Dance with a dead one

Jacks point of view: Before 19 years

She was something pure. Somebody who gave me hope. Who gave me purpose. Who remembered me how to love.

I watched her for a long time. How she walked in the park with a baby in her arms. When she got tired she was putting baby in her baby carriage. She smiled at her with her sad eyes but beautiful green eyes. Long lashes without any makeup, She had natural beauty and make-up only would destroy it. Those sad eyes were looking all the time in one spot until she remembered that she isn't alone in the park and then from some trance, she came again to her world, the baby was her world. I wanted to know who made her so sad. Who had hurt her? But I knew that I must leave her, leave the pure beauty because I'm a predator the most disgusting thing in this world and she was an angel. And I won't destroy that.

How could a dead man like me go and look into her eyes? I knew that I'm a monster, some zombie, some evil. Who is cold, pale, and drinks life from others. I knew from the beginning that I didn't deserve her but the feeling to live for once was stronger than facts. I have only existed with the lust of women's bodies and warm blood. But when I was satisfied with all my needings the emptiness filled me with a black hole in my dead heart. And of course the rules. Those who protect me from mistakes, yes the rules, which I made to myself and for others. But those rules I had brake and consequences are hunting me until today.

The first was the most important, never show the human who you are, without hypnosis. This rule protects us the dead ones, from humans whose population is about 98 percent of the world. Second, never put your hands into humans' life. You can't save anybody if his or her destiny is to die. Third, drink from one person as many times as you can,(but to leave the victim alive is very hard, mostly we cant control until the body is warm) keep him as a pet with seduction powers but you must kill him in the end and destroy all evidence of a biting.

The human is only food. Our power. And our enemy. But what power made this human girl be more powerful than me. The power which she had on me confused me and scared me, but I was keeping my rules even if it was hard as hell for me, for now.

Yes, she was beautiful, like a sunflower to my eyes. She had long, blond, wavy hair. Long legs and round breasts which wanted to escape from her yellow little dress with some flowers on it. Her shoulders were naked, short sleeves were dropped from her shoulders. Her neck and breasts were the most fabulous of all women I saw. Quickly I felt poisons from my teeth which were watering my mouth. The smell that wonderful smell of her blood made my body tense and I almost purred like a cat from lust. I had to keep my distance a little bit more there were still many people at the park.

And still, I was glad that today was a sunny day because it would be hard not to hurt her. I dreamed a lot about bitting her neck and what effect to her would make my poisons. How she would moan to me. But I wanted to save this pure beauty from this supernatural drug. My poisons from teeth are having a strong effect like some drugs. Some of our pets are begging to the death until they feel the pleasure of our teeth. We are drugs, we kill slowly and not only take life but also every joy of life. Because there is no stronger drug than our poisons. And people quickly become our slaves until their bodies can't heal anymore and poisons slowly kill them with ecstasy.

I leaned against a tree about twenty meters away from her. The leaves made some shadow on me in one moment I looked at my ring with a red ruby, its a protection from the sun. I was spinning it around my finger and thought: What I am doing here? I should leave her. I shouldn't suffer myself from fantasy which I could never have. If she would know about my life. How I use people how I destroy them. She would be disgust with me. She would afraid of me and she should do that because our kind isn't tempered. Her life would be in danger all the time. One disagreement one annoyance and we kill everybody in our way. We don't think or feel we just kill. Those who are dead, can't feel, they haven't souls. And we can't help ourselves. Some tried. They tried to take back their lost souls. To remember what once they had been. I heard about some dead ones who tried not to drink human blood only animals but at some time they got mad and almost break rules. We had to destroy them as well as save our kind from those who try to survive. To keep a secret isn't easy. Especially now when people are more clever, they called this century a smart century. Phones, cameras, everything made our existence as well weak as ice on spring. And we afraid. We still afraid to die. There isn't enough time for us no matter how funny it sounds. We want to exist no matter what. But we can't grow our population this wouldn't make us stronger as some thought, we slowly would die without food until madness would completely rule our bodies. And we would turn into zombies without humanity's pieces.

She stopped and sat on the bench. She took the baby carriage near her knees and turned her baby face to face. Her hand took the bottle with some juice from a pocket and she gave it to drink to her baby. it was a hot summer's day and the baby drank it quickly. How old baby was? Half-year or maybe a year?

- "There you go, isn't that good Maggy." Lilly smiled at her daughter again with her sad eyes. Her voice sounded so soft like a whisper, a joyful whisper. I was confused about how many emotions this human had. But she never showed to others her sadness all the time only her beautiful smile and good mood but at nights she cried into her pillow all her buried tears.

It was hard for me not to go to her room and just hold her. But I hadn't permission so I couldn't do that anyway. Was she sad because of Maggie's father? Who was that man? Maybe it's good that I don't know who made her sad because he would be lunch for me and I am afraid that it would make her sad even more. And thinking that her heart is taken makes my brains burn with anger and jealousy. And when I'm angry I want to feed and take a woman or two. Does she still love him? For human love is important I don't remember how to love. My fingers turned into fists and slowly nails began to grow. I need to go away from her. Every day and night I say this to myself and still, I'm here watching her. my nails broke my skin and my blood drooped on the ground but quickly it healed. Just the last moment I want to watch how she moves, how she speaks. I watched her for three months and she never went on a date, never went to her parents, she even didn't have any friends. Who was that girl?

The sun has almost set. Soon there will be a danger to be here for her. Los Angeles is a place where vampires feed there more than in other places. And the night, the night keeps us in the shadows especially those ones who haven't good relationships with whiches.

Why doesn't she go home? My eyes landed from sunset to her and my eyes widened she was looking straight at me for the first time. How I missed that fact that she was looking at me and not I to her. Shit, this isn't good. I crossed my hand and took them comfortably on my chest, pretending that she doesn't affect me, I looked at her coldly. Mostly for humans were enough the cold and angry gaze and they avoided us but not her. She was still looking until I couldn't help and raise my eyebrow she just blushed and lowered her gaze. It was interesting her reaction was interesting. I couldn't help and smile. I shouldn't feel in that way I'm the dead one. Why do I feel joy? What she did to me...

Jack's point of view:

I put my hands in my pocket and retreated from her view, she finally, went straight to her home. I saw as some men looked at her hungrily while she passed and I wanted to tear off their heads from their necks but I knew I can't be involved with victims who accidentally crossed my way, it's too dangerous. My victims are hunted wisely by me, it takes some time: firstly I must know everything about them, from where are they who will miss them, I create the most believable accident every time and it's most satisfying feeling: to hunt carefully, silently and slowly.

I never said I was a good person. I even not a person. I am a predator and in my blood is the most powerful feeling of hunting. I kill very carefully and I think of all ways how to protect my secret of it. I should just feed of her and maybe that silly addiction would be over. But something is stopping me from doing it and I can't even tell what. She lived in a small apartment. The third floor with a balcony where she was growing flowers. Only her apartment was alive of simple beauty. She lived very poorly as well as her neighbors but only she made this place cozy. When other people kept in balcony wet clothes or trash she kept flowers. Every day I saw how she with a smile was caring for those simple flowers. Only from her and her touch this all-dirty place somehow was shining. She shined.

The baby's heartbeat calmed so she was asleep now. But Lilianna's heartbeat was still loud. I climbed on the roof of the other building. My vision was letting me see her clearly. She was moving with her hips and something hummed silently with earphones in her ear. I smiled when she began to sing her voice was awful and it made me laugh. I shook my head and disbelief at how funny she was and chuckled a little bit for that cute woman, for the first time I felt full. She went to her bathroom and I couldn't see her anymore.

I felt the needing to be closer to her, so I climbed from the roof to her balcony and enjoyed her awful singing. It should annoy me but somehow it only warmed me.

When she came out she looked at her sleeping baby and gave her a soft cat with long legs. I think she made it by herself. It was cute. Suddenly she stopped to move even stopped to breathe for a moment, she turned her head and looked at the balcony where I was standing, with the quick movements I had to hide. Her heartbeat quickened, but her face was still calm. Lilly didn't see me. Did she?

She slowly moved near me and opened the doors of her balcony. The soft smell of flowers and fruits traveled to my nostrils and my sense of hunting called me. I felt like my little veins near my eyes were rising up and my eyes blackened. I was standing above her head my one hand was holding on the stick of her neighbor's balcony. Another hand with nails was held by a brick of the wall. My legs were a little bowed. Soles were leaned by the wall. I felt as teeth began to grow with pleasure and burning at the same time. I swing my head to one side as the dog does this when it is curious. She shouldn't go to the balcony with that sweet smell of her wet skin and more hot blood from the warm water some vampires would want to taste her.. oh yes I'm the only vampire here, shit I must retreat from her now and very quickly.

But what would be if I would show myself to her. How she would react would she be excited? I know that for humans we look dangerous, hot, and tempting, it attracts them, from their boring life, they even don't understand how they should appreciate it. She looked to the sky it was full of stars and she sighed a little bit like she would be tired of something. I wonder what bothers her. Her elbows rested on the balcony's stick. Her small but round body was covered by a huge white towel, She pushed her all wet wavy hair to one side of her head. And that uncovered side of her neck made my chest purr she looked up and bent her head to the left where I was hiding. I quickly ran away with my vampire speed from her when her eyes grew wide from surprise. How I was so stupid how I managed to make such a big mistake. "What's wrong with me!" I shouted to myself quickly.

I need to inject my teeth. Now! I showed them when I ran couldn't keep them unhidden anymore and some fizz came from my chest. I went quickly to the street where women give their bodies for money. Very soon beautiful women with black hair appeared to me. She smiled at me.

-"Hey handsome are you looking for some fun?" She came closer to me, her fingers traveled on my chest her other hand then traveled on hers seductively. It's not helping me with my keeping her alive in the audience. She was beautiful. But I wanted somebody else.

-"I need a blond one." I hidden my face with a hood and the shadows of the night helped me. My voice was harsh even if I said it in a whisper. But her friend heard that and came near us. She wore a small skirt which showed her long legs and she had little t-shirts which almost showed her breast. It easily moved in the wind. She was without any bra. And a corner of round breasts was naked. She was young 22or 24.

-"I can be whatever you want darling." She said seductively in my ear and her hand smoothed through my black hairs, under my hood, it almost slipped. But I stopped it by her wrist, my eyes looked at my shoes, the head was lowered.- "No, not touch me... not now". She shivered from the cold touch I saw as her all hair on her body straightened up. I tried not to look into her eyes because it would scare her and there are too many witnesses. I was impatient she even can't imagine that. But I needed to be smart I can't hunt and make mistakes even if I feel like I would be turned yesterday. She smiled at my words.

"- Go sit..." I ordered her in a calm, cold voice. I took from my pocket keys of the car and pushed a button, the sound of signalization reached the girls' ears and their eyes grew wide, some people in distance too looked at my car. Not good. A stupid mistake I thought. The blond girl with excitement ran to my car, she laughed and winked at her friend before reaching black Lamborgini's doors I pushed another button and the door opened above her head. Her friend silently sighed with words in her mouth that I could easily hear.

-"The lucky one. I knew I had to change my hair color." she crossed her arms. You don't even imagine that the one who is lucky is you. I came to her slowly with my bowed head, too near her, she didn't feel comfortable I knew that I broke her personal space and her heartbeat quickened, she began to feel danger, but when she looked at my car then at me again her eyes shined with hope. Money, for human, are more important than that little sound in their head:'keep a distance from him, run from him. It is death, a danger. But they shushed all senses for money.

I slowly lit up my head and her eyes grew wide with horror I looked at her very deep into that brown eyes. She locked with mine. 'Got you.

- "You will forget me at the same moment I put my leg in my car. Your friend decided to travel far away from here, she will not be a prostitute anymore and she doesn't want that anybody would find out about this." Her pupils were wide as mine and when I was over with my hypnosis my pupils as well as she became in normal size. I walked away from her to my car. The sweet smell of honey watered my mouth when I opened doors. I can't wait anymore, needing for her is so strong. She was talking non-stop about how she liked my car and it annoyed me and anger made me even hungrier. I pulled the car into the corner of the street. Took off my hoodie and looked at her and her face paled at that moment, eyes watered and she opened her mouth to scream but I quickly covered her it with my one hand and leaned by her neck.

-"Shhh you will like it, I promise" I whispered to her ear and bitten her she tensed with her pale face but quickly relaxed, after some seconds she climbed on my knees and gave better access to her neck. She began to moan for me and I felt as I grew bigger. Her hot blood warmed me and my body didn't felt so cold anymore, I began to feel alive again, the pleasure, so sweet pleasure was making me mad. She began to move on me and I quickly changed our position. With my quickly speed I lowered the chair and climbed on her she looked to my face her hand traveled to my cheeks but I fizzed on her with my blooded teeth like a cat on the dog would be hizzed, and shake my head slowly from one side to another keeping our gaze. Her eyes curiously looked to my black ones, which changed into golden ones, her heartbeat was loud from exciting not fear anymore. I smelled her lust and unbuttoned my pants, with one hand I touched her blond hairs, then my fingers traveled on her neck, her legs wide open for me; I touched with my finger her little vein, there wasn't my bite for yet, she shivered from my touch. A girl pushed her head to her right side as if she knew what I thought. And gave me another access.

-"Please", she breathed heavily with lust. "bite me. I ...I need to feel that" she begged in a whisper and pushed me with her legs to her. I closed my eyes and saw again Lilly on her balcony with that towel which showed me her beautiful legs, the round ass, and her movement to show one side of her neck when she watched the sky, I opened my mouth widely and tasted her, she was moaning loudly. The pleasure was so heavy that it was hard not to ruin all her neck with the meat, but I couldn't stop. Her heartbeat began to beat slowly after she felt her pleasure mixing from my poisons and sex. Not yet. I thought. Don't die. Please just one minute, please don't die. I begged in my mind. But the coldness came to me and I couldn't hear anymore her breathing.

-"No, I'm so sorry" I looked at her then I took her body carefully to the passenger seat and breathed with pleasure I still could feel her taste, she was so delicious, she was beautiful. Now I need to find out who she was what members she had and don't act so stupidly anymore in the future, it was a long time when I hunted so careless. I need to find out who will miss her. And in what way make her death like an accident. Fuck did she had any children you are so stupid Jack. I put my two-finger to both sides on my nose near my eyes if it would stop the headache from thinking. Stop crying for yourself and clean yard mother fucker, I said to myself in my head. I looked to the mirror on my car my eyes shined with flame, soon it will change into normal color. When the pleasure of her blood will be over. But this pleasure is mixed with something new to me. Is it a pang of guilt? I looked again at her calm, full of pleasure but very dead face. And now, I understood how this girl is familiar with Lilliana Storm. For a long time, I didn't feel this disgust of myself because I know who I am and I can't change that, but somehow for now everything is changed because I still feel anger which is not fed up. Anger on myself!

It's a sunny day. I hate sunny days and today even more. I'm not in the mood. Lately, everything annoys me and it's strange because I am not used to having any emotions. My routine is to hunt and to survive. In the shadows, I am always keeping myself undercover. But it's harder to adapt to the crowd of people when the sun forces me to clear my pale skin for all eyes. My skin looks much paler on a sunny day.

I put my black glasses on my eyes and from distance watching my new victim. After a week I will be hungry again if I will not feed myself, madness will rule my body and I will turn into a zombie. It's the end of my consciousness. The only thing is left for me. I have a week. I must prepare my victim for his death, even if his blood is not very welcome to me. his blood is dirty, drugs and alcohol destroyed the smell and taste of it. Why he? Why not something purer, more tasteful for my tongue? But still, I chose him for some reason I can't describe.

The black windows of my car are hiding me. This car isn't fancy or new but it isn't making any unwanted attention.

He laughs...He is talking with other hooligans about selling more drugs in new territories. They are relaxed, laughing at their jokes which only for them are funny. They are not very smart and also young, which is a good thing in my case. It should be easy to hide all my killing evidence as well as will be boring to hunt him. Plans of how he will disappear go to my mind one after another.

But I tensed after a moment, my blood froze I stopped breathing. Panic went to my body with shock.

-"What are you doing here? Are you crazy!" I squeezed the weel which immediately broke. Lily passed by my car. She went to those five men. I didn't know when I will lose my mind and I didn't need to starve, she already is making me act stupidly. What she is doing? From where she appeared? How I managed to not notice her presence. What the fuck she is doing here. She looked angry. And thinking that for the moment I thought, that those boys were stupid. The most stupid human on this planet is this woman. Doesn't she realize how fragile she is? What they will do to her? She is wearing jeans with a white t-shirt. How many seconds do they need to take off all her clothes? Does she want to be killed? My blood was boiling.

-"I know what you did!" She screamed to them with red eyes. Her heart was beating so loudly. Those men stopped laughing and turned to her with surprised eyes. Then they looked from toe to her head with their perverted eyes. The smile appeared to a man who was wearing Nike sports clothes, his one leg was on huge stone and he leaned more to her side.

- "Baby you will certainly see what can I do...Come here tell me what we did? He with one of his fingers showed to come closer and she did what he said. My fangs appeared and my eyes changed into black. I don't know who I want to kill ...her from what she is doing or those men from what they want to do to her. She tightens in her hand the pepper gas. Is she joking with me?

- "What are you doing Lilly?" I hissed with anger, still waiting in my car.

-"Give me back the bag". She ordered them with a serious voice but her fear made it uncertain. I smelled her sweat from fear. Her face was pale and her trying to be brave was unsuccessful, she was shaking from fear. And they were excited from it, they too could sense that. My poisons began to water my mouth I wanted to hunt but not from hungry, I wanted to hunt because of anger.

About what bag she is talking. Only then I noticed that the blond guy was holding a bag. He had put it on the ground. I concentrated on the bag and could hear noises, weak noises of heart beating, some were mewing. One man laughed and went around her.

-"I saw what you did to that cat, how could you be so brutal?" Her eyes were full of anger and disgust, her heart was beating so loud that I thought It will explode. Her all muscles were tensed. By her leg, she secretly kept and squeezed her gas. If it would save her.

"I came for babies, and if you will give me them with the peace I won't call the police." They stopped laughing and tensed when they heard the word police, but soon in their face appeared disgusting smiles. My voice in my head began to tell me the rules 1. To never show yourself for a human. never. 2. Never put a finger at other people's business. 3.Drink, don't leave evidence.

If I kill them all, many people will miss them they will begin to search for them. How many eyes are watching them? I scanned the field with my vampire's vision, at the other side of the little pond is an old man who is feeding ducks. There is a little bridge some couples stopped walking on it when they saw a group of dangerous people who surrounded Lilly. Even they know how stupid is to go into danger. As they saw Lilly helpless they just pretended that they didn't see anything, a couple turned around and changed the way. Fuck Lilliana why are doing this? I don't understand her actions, she senses that she is in a dangerous why she doesn't listen to her senses? Why she act so stupidly?

- "And what you saw little bird?" The first black-skin men asked her, he had some tattoos on his arms. A blond man with a huge smile on his face with Nike clothes took a bag and went on an old bridge, which was made of wood. He has lifted up a bag against the water. Lilly ran to him but a bold man took her hand and stopped her, she lifted her gas and pushed the liquid to his eyes. The man screamed in agony, he moved away from her with his hands on his eyes, with not very nice words from his mouth. Quickly she was grabbed by another man, he slapped her to her cheek. She felt at the same time as the blond guy dropped the bag into the water.

-"Ups, look what you made me do" he raised both hands in the air of pretending that it wasn't his fault.

-"No!" She screamed. Her wide full of tears. Focused only on water, her cheek was red from the hitting.

- "Oh this chick is a badass isn't she, I didn't notice she had a gas what else do you ha..?" He joked to his friends but didn't finish the words, he never spoke again I grabbed him by his throat, put my fingers to his tongue, and took it out from his mouth. His eye was wide he began to choke from his own blood I ran with my speed to the blond one and forced my fingers to his eyes his heart stopped. To others, I quickly twisted off their head. They hadn't time to scream, the one who had hit Lilly fell on his ground from fear. The clock of his life was over and he knew it. I slowly was walking to him I enjoyed his fear, his pain. He wetted his pants. The smell of his urine made me angrier. But I stopped when heard that Lilly ran by the water and jumped to it. I will lock that girl in a madhouse!!! I turned from my victim and ran after Lilly, she was searching for the bag but couldn't see it, the water wasn't clean. I pushed her to myself but she kicked, I didn't care that she resisted being saved. I pushed her up and she breathed hungrily the ear.

"-Are you crazy what's wrong with you?!" I shouted to her. I never felt so angry in a long time. I felt furry, not anger. Felt the fear, but not for my existence, this fear was bigger, more hurtful.

-"A bag!" She screams in panic. I looked at her, at those beautiful big eyes full of hurt and tears. Her face was pale, and she breathed heavily. She waited for me with the hope her heart was beating so loudly, she didn't afraid of me, she wasn't surprised but those big sad eyes were looking at me with hope. I left her and plunged again to water. I used my speed took the bag with one hand with another I took her by her waist and dropped them on ashore. She quickly moved to the trash bag by her knees and tarred up it. Kittens were dead.

-"No, no, no..." She cried with her lovered head. Her nails pierced into the ground from her anger and hurt at the same time. I couldn't understand her. Why she would risk her life for this? I tried to understand but couldn't. I was standing above her and looking at how she cried for those five kittens. I looked at their bodies and heard it. Its heart was still beating very slowly but he still was alive.

-"This one." I said calmly and showed with my one finger to the black kitten. She raised her head to me. Her questioned eyes were wide focused on me.

-"What ?"She whispered to me.

-" The black cat, it's still alive." I said easily, not knowing why I said this to her. What purpose of saying, if still it will be dead too, but something told me to say that. Maybe she would feel better for some reason of knowing that. But I couldn't imagine that she will put her lips by the kitten's mouth will open it with her fingers and begin to blow the air. The more I looked at her the more shocked I was. She repeated her movements then with one finger she carefully pushed its stomach then again breathed the air to its mouth.

-"Common little one, common..." Her eyes were full of fire. The water was dropping from her fragile body, she was shaking from cold and her lips were blue but she kept doing this until some water came out from his mouth. Then she smiled at me with that heartwarming smile her teeth white as snow her hair was a mess and they were wet all over her face, but she looked so beautiful. And I began to breathe again. almost an hour I didn't notice that.

-" He made it. He is alive" Her voice was sweet full of joy. She watched me carefully her heartbeat slowed, then she took a kitty to her arms and looked at other kittens. The sadness and pain crossed her face again. Why she is calling it- he... it's only a cat, and still, she left somewhere her daughter and risked her life for cats. She is so dumb and still, I can't understand her feelings or her thoughts. she should afraid for her life its most precious thing: a life, not animals, but her life.

-"We should bury them?" Her eyes still only at those kittens. I looked around: four deadmen on the ground near her and she still is thinking about kitten's bodies. Fuck I forgot that I killed all of them and there are laying their bodies, which didn't bother her at all.

Wait, did I just forgot that I didn't kill a man who saw me? And to whom tongue was on the ground, near my shoe?