized her, dismissing me with a chilling, "My wife can wait."
While I lay there, hemorrhaging, fighting for my life and my baby, he performed Jessica' s C-section.
My world spun into darkness, my heart giving out repeatedly, but still, Ethan was with her.
Waking up, I learned my tiny daughter, Lily, had barely survived.
But instead of remorse, Ethan called to gleefully inform me he'd given our premature baby's vital, expensive formula to Jessica's child because Jessica was "stressed."
He actually expected me to understand.
The cold, calculated cruelty, his attempt to buy my silence for a TV interview, lit a fire where my hope once was.
He wanted to parade his "heroism" on national television, built on my near-death and his active neglect?
Fine. I had the recordings. And he had no idea what was coming.
The world was a mess of twisted metal and screaming sirens.
I lay on a gurney, the pain in my pelvis a sharp, grinding agony with every bump of the ambulance.
My water had broken, a warm gush that now felt cold against my legs.
"We're almost at Northwood General," a paramedic said, his voice tight.
My baby, my first child, was coming, and I was broken.
Ethan. My husband. He was a trauma surgeon at Northwood. He would take care of me. He had to.
The emergency room doors burst open, a blur of lights and urgent voices.
They wheeled me into a bay, shouting medical terms I barely understood.
"Pregnant, late twenties, major trauma from the interstate pile-up, fractured pelvis, active labor."
I searched for Ethan, my heart pounding a frantic rhythm against the pain.
Then I saw her. Jessica.
My cousin, or more like a sister, the one my family had always doted on.
She was on another gurney nearby, looking pale but mostly annoyed.
"My back hurts a little," Jessica whined to a nurse, "I was in that pile-up too, a little fender-bender, but I'm pregnant, you know."
Pregnant. Due around the same time as me.
A doctor rushed over, not to me, but to Jessica.
It was Ethan.
My Ethan.
He knelt by Jessica' s side, his face etched with concern.
"Are you okay, Jess? Don't worry, I'm here."
He touched her forehead gently.
I tried to call out, "Ethan!"
My voice was a weak croak, lost in the chaos.
A nurse beside me said, "Dr. Miller, your wife is here. Severe injuries, active labor."
Ethan glanced over, his eyes meeting mine for a split second.
There was no recognition, no warmth, just a flicker of something I couldn't name.
He turned back to Jessica.
"She needs an epidural, now," Ethan ordered a passing anesthesiologist, "She's in pain."
"But Dr. Miller," the anesthesiologist began, looking towards me, "this patient is critical, suspected pelvic fracture, needs an urgent C-section assessment."
"Jessica first," Ethan said, his voice firm, leaving no room for argument. "My wife has a high pain tolerance, she' s been practicing Lamaze. She can wait."
He didn't even look at me again.
He just prioritized Jessica.
My world tilted. The physical pain was nothing compared to the sharp, cold dread spreading through my chest.
This was the man I loved, the father of my child.
And he was choosing her.
A nurse, her face grim, approached me. "We need to get Dr. Miller to sign off on your C-section, Anna. Your pelvis is definitely fractured."
"Where is he?" I gasped, each breath a struggle.
"He's with your cousin," she said, her voice low. "He's insisting on a trial of labor for you, says a vaginal birth is preferable despite your injuries."
"But... I can't," I whispered. The pain was a vise, crushing me.
She showed me a form. Ethan' s signature was already on it, authorizing the delay, citing his medical authority.
He' d written a note: "Patient has excellent pain coping mechanisms. Lamaze proficient. Avoid unnecessary surgery."
Lamaze. I' d read a pamphlet. We' d never practiced. He was lying.
He was actively stopping them from helping me.
To be with Jessica.
The nurse looked helpless. "He's the lead trauma surgeon on duty. His word is... difficult to override immediately."
Tears welled in my eyes, hot and stinging.
My baby. My baby needed to come out.
The contractions were relentless, but I couldn't push. The fracture made it impossible.
"I need him," I pleaded, "Please, find Dr. Thorne, the ER doc. Someone."
Another nurse rushed in. "Dr. Thorne is on his way. We've paged Dr. Miller multiple times."
"He's not responding," the first nurse said. "He's scrubbed in. With Jessica."
"Scrubbed in?" I asked, confused. "For what?"
"She decided she couldn't handle natural birth after all," the second nurse said, her tone clipped. "Demanded a C-section. Dr. Miller is performing it."
He was in an operating room, cutting open my cousin, while I lay here, broken and bleeding, my own baby in distress.
The pain intensified, and a new, terrifying sensation started – a feeling of pressure, of something terribly wrong inside.
The baby monitor next to me started beeping erratically.
"Fetal distress!" a voice shouted. "Meconium aspiration, heart rate dropping!"
My vision started to blur.
The room spun.
Ethan was with Jessica.
And my baby was dying.