DEIMOS: The Alpha's Unchosen Mate

I never truly understood it. The meaning of mates, why we need them, live for them and die for them. All I knew was I had my wolf and my soul and that is all I ever needed. What I learned growing up was not the touch of fire or the eternal love your mates could provide you with but that the mate you pray for never comes in times of need. When your skin is ripped off your bones, when you are dragged and tied to a pole to be whipped, even when you scream to the moon to just.... give him to you, to save you from this misery.

Your heart slowly begins to crumble, your dreams disperse and you start the road to a newfound strength as you commence your ride to the top.

Born to be a female alpha and to rule was my destiny. Growing up my childhood was not that of care, warmth, or love. Rather it was filled with fighting. Fighting to survive. Fighting just so I could see the beauty of the sun the next day. My parents put the pack before their dying pup and my brothers who would spit at my feet for being born a female. I had no one to call my own. No one to just hold me and say "It shall be all right". The only reason I was kept alive was that the healer had a vision of my future of my reign, and the prosperity I would bring to the pack.

Blinded by the power being an alpha gave me I lost track of what was more important, he had more power than being an alpha and he came to me. We never knew true love until the moment our hearts touched and our souls joined together as one. In the end, he was mine and I was his. Deimos and I.

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⚠️WARNINGS⚠️

1} This is a DARK- EROTIC ROMANCE novel so if you are not comfortable with these kinds of books please do not read further.

2} There are NO rejection or second chance mates in my books one must find love with whom they are blessed with.

3} The male species in my books are DOMINANT over females as their world follows a certain hierarchy. Their world is very different from our human world with different values and ethics.

4} You must be at least 18 and older to read this book, it is a mature book meant for adults and not young readers due to explicit sexual content and violence.

5} This is a slow-paced book to give readers that slow burn and feel the character growth.

6} I tend to write really long chapters so I will split them into a series of parts to lessen the chapter-length/ meet word count requirements for the paid chapters only.

DEIMOS will be a rollercoaster ride of emotions but will also have tons of delicious spice to heat you up. I truly hope you enjoy it my little wolves! ❤️

|Alpha Female POV|

"Alpha!"

The loud voice wakes me up from my deep slumber by the stream on the soft bed of grass. This was my private place off-limits to any wolf except Elriam, my Beta. It was a special place, my personal escape, my therapy from the nightmares that plague my mind during dark nights.

"Speak Elriam as to why this disturbance," I commanded lifting my forearm from my eyes glancing at her.

"Forgive me Alpha, but Alpha Lan has arrived." She bows. "I didn't want to disturb you Alpha, but it is sort of an emergency, and you are needed. The meeting cannot..."

"Start until I am present. I know Elriam you have told me so a thousand times." I cut her off making her bow deeper. Slowly getting up wiping my dirt-stained hands on my pants, stretching my bones I look at her. "Let's go, wouldn't want to give a bad impression to the Alpha who has come." My wolf seeps to the front wanting to go for a run, pushing her back knowing now is not the time, showing a flash of teeth and a snarl she retreats.

We run back to the pack, gliding through trees, feeling the air brushing through my hair making me feel content. My form of happiness. But is this my happiness? My only form of happiness? Shouldn't there be something more? These thoughts go back and forth in my mind as we reach the pack.

"Alpha welcome, we had quite the wait." Alpha Lan says but I can see right through him to the mockery his voice beholds.

"Hope you enjoyed it, Alpha Lan." I will never apologize, it is not within me to do so. My Beta brushes against me standing strong watching him. I look towards some of his pack members huddled behind him not making a sound. I can smell their fear. Their fear of me. I smile a wicked smile licking my teeth, loving the smell. "Bring the carts." My voice booms in its autorotative tone as my members obey immediately propelling several carts filled with a variety of fruits towards his pack.

Members from both the packs lift their noses into the air inhaling the scents hoping that they would be lucky to perhaps find their gift from the moon. Something I don't understand, the idea of mates something I never cared to even think about. The power of being an Alpha is all that I need and ever will or so I thought.

My pack is known for producing the freshest of fruits that Alpha Lan's pack enjoys for his pack reigns from the desert lands where fruits are a luxury. The climate makes it difficult for their plants to bear them.

Alpha Lan walks up to me feeling content for the successful transfer. "Where is your Luna, Alpha Lan?" I question him knowing very well she is probably chained for disobedience back in his pack. Luna May's continuous defiance with this male surprises me. His eyes harden often sweeping over his pack members who are now transferring the fruits held in carton boxes onto the back of their trucks.

"She was not feeling well and is resting back at home." He lies.

"Please send my regards," I say holding a soft heart for her. My heart softens for all females.

"Of course." He leaves with a bow.

Dusk gives birth to night and our meeting has ended well, I do acquire favor in return for the fruits. However, I can ask whenever I please whatever it may be. A scream pierces the air my questioning eyes wander, looking for the source. A female slowly crawls away from her male, tears falling on her red cheeks. I move quickly holding the male by his collar and scream "What did you do?" My tone is furious.

"Nothing Alpha! She does not want me to touch her." I look towards the female.

"Are you alright? You must be from Alpha Lan's pack. I apologize, I was unaware one of my wolves found his mate." I say. With tear-filled eyes, she gazes up at me her head slightly tilting in a bow.

"Keep him away from me," she screams.

"I am your mate goddamit!" He replies rushing towards her. I stop him and call out to my Beta maintaining eye contact with him to prove my point.

"Elriam take this male back to the packhouse and do all the preparations." She bows and leaves with a quick reply of "Yes Alpha".

I look towards the female on the ground with soft eyes, "Why do you not want your male to touch you?" I question her.

"I fear him, I fear all males they have done nothing good but hurt me." She weeps. My heart clenches for this female.

"He will be different this I promise, he will protect you and keep you warm during cold nights for you are his blessing from the moon," I answer softly. "Go back to the packhouse and talk to him, tell him of your fears make him understand." She slowly gets up wipes her tears.

"Yes Alpha," she says and runs to the packhouse.

"Hypocrite," I whisper to myself, my wolf growling her displeasure of saying that about us. But it is true how can I advise that female of her mate when I don't myself believe in mates. I look up at the sky admiring the full moon asking her "What is happiness?" The question lingering in my mind. I feel Elriam coming close to me.

"Alpha are you feeling okay?" Her tone is soft concern coating it. The only female I trust, the only female who is truly concerned about me.

"Yes Elriam, thank you for your concern." I slowly turn around to look at her.

"Alpha, forgive me I forgot to mention. The meeting of Alphas is tomorrow since you have recently become Alpha you have to go to this meeting. It's where all the Alphas from around the world meet to form alliances or ask protection from other packs." She elaborates.

"And why must I go to this meeting?" I ask her.

"It is beneficial for our pack Alpha, you need this. The pack needs this."

"Then so be it. Elriam prepare for our journey tomorrow make sure everything is planned well, I don't want any mishaps on the way." I command her. She smiles and bows replying "Yes Alpha." I walk back to my own house, I do no life in the room for the Alpha in the packhouse. I tend to not get along with other wolves though I really want to, it is hard if you had a childhood like mine you would want to disappear into thin air.

As I enter my house a feeling of calmness soothes me, my own haven. Going out into the balcony I look out to the pack, lights going off everyone surrounded by warmth. "Except me." The thought comes to mind. Gazing at the sky my thoughts take me to tomorrow's meeting. A sense of excitement fills me but I just don't know why nervousness floods me, my wolf is agitated as well wondering what exactly daylight may bring about.

|The Next Morning|

As soon as I enter through the iron double gates to take part in the meeting of Alphas I find that the air is filled with testosterone of Alpha males talking with one and another their brawny arms clutching onto their Lunas. The chatter comes to a complete stop with an eerie silence as they regard me with surprised, disgusted, and calculating eyes. They know me they know of my battles and the strength I possess.

Straightening my back, holding my chin out showing dominance I walk through the crowd right into the hall of seats for the main Alphas and plop down on the chair next to the head of the table. Elriam stands behind me showing her strength looking from one alpha to another. I smile wickedly to the Alphas and whisper to my beta, "This is going to be fun."

With agonizing slowness, the hall begins to fill up each wolf holding different expressions whilst they regard me, and for any male that gazed longer, my wolf roared and paced within disliking their open thoughts of us. Unfamiliar faces and the curiosity about the owner of the seat next to me build up my anxiety to be in crowds and among unknown wolves. I take in deep breaths and encourage myself, asking my wolf for her strength and guidance.

A male's voice alarms us whilst his words boom across the hall to set me free from my thoughts, making my ears perk up to welcoming.

"Welcome Alphas. The meeting shall commence shortly for he is not yet here, therefore we shall begin when he arrives." I don't understand who this male is talking about.

Wolves nod in acknowledgment except for me. I do not know whom this male spoke about. Glancing to my left, I notice the seat is empty. It waits patiently to be filled. I am unsure as to why, but abruptly my heart pounds heavily with anticipation. Something is not right. A feeling that scares me but also leaves me breathless.

"Elriam answer me this, who is this wolf talking about? Is this male important?" I question her.

"Alpha he is..." She begins.

However, before she could finish her answer a loud slam of the main door cuts her off, startling all of us. Loud heavy footsteps near the hall, the sound of chairs screeching against the floor surge. Alphas leave their seats getting off their chairs to kneel upon the marble floor with their heads bowed.

Who is this male? What kind of power does he hold that even other Alphas bow, even before he is in their presence? These questions burn within the depths of my mind.

The door to our hall opens and a mysterious rich enticing scent drifts around to saturate the air, a warm fragrance that catches my attention instantaneously. This male who enters overpowers my knees to tremble bones to weaken as my body sways side to side in reaction to the power he radiates. I cannot think straight. All I see is him all I feel is him.

A brawny figure comes into view and my soul is brisk to beckon him my wolf pacing wanting to be set free. She claws at her barrier urging me to unleash her so she can inspect his flesh. His bulky beastly body oozes testosterone and dominance sculpted to be the strongest of all. He is a specimen unlike any other I have beheld before. He is a God.

This male is mine; this male holds all my awareness.

My body erupts in flames to the heat of his flesh that strides towards me only to lay his ardent eyes upon my melting skin. I slowly examine him from the tips of his shoes up to his muscular thighs, over his snug shirt worn like a second skin that shows a delicious preview of what is covered to his bulky arms, sharp and high cheekbones, his plump moist lips and finally his striking green orbs. He is truly entrancing.

An instant lust takes over, my core wet, wanting this male to rest between my aching thighs. He smells the room, his nose flaring sniffing to figure out my scent. This male does not understand it, my true essence. He takes another curt step towards me as though wishing to comprehend me; a sharp intake of breath escapes my lips. I welcome him promptly whilst my heart opens wide to embrace his but disappointment is swift to come to bound me.

The male shakes his head in rejection and steps back as though he is struggling like he is fighting a war within himself. As though he is displeased with what the moon has gifted him with. No wolf saw our exchange, their heads bowed. His face says he dislikes me but the flame of his fiery pupil reveals to me he wants me just like I want him. His hands turn to clenched fists and his voice rumbles throughout the hall making a few wolves whimper with dread.

"Why are you not kneeling female?" He questions, his voice unyielding and sonorous. I am pulled out of my trance by his insulting tone.

"I bow to no one but the moon," I respond baring to him the inner strength I possess and meet his flaming eyes without flinching. No one dares to mutter another word or raise their head yet I know they are waiting in anticipation. They are ridiculing my strength for they know this male shall make me submit.

Everything outside ceases to exist and in it only he and I remain. The entirety of my being leans towards him shamelessly. He has such a palpable effect on me from the heart and at the same time so irritating that it makes me lightheaded and weak. Yet I hear Alpha Lan's loud mocking snicker from not far which irritates me further and an urge to shift and paint the walls with his blood aches within.

My male's hands tremble an infuriated look burns in his eyes to his surging rage. My wolf senses her mate and his beast wishes to come to the surface to hold and meet me yet this male opposes it. I narrow my eyes and raise my chin, waiting for what would happen next. He inhales deeply his chest heaving calming himself before he delivers his truth.

"You will learn. I will show you your place." When he steps close enough, the fire that steadily radiates from him envelopes me and binds me to his being.

I quiver visibly to his words as he saunters past me to his seat. His wicked truth still lingering upon his godly face. Halting at the head of the table whilst his eyes wander through the wolves bowed down he commands, "Rise." His authority mounts and all the wolves jump to their feet briskly paying heed to his leadership standing upright in attention.

Whilst the Alphas' sit back upon their chairs the discussion commences at once. A smooth meeting that progressed hastily. The wolves present pay keen attention to my mate's words unwavering and engaged in the talk. Only the moon knows that all I can think of is the male to my side who is a lethal temptation to me. The red-hot sexual tension between us is intolerable my flesh hisses and tingles like raw meat cooked on a fire.

I made every effort I could to focus on the meeting, fought for the well-being of my pack, and showed my power to threaten any potential invaders. Yet when I conclude my speech and sit down my back is drenched with my sweat in reaction to the heat of hostility that constantly radiates from all the present Alphas, but mostly due to the steaming scan of my body done shamelessly by the foreign male sitting beside me.

His scent wraps around the entirety of my being like thick vines my eyes rake down his flesh filled with sizzling lust only to be met with his aloof pair of emeralds. I could not ignore the tingles that sparked throughout my body it is a new feeling one that I have never experienced before. Saliva pools in my mouth wanting a taste of what is lies before my eyes. I like viewing this beast.

My feast is halted by a low uncontrollable groan of want that slips from his plump red lips. I gawk at him in shock yet I regret my courage the minute our eyes lock and make love. Deliberate excruciating torture he begins ravishing my flesh with his immoral eyes whilst he clutches onto his chair knuckles turning white with his bodily control as his pants tighten showing the firm length of his humongous cock. Everything about him looks deadly erotic. I am bewitched.

Yet throughout our feasting of each other, we fight. We battle hard to deny the irresistible magnetism between us. He does not want me and I...I feel uneasy with his presence.

As the meeting comes to an end and wolves begin to scatter Elriam guides me out the mansion towards the secluded backyard away from the rest of the departing wolves as I desperately hunt for my male. He had excused himself a few minutes ago to answer a call yet he did not return after.

Disappointment clouds me. When mates find each other do they not run into each other's arms, converse or at least smile? But this male that is supposed to be mine fades into thin air. He simply has left without another word to me.

"Elriam who was the male who led the meeting? Is he an Alpha?"

"He is Deimos. He is not just an Alpha, he is the Alpha of Alphas." She answers me. My eyes widen to her declaration something like that existed. What has the moon blessed me with?

As I leave the mansion, my eyes continuously wander among wolves searching for him. Disappointment clouds me. When mates find each other don't they run into each other's arms, talk or at least smile. But this male that is supposed to be mine disappears into thin air. I get into my car with a heavy heart and drive to my pack, my wolves follow. I keep thinking of today's events the weight of my thoughts crushing me. What I failed to notice before I left was a pair of cold eyes looking at me from the balcony window.

The drive back to my pack seems shorter this time and my heart is wary of the increasing distance between Deimos and me. Deimos, my gift from the moon. What does he think about me? Am I exactly what he dreams about? Am I what he wants? These thoughts take up my mind, not wanting to think too much about him I open the window to get some fresh air to cool my hot body that heats instantly with the thought of him.

Seasons pass, summer turns to winter. Soft white blankets of snow cover the land of my pack. I don't go searching for him and he does the same with me. Perhaps this is for the best. I don't need him, I have my pack to take care of. A queen can rule better without her king, her word has power and strength.

Searching for Deimos sitting in my office, only to receive a blank page with his name. Who is this wolf? How can there not be even a single bit of information about him? This sparks curiosity within me. "Alpha, it is time for our females to birth their pups," Elriam says entering the office.

"Send for the healer and prepare the birth house," I command rushing out of my office, running to the birth house. The sound of screams and pups bawling hurts my ears, pregnant females lying on beds trying to overcome the pain of contractions. Their blood splattered across the white sheets of the beds.

"Please help me." A female's voice catches my attention, I notice no wolf helping her, all of their hands full with the other females. I walk up to her looking over, noticing the pup's head slowly trying to come out, catching hold of the pup.

"Push, you are almost there." She screams her pain and her eyes glaze over, tears leaking waiting for death to take her.

"No! Listen to me don't give up, your male is waiting to hold you and your pup, if you give up your pup will die. Look at me." She slowly opens her eyes looking at me. Sweat coats her forehead. "One last push, do your best and you can hold your pup in your hands." She screams the sound of her pup bawling brings life to the birth house. I put the cleaned pup in the female's hands, he snuggles to her chest mouth searching for milk.

"Thank you, Alpha." The female's voice cracking.

My eyes soften. "Keep him safe."

Walking back to my house, my walk is interrupted with Elriam running towards me gasping for breath. "Alpha, we have intruders. They don't seem like rogues, I feel them emitting high power. They seem dangerous we must take our warriors." I snarl, my wolf wants nothing but to kill. Who dares enter my territory without permission. I will kill them all. Running to the gate by the border, I see unfamiliar wolves growling awaiting my arrival. My warriors behind me snarling, puffing up ready for a fight.

"How dare you enter my territory without gaining my permission? Do you wish for your deaths? Answer me, what is the reason for this and perhaps my warriors will show you mercy."

"You."

The voice takes me off- guard. I know this voice. He strides forward from the shade of trees that hid him from me. He was watching me, my reaction to this. Testing my strength. His wolves give way to him moving to both sides to give him the way. I just stand there, my mouth is turning dry. I can't speak. I can't breathe.

"Deimos," I whisper, my throat parched. Licking my lips I question him. "Why are you here?" His stare weakens my knees, my heart beating faster, skipping beats. He folds his hands near his chest, my eyes watch the flex of his muscles wondering what it would feel like to be held by them.

"I do not like to repeat myself." His voice is emotionless.

"What do you want with me?" Chin raised, back straightened I ask him just like an Alpha should. His scrutinizing stare tells me he can see right through my act of strength I am trying to portray to him. He can see he is becoming my weakness.

"I am here to take you and your pack." A loud laugh booms around us, birds fly from trees startled by the sound. The laughter comes from my throat.

"That was quite funny Alpha Deimos. And what made you think I will do as you please." My wolf trying to figure out who to support. Me or her mate. He walks towards me, my warriors growl showing teeth ready to fight for their Alpha. I put my hand up immediately silencing them, curious to see what this male is going to do. He stands in front of me slowly leaning to my ears. His breath brushing the shell of my ears. My hands shake eager to touch his skin.

"I heard your females delivered pups today, their lives lie based upon your decision." He whispers to me. Fury ignites my body. I take steps back closer to my warriors. Who does this male think he is? Is he not my moon blessed? He would kill his mate's pack? My body begins to shake, my wolf wants his throat. We will always protect our pack, even from our so-called mate.

"You come to my kingdom and you threaten their queen?" I scream pointing at my pack. "This will not end well, it will end in war and chaos." My wolf showing her presence, she agrees. He smiles a smile that doesn't reach his eyes. It's sadistic, he likes my idea.

"Look at your warriors, now look at mine." He says while raising his hand. With a flick of his wrist, more warriors flood into my pack land standing behind their Alpha. The amount of warriors I have is nothing compared to his. It will cause loss and destruction. My wolf disagrees, she believes our warriors. She thinks we can take them. I look towards my pack, females holding their newborn cuddled under the protective arms of their mates. Can I do this? Can I put them in harm's way knowing the result as an Alpha?

"So tell me mate." Loud gasps are heard around the field. "Do you think this should end in war and chaos?" He asks quoting my words, knowing very well how exactly I feel at the moment.