Bloody tears of heart

Two MIG-15

Jet flew low in the sky with a rumbling sound, the sound of gunfire and bomb

explosions could be heard in different directions of the city.

However,

surprisingly, it is not known where the sound of gunshots is coming from, so

when people leave their homes, they do not crouch down to avoid being hit by

flying bullets, so they spend time without leaving their homes. Therefore, if you are a stranger to the city,

if you see the state of the city, you will be told to take my leg out, but if

you intend to return to the cottage, it is clear that it will not be for your health.

Jijiga the Eastern Ethiopia has been shaken by this kind of interest.

Although the

residents closed their homes and sat down to let the creator show them the

future, their children sneaked out of their houses as if they were not afraid

of death and collected the different colors of military tools that were

scattered in the city and threw the dust inside the fire and shook the area

with gun fire noise.

If they had known that this caused a scandal for them, but

for their parents, they would have refrained from their actions. However, their childhood, which was the era

of fun and prosperity, made them worry about the city, their parents and

residents, and they did not refrain from their activities.

At Esther's father's went

to the "Funda Sefer" which is local kiosks called Funda Village 05

kebbele, the audience of the house stood up and received him respectfully when

he had just enter in to Mrs. Ethlemahu's kiosk for a drink. he were looking for a place to sit, his

close friend, Captain Negash, who was eagerly waiting for him to come also,

couldn't help the infantry soldier who was beside him to put his friend down.

He raised Desi and put Esther's father beside him and said, "Captain, sit here

".

To entertain their guests, Mrs. Ehtlemahu, the owner of the kiosk,

busy serving the audience, approached the chamberlain, whom she respected very

much, with respect. "Captain , how

do you do!?" said without waiting for his answer again

"What do you

want?" she ask

"And today, what do you think you are coming as a

guest!?" The Captain answered with a surprised language expression.

Still, without

waiting for her apology response, he said, "Shut up and bring the usual"

"How are you,

Captain?" What's new?" The Captain started waiting for answers to his

two questions.

Captain Negash put

the measure of Habesha liquor that was offered to him, and if he didn't like

it, he raised the glass of the noble guard to drink.

"You'll be

surprised! I thought she was your daughter. She sent a telegram."

"Did you say

Esther?" he asked, eagerly for an answer, and turned his head to his

friend

"Yes, she told

me, Esther" they continued

"She sent a telegram radio from Debremarkos with her

uncle. Since she is coming, her uncle begged me to tell you to welcome

her." Captain Negash said as if his

burden was lightened. "Did you call

me Esther?" he asked to confirm while sipping their Tella(cultural made

beer)

"Yes," he confirmed.

They were silent for

a few minutes and said, "actually If she never come to DebreMarkos to get

a telegram, she won't get it anywhere."

"What are you

going to do?" he continued

"Is she alone or

her mother also with her?" he asked

and waiting for captains replay

"No, she is

alone" in a speech that makes you unsure

The Captain asked,

"But Captain, how is she going to come? It's not red and it's not

peace?"

"According to

what her uncle told me, she ran away from her brother and came to him. They

told me to send a message to you and saying that he has taken her to her father

before she gets into trouble."

Her uncle said that

he did not believe what he heard.

"Captain, is

there a problem? It would be good if she lived with her brother, isn't it? Or

did you want her to get married before her age? Oh, go away, my friend, it's

not nice to hear such a thing!"

"What captain!? What is wrong with our culture? Isn't

it our culture? ". He knows that they will not be released if they start

arguing with a friend." It's always going to get into a trance. But I

think it would be better for you to leave the whole thing and listen to your

child. I would like to go to the camp. "I'll be in a little while, my

friend," they said without responding to the advice. After their friend

Negash reprimanded them, they did not want to talk too much. He was shaken and

scattered on the floor. When Esther's arrival was disturbed, he was disturbed,

and when she saw Esther as much as he felt about his wife's betrayal, become

in tears, when he thought of what would happen; "Repeat me or put the

bottle here and I will drink it over and over again," he said.

"Captain... you will never like it if you don't turn

around," said, grabbing another bottle and starting to drink

"It's like that,

but if you drink, you will be a man.isn't it, my sister?"talking with the kiosk lady

One day when they

were drinking with the Captain, He lost his ability because he were too

drunk, so they were swept away by the whirlwind of the

the town. he did not enter his home.

It is spinning like a wheal in the area. According to some

residents of rummers thought, people sometimes get lost when they they go in the evening time, and then

they are said to be lost in the whirlwind.

On the day they heard

that Esther was coming, her father drank so much that he were wandering around

the city in a drunken spirit. It was not known where he went and what they hid.

he disappeared for two days without being found. The battalion commander of the

12th Brigade, together with Captain Negash, went out with a foot search team

and an oral search. They searched the country for the missing Captain for two

days. Overrun by soldiers.

In 1977, in the

campaign against the government of Somalia Ziad Bare, not only the Cubans,

Russians, Yemenis and but also the veterans from

teachers to civil servants, according to the decree of a difficult situation,

especially the soldiers wearing jeans and kakis, then the campaign was won, but

still ten years after the end of the war, the city was impressed by military Noise.

Buried explosives in

every area and colors thrown everywhere, tanks and gunshots heard everywhere

made it look like an urban camp inhabited only by soldiers.

When Esther arrived

at the bus station in the city, she did not bother to find her father. As soon as she got off the bus, she found one

of them in the bus and asked about her father. By chance, they knew her

father. . .They meet her father's close friend Captain

Negash.

However, when she arrived at the said place, she was

confused because she did not find her father, even though Esther asked the

chamberlain where her father had gone, she could not find them now and pleaded

with her to stay at her father's house for the time being.

The Capain led her

from the front road, when they reached Monte village, they turned aside and

after traveling a little around Ellu Ella, they entered a courtyard, approached

one of the three service houses and knocked.

A boy appeared and opened it for them.

"Mommy" said the

boy

" Mamush?" the

Captain said before he finished

"Come in "one lady

offer them to enter

When they heard a

woman's voice, they entered and sat down with the lady of the house.

he said,

"Esther, don't worry, her name is Mrs. Sun. She is your step mother, and

he is your brother. Come closer, don't be afraid to kiss him."

"Mamush, are you

ashamed of not greeting your sister properly?" said that their daughter's flirtation

surprised them

After playing with

Mrs. Sun for a while, the captain have to go to his camp, so he turned to

Esther and told her that her father was out of town for work.

July 3, 1979 It will

be 12:00 o'clock in the morning, the captain's wife is shocked at the door and

notices the presence of people there through the hole, and panics and goes to

Esther and wakes them up. When the door

starts knocking, they open it and let them in.

According to what

they said, the soldiers engaged in searching for the body went out in search

and will inform them of the results. After two days of searching, at about 9:00

a.m., the dead body of captain Belay, who was being searched for, was found

mauled by wild beasts.

Marshal Negash and

other soldiers who came to help them go inside and her father were killed by the

infiltrating Somali soldiers who are dead and their bodies have never been

found.

According to June and

Monday, Esther could not accept her father's death, but her 14-year-old age and

the life she had led her to cope with the grief. Although she knows about death in her

childhood,but does not have a deeper knowledge.

Mrs. Fantu carries

rice mixed with milk on a large plate, and the women and children of the city

follow behind them, saying " Megen!"means traditional known as a prayer in the local.

Esther, who was very

surprised by the condition of the people, asked her brother because their

actions were very strange to her. On the contrary, he simply explained to her

that since there has been no rain in this area for months, all the animals are

dying because of the drought, so they are begging their creator to rain on

them.

When she looked

closer to see what they were doing, she saw the residents gathered under a

tree, eating the white rice with milk and drinking coffee in their hands

without being grouped by caste or language.

The chaos of the city and the crime committed by the youth

made Esther very worried. Although years

have passed since the end of the war in Somalia, the city is being used as a

Derg army camp, so bars and bars where soldiers can enjoy themselves have

proliferated.

On the contrary, the

crimes committed in the city have increased in such a way that it does not seem

like there is an army guarding the borders of the country; The group is divided into kebbele. The young

people of each kebbele are grouped together for different reasons.

Among the most

dangerous neighborhoods, 01Kebele China Group has 600 members, 04Kebele has 120

members, and 06Kebele Amara neighborhood.

Out of the three

groups, 01 (China Group) and 04 Lions or Small Market are very dangerous and

they use knives and bangles mercilessly, and their members take turns beating a

woman for 20 and dismembering each body and throwing it outside the city. They dare to drag women from their homes

without male guardians.

President Ziad Bere's

army, which was established to establish the great Somali government, with the

support of Russia, Kuban and Yemeni army, and the country's army is present in

the city.

When you see the

city, there are many traders who are active in the smuggling business, food and

electronics, clothes and khat are available cheaply, so no one worries about

anything.

Everything is cheap and almost no one is motivated. For the

residents, khat is not only a culture but also a entertainment or a store, so

it is common to see them squeezing and squeezing the full khat for fifty

cents. bought and worn with two birr second

hand clothes; The cost of cooking cheap canned food is insignificant, so the

young man is not worried about anything. As a broken city, there is no legal

entity to prevent crime, so no one will do what he wants. Concerned neo-hippies

and their global warming, i'll tell ya. When Esther arrived, two of her peers

were raped at 1:00 pm and were thrown out of the store at 6:00 pm Easter's

families and locals shouted while they were asleep. They heard him shake the

area, echo it, and he heard a commotion. When she asked her younger brother, he

told her that the raped women or the raped people found their bodies and

slaughtered their bodies and slaughtered them for their parents and how the

city's crimes were committed. Esther could not believe the crimes she heard

from day to day; Her fate went to her. When she heard of her exile, including

her father's death, and the increase in crimes, she was unable to return and

thought about what would happen if she returned.

But from all this, she liked the care of her brother and

stepmother, especially Captain Negash, her father's childhood friend, so she

decided to face things here.

Capain Negash also

always told her that it was her father's responsibility to take care of her as

a child, so she arranged things for her to stay at her stepmother's house and

promised to teach her in the new year, so she felt a little bit relieved.

What was missing from

all this chaos and confusion was the country's climate, which she was not used

to, which left her in awe. The weather

is hot and the minute she takes off her clothes, it turns cold, and when it

gets colder, a big storm comes from another direction and the dust continues to

fall.

Then it gets cold,

the day gets hot, and when it wants, it becomes a different kind of

climate. This is not the only thing that

amazes her in the afternoon.

Sometimes when she

thinks about it, when all those people are rushing in the morning, "Where

did the flood of people come in!?", she wonders to herself.

She observes that

residents eat and drink together in the afternoon; no one is a stranger in

anyone's home; It's all native. She's

getting used to it, even though it's annoying.

"listen listen"

her brother pulled her to tell her about the city

"Do you know

what the other name of this city is? Let me tell you," feeling proud of

knowing.

"Tell me, your

lies will never end," she said.

"If you're tired

of lying, tell him," he said, shrugging his shoulders.

"Oh, just

kidding, tell me, Angie, you're here!" she said with a focused look.

"But if you

don't understand, because the words are difficult, you won't understand."

"If it's in the

local language, if you tell me from the translation, tell me I

understand," she said excitedly.

"Ber...Ber...Ber...Ber...Oh, I'm lost.

Wait, wait, I'll ask mom if she remembers him."

"Oh, my dear

one," said Mrs. Sun

"Who was it that

told us about the other name of this city?" he asked them.

"Ber...mu........da"

before they finished speaking

When he laughed at

his mother, he was surprised by one of them and they all burst into laughter.

"Oh mom, I just

remembered, it's called 'Bermuda'," he said.

According to Ashe,

Bermuda means that whoever enters this city and drinks its water will find it

difficult to leave the city, and if he leaves, he will come back.

"Wait, the other day you told me about the meaning of

Bermuda.

He yelled at her

saying, "Hey, then." Not again

"If I told you

before, connect it with Ashe's story." He said knowingly.

"Uh...Uh...Uh...Now I understand"

she said to stop the argument without understanding

"And you're done

throwing goals!"

She got angry when her

brother said that she was a trash, clapped his hands and woke her up from her

thoughts.

"Now you have to

imagine a city girl who is awake and alert," his mother said

"Why don't you

leave this girl?" He ran away as they were about to get up. Captain Negash is right and that what he said

is not malicious; for herself

They woke up from

their silence and said that it was because they wanted to be careful.

"This Devil

talks to the girl about the city and talks to her at night," they say to

their neighbors who come to their house to drink coffee.

One of them

intervened and said, "The truth is, this helpless beautiful girl is

thinking of his sister if she wakes up without being deceived, oh poor

thing," she said, drinking her lips.

"It's amazing

that this little boy cares so much for his sister," the Captain said.

MAJESTI SCHOOL

Every rumor that her brother frequently plays with her about the city helps her to get used to the crimes that are committed and not to be a stranger, and to be careful and to be careful when she starts school.

Therefore, while getting used to the city conditions, she has changed in a short time, integrating the rural dialect culture with the city culture, and has started to live a different life.

Although Esther heard a lot of funny things when she arrived, day by day the city is getting calmer and the government schools are open to start their work, so she is about to start the school she is looking forward to.

She is enrolled in the 9th grade of Emperor Haile Selassie School in Mado. At 12:00 p.m., they were walking on the bridge between the police station and 04 Kebbele, which leads to Mado School, among the men who were huddled on the bridge.

"Listen, you tall girl!" Esther and her friend looked at each other. When she realized that Esther was called, start shaking grabbed her and she trembled. They both increased their speed to run.

"It's us, don't push it!" she said.

"I don't think they're students, let's hurry anyway." Since they are near the school, they know that the teachers will see them even if they run, so Esther continues to run and doesn't follow them.

"Aren't these municipal school students?" Esther asked her friend

"ignore, these are thugs. They are the ones who jump out of the window when the teacher is teaching, don't be afraid of them," they entered the school.

Esther is trying so hard not to waste her life. When she sees the women in the neighborhood, she realizes that none of them are qualified for university and becomes discouraged.

She always worries that I am not like the women of my country.

She spent many periods without a boyfriend; When she lived in this city, it was important to have a strong friend to protect her from the teenagers, but she decided to face any terrible situations alone after her disliked friend entered the campus.

"Asti, I'm tired of running around with these guys."

She continued

"But one day, when we become like this, they will wait for us in a place where they will not play with us," she said with fear

"What are you talking about?" she waved her hand as if she was angry: Esther

But her friend continued to talk. "Listen, what do you know about this city?" One group of men has about 600 members and the other has about a hundred. She kept silent again.

"Oh, these wolves will bite you one day," she said

"Now I understand, everyone has his own group and attacks the other's neighborhood," she said

"Yes, now you have entered, and they are confused. When they want, they dare to force women who have no boyfriends in their own neighborhood."

"Uh.... Are you telling me you dare?"

"Yes, they can offend you."

"But I don't want to have friends."

"My name Esther means you still don't understand."

"Make it clear to me, what is it that I don't understand?"

"Fri....end...."

"It's okay if I don't want to have a friend?" She shrugged her shoulders

"Anyway, be careful."

Esther did not change her words

"We will talk another day. Let's go to the class. The teacher will probably come in," she said

"But in this country, any woman who is old enough to protect herself is bound to keep a friend, even if it's a lie, and I wouldn't have escaped from this."

Esther and her friend entered the class

A week later, when Esther and her friend all the students left the class, they were sitting on the bridge and waiting for Esther's arrival.

The area has street lights but they are so dim that the road is engulfed in darkness. Although the houses on the side of the asphalt turned on their external lights, it was semi-dark, so she continued to move forward thinking that it might hurt us.

"If it comes!... If it comes!" Walking quickly, shouting loudly, he reached them.

They both turned around to see the man who was calling

"Shall I talk to you sometime?"

Because her friend found out, she close to her ear in a low voice

"Don't worry, it's Chuchu's brother."

"Who is Chuchu?"

"The one who sometimes comes to drink coffee with your neighbor" she said simply.

"Don't be afraid, he's a good boy."

The boy approached and said, "How are you?"

"Hello, Jumbo," said Esther's friend

"You don't need a messenger, I'm going to the camp," he said

"It's okay, let's go." If her friend came, she pushed Esther to go

But Esther did not answer until she frowned

Her friend calmly said, "It's not a problem. Shenei is there."

But Esther refrained from speaking and remained silent

After they reached their neighborhood while talking, the boy separated them and they went to Esther's house and started playing. Her friend soon went home.

But when Esther was alone, she thought that she shouldn't worry too much if the person she met today asked her for a relationship, and she thought that she shouldn't worry too much.

But the boy was attached to him every day as soon as they left the class. Esther is also trying not to be alone most of the time; Because she said she did not believe what she had heard about the boy. She is very scared, but when she is always with them, she doesn't seem like a difficult person, so she starts to doubt that what people told her is true. "Either way, it doesn't hurt to be suspicious," she warns herself.

Her mother dear. . .

Because women in the area were forced to marry at a young age, Esther's biological mother, Mrs. Wode, got engaged when she was 7 years old. Therefore, accepting her father's proposal, they married Esther's father and gave birth to her and her brother.

10 years later, when the Somali war broke out, all the people of the country marched out of the country to fight the invaders, and her father joined the campaign. After they left for Hararge, they were not known to be alive until the end of the war for a long time.

This worried Ms. Wode, who had children and when they arrived in Hararge province to meet the father of their children, they went to Hararge's main command called East Ez, and when they asked about their husband, they were told to go and check in a city called Jijiga, about 105 kilometers from Harar.

They had already heard from their friends who had marched with them that their husband had started another family and had married and had a child, so he brought them to find out the truth.

As soon as they entered the city, they confirmed the truth of what they had said that they had met their husbands, so they returned to their homes the same way they came and left everything and chose to go to the monastery and serve as monks.

It was at that time that Esther's brother took charge of the house and started managing them. Years later, when her brother got married and had children, her daughter-in-law Esther was forced to drop out of school due to abuse.

However, when she finishes her 8th grade education, her sister-in-law and brother-in-law agree and decide to marry Esther to a nobleman who is 30 years older than her. Frustrated by this, Esther runs away to her uncle. It was for this reason that her uncle sent her to Jijiga to go with her father and give her boarding school to complete her education.

Esther, who was happy with this, always wanted to complete her education and join higher education, so she started her journey from Debre Markos to Addis Ababa, then Harar and came to Jijiga, where her father lived.

She always remembers her mother who was kind and compassionate, especially Esther, who contributed a lot to her to go to school and study.

She wants to undo the sacrifices of her uneducated mother; Although she came to find the love of her lost father and her father's protection, although she felt the sadness of not finding him alive, she was comforted by finding her brother who left her and died. Although her stepmother was dangerous and angry, she did not stop her from her studies. Captain Negash, her father's friend, sometimes sees them coming and helps her.

You are beautiful...Naya

Mark's time is the end of winter, so the rains have just started in the area. Esther came from Gojam in the east of her country, it didn't rain for a season, but now it has started to rain, and the dust has turned into mud.

The dust in the city was amazing. When she walked out of the house, her clothes were covered in dust, and the weather was bad for her. However, now that it had started to rain, it reassured her, albeit lightly.

If I were in my hometown, I would be harvesting that crop and roasting the smell from the green lush crop, rowing in the humid and humid air, paddling through the sea trees when the area was burning with smoke. While she was saying this, she looked at her with her mind's eye, and she felt as if she was there.

Even though Esther has lost her memories of her country home, she has gotten along with the environment. Now, what she wears is not the country dress, but a dress and shit. This dress, which is often worn by women in Eastern Ethiopia, looks like a loose and long dress.

Esther is red and blood-tinged, quiet with a good personality, but this personality makes her shy and doesn't mix and play with people easily; It kept her from making new friends.

Now she cursed her father's death. They spend the day exploring the area.

But because her stepmother is not a work-loving and gentle woman, so is Esther

She controls her, since they earn by baking bread after Father's death, she spends the rest of the time helping her, and on weekends and when there is no school, she takes the bread to the city asphalt and sells it.

But now that September has arrived, her father's friend, Captain Negash, who promised to teach her in the day class, enrolled her in Emperor Haile Trinity School called Mado.

Esther's skin color makes her look like a white, so the townspeople who don't know her are very surprised by her color. Every adolescent and adult male who passed by her did not pass without being harmed by her. Sometimes he grabs her hands and forces her to hold him twice or thrice without exaggeration.

Esther's mother's bread selling income is not enough for their two children, so they split the house in two to sell it.

As she always does, she invites her brother to carry the bread to be sold in a cart to the asphalt side of the city, while she sits and sells it. Since the house paid for lodging has a side entrance, she does not have to enter the business house to stay.

While selling the bread, she meets different people. Sometimes the customers who buy from her are Somalis, especially the men who are surprised by her beauty, so they play with her. One day, one of them is a Somali.

"Listen Naya, you are so beautiful, why are you selling bread?" She folded the bread.

"What's wrong with work, right!?" she said

The man said, "I will marry you and give you a camel for your family."

"You don't want ten camels."

"If you want, what's the problem, he'll give you ten." She was surprised by the Somali's gentleness and playfulness, and she laughed.

"Your bread(Injera) tastes good. When you come my house, Stove will buy it. Then you will make Injera (you will bake it) Hey, okay."

"How many wives and how many camels do you have now?" said one of the old women by Esther's side

"There are two wives and 100 camels in the forest."

Esther put her hands in her mouth while flirting

"Uh, so you're going to make me your third wife."

"What's the problem?"

"Say, you're a joker, take your bread and go"

When he ends by saying, "I love a Habesha woman," the man's anger leaves her as Esther face changed, who has never been married to him, leaves her.

Let's see...eve...

Even though they celebrate the cross, but she hasn't started her school yet. In this area, school usually starts after the cross celebration. Esther wants to go to school, make new friends, and at least get out of the house to breathe.

She wakes up at night and eats her breakfast as told and heads to the other school with her brother.

When she entered the school premises, there were no students in the school premises, so a few students and teachers came as she sat under the trees in the school premises for a few minutes.

As soon as she entered the 9th grade; She sat down in the front seat. After she stayed in the class for a while, about 9 students followed her and entered one by one. One student sat next to the chair where Esther was sitting and touched her.

"The teacher didn't come, did he?"

"No, I haven't seen any teacher yet."

"So what are we going to do here, when does it start?"

"I'm sorry, I don't know either."

"Why don't we go and ask one of the teachers if we can teach him here?"

"If you want, let's go" as they got up and started walking

"Anyway, my name is Redemption," she introduced herself

"My name is Esther."

"Where are you from, girl?"

"I'm 04."

"You are, my neighborhood "

They entered the teachers' cafe and when they made sure that no one had entered, they went to the administration office and started asking. They were told that the lesson would start next week on Monday and they went back to their settlements.

"It's filthy," she tells her brother, and when the adults keep asking her about the dump village, she knows why she ran away to Jijiga, and she knows he's going to push her away from it. When she thinks back to what he did to her, she can't believe it.

Even though she notices that he is her older brother, it annoys her. But her mother is very angry with him because he gave her away to an old man for the sake of his wife, who came into the monastery not long after they entered the monastery. She feels she will never forgive him.

She misses her village from the bottom of her heart, but she ran away from Taya through her uncle and started to live with him. Although her brother married her, her father canceled all the loans that her father had given them, and the brother agreed to give Esther to him in return. However, after Esther came with her uncle, she heard that this was the case, but she was very angry about what happened.