Days full of Joy

"I need a good story, within this week ,we have planned to publish a weekly magazine. You have to take the full responsibility" said the senior manager..

Soon after the meeting with the senior manager I went to the canteen and sat on the table close to the window with cup of hot coffee. It was drizzling outside I can feel the chillness on my face I was deeply thinking about the weekly magazine.....

Suddenly my phone was ringing I took my cell phone it was my bother and he said that he is going to come to the house after a long time. Nothing could give me a break until I'm ready with the story .Now I took my scooter riding on the usual road to my house.

I reach the house I found a new bike standing in front of my house I knew my brother has come .I went inside the house my brother was sitting on the couch watching TV.As I saw him I went and hugged him tightly, yes! my brother has grown taller than me I'm really happy to see him because whenever you feel alone remember there is someone in this world who care about you and waiting to see your happiness is only the one who has the same blood as you have .

I and my brother was chatting continuously we were totally unaware of the time. My heart almost stopped when I saw the clock it was close to midnight I rushed to my room, took a pen and a bunch of paper sat on the bed thinking deeply for a spark but it was almost an hour I didn't even keep a dot on the paper . I thought I can quit this because I'm not a writer or a poet .

Suddenly I heard a sound at my door ,it was my brother I called him in .He understood that I'm in some trouble he asked me "Hey what is your problem? Why are you so disturbed ? " yeah I'm disturbed you know in my office they are going to publish a weekly magazine so they gave me the full responsibility to write and publish the story"

After hearing this my brother sat quietly beside me ,after ten minutes he said "okay" let me give you an idea since you said you need a story I think this will help you" As soon as he said that my eye went big ,curiosity filled my heart I went near my brother and said "what idea you have? please tell me"

"Geetha I have a friend in my office he is my roommate too one day accidentally I got a chance to read his diary the events happened his life is so sensitive with lot of love with lot of pain I will tell you the beautiful days full of joy from the beginning...

I pulled off my bedsheet and moved towards the window , looked outside. It was not a clear sky with sun, the sky was fully covered with clouds, I cannot see outside,as it is full of white mist and it was cold too.I can feel the chillness in my palm.David! "it's time for school" shouted my mom. I went to the bathroom showered myself, wore my maroon pant with blue sleeveless sweater which is my school uniform, and I took my muffler as it was cold, my mother packed lunch for me. Then I took my bag and went to the bus stop.

Hai David, someone shouted from back I quickly turned, it was Satish my close friend I knew him since my childhood as he was with me In every stages of my life. We used to go outside to together and do all mischievous thing in school.we are meeting after a long summer vacation.We are so excited as we are going to the 12th standard and eagerly waiting for a beautiful year ahead.

As we are talking the bus arrived sharply at 8.45am the bus yellow in colour .we all get inside the bus, it would take almost 20 minutes to reach my school.

The bus reached the school, as everyday all students and teachers were rushing towards stadium for the morning assembly, me and my friend rushed to the classroom on the ground floor, took my school diary from my bag and ran to the stadium. Everyone were standing according to the house, I was standing in the middle row in Green house.As I was standing the assembly begins with a prayer song.

School attention! shouted the School Pupil Leader everybody in the stadium stood in attention and again "lets sing song no 23 ". The entire crowd in the stadium started sing the prayer song. As I was singing suddenly I spotted a girl behind the choir holding a bible in her hand.I cannot see her face as she was hidden behind the choir so I was eagerly waiting for the bible reading.And now "Bible reading" shouted the leader.

My eyes went wide towards her, she walked slowly towards the mic,As I saw her my heart beat went faster, I felt something new inside me, I haven't feel this before with any girls.it is like a thousand-butterfly coming out of my body. She was very beautiful, not taller the me, a perfect structure, fair with nice black hair having a French pellets hair style she looked even more brighter when the sun rays enter the stadium through the roof and hit her face on the one side. Her eyes were brown and her lips is like a fresh pink strawberry.I don't know what she did to me, but she just blew my mind and my heart in this five minutes of her biblereading. I completely lost my mind and keep on staring at her as she was reading.

She completed her bible reading and went back to the place where she stood before, I was very curious in knowing her name and her class because she is a new student I haven't seen her in school before.I pulled friend's collar, he turned back and whispered "What are you doing?" he said, "Do you know her"? I asked slowly like it should not be heard by other except Satish,"Who?" he replied, "The girl who read the bible reading" Iasked. I don't know maybe she knew to school? he replied.

My face went dull but I was waiting for National Anthem.I came to class, but my thought was only on the bible reading, I was longing to see her again. we all came inside the class teacher came to the class so soon . When she was taking attendance suddenly "Excuse me maim" a voice came by the door my head turn towards the door, it was a shocking surprise, it's her, the girl who read the bible is in my class! Oh God thank you! she came inside and went to the place in the girl's section.My friend panted on my Shoulder and said"Hey she is here " I smiled . I was curious in knowing her name and waiting for the teacher to take attendance and spell out her name. I was looking at her, Ankita teacher called out loudly " present" she replied, Ankita! the name I will never forget in my life.

As the class was going I was trying to her, but she was not visible always hiding from me since the assembly .so I went to the third row where I can see her clearly.

I was looking at her all the time when I get a chance, I was very conscious that the teacher should not notice. The bell ranged for break everyone in the class went for break and I was waiting for a chance to talk to her, but my friend pulled me for break.

Hey Sathish,do you believe in love at first sight? I asked him. I haven't seen anybody like that David so I don't know? he replied then:" why are you asking this question do love someone?" he asked I don't know exactly but this girl is disturbing me so much? I replied. which girl? he asked I said Ankita.

He laughed at me, I said " Don't laugh." "Then go and talk to her" he said

"no way! I'm afraid" I replied and went away from him.

As the class was going on after the break. I continued to look at her as before, now she noticed that I'm looking her.And now she looked at me .But the look was furious leaving me a message DON'T LOOK ME AGAIN.

"Hi ! how was the school today?" asked my mother, Not bad Mom! I replied. I quickly went to my room throwed my bag and went to take shower and I wore a blue T-Shirt and a white skirt, I went to the kitchen made a strong coffee for me. I was just sitting on my couch drinking my coffee suddenly my thinking was on the boy who was sitting in the third row staring at me during the class.

Not only in the class but also in the corridor, near the parapet wall, canteen and even he was looking at me in the parking area of school.I was totally disturbed by his look because no one made me feel like this before. I don't know what is wrong with him but am little curious to know him. I didn't even know his name.

it was almost a month since I've join my new school .it is good in school because I quickly made friends there, Gayathri became so close to me, she made me feel comfortable in and out the school.

But the look of David has not changed yet. Yes, David is his name I asked Gayathri during a football match among the school house. He was playing in Green house. Since Gayathri know him for almost eight years I asked her more about him. she said he is silent boy in class, he will not talk to girls more, and a good artist.

Each day when I go to school, he will be waiting for me near the Big tree which is in the middle of the school during the assembly, I used pretend not looking him but I do. He'll be seeing me till I reach the class pick my diary and go to the assembly. He used to come behind me when I climb the steps to the stadium. I literally enjoyed the moment, because I knew I have disturbed his heart. But waiting for a moment when we both talk.

"Hey, it is more than a month since Ankita joined the school but still you are only looking, when will you talk?" asked Gautam. we were sitting in the top of Satish house where we always spend time."Hey, you know me right, I have not having much experience in talking with girls, then how come I can talk?" I replied. "Hey David, just talk! Don't be afraid, you know every other boys are talking to her then why can't you go for it. if you like something it is your responsibility to get it and experience it" said Gautam.

it was almost 7 o clock when I reached home. I went to my room and lying on my bed, and thinking what Gautam said he is right if I need something it is my responsibility to get it. I think I'm in love with Ankita. because this one month my life was like a beautiful song. Each day it was a new experience for me, the looks we exchanged made an intense bonding with me and her but a big gap between us is still prevailing, we didn't utter a single word through our lips. But sometimes we don't need words to express our feeling rather one single look can do. Only one thing was there in mind tomorrow this look must be in words.

The looks and the curiosity for who talks first was going between me and David, because we exchange look to each other but I personally had a hesitation to talk to him, I have spoken to almost everybody in class but with him I find it very difficult.

Finally, the day I was waiting has come, I was looking at her as usual during the class, she was concentrating on the class but I was concentrating on her because today I had a thought that I should talk to her so I was waiting for moment to see her see me. Though it was the last class for the day I was waiting for the bell. Till the end of the class she didn't turn even her head towards atleast once. Immediately she was packing her bags soon after the bell. But I was still waiting for her eyes to see me and I was packing slowly seeing her, suddenly she sawed me, immediately I waved my hand to say her to stay. She nodded her head slowly and said yes.

now everyone in the class went only I and Ankita were standing in the class. I was having my bag on my shoulder so as she.

"Hi!", I said she smiled and said,"Hai finally you broke your silence with me" she said I smiled and said "Yeah! because I had a hesitation to talk to you?

"Oh! really but you don't have hesitation to see me during the class hours "she replied I laughed again but didn't say anything "Shall we move "I said " Okay " she replied.

we both started walking slowly in the corridor but didn't talk to each other she was on my right we both walked quite close to each other but our body was not in contact. we remained silent still then "Why didn't you talk to me earlier because you were talking to all of my friends except me? "I asked her. I paused for a minute and said cause no one in our class was looking at me than you do? so I don't want to know them but I was curious to know you? "she replied

Ankita !!!!!! someone was shouting I immediately turned towards the bus . I just ran to climb on the steps then looked David he was looking at me as he do in class. I waved my hand at him with a smile on standing in the steps as the bus the was moving, and he did the same we both were looking at each other till we go out of sight.

oh God finally we spoked to each other after the exchanges of looks, it is a beautiful experience with her because I was waiting to hear the word for her mouth. I was sitting on the terrace of my house watching the beautiful red sky were the sun setting with chill breeze in my face, it is a beautiful feel when you see an incredible scene with the beautiful thought in your mind. it was like a dream of love, with emotional expectations.

I was sitting in my house and watching TV.Ankita! shouted my mother from the kitchen but I didn't respond to her rather I was completely taken to the moment with David. The way he approached me with the charming smile impressed me. He is a good guy with something special with his eyes, in this one month each time when I see him his eyes is trying to say me something and today when he spoke to me was felt something new in me, because he made me feel comfortable with him. My mind is raising many questions,why didn't I spoke to him earlier rather I spoked to his friends? Am I in love with him

no, I'm not and I won't He is just a friend and that's it. I won't see him again

"Ankita! my mom to the living room, I stood still with no idea what to do, what are you doing?" asked my mother I didn't utter a word come to the kitchen said my mom and went to the kitchen.

The next day it was something I didn't expect though we talked to each other I really expected a good relationship between us but it was completely opposite. Maths sir was distributing the test paper but as usual I was looking at Ankita. But she didn't even move her head towards me. But I noticed that Gayathri sees me looking at Ankita she also whispered in her ears. But she didn't respond, David sir called me I went in front to get the paper after getting the paper till I reach my place I was looking at her but she didn't look at me.

I was totally upset and worrying about her behaviour because she knows that I was looking at her but why didn't she respond I don't know what 's running her mind.

Two weeks Later

The bell ranged for lunch I didn't go for lunch because I didn't bring my food. And Ankita also made me upset so I started drawing.

it is gift from God because when I feel happy or sad I used to draw. It gives me immense pleasure and a complete stress releaser, I always dream to become a great artist.

As I was drawing,David! someone called, it was Ankita standing in front of me but I didn't respond I was still concentrating on my drawing, she called me again but little louder this time. Still I didn't respond, she tapped on the bench I looked at her "what happened to you why didn't you respond to me?"she asked with little anger." why I have to respond?" I replied she stood still "It was nearly two weeks since we both talking you know that I 'm looking at you but you purposely ignored me ,now you are asking me respond "I asked her she was standing still "Okay I'm sorry" she replied. But I was still drawing she immediately pulled my paper and said, "I'm talking and what stupid thing you are drawing "she looked the paper and amazed by the drawing I drew a drawing of a MOTHER HOLDING HER BABY but the baby was incomplete." Awesome! David, you have got such a wonderful talent" she said I smiled at her.

we both forget about the past two weeks and sharing our thought about the drawing."Hey why didn't you go for lunch" she asked,"I didn't bring my lunch" I replied, "come let's share my lunch" she said "No Ankita you have" I replied. she immediately grabbed my hand and pulled me to her place for the first time I'm feeling the touch of a girl. it is wonderful when you feel the warmth of your loved one. she sat in her place and was sitting in the bench opposite to her . she opened her tiffin box it was a spicy food. we both were eating the food, as I was eating I just lifted my eyes towards her. WOW! she was cute while eating taking a handful of rice and putting very little into her mouth. I was admiring the posture of her, she suddenly noticed that I'm seeing her "why are you looking at me?" she asked I spotted some rice sticking near her lips, so I moved my hand towards her and wiped the food sticking near her lips. At that time, I slightly imagined of holding her lower lips and pulling towards me to kiss her. After wiping "Did you get the answer for your question?" we both laughed at the same time and continued eating.

I felt sad each time when I know David is looking at me and I didn't respond. I don't know what he did to me because I'm trying to ignore him but I can't.

He would be playing in the ground during lunch I can't resist myself to go and sit in the parapet wall and watch him play. In the class I would ask Gayathri to see him whether he is watching me or not if he didn't I do. I know that he likes me but I don't want to lose myself to him at the same time my heart always wonders to see his charming face looking at me.so, I don't want to hurt him because it is almost weeks since we both talked. let me have him as a good friend and nothing more than that.

I hate this day for what happened to me I came to my house with a torned collar and few scratches in my hands and face

What happened David? asked my mother I didn't respond but soon she held my hand and said "listen David I don't want any explanation with this injury but understand the situation of your house, just think the struggle of your mother with your dad and under what situation I 'm making you study. I don't want to hear any bad remarks about you in your school Okay!"

I went to my room and sat on my bed, I felt sad about my mother feeling towards my action today. But I had no choice of fighting back.

I went to take shower as the water started to fell on my head my thinking went exactly to the school bus were the incident took place. I was happy as I had a chance to travel with her in the school bus.so, I went in inside the bus, the front seat was occupied by the primary teachers but I had a place near my friends in the middle row. In the opposite side Ankita was sitting near the window she smiled at me and asked "why are you so early? " "There is no practice today" I replied.

she turned to the window and seeing the scenery outside and I started to see the scenery inside she was awesome when her hair moves around her face through air.

Suddenly "Hey David" called Gautam I turned to him asked "What's up" " I am noticing you for so many days you are just looking at her and not telling her about your love" he said, "Hey Gautam, I can talk with her about anything but I am really afraid of saying my love because if she says no it will be a terrible blow for me." I replied.

He also said "David try to understand time many love is not only separated by parents, caste, religions but also fear, the time which is wasted by silence will cause you a big noise in future. You cannot blame a girl for your silence because it is your responsibility to express your love to her as soon as possible and move with her.It is no use in crying when she loves another guy while the complete fault is with you".

"Yes,Gautam I agree with you but saying the love to our loved one is not an easy task" I replied. "I don't know I will call her now and you should say your love" he said. I went completely blank because he called Ankita and she turned and I was trying to close his mouth but he managed to call her and said "Ankita! David wants to say you something" since there was a heavy traffic the driver was making a loud horn in that sound she didn't hear what Gautam is saying she said I can't hear with her hands.So,Gautam tend to move forward to say clearly and that time Manoj a guy from the B-section crossed our seat by the time he was crossing Gautam lifted his leg so Manoj got hit, stumbled and fell.

Immediately he stood up and started slapping me. I left with no clue but to hit him back. He slapped me in my right cheek but then I got to give him some tight blows on to his nose. As I was so angry I just said,"Mind your fucking hand and get the fuck out of my sight" I didn't mind the place where I was am , completely unaware of Ankita she was watching the scene fully. My friends pulled me down and made me sit, I looked at her but she gave me an angry look and turned to the window. I finished my shower and went to the bed taking a paper to draw.

I felt bad as I portray myself as a bad boy at the same time here my mom I thought she would get angry with me but she completely made me to understand the pain and struggle in her life for my education so I decided to control my anger.

it is always a nightmare to face your loved one when you upset them. I don't know how I'm going to face her I was afraid that this incident should not affect our friendship. I went to sleep without eating.

The next day it was a clear blue sky and sun shines as it does regularly but my heart is filled with black clouds which hide the sun and its intense heat. I went to the school it was a Saturday and there won't be any assembly so I was standing in front of the reception for her.

I was waiting for her but she didn't come still so I moved to the class. Suddenly someone panted on my shoulder I turned back it was her "Hi" she said. it was really a surprise for me because I didn't expect that she would talk to me. "Hi" I replied. I didn't see her face I was walking along with her. "Got any injuries?" she asked me "Not much some scratches on my neck". I lifted my neck and showed her my wounds "Hey the scratch is hard" she said and touched my wounds "Ouch!" I shouted, "hey sorry sorry" she said.

"I can't believe that you are talking to me" I said, "Why are you asking this question David?" she replied. "Because I know you was angry about what I did yesterday" I said.

"Of course, yesterday you were very harsh to Manoj but the mistake is not yours he started to fight first.so, what is the problem to me in talking to you" she replied.

we went to the class room together, till now everything is good between us and I hope this will continue till the end.

At end of the day again we spent time together till we reached the school bus. "Why were you thinking of me last night and lost your sleep?" she asked. "well yesterday after the fight I looked at you I saw an anger in your eyes and after long time we are talking and yesterday's incident disturbed as it will affect our friendship" I said.

"You were right I was upset with you yesterday because I sawed your another face" she replied. I didn't utter a single word I walked slowly with silence. I was completely disappointed with you because you don't understand my feeling David. The person I like the most is insulting himself in front of a huge crowd.

we both went to the bus I was still silent we were standing as there was no place to sit "Then why did you talk to me" I asked her "I don't want to hurt you because you were already upset with me as I didn't talk to you for two weeks" she replied.

I looked at her, she smiled at me. I was still looking at her continuously without even taking my eyes for even a second. she noticed that I 'm looking at her she turned towards me we looked each other "what? she asked me by moving her head slowly. I said nothing, we smiled each other.