The journey is more pretty than the destination...
Even being incomplete,
My love is still complete...!!!
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I walk alone down to an unknown street...
The rain has been falling steadily all night, and it's only getting worse...
I soaked to the bone and need to get out of this rain... It's dark totally dark, only a lone street lamp casts a dim, yellow light on the sad features of the road...
Then I saw a small house,
"Thank heavens!"
I say out loud but at the second glance, all my relief is chilled by the look of the place...
It looks as if no one has lived here for many years.
The window is broken and an old ripped curtain blows from a third stormy wind...
After a moment I remember where exactly I am,
This house is from my childhood, but I didn't have enough memory of my childhood...
I went inside my house, and suddenly I heard someone whisper to me, saying my name over and over. At first, I thought it was my imagination, but when I continued to hear it.
"W-who's there ???"
I called out, only to have darkness and silence answer back.
"Rachel..." The voice was chilling and haunting, but yet it was soothing and husky like they had just got out of bed. It was a man's voice but none of which I knew of. It wasn't my father, and certainly, I didn't know a lot of boys.
Within a second I could feel someone's presence behind me as I stood frozen, unable to move. I knew he was smirking at my helplessness. I prayed that he will deliver me a fast death, and somehow I braced myself for the pain, but I felt no pain or burning in my insides ;
I am still alive, but why ???
Was he toying with me, wanting to let me guard down ???
I dared to look back, but there was no one there, but suddenly I saw someone inside my room...
I gulped and followed my way to my room to reveal a very handsome man in front of me. He was a tall muscular figure with broad shoulders and a toned body.
The man was staring before me had the looks of a Greek God...
He was in a black tuxedo which hugs his built body of ripped muscle and his jaw was sharp and defined... His light pink lips looked kissable as his eyes were dark as the night sky with the little pinch of red in the centre... No matter how much I wanted to look away, but I couldn't. The man had pitch-black eyes, almost soulless, that seemed to glow with an untamed fire, a fire that could destroy everything in its wake.
"My Rachel"
His voice was husky and deep, and I glance at his face that must have been curved by God himself...
Suddenly he came closer towards me and I knew he was about 6'2 ft...
"I am waiting for you so long"
He said and I scoffed...
But suddenly he cleaned his jaw and took some steps back, he started the transformation and suddenly my room became hotter...
I blink my eyes and opened them to saw his scary feature...
I gasped and tears rolled down my eyes...
"Oh, God !!!"
After a few moments, my body was shaking in fear, and my whole room look red and also the temperature increased...
I saw his bones cracking and he groans.
He becomes more muscular than before and also his height grew...
His skin turned into a deep black and red shade...
And suddenly with a clap a huge pair of black wings spread out, I closed my eyes shut as I heard his loud scary groans...
He didn't even spare me a glance, and he came closer...
I tried pushing him away but all my efforts were falling in vain...
His one hand clutched onto my hair and I felt a sharp pain run through my scalp... Then,
His other hand gripped my chin tightly, and I was damn sure of the multiple bruises that I was supposedly going to have after he left...
"Now you listen to me and listen up closely for I would not be repeating any of it"
He said, and I have been silent the whole time as he was dangerously dripping his words with venom that cut my heart into pieces...
Also, his every touch burned my skin...
"You are mine, and I am yours, maybe I was your biggest fear, and now I am going to be your reality...
I am going to be your everything...
When I saw you, you make me feel something I never felt before,
It's an unusual feeling... I know you don't deserve to be with a monster like me, but I am selfish...!!! You are mine, and you always will be..."
I don't care if I have to lock you up in a cage, you will always be my side no matter if you hate me !!! You have only a year to decide,
If you don't come willingly with me...
I promise you, I will become Your worst nightmare, your worst Fear !!! I can be that monster that you are always scared of...
But my little doll, my love, my soul mate.
If you obey me properly I will treat you as my queen and as my soon-to-be wife...
Said this he walked in back of me and I stood still silent and my eyes widened, but I nodded...
From nowhere, he wrapped his big arms around my waist...
He towered over me as I felt against him...
I felt like an ant, and he was the giant...
Our chest was pressed together as I felt a strong spark and my body was hotter than it already was...
Domination was radiating from him as I was afraid to move...
"I- I am scared" I whispered as he strokes my hair gently...
Was his heart made of stone???
I asked myself, but suddenly he looked at me devilishly and said
"my doll I can hear your mind sometimes, so think before you thought !!!"
I trembled at the scary sight of him...
And I must say he looked very angry right now...
Again he gripped my jaw tightly and squashed his lips to mine in a bruising and penalizing kiss...
I tried to turn my head away but the solid hold he had on my jaw obstructed me from doing so...
He continued to take advantage of me...
His mouth crushing mine in a harsh and dominating kiss...
And I was crying silently...
He licked my lips demanding entrance, but I refused and denied him from doing so...
I kept my mouth firmly shut even when his tongue tried to lick my mouth open...
A sharp cry rapid through me when he bites my lower lips so sharply...
And continuously taking advantage of it, he dipped his tongue in my mouth, conquering it...
I felt broken, and I came to the conclusion that I hate him with a burning passion...
He left me when he was satisfied with ravishing my mouth and said
"You know what doll, heart, emotion feelings it was like a switch..., And once you turned it off your feeling and emotions will disappear like me!!! I hope you will understand "
Again he explained and put a strand of hair behind my ears
And spoke
"You are mine Rachel"
His lips came down on mine and I flatter my eyes shut rightly...
Suddenly I woke up, sweat dripping from my forehead... my heart was beating like a race car engine...
I stood up and walked to the window tears running down my cheeks.
"Calm down Rachel it's only a nightmare like always you had !!"
I tried to comfort myself...,
But I am feeling hell scared by this nightmare...
Now that you're gone, I realize
How much you meant to me.
My loss is wide as a starless night sky,
And deep as a stormy sea...
I miss the comfort of your sweet love,
Your absolute devotion;
Now I'm a fountain of endless tears,
A pool of sad emotion...
They tell me I should move on with life,
That time will heal my pain;
I smile and nod and agree with them,
While I slowly go insane...
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Rachel P. O. V.
"Stay a little longer with me... Please ???"
Someone begged, his hand suddenly grabbed a hold of mine and I flinched before feeling all the heat and tingles spread up my arms. I sighed, his hold on me seemed to make all of my misery in my life away. I was surprised when his hand didn't let go of mine and instead moved so that our fingers were locked with each other. His touch was feathery soft and sent a wave of electric shock in my body making me lean more in his touch.
I stared at our hands with wide eyes and felt my cheeks started to burn. God had created him in his spare time, perfecting each detail... I thought.
His muscular physics well supported his stall frame. His eyes held so much depth; even the ocean could shy away. My heart held infinite longing and love for him and the surprising thing is that I don't even know him properly.
"Just enjoy our beautiful moment love don't think about anything, you will not remember my face when you wake up, whatever you remember, it will be my feeling and affection towards you that's it !!!"
He said and sat down on the sand, pulling me down with him. We sat there in front of the calming waves with the sand covering our feet and a gentle breeze blowing through our hair... The sky painted with yellow purple and pink as the sun began to set. I felt comfortable around an unknown person. Like he is the only one who can fill the emptiness inside me with his presence. In my painful world, his love will be my light. I let out a breath and racked my head for any good memories, finally coming up with one.
"I can read your mind, I can hear thoughts. Rachel, you can share your every memory with me and I will change your every pain in comfort. It is my promise to you..."
He said, but before I could give an answer he mumbled something,
"Then I will hurt you in my way"
Even though he knew I couldn't hear him.
I share my best memory with him, about my family, 5 years ago my mom-dad and my little brother came to the beach for the whole day, spend the day playing in the water and building sand castles. That was my best day ever. I remember that when my father taught me how to swim... My only beautiful memory.
I shrugged, and he soothed a little closer to me and sighed.
"Look at me"
I did as he said and then felt him staring at me with eyes touched by snow, cold consumed in the shade of sapphire blue, like the many facets of a real gem. And on the briefest movements our shoulders touch, my breath getting caught in my throat, and soon he tugged my body gently towards him, and I am loving every second of it when we were both enjoying each other's warmth and support. I buried my face in his neck while my finger was tangled up in his hair breathing his scent making me almost melt in his arm. I was blushing mess as I have never been touched by a man like this before. He nuzzled his face in my hair and inhale deeply. I wondered if he could also feel the spark that danced around in my body.
After a long moment, he lessened his hold on me, but he still made sure that he held me tight enough, so I couldn't push him away and when our eyes met again it seemed like I couldn't take my eyes away from him ever.
"Just one kiss will change everything my angel trust me"
He said sharply looking right in front of my eyes and I felt butterflies in my stomach. My blood ran cold at his word. Right then he came close to me and leaned down to match our body perfectly, his lips inches away from mine.
"Just a kiss princess, may I ???"
He whispered against my lips causing chills to pass me. His large hand cupped my right cheek making me shudder under his touch. I slowly relaxed into his gentle and soft touch and my lips automatically parted for him. Inviting him to claim. Slowly looking into my eyes giving me a reassuring gaze, he joined his lips to mine and I felt tingles erupt all over my body. Suddenly blood rushed to my head and I felt my every pain get clouded already. His other hand grabbed the side of my neck, causing me to wince with sparks as his left thumb stroked my cheeks. Slowly his lips began to move against me. I slowly moved my lips together matching him, although I had nothing against his experience. His teeth nipped at my lower and open my mouth, his tongue immediately started doing his magic causing me to release a soft moan. It was magical for me. Something very special.
But not for so long, suddenly his hand roughly went behind me and held the back of my neck, tugging, making me forcefully face a for his easier access.
"You are stupid just like your sister"
He whispered and started kissing me roughly and even bit down my lips. I tried to resist but couldn't do anything as compared to me, he was stronger. He started sucking my lips brutally, there was no gentleness like before. I whimpered but he ignored my pain. I can't help but cry and cry.
Furthermore, I felt hot tears spill out of my own eyes as I looked at the same person that was holding me close and loving me just a moment ago, but now he became a heartless monster.
And with this same bad and strange dream which has become a part of my life now, I started by another day.
Laying in my bed
Just lost in my head
Staring at these walls
And wishing I was dead
I feel so stressed
And I feel so depressed
I wish I could remember
When I last got some rest
I don't know how I got this way
I disappoint there is no one who cares
Think about them, and gasp for air
I don't deserve all of this life
There are no angels up above
As every morning comes after the night, I wish that all the grief of my life could be lost in the same morning... May some lights come into my life and brighten every corner of it... I am waiting for the star that brightens my lonely sky with the light of his love...
My name is Rachel Moon and right now I am 17 years old... I live in an orphanage that is far away from the hustle and bustle of city life... I was never like the other children... When other children played on the ground I looked at them standing alone because I didn't know how new friends were made... I don't know why, but I was afraid to talk to others I was alone...
But thanks to God who gave me someone who is like my mother figure person in my life named Mother Mary... She is the only one who eradicates my loneliness with her motherly nature...
This orphanage belongs to Mother Mary, and she handles it with love and care...
There are 20 plus children in our orphanage in total... None of those children are my friends... Everyone is afraid or hate to come close to me except Mother Mary, I do not know the reason for this but they say that I am a threat to them...
I always asked Mother Mary what my fault was, Why no one wants to come close to me ???
Why doesn't anyone want to know me and come close to me, why doesn't anyone want to befriend me???
Am I so bad ???
I was not always alone, I was not an orphan, I had my parents and a younger brother in my family...
But do not know what happened 6 years ago due to which I am living alone in this orphanage here today ???
Where is my mom dad and how is my younger brother... I don't know !!!
All I remember is that we used to have a happy family... Where my parents used to treat me like a princess... and when I was 3 years old, then another new member came into our life... My younger brother
"Asher Moon"
Our life was going happily but On Asher's first birthday we came to know that he had a serious lungs' disease... And he was battling for his every breath in this world... Every time we prayed to God and cried for his life, my little brother at the age of 2, he was suffering hard... I always tried my best to make my family happy and do everything perfect...
I belong to a middle-class family, my father used to work in a bank...
My dad was working day and night, working hard for his expensive treatment... we always needed a lot of money... In front of Asher, we tried our best to always look happy even if we were in pain... We always lived in fear that something should happen to him...
If anything could have happened to him, we would not have even been able to live...
But now I have nothing in my life, neither my mothe, nor my father nor my younger brother...
My loneliness becomes even more frightening when I feel someone else close to me... Like a wind, gust is around me all the time, Who feels my every sorrow and every suffering as closely as mine...
The feeling of being watched is the worst feelings in the world... It always haunts you... And this is all which was happening to me for the last 3 years...
I do not know if this is true or the hallucination of my brain... but every moment I feel it's real and someone else presence close to me...
Is this the person who comes into my dreams every night, who always supports me or scares me...
The craziest thing was the weird feeling like always someone had touched me, and it had a spark, and it had ignited a fire within me... When I looked around to find someone I saw no one but my own body was craving for that sensational touch again and again...
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I wake up today with another terrible nightmare..., the day when I lost my everything, my everyone...
The worst day of my life when my parents became enemies of their own daughter's life... I was just 14 years old and out of nowhere, my father started beating me till I was unconscious and my mother giggled every time when I screamed in pain... I was locked in the dark and cold basement in my house...
Every night they used to worship the evil devil...
When all the paths to save my brother were closed, My parents used the devil worship as their last hope... Which was totally wrong, but my parents did not want to lose my younger brother under any circumstances... Even if they have to sacrifice their daughter for that... !!!
Yes, they did...
They started hurting me, In order to please the devil...
"Come on Rachel you have to sacrifice your life for your beloved brother's life... Being elder sister only you can give his life back to him..."
And I felt tears rolling down like a river on my cheeks...
"But... but... da... dad it's totally wrong how co.. could yo... You... "
I somehow countered back
"hahaha... Good Rachel, we will get this reward from you for the sake of our love and care for so many years???"
My mother spat me as she gripped my hair, pulled back and kicked me in my arm...
After that my father's fist landed on my face as he punched me over and over until I started to bleed...
"amm... I'm... sorry dad... please have some mercy on me... please dad... "
I stammered out while crying
"Wow look honey is our poor baby going to cry like always !!!"
My father taunted me... He had a sly smirk on his face as he gripped my shoulder a little more hard... I bit my lips to keep out a faint cry... I wanted to die but not in a form of sacrifice to please a devil...
Furthermore, I wanted to die with my head held high with no fear... But that time I would not beg and would not growl... I would accept my death in silence...
I pressed my forehead to the floor and attempted to open my eyes...
"Honey I think it's a proper time for the sacrifices "
My mother said with an emotionless expression on her face and I kept my eyes shut tightly...
Suddenly with a bang thud, I felt the room temperature increased too high... Everything in the rooms shattered and shaking... A red shiny portal opened in the wall and a very hard and intense heat hitting us in our body badly, and it felt like burning...
My knees have gone weak and the heat was too much for me to take in, and I started to blackout... I felt my body hit the ground as I tried to look up, blinking around the unshed tears in my eyes...
And that's it !!!
I don't remember anything next... Looks like someone has erased all my memories from this night from my mind...
Where are my parents I don't know ???
What happened that night I don't know ???
Did the devil really come that night I don't know ???
All I remember is that when my eyes were open after that I first saw Mother Mary sitting in front of me, caressing my hair lovingly with a beautiful smile on her face... And this orphanage became my permanent destination...
A soft and sweet voice interrupted my thought,
"Rachel" Mother Mary called, I dazed, hummed in acknowledgement and made eye contact with my caregiver.
"Rachel my child I want you to go the grocery shopping. I'm swamped with some paperwork. I would really appreciate it "
She said, I smiled at her and replied with a soft "of course" not minding any work that would help out the only mother figure I've ever had in my eyes.
But somewhere inside me felt uneasy because I was a little uncomfortable with travelling alone.
"My child, you're nearly 18 you know, that's why you need to start learning how to do things by yourself. You have to learn, I always felt very bad when I saw you barely interacted with people your age. And I think this is your first step to open up... Do you understand !!!"
She explained, and I nodded enthusiastically, pleased that mother Mary was giving me a chance to prove my independence.
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The cool breeze passed through my hair while I watched leaves of many colours fall to the earth floor. I hummed my favourite song as I began my 20 minutes walk to the nearest grocery store.
I arrived at the store and exhale slowly relieved that I had reached here with no issues. I took a cart and quickly grabbed the necessities according to t mother Mary's list. I was walking and also reading the contents of something I picked but suddenly stopped when someone bumped into my cart.
"I'm so sorry "
I said and realized that my cart bumped into a lady wearing a cape. She looked at me and her eyes are a strange shade of grey one that I have never seen before.
"No sweet girl... it's fine, my mistake"
She said with a gentle smile. I don't know why, but I have a strong feeling that eyes recognize me. But before I ask she gave a polite nod as she walks away.
Suddenly I realize that she dropped something in a hurry. It's a bottle filled with a crimson-coloured liquid with a small gemstone inside.
"Excuse me, miss... I think you dropped this---"
When I take that bottle in my hand she already disappeared.
""Strange""
I wondered I have never seen a liquid like that, it's too... blood like, yet at the same time it doesn't smell like one...
What is this???
Who was she ???
I tried hard to find her, but she had just vanished into a thin air.