Despised Relationships

"I'm pregnant!" I cheerfully said the good news to my husband when he got home. But my beautiful smile was gradually erased because of its reaction.

"How did you make sure of that?" He asked in a cold way.

I was literally stunned to hear, how could he ask such a thing? He's my husband, he's probably the father!

"Because you're my husband, aren't you?"

"But I'm not sure I'm the only one who used you," he smirked and looked at me as if I were something disgusting, "you're always leaving for how many days, and do you expect me to believe that? Are you kidding me?! " he walked past me and went straight to the kitchen to drink some water.

"Just because I went outside everyday, doesn't mean that I'm dating someone, you're the father!" I cried.

"Brianna, stop me with that card of yours?! As much as I've slept with someone, not one of them got pregnant! Then now you will tell me that you are pregnant?! Are you kidding me?!" this question angers me.

Yes, I know all the cheating he does behind my back. He has many women, he sleeps differently. I know everything, but he never heard from me. Because I was afraid of losing him, I was afraid we would break up as a family. Especially now that we are having children.

"But-"

"Stop it Brianna!" He shout that made me nervous too much. "Stop this nonsense! If you are pregnant, then congrats! But don't let me be the father of someone else's child!" the pain, the agony of feeling what he was saying.

He left me but stopped eventually and faced me.

"Finish your imagination now, because what you want will never happen! Don't expect a happy family from me. Don't ever dream of being with me. You're disgusting!" he said and left me for good.

Every day we meet, he doesn't say anything that will make me feel better, and he has never treated me as his wife since we married.

It hurts...

Really painful...

But, I'll patiently wait, just don't let him lose me...

After his words stabbed me, I had no choice but to cry. I'm used to it, but it still hurts. It really hurts...

I'm still hoping that one day he'll learn to love me. I hope to be treated properly by him. I'm not giving up hope...

He cheated on me several times until now, and he hits me when he's drunk, but that's okay. And now he refuses to acknowledge that I am pregnant by him... Still, I care about him, so I stayed... I'll stay regardless because I'm his wife. He would still come home to me even if he had another woman. I was the one with whom he married... Even he is opposed to this... We're still together.

I sobbed my way back to my room. He also does not want us to be in the same room. How did I become pregnant? Something only happens to us when he's drunk. However, no one seemed to intervene the next day. He went back to being cold.

I'll keep waiting...

"I will wait for your attention and love... My husband... I'm sure you'll accept that this is your child. Maybe you're just shocked right now. "

"Look, Brianna," my friend Amirah said, shuddering. It has vigor because we are at a party with our batchmate.

"What?!

" I replied, gulping down the bottle of wine I was holding. My vision is a little wavy.

"Your crush is also here!!! Oh my goodness, girl! Retouch! Faster! "

"Where is he?" I looked around.

People were scattered throughout the large house, and the majority of them were already drunk.

"Bitch! There! "

She grabbed my jaw and presented me in the habit of saying where my crush was, and my eyes widened because my crush was there, laughing at the person talking to him, and I also noticed that he's been drunk because he's already red.

"F*ck! You didn't notify me immediately! "

I scolded my friend and grabbed my pouch quickly. I used lip tint and powder and combed my hair because it was a little messy.

"Woah! Apparently not drunk, sh*t! Girl, your eyes are turning into hearts! "Amirah laughed.

"Of course, sweetie! Perhaps it's time to start flirting! "

"It's only a little, girl! You might not be able to walk later on! " He even locked his gaze on me.

"B*tch! I just said "flirt," not "try it!" "

"Tss. Stop fooling me, B! If he ever invites you to a corner, you will immediately give up! " she said, returning her gaze to my crush.

"Hmmm..." I pretended to think, "It's okay. If he's my first and only, girl! Why not, right? " I laughed in response to my friend.

"There! A flirt! "

I've had a long crush on Steve. I don't think I wanted anything else during my entire college career. I had a boyfriend a few times, but it didn't last long because they were jealous of Steve. It's because I'm too much of a fangirl for him, even though I have boyfriends.

I'm waiting for him to turn into where I am, but I'm drunk and my beauty turns nothing!

"Girl... We're already drunk... But your crush couldn't even look at you! What do you think about simply kidnapping him? "

"F*ck you!" That's bad, my friend..."

Because of the dizziness, my head is trembling.

"Woah! Is your life evolving?" She even laughed.

"Of course... I have a different plan..." I laughed again.

"What is that? Let me join!" She suddenly leaned over the sofa I was sitting on.

"No!"

"Why?"

"Because..."

"What?" I brought my mouth to her ear so she could hear me.

"I will seduce my Crush! I'm smart, aren't I?" but I'm just joking. She moved away from me while grinning. As if I could. Tss.

"F*ck you! Your braincells are worse than mine!"

"Tsk! Nah! I'm just really smart!" I sighed and watched my crush from afar.

His polo shirt is already open up to his stomach, so his abs can be seen. The yummy one! Roar !!!

I felt like I had to go to the bathroom. But when I stood up I almost fell. Fortunately, my friend's hand was fast.

"Are you okay? Where are you going?" She asked.

"Do you want to come with me?" I asked while lamely smiling at her. My two eyebrows went up and down.

"Where?"

"Pee..." I replied with and laughed hard.

"Damn you! Go alone! Do you want me to wash you?! Disgusting!"

"Fine!" I pushed my foot against her blocking knee.

"Hurry up, because we're going home! I'm sleepy!"

"Yes, Mom!"

"Bitch!" She answered, but I just laughed at her before leaving.

I staggered into the house of the birthday girl. We were in the pool area earlier. When I arrived at the comfort room, I couldn't open the two doors of comfort room. Both of them are locked. F*ck!

I was holding onto my head because of the pain of it. One of my hands also clung to every wall I passed.

"Rose!" I call the birthday girl. She approached me immediately.

"You're wasted, B! Where's Amirah? "

"I'm fine, but I need to pee. The comfort room over there was locked. Is there any other comfort room here?" I tried to speak well so that she wouldn't worry.

"Upstairs. Every room has a comfort room. The last door on the right side is the guest room, you can use that one. "

"Okay! Thanks! Happy beerday! More beers to cum! To come, rather...sorry! " I even make a signed peace which made her laugh.

"Go ahead. If you can't come home, tell me, okay? I can lend you one of our guest rooms."

"Sure!"

"Go ahead. Be careful upstairs. "

"Yes, Madame!" She was just shaken her head while smiling. I turned my back on her and walked up the stairs.

"Is there no escalator for drunk people? What the f*ck!" I talked to myself while struggling to walked smoothly. I took a deep breath first when I reached the second-floor of the house. I just raised my eyebrow because of the long hallway.

"Is this a hotel?!"

I walked down the long hallway even though my legs were already crossed. I just approached the wall and held on while walking so I wouldn't fall. When it came to what Rose was saying I immediately went in and turned on the light. My eyes immediately searched for the bathroom, so when I saw it I hurried. I vomited inside before rinsing and exiting the bathroom.

I was stunned because the room suddenly went dark. My vision was spinning a bit and it got worse because of the darkness.

"They can throw a party, but I don't think they pay for electricity. Tss! " I said and walked closer to the bed. I saw the big bed earlier so I will rest first before going home. When I lay down, my eyes rotated even more. I closed my eyes and was about to go to sleep because of drunkenness, when suddenly someone hugged me and moaned.

"Hmmm ..." growled the man's voice. But because of the intoxication I could not move. I also couldn't open my eyes.

Suddenly his hands moved on my body so I forced myself to open my eyes. But even though I wasn't very conscious, I was being dragged into sleep again. Until the hand that was hugging me stopped on my chest. "Hey! You pervert, ah!" I said and pushed his hand hard.

"Hmmm..." he only answered and suddenly it overwhelmed me.

And because it was dark I could not see his face. And I couldn't push him because of my weakness.

"Who are you?" he asked weakly. I could smell the wine on his breath. I'm sure his face is too close because I can feel his breath.

"You? Who are you? Go away!" he suddenly slammed into my neck, and the tickle made me move slightly. Instead of stopping, he even kissed my neck.

"Never mind, let's just do this..." he whispered.

"Do... what?" I asked in a broken voice because he didn't stop kissing.

At first I was still struggling. But as time goes on I like what he does. Maybe because of the alcohol, I let him do what he was doing. I just clung on, and couldn't resist the overwhelming weight of the feeling. His kiss fell on my neck causing me to moan.

"Hmmm..." He continued kissing me until he undressed me. Until I just felt a hard force enter inside me.

"Ouch!"

"Shhh ..." he whispered in my ear and kissed me again so no matter what pain he was doing I couldn't scream.

It was painful at first, but eventually I felt a strange taste. He thrusts harder while he's moaning. I feel his hard manhood inside me.

We did that thing while we're under the influence of alcohol. We never knew each other. We had never seen each other before that night but we still did that.

I gave my first to the stranger.

"F*ck!" I woke up to the hard cursed next to me.

I slowly opened my eyes. I get up because of the man in bed with me. It had no cover like I did and only a comforter was wrapped. His forehead was furrowed as he looked at me.

"Who the f*ck are you? And... And... " He looked at himself again before looking at me again," We ​​had sex last night? Why ?!" I feel the angry at his question.

Why is he asking me?

I blinked as I looked at him. I was just fantasizing about him last night. But here, we are both naked now in the same bed.

Meaning... Oh my gosh!

"You?! Why?! " he asked angrily but I still couldn't answer. "You're not my girlfriend! But why you?!"

I was hurt by his question that it was a sin to be with me. I also didn't know it was him. I couldn't control myself last night either. Why is he so mad at me? I didn't force him.

"Auntie, Auncle, I'm sure she's here ..." A voice from outside the room. We looked at the door once more when it suddenly opened.

"B? Your parents - Oh my gosh!" Rose's eyes widened seeing us.

"Mom, Dad-"

"What the hell did you do, Brianna Czes?!" Daddy asked angrily and looked at the man with me.

"Oh my God, Czes..." Mommy said in shocked and covered her mouth.

"Mom, Dad... Let me explain-"

"You have to!" my Dad exclaimed. "And I need to talk to you," he said authoritatively to Steve, the man in the room with me.

"But-"

"No buts!" Daddy cuts to what Steve has to say. "Fix yourself, Czes," he said and left the room.

Mommy, on the other hand, was obviously disappointed in me before following Daddy.

"I'm sorry... I didn't know..." Rose said shyly before she also came out. I sighed because of what happened.

"Sh*t! What now?!" Steve scolded me.

"What? I didn't know either. We didn't know that this would happen. And we didn't know this night would come. Stop blaming me as if I was the one who dragged you to this!" I hissed.

"What will they do? That was just a one night stand- "

"And do you think that my parents will accept that reason? Think again ... " I picked up my clothes one by one and ran to the bathroom while wrapped in the comforter.

Fuck, Brianna! You're dead!

"I hope it would be okay because that was him, my crush. But, shit! Why is he so mad at me? Then my parents came and accidentally saw us in this state?! Sh*t! "

I hope they wouldn't do that to me... Because if they do, my happy days are over. Tsk!

Steve was gone when I came out of the bathroom. My genitals are still a little sore, so walking is still difficult for me. Then I went to the bathroom earlier, so I was torn!

"He's too excited to talk to my parents, and he even left me here! It's hard to walk. Shit!" I mutter as I carefully exit the room. Because of the pain I was experiencing, my painful reaction was consistent.

Even going downstairs was difficult for me. Why is it this way?!

I caught up with my parents in Rose's living room, and their expressions were solemn. Steve was also present, sitting opposite Daddy and massaging his head.

Maybe a hangover.

When Daddy saw my behavior, I forced myself to walk.

I sat next to Daddy and Mommy. Rose is also present. Maybe her parents are at work and aren't here. It's better then because it's more embarrassing.

"Are you my daughter's boyfriend?" my father inquired.

Steve gave us a blank stare. "No," he said coldly, making my Daddy frown.

He gave me a curious look. "He's not your boyfriend?" Daddy's eyes narrowed, indicating he was becoming angry.

"N-no, Dad," I said nervously, bowing to my hands on my lap.

He massaged his neck, removed his mirror, and held it to his nose. Daddy's expressions like this express his annoyance. He even sighs.

"Well, even if you're not her boyfriend, you should marry her."

I immediately looked at Daddy after he said it.

"What?" Steve's brows met. "Why would I?"

"What kind of question is that, young man? You took my daughter who wasn't your girlfriend in the first place. And now, you're asking me why? Seriously?"

"That was just a one-night stand, Sir. It's normal-"

"For you, but not for us. As her parents, I want you to marry her because of that one-night stand," Daddy authoritatively commanded Steve.

Steve looked at me badly. Looks remorseful again.

"Dad, we can talk about this without me marrying him."

"Are you insane? Do we have to wait until you confirmed that you're pregnant?"

"But, Dad, I'm not pregnant-"

"Not yet, Czes ... Are we going to wait for you to get pregnant before he take responsibility for what he did?"

"But I have a girlfriend. I can't marry your daughter..." Steve said.

"Marry her or I will sue you for what you did to my daughter?"

"Dad..."

"What? Why? She wanted what happened too, Sir. Why sue?"

"She's drunk," Daddy replied.

"I'm drunk, too ..."

"And I don't care! Just marry her or see you in the court, boy. End of discussion."

Daddy got up so Mommy got up too.

"Mommy ..." I called to Mommy pleading.

"You know your Daddy's word, Czes. You made a mistake, and face the consequences."

"Let's go, Czes."

They went out of Rose's house in silence.

"I'm not marrying you!" stern Steve said to me before leaving the house.

"I'm sorry, B, I didn't realize-"

"It's okay, Rose," I said as I turned my back on her. I first thanked her before finally following Mommy.

Our drive home was very peaceful. But I was nervous on the inside. I knew we'd have another conversation once we got home.

So when we arrived, I sighed deeply before getting out of the car.

"Let's talk," Daddy said solemnly as we entered our home, and all I could do was follow Mommy and Dad.

He entered his home office and sat in his swivel chair. Mommy and I took the seats in front of his table. Mommy hasn't looked at me since we got here. I know they're upset about what happened.

"What now, Czes?" Daddy inquired. I was simply staring at my hands. "Didn't you just finish college? Then what? Instead of working for our company, here you are, and you need to get married."

"It's okay, Dad, not to marry-"

"Are you even thinking right?!" Daddy demanded angrily, "You did stupid thing last night to someone who isn't your boyfriend, and now you want us to just let that crazy guy run away with his responsibility?"

"But, Dad, he has no responsibility to me. We both didn't mean it."

"Can you hear yourself? Aren't you really thinking? Where's your brain already, Czes ?!"

Whenever I do something that Daddy doesn't like, I always hear hurtful words from him. He always wants to be right, he wants to be perfect. Since I am an only child, I bear all the pressure from my parents.

"I'm sorry ..." I replied weakly.

"If you suddenly get pregnant, do you think you can still help our company? And if you get pregnant and we let that man leave you, it's a big shame you did! What will other people say?!"

I heard those words again, what other people can say.

They were always thinking about what others would say, but they didn't think to ask if it was okay with me. Once, I wish, I had a brother.

"But, he has a girlfriend. I don't want to ruin the relationship-"

"I hope you thought of that before you had sex with a stranger! Have you been doing that for a long time, huh, Czes? Having sex with a stranger?!"

"No, Dad, no..." I answered quickly.

"Just make sure, Czes, because it's embarrassing to have a slut child!"

"Calvin ...." Mommy scolded Daddy.

It was as if I had been stabbed repeatedly because of what I had heard. Because of a mistake, Daddy looked down on me even more. He is no longer proud of me. He had even more reason to embarrass me.

I always force myself to adapt to the world that Daddy wants.

It's very difficult ...

I need to pretend to be perfect just to flatter him. I need to be someone for me to meet his expectations. But, deep down in me, I'm really tired-emotionally and mentally.

"If you don't want to and if you want to, I don't care because you need to marry that man. I don't care if he has a girlfriend. Don't excuse me that it was just an accident. You both want it! The reason is already scratched. It's just an accident? If the one-night stand is okay with you young people; if it's normal for you; it's different from your parents, from us! It's not good to hear that many men are having fun with your body! Because it will ruin your personality! That shouldn't be proud of! "

I was shocked of what I hear.

I know what Daddy is up to.

But why he doesn't believe that Steve is my first? Why do they look so disgusting when they look at me?

I looked at Mommy. I saw her staring sadly at me. Suddenly my eyes watered because of what she thought.

"I'm sorry, Mom... I'm sorry..." I said and my tears started to fall.

Mommy shook her head. "You disappointed us. Why, Czes? Why? Did I fail as a mother?"

My eyes widened at Mommy's question, especially when I saw the tears in her eyes.

"No, Mommy... No..." I quickly approached mommy and knelt down. She was my only ally ever. To see her like this disapointed because of me is very painful. To see your mother cry is so painful!

"Then, why? This is not my dream for you. You promised me, you'll reach that dream for us."

"I'm sorry, Mommy... I'm really sorry... Please don't cry, Mom..." I said crying while looking up at Mommy. I was still on my knees at her feet while Mommy was still sitting.

"You're the only one we have, you're the only one we hope for. But here you are now, you need to get married early."

"Mom, it's okay not to get married. We can still pursue our dream. Mommy, please ..."

"And you want to be disgraced? No! You did it, so stand for it."

After that, she left me.

I cried out loud. This is painful.

Seeing your mom like this is really painful. Because of my wrong actions, they are treating me like a stranger.

I deserve their cold treatment towards me.

But, my mom doesn't deserve to have a daughter like me. She doesn't deserve to have a child like me. She's always been there everytime I try to be someone else for Daddy. She was there to lighten my spirits. But I retaliated with resentment.

"I'm sorry... I'm really sorry, Mom... I'm sorry... sorry..." I whispered while crying while sitting on the cold floor alone.

I knew there was nothing I could do about my cries, my apologies. But I still want them to know that I regret what happened. Because it caused Mommy to turn away from me. It caused Daddy to lose even more love for me.