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When I was fourteen, I started writing poems and I wrote them in a note book, I filled it up and bought a new note book.

I am surprised that I start making a dialogue scenes and then I discovered that I can write stories, my first genre is mystery and romance.

It used to take me two hours, forgetting to eat until Mama got mad at me. They saw the poems I was making. I was scolded, saying that the notebook I was writing on could still be used next year.

My face was hard, I didn't listen and I continued. My aunt who was abroad gave me a phone and that's when I started writing on the reading platform.

My parents are mad, why was it given to me when Drew is the one who deserves to be given a phone instead of me.

Mama burned all of my notebooks where my writings and poems were, I cried a lot that night. I thought that was the end of my crying, but they do the worst. The phone was taken back that they didn't give it to.

I tried to resist, but they did everything that would make it difficult and hurt me, they broke the phone where I was writing. So that there is no more benefit because there is no point in what I am doing.

At that time, I felt like my wings had been clipped. Honestly, I don't care about the fame. I just want to write everything. All the pain and resentment I have in life can be released by writing.

I am a good daughter. Even though they made me feel different and worthless, I never thought of ruining my life and being a pervert in their lives.

They make me feel that they don't want me at all, it hurts. But I can't do anything, I'm here and they are my family. I was patient, no matter what I did hidden in my savings, they took it.

Until I reached sixteen. I worked as a vendor at the market whenever I didn't have school, because my parents rarely gave me money and they were starting to give Drew luxuries.

Even if they embarrass me in front of our relatives and compare me to my brother, I let it go, maybe when I prove something, all of this will change.

I saved for six months, finally Mom and Dad gave me a phone, because Drew said he wasn't interested in it.

I was so happy, I felt like they were changing the way they treated me, but when I was comfortable, they took it back without a second thought.

Drew suddenly wanted the phone and needed it. I even gave Mom and Dad what I had saved from my work and I quit selling at the market.

At that time, I felt singled out and used. They know that I have saved, what I saved they bought expensive clothes and shoes for Drew, and tangina. I didn't have a penny left.

Ever since that day, I was impressed that I would never give more to them and that I would put myself first now. I applied to be a service crew at a fast food chain and was accepted, I even borrowed money from my aunt and it was good that I was entertained.

I was frugal, I didn't listen to what they were saying and what they were saying. I saved up and bought my writing needs.

Mama preaches to me every day and tells me that I am a bad person and that I owe a lot to them as my parents. And I should just help them with family obligations, that's funny.

It comes from them that I should help them because they are my family, but they never treat me in the way that a family used to do. If they think that I don't have a heart and before they tell me to be a bitch, I hope they think about the days, times and opportunities that they deprived me of, even small and simple things that I can't enjoy.

Even if it swallows me, I owe it to my heart. It's like you want to be part of this kind of family.

Every day, they made my life hell. I could hardly eat because I was being treated. They win, as always. I gave what I worked hard for the third time. And even a simple thank you, I received nothing from them.

And this is me now, on the phone that will break depending on what I will pay next. I didn't tell my parents that I was going to get paid by writing now. Because when I say, there will be nothing left for me.

"Adelrina, do some ironing. You're such a lazy girl!" Mama shouted and kicked the door of my room now. A sprained shoulder left my draft for today.

From morning to night it's like this. I am like a helper to my own family. While I can't be supported even if you can do it simply, son, I didn't listen to my mother.

"Yes, this is it." I stood up and saved my draft. The internet died again so I immediately left the room and looked at the modem downstairs.

"I changed the Wifi password, because someone is connecting and won't pay." Drew turned his back on me and went up to his room. I caught my breath and closed my eyes tightly, my fist turned into a ball. My anger is the reason why I am having trouble breathing now.

They will say we are family, but they don't treat me as family?

"Adelrina, hurry up and iron. You'll eat later, do that first and what time is it?" Mama put down my brother's ten uniforms and ten skirts for him to go to school.

"It's my uniform Ma, why isn't it there?" I asked and she didn't bother to look in my direction.

"You take it outside, it has been raining for a while." It went all the way up and left me alone at the bottom.

My uniform is wet, I have nothing to wear for tomorrow. Why am I so unlucky with them? I didn't do anything wrong to make them angry with me.

Sometimes, the cycle of the world is not fair, it's tiring to meet the opposite current. It's hard to resist, especially if they themselves don't want to punish me.

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"Thank you." I smiled before waving away from my current boss, my shift at a donut shop was over and I was now on the side line. The big smile on my face, I have a new salary and tomorrow I will deposit it to increase my savings.

I intend to save money and work abroad once I finish senior high, and I know that my parents will not support me in my studies, and now I am the one who is going to school myself, just be patient I am a graduate.

I got into the jeep and took out my earphones and cellphone, paid before starting to write while driving, it was a long time and it was a waste of time, because when I got home I knew that I would be ordered again and maybe there would be nothing. it's time to draft more.

I close my eyes and imagine the guy that I dreamed about, his sexy lips and muscles that make him more sexier, his voice is lingering on my mind, I hope that the guys on my stories will show and save me from the ugliness of my life now.

No one dares to court me, I don't understand why or I'm just busy with my life that's full of pain so I don't know if someone is really interested in me or not.

My hand fluttered while what was in my mind was nothing short of the scenes I imagined that I myself was the star of what I am writing now.

Some guys are looking at me now, wondering how fast I'm typing on my phone right now. I ignored it and let him look at me.

It was only a matter of time and I was already there, I panicked when I noticed that I was already past our corner and was about to leave. I had to walk a long way to get to us, the fare was a waste and it was still early and not yet midnight.

I put the phone aside and walked towards us, I took a deep breath. This is me again at home which is hell for me.

I will be ordered even if I come from work and tired from outside, my parents who are biased and have favoritism.

I opened the door and there was no one in the living room, but I heard Mama and Papa talking from their room. I went straight to my room and when I opened it, I saw my brother holding my wallet from my clothes.

She went pale and I walked towards her, my allowance was empty to pay for my NCII at school. I said to Mama then, because they prioritized Drew's luxury.

"Why are you scratching my wallet, and where are the contents?!" I responded angrily and tried to touch Drew's pocket but he avoided it, giving me a bad look.

"You steal, that's mine. I'll pay for it at the school!" It passed me and my chest felt like it was going to explode with annoyance, I grabbed it and slapped it. He was stunned by me and I looked at him, all my life I have suffered pain and hardship from them.

"That's my money, I worked for it and you have no right to take money that isn't yours!" I stopped and suddenly Mama and Papa entered my room. I was pushed and attended by Drew, they saw the scar on his face, my palm.

Papa angrily slapped and kicked me. I start crying hard when Mama pulls my hair and slaps me.

"I ordered him to take the money, you are a very hateful person. You earn and work but you don't give!" I shook my head and puffed my cheeks.

"I'm just supporting myself, for my studies Ma-"

"Don't call me Mama, Adelrina. You should be thankful that you're being swallowed up and that you're still in this household even though you're useless." It opened my bag and scratched my bag, I was alarmed and I have not yet separated my salary.

"My bag is mine!" I said between the sobs and Papa pushed me, my back hit the bed and I got even weaker. They took the envelope there and took the contents. The meat was taken, I started crying hard. I have no money.

"You hate your mother so much, that's why you were not blessed!" Mom and I went out and Drew was left next to me, looking at me and smiling, showing me what he took from my wallet before leaving.

That's why I felt like someone was following me, it was Drew and told Mom that I was working again. Fuck this life, nothing good has ever happened to me.

I hug my knees and cry silently, no one wants to listen. I always let it happen, sometimes I asked God why me. I am a good child who was deprived of opportunity and time.

I bit my lips and opened the drawer, I could feel the sharp edge and felt the pain. I just want to feel numb now. Do I still have a place here, why are they treating me like this?

It's tiring to ask questions over and over again and get no answers from the very beginning, I thought that if I just obeyed they would see my importance, but even I work hard. They treat me like trash. Who said that I want to be part of this kind of family?

I wear my hoodie and walk out of my room, there is no one downstairs. I went out and as I expected there was no food for me, I don't have money and no food.

I went out and walked to the park, the lightning and thunder were getting stronger now. The store near us called me and showed me the list.

"Adelrina, your mom said you will pay what they owe." I read it and shook my head. My money has been taken, they are going to pay off a debt that I didn't even take advantage of.

"Aling Esther, I don't have a salary yet." She looks at me with pity now. Maybe I look tired. I walked over and played with my ATM card. Suddenly the rain poured down and the pain, pain and resentment all mixed together.

I looked up and felt the coldness of each raindrop, if given the chance, I hope I can control everything that is happening right now. Because I don't know if I can handle what will happen next.

"What if I sold my soul to a demon to get rich?" I laughed at what I said and sat down, letting the rain get wet.

"Help me, please."

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