Definitely Divorce You

"If I push him down the stairs, what will happen?"

"Is it possible for me to divorce him?"

"Could I go to jail?"

"If I go to jail, will the stress I feel disappear quickly?"

Drrttt!

My cell phone rang.

Eve!

I called her name in my heart. Eve. She was the lover of the man I married.

"What else? Why are you walking so slowly? Get a move on!" he barked.

It was Bima. He scolded me as usual.

He was the man I married because of a certain incident. He hated me too, probably down to the bottom of his heart.

Yet at this time, both of his legs were paralyzed because of an accident.

"Eve called me," I said.

"W–what?" Bima looked shocked.

"Your lover called me. Wait a minute. I'll pick it up!" I said furiously.

"Let me hear your conversation with her!" he demanded, his facial expression still the same as always.

The look of disappointment on his face was because his lover left him, and because he was forced to marry me.

I smiled faintly. Actually, it hurt to be ordered around from every direction.

The man who married me ordered me to be his maid. His lover ordered me to make him remember her, always. Then my mother-in-law ordered me to take good care of her son. And at least my mother too, she pushed me to be a good wife to my husband's family for the sake of my father's business.

None of them seemed to have any empathy for me.

It was like being a slave, or a fool who had many masters to serve.

What a shitty life this was!

"Huh... what?" I answered Eve's call.

She was the lover of the man I had been married to for two years.

Anyway, I didn't think of him as a husband at all. During our marriage, he always treated me like a maid. I had never been considered a wife, the way people normally were.

"How has he been, dear?" Eve asked me.

I smiled, knowing for sure she was asking about Bima's condition.

"Why don't you just ask him directly instead of me?" I answered her. As usual, my tone sounded curt, because I had to.

"You yourself know that he is currently losing his memory, right?"

Fools. I wondered how long all of you would pretend not to know.

"He's not losing his memory. I've told you many times that he doesn't have amnesia. Why don't you just confirm it yourself by contacting him directly, huh? Why does it always have to go through me? Eve, I'm tired of it."

I was still trying to control my emotions while facing Eve, who always controlled me and asked about Bima's condition. It turned my stomach, making me sick of it.

Once again, all of this was for the sake of my devotion to my mother. She really loved my father, even though her body and soul had been completely destroyed.

"Rima, think about your mother!" Eve treated me like this all the time.

"So you're threatening me?" I asked furiously.

"When the time comes, I will definitely contact Bima again, but now is not the time."

I couldn't stand listening to Eve's excuses any longer, so I hurriedly ended the call.

I turned slightly toward Bima, who was sitting in a wheelchair. Bima's eyes were red from holding back his anger.

He must have been disappointed because the lover he loved so much never wanted to meet him.

"Your voice is too loud. If Mom hears it, I will ruin your life!"

Not only Eve, but Bima was also threatening me now. They were as selfish as they wanted to be.

I immediately pushed the wheelchair that Bima was using.

Yup, the man I married was paralyzed in both legs after an accident. As a result, his marriage to Eve was canceled, and he was forced to marry me so that his mother would not be sad and suffer.

There was a certain reason why I agreed to marry a rude man who always thought of me as his maid. This rude man also always pretended to have lost his memory in front of his own mother, and he thought of me as Eve, his lover.

For him, I was Eve. He married Eve, not me. His wife was Eve. He would tell everyone that my name was Eve.

I was really going crazy because of him.

Even though he called me Eve, that didn't mean he considered me equal to Eve. He didn't want to love me. He didn't want to consider me his wife, and he didn't want to be good to me.

He only thought of me as Eve's substitute.

"Oh my dear!" The sound of a woman's voice came from the main door of the house.

"Has Mother come?"

I pushed Bima's special wheelchair down the stairs slowly, ahead of his mother's position.

Well, should I just push Bima down so that my life could be free from this torture and pain?

_Just push him down... just push him down, just let him die!_ That was what I desired.

I didn't know why my little heart whispered such things.

"Aahhhh... ahhh... ahhh!"

I was shocked when I heard Bima scream. His parents rushed to run up the stairs.

"Bima... Bima... what's wrong with you, darling?"

My mother-in-law came to hug Bima, who was moaning in pain in the middle of the stairs, while I stood with eyes full of satisfaction, even though it wasn't actually me who caused Bima to scream in pain.

"My leg... get my medicine, Eve!" Bima shouted at me, saying Eve's name, because that was how he usually called me in front of his parents.

A little satisfaction filled my heart, seeing him in pain, so I lazily walked toward his room to get the medicine.

"Get it fast, Eve!" My mother-in-law shouted at me.

Whatever. I let her yell and kept walking lazily.

I still really wanted to enjoy the screams of pain from the man who was always rude to me.

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"Get the medicine, get it for me!"

After his parents were told to go home, Bima was finally free to shout at me as he pleased.

He threw the medicine bottle until it hit my head. Though it was just a plastic bottle, his behavior still hurt my self-esteem.

"Eve said the medicine will arrive soon," I said.

I picked up the bottle that Bima had thrown on the floor and put it on the table.

"Where is the courier? Quickly ask Eve and pick up the medicine!"

Bima never stopped shouting at me, even though he was groaning in pain.

Feel it!

That was what I thought, then I rushed out of his room.

"Hurry up, you fool, damn woman!"

That son of a bitch would never stop cursing me.

Just keep cursing me. I didn't care anyway.

I had been married for two years with nothing but insults, and my heart was numb.

"Eve, send me the courier number!" I said when she answered my call. "Bima is in pain!"

"Get it fast, you bitch!!"

I let Eve hear Bima curse at me so that she would be satisfied.

Well, that was proof to Eve that I had succeeded in making Bima always remember her and not love me.

"How does it feel to be insulted?"

Damn woman, Eve sounded happy hearing Bima curse at me.

"Just send the courier number!"

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For some reason, I didn't want to speed up the car I was driving after I met the courier at the crossroads.

I wanted Bima to keep screaming in pain. Let him feel that pain until he died, maybe.

However, if he died, my mother would probably suffer even more, and I wouldn't be able to bear seeing my mother's death.

My mother was stubborn and impossible to convince. She was a person who always felt that her actions were the most correct. She was very selfish, sacrificing her own child to get what she wanted in life.

Drrttt!

Drrttt!

Dozens of missed calls from Bima. I knew that if I picked up, he would definitely curse at me again and again.

Sriitr!

Brukkk!

Ugghhh!

"What's this?" I shouted in anger.

I held my head, and I saw blood flowing from it.

"Sorry... sorry, I accidentally bumped into you!"

Knock... knock... knock...

Damn, I felt dizzy when I heard the sound of knocking on the car window, but I still opened it.

Then I ended up unconscious.

"Sis... Sis... wake up!" I didn't know who shook my body, but never mind. I just wanted to sleep for a long time after feeling tired of taking care of that man's illness for so long.

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Ahhh...

My heart felt very calm, even though my head hurt. Maybe it was because I hadn't slept this well for a long time.

I slowly opened my eyes, then took a deep breath.

That's right, I remembered. I had an accident on my way home to pick up Bima's medicine.

How would Bima's condition be without medicine? Was he dead?

I chuckled softly, a faint smile on my lips, even though I knew that in the future my life might be much more difficult.

"Now that you're awake, let's go to the police station!"

"What?"

I was shocked to death when I heard the voice of someone I didn't recognize.

I turned my head and looked at him.

He was a man wearing a white coat and glasses.

His face was bright, and his body was tall and sturdy. He was handsome, very handsome.

"What is this? I was the one who was hit, so why should I be the one taken to the police station?" I asked him.

My eyes watered, and I shouted angrily at him.

I didn't care about the pain in my head. I sat still and glared at him very angrily.

"You are carrying illegal drugs. These drugs cannot be carried by just anyone."

This man was a doctor. He showed me the medicine I had received from Eve.

I checked the medicine again.

That's right, that medicine was definitely the medicine Bima had been taking for his whole life.

"What's illegal? That's medicine to treat my husband's paralyzed legs, right? The medicine comes from abroad, and my husband often takes it." I was angry with him.

"Treating paralysis?!" The doctor smiled bitterly. "It's the opposite."

"What?"

"People who take it can actually become permanently paralyzed."

My mouth fell open, and my heart was beating fast, because I never thought Eve's intention was to give medicine to the man who really loved her.

"Let's go to the police station!"

"L–let me explain to you. Please give me a chance to explain!" I pleaded, struggling.

How could Eve do this to Bima?

"Please listen to me, just once!"

I almost cried in front of the doctor who was holding my arm. He was definitely going to take me to court.

"Talk about it later at the police station!" the doctor interrupted.

He wouldn't even let me give the slightest explanation.

"Just give me five minutes!"

I insisted, still begging for time.

"No way. Fine, I'd better just call the cops and let them force you,"

But he was even more stubborn. He wouldn't give me a chance to defend myself.

My hands were shaking. I was scared to death.

"Where's my cell phone? Phone... my phone," I asked in a panic.

When I stood up, my vision started to go completely dark.

"Ahh!"

It couldn't be helped. It was probably caused by the accident I had.

So I ended up collapsing onto the sidewalk because of the dizziness and nausea I felt.

"Miss, are you okay?"

The doctor helped me stand up.

I saw his eyes widen. He must have been surprised to see me almost collapse.

"Please give me time to explain," I begged him again.

"Okay, if that's what you want, Miss."

Maybe because he saw tears falling down my cheeks, he finally agreed.

"So you deliberately crashed your car just to get this man's attention?" I was shocked.

I endured the pain in my heart when I heard a voice that was no longer foreign to my ears. Even now, when I could barely breathe, he still couldn't stop accusing me.

Bima came, pushing his own wheelchair.

Maybe his private driver had brought him here.

The doctor removed his hands from me and I immediately sat on the edge of the bed.

"Can't you see my head is bandaged? I almost fell down, and he helped me. So what?" I answered Bima.

"Your phone is on the table, Miss," the doctor told me.

"Ah, thank you," I said, then I went to Bima with my phone in my hand. "Bima, you should hear this directly, so you can understand me!" I said.

I immediately called Eve. As usual, Eve answered quickly. I also turned on the loudspeaker so that Bima could hear it too.

"How is Bima doing?" Eve asked, the moment she picked up.

I was curious. Why did she always ask about Bima through me and not from the man himself, when she was the one who gave Bima the illegal drug?

"What medicine did you give to Bima?" I asked Eve.

"What? What do you mean? Ah, of course I gave Bima the best medicine to heal his legs!" Eve answered, lying. I smiled bitterly, holding back from that liar.

"I almost got arrested by the cops because of your illegal drugs, you damn bitch!"

I raised my voice because I was angry.

I didn't know why I was so emotional this time, but I really wanted to scream at her.

"Hmm, ouch!" Eve even answered casually.

"Why did you give Bima a nerve agent, Eve?" I asked her.

"What? What are you talking about? Don't slander me, you fool, bitch!" Again, Eve pretended to be the victim.

"So you think the doctor here is a liar, huh? I just had an accident and the hospital managed to find the medicine you gave Bima? Because you..."

"Don't tell Bima. I'll take care of this problem! Which hospital are you in right now?" Eve interrupted quickly, and she even admitted what she did.

"But..."

"I said just follow my orders for your mother's sake!" She threatened me with an angry voice.

Then the call ended just like that, and I saw sadness on Bima's face.

The face that had been so angry when he looked at me now seemed distracted, and he slowly moved closer to the doctor standing near me.

"Is what she said true?" Bima asked the doctor while I, who was increasingly stressed by all of this, slowly massaged my aching head.

Because I couldn't take it anymore, I lay down.

That woman was freaking crazy.

"That's right. This medicine is very dangerous and isn't sold casually. It's usually used to paralyze the nerves of hunted animals," the doctor answered.

I smiled in pain.

_That's right. I knew Eve was psycho._

"Is it true?" Bima, who was stubborn, asked him again.

"Ah, yes!" the doctor answered firmly. "Wait a minute!" He reached for his phone in his robe pocket. "Wait a minute, I have to answer this call!"

"Hmm," Bima nodded.

He looked at me, lying on the bed and looking at him.

Our gazes met, but I quickly looked away.

No.

I didn't want to feel sorry for a man like him. A man who always insulted me and never appreciated my sacrifices in the slightest. His mother too, his father too, his extended family too. They were all the same.

The apple doesn't fall far from the tree.

I heard the sound of Bima's wheelchair moving. I glanced at it for a moment, then suddenly sat up.

"What are you doing?" I asked Bima.

I was very surprised when Bima took the medicine Eve gave me.

"I need this medicine..." I was shocked. How could he be like this?

"That medicine, you know..."

"Shut up!" Bima swallowed the medicine. He ignored my warning.

Then, I covered my mouth because I couldn't believe Bima's stupid behavior.

"You're freaking crazy, Bima!" I cursed him.

I was so annoyed and so angry, to be honest.

"Eve must have her own reasons for doing this. Later, when she comes, I will ask her for an explanation. It's better for you not to interfere in our affairs," he said to me.

Bima took all the medicines, then he wheeled himself out of my room.

Not long after he left, the doctor who had been treating me finally came back.

"You'd better just rest here for a few days!" he said, then started to leave with a slightly disappointed look on his face.

"When do I have to go to the police?" I asked.

"It's been handled. You don't have to go," he answered.

I knew who made that happen. Eve could surely do everything like it was nothing.

"That's true," I said to make sure.

He glanced at me for a moment.

"As long as you have money and position, all problems are easy to solve," he said.

"Ah, yeah. I get it,"

He left, leaving me still silent about everything that had happened. Actually, it wasn't surprising anymore because I was used to living in this crazy environment.

A crazy environment that started from my memories of my mother refusing to leave my father, even though my father had cheated on her and abused her many times.

Mother even said, "Dad will change one day, just be patient!"

What had changed, until I was 23 years old? My father was still the same. The only difference was that now he no longer beat my mother because of my contract with Eve, and for the sake of my devotion to her I was willing to go through this hellish marriage.

***

For some reason I couldn't rest in peace because I kept thinking about Bima's acute stupidity.

He already knew that the drug was dangerous, but for Eve's sake, he still wanted to take it.

In fact, it wouldn't be a loss for me to see him continue to suffer in a wheelchair and be tormented by not being able to move freely to look for Eve again, but the human side of me didn't seem to want to let that continue to happen.

"Tsk!"

I couldn't sleep, so I finally decided to walk out of the room, looking for fresh air outside the hospital.

The night had passed, the clock showed four in the morning.

The hospital was starting to get quiet and some of the lights in the corridors were off.

"Ahh!" Not long after I stepped out, I saw the doctor who had treated me walking out of his room.

Our gazes met. In less than a second, he immediately looked away.

He walked past me. It seemed like he didn't want to see me.

"Wait, Doc!" I called out suddenly.

The doctor stopped and looked at me.

He was silent and didn't say anything.

"Do you agree that humans are the same as animals?" I asked him. Maybe he was a bit surprised.

"Which doctor would agree with that, Miss? Hah..." he answered with a heavy sigh.

He smiled sadly, a sign of disappointment. I knew what that meant.

Of course, there were doctors who had the heart to do this, even if only a few, but I knew he wasn't one of them.

"Please, be humane, Doc!"

It couldn't be helped. I felt sorry for Bima because of the way Eve had treated him so badly all this time, while he still trusted her completely. How could that damn woman give him animal tranquilizers? To a man she had loved for so long?

If my mother became stupid because of a man, then Bima was even stupider because he loved a woman too much.

Why did I end up in the same situation as the two of them? Two people who loved too deeply, and I was the one who got hurt every time they acted like that.

I quietly entered Bima's house. I mean the place I used to stay. I also went into Bima's room and saw the man lying asleep on his bed.

I knew Bima quite well. He was a person who didn't wake up easily when he was asleep, so I quickly poured the contents of the bottle that Eve had just given me into my pocket, and then I replaced it with the medicine that the hospital doctor had given me.

My hands were still shaking. I was worried about being caught. Every now and then I glanced at Bima, and finally my task was finished.

I stepped out and closed the door to his room slowly. His body slowly disappeared into the darkness of the room. Ah, how pitiful you are! It turned out all the people around you had thrown you away and let you face your sorrow alone.

Neither your father nor your mother cared about you the whole time. They left you with me, the only one you hated that much.

Well, it wasn't my business anyway. Why should I feel sorry for you, when you always treated me badly?

I walked toward my room as I looked at the clock. It was five in the morning now.

Drrttt!

"Tsk!" I felt disturbed when I saw my cell phone vibrate.

I looked at the screen, and I grumbled in annoyance. Again, Eve was calling me. Why did she always contact me at the worst times?

I was worried about waking up Bima.

"Eve," I growled.

Whether I liked it or not, I still had to answer her call.

"Good grief!"

It turned out that Eve was making a video call.

If Bima woke up, he would definitely be happy because he could see Eve's face again. But unfortunately, I didn't dare wake the man up. I figured Eve didn't want to talk to him either.

"What?" I asked her curtly.

I had picked up the video call.

"How are you, my dear Rima? You don't look good. Why are you forcing yourself to go for a walk? Ah, dear, I feel so sorry for you," Eve answered with the same lies she always told.

She asked me endless questions. Nevertheless, I was honestly a little suspicious hearing Eve's familiar voice. What was she actually doing? Why was she acting so friendly with me?

"Good, thanks."

I answered her shortly. But then, I was a bit surprised when a handsome man suddenly appeared on my cell phone screen.

"Hello, Rima. I'm Eve's husband. Nice to meet you!" he said.

I was shocked. "Haa!" My mouth dropped open. My eyes immediately turned watery.

Whether it was sadness or anger, I couldn't even tell anymore.

"Eve!"

Even more surprising, I heard the sound of Bima's bedroom door opening. Then his voice.

I turned around, and he was there. He was right behind me.

He looked at my phone screen too.

"Bi... Bima!" I stammered. "Bima, I'm sorry!"