Behind that Innocent Smile

"Sir, are you all right?" Miriana asked her teacher sitting near the campus gate. It was late at night and there were not many people around, so she was surprised to see one of her teachers looking very drunk.

"M-miriana?" he softly called her and smiled.

Miriana immediately turned pale with the smile that always made her heart beat faster. It is also undeniable that the man has a beautiful smile that is always admired by women on campus. And Miriana was one of them who always looked at him from a distance when he wasn't looking.

"Let's go sir, it's too late at night and it's cold here," she said, helping the man to stand up.

The man did not growl when Miriana put one of her hands on his shoulder to support him.

'He is heavy,' said Miriana in her mind.

She turned around to look for the guard but because it's already dark, she could no longer see anything. "I'll just take you in the taxi, Sir for--" she didn't finish what she was saying when he suddenly kissed her on the lips without a warning.

Her heartbeat had speeded up and it got even faster when the man leaned her against the wall and his kiss on her deepened even more. She didn't know what to do at these times especially since she was feeling so shocked right now. She was shocked when she felt his hand crawling to her waist. She even repeatedly cursed in her mind when the man brought her closer to him so that he could kiss her more properly.

Miriana wants to push the man because what they are doing is wrong and maybe someone will see. But after many times of doubting and fighting to her own thoughts, she closes her eyes and savor every kiss the man gives her. Little by little... Miriana wrapped her hand around the man's neck and she returned the kisses he gave her.

It wasn't the first time someone had kissed her, that's why she knew how to kiss him back. She even caught her breath a little as his hand dropped to her thigh. He gently stroked it until his hand landed between the girl's thighs. She didn't expect that so she was so shocked that she pushed the man away.

'What the f*ck are you doing Miriana?!' She quickly adjusted the skirt she was wearing and quickly walked away.

The man realized what he had done so he immediately followed Miriana and quickly grabbed her hand to stop her. "Look, Miriana... I'm sorry. I'm drunk and--"

"Just go home Sir, it's late," she replied, interrupting him. Miriana couldn't look and did everything to avoid looking the man in the eye.

The man sighed at her behavior and did nothing but let her go. When he let go of her, Miriana ran away as if someone was chasing her even though there was really nothing.

'You're embarrassing Miriana!'

Miriana Isabelle De Guzman's POV.

I took a few breaths before daring to enter the classroom. After what happened last night, I didn't sleep much so here I am late for class. Not just a simple class, but Sir Castriel's own class. I didn't want to enter his class but he may have marked me absent, which I didn't want to happen because that would ruin my class record. It's only been a year and I'm about to graduate. I'd rather be late than be absent.

"You can do this Miri--"

"Miriana?"

I was terrified to hear that voice. I also closed my eyes and bit my lip very hard before facing the person behind me. "S-sir..." I said nervously while trying to avoid his gaze.

"Aren't you coming in? Be the first to enter, so you won't be late," he said casually, losing the nervousness I was feeling.

Because of what he said, I looked him in the eye that I wish I had never done. He smiled as if nothing had happened last night, and I was disgusted to see his smile. Even though I'm starting to feel annoyed, it also disappears quickly because of his very innocent smile.

Instead of answering him, I secretly glared at him before quickly entering the room. I know I'm frowning but what can I do? I was annoyed with him, especially with his smile.

"For the first time you're late," said Dale, one of my gay best friends, laughing.

"'Don't talk to me," I answered sitting next to him. I took the book out of the bag and was annoyed to open it. I heard the greetings they made but I ignored them and just focused my attention on the book.

Why did a big deal happen to me last night? Guys will always be guys. Of course, they can forget that too, like they always do. That's why I don't like men, especially people like--

"Miriana ..."

"What?!"

If maybe there is a bee here or some insect that is noisy every night, they can come here in the room which is now very quiet. They were all staring at me at the scream I made. I even winced when I saw my classmate in the back handing me the papers while he was still gaping.

"Pass... your... assignments," my classmate said slowly, that's why I just took the paper he was holding. I even caught Sir Castriel, smiling secretly which made me feel diminished.

This is my last year in school! Last year! But just because of that one kiss! And... and... and... ah! Whatever! Looks like I can still create embarrassment that I shouldn't be doing.

Why was that man drunk last night?!

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"Are you okay sis? Are you feeling crazy in our last year of college?" Dale asked before munching on food.

We're here in the canteen now because it's lunch. To be honest, I had no appetite because of what happened to my first subject. Throughout his class, I just bent over and read a book. Some even teased me for shouting in class. It's only now that they seem to have seen me shout in addition to being hot -headed once.

"Yeah... I'm going crazy," was none of my own answers before picking up the shake I drank.

I need to cool down, my brain is too busy because of that professor. Too busy, my brain still flashes back to what happened to us last night.

"Aish!" I muttered, I rubbed my face on the table and slapped myself several times.

"Oh my gosh sis... you're really crazy," Dale said laughing as I looked up.

I stared at him but he just gave me a sweet smile. I looked down at his lip which made my eyes close quickly. This is so annoying! Why was he drunk last night?! Fortunately, I was able to push him, otherwise that kiss and hand would have gone to someone else. Sinful hand!

"You know sis, it's better if we will go to the bar after class. There's no class tomorrow, just so you can get rid of your madness."

"Pass, I have some research to do."

"I'll treat you."

My face brightened at what he said that made me sit up properly. "Well ... if you'll treat me, I can do that in the next few days. I have a lot of time to waste."

"You like free things, huh?"

I winked at him. "Of course, who doesn't want to have free things? One more thing, I know you'll be looking for men later that's why you invited me."

"You're right there sis! Just wait, I'll chat with the others," he said excitedly, which I just let him.

I started swallowing food again. Yes, swallowing because I'm hungry. Maybe this way the annoyance I feel when I eat will disappear completely. Because didn't they say, food is a therapy or I was the only one who said that? Whatever.

"Miriana."

As had happened earlier outside the room, I was cemented in my seat and I began to feel very nervous again. Why is it that every time he calls my name, I always get nervous? It only got worse now because of what happened last night. Yes, I admire him, but is it too much to feel this way?

"Yes, Sir?"

I try to calm myself down and be normal, but I can't get along with myself. Come on self!

"Can we talk after your class later?" he asked, smiling which I immediately averted.

I shifted my gaze to his ear so I could talk to him without looking stupid. Please Sir don't smile, it's distracting.

"About what?"

"Regarding the assignment you passed. There are some errors there, and I don't want my students to fail, especially the graduating ones. So, meet me in my office later."

Assignment? Wow. Wow... what an excuse.

"Uhm... Sir? Are there any errors in what I passed?" Dale asked flirty which caused my eyes to roll in disbelief. As long as he sees someone handsome or cute, he is starting to act this way.

"You're Cristoval right?"

"Yes, Sir." It was obvious in his voice that he was fascinated by the reply he got.

"Nothing, only Ms. De Guzman really has errors."

Errors. I researched hard for that assignment. What errors is he saying?

"Mind telling me Sir what's wrong with what I passed?" I asked.

My courageous question made Dale smile. He looked at me with a question in his eye but I ignored it and looked back at Sir Castriel.

He's really too much. I am not an irresponsible student so why would there be errors in the assignment that I passed? What a coincidence, insert sarcasm.

"You'll find out later, just meet me in my office." His eyes narrowed as he smiled before he left.

My fist clenched at his behavior and annoyed that I irritatedly tweaked my hair.

"Are you really crazy, girl? You seem to be nervous when he talks to you. Now... nevermind. Do you want some ice?" mixed with deception he said.

"Shut up."

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I knocked twice before finally entering the office and gently closing the door. When I entered, he was wearing glasses while holding a paper in one of his hands. The black long sleeves he was wearing were folded and the two buttons were also open. Adding to his good looks is his not so messy hair that is attractive to look at.

'Miriana! 'Don't be fooled!'

I cleared my mind of my thoughts before approaching him and clearing my throat to get his attention. When our eyes met, I started to get nervous again, which was really annoying.

"Where are the ERRORS I passed on my paper?" I really highlighted the word 'errors' he was saying earlier.

He removed his glasses and pointed to the chair next to me. "Sit down first," he said as I just obeyed.

I don't plan to stay here long so let's just follow what he says.

"About what happened last night..." he said first, frowning at me.

So he remembers what happened last night? And he really made an excuse for this?

"It's just a mistake, Sir." I finished what he wanted to say because I already knew what he was going to say. Just like men always do such things when they are drunk.

"No, it's not a mistake, Miriana," he said, sincerely looking at me. I could see how he bit his lip and looked at me nervously. He breathed several more times before speaking again. "I know it's wrong but, I'm attracted to you."

I didn't blink immediately at what he said, my heartbeat quickened at what I heard and it was as if I was deaf.

Is what I heard correct?

"And to be honest, even if it's wrong. I liked what happened to us last night."

I didn't take my eyes off him, I tried to look into his eyes to see if he was lying, but there is no trace of lying I see there.

"I... I-I'm speechless," I said softly and hard.

How to react in such a situation? Like, I really don't know what to say. I didn't expect this to be what he would say unlike what I expected his answer to be.

He stood up from the seat which also made me stand up immediately. I don't know but I need to get out of here.

"Miriana ..."

"If you don't have anything to say regarding what I passed, I'll go first," I said quickly before running out of the office. I even heard him call my name but I didn't bother to look back.

What did he say? He's what?

EPILOGUE

"I've been looking for you, where have you've been?"

The wind blew me away before I stood up properly.

"What's with that look? And why is your cheek so red?"

Even before Dale could touch me, I tapped his hand. "I was just chasing something. It's hot can't you feel?" I adjusted the bag I was wearing while thinking about some excuse I can say.

Why does he have to admit that? The speed of my heartbeat in panic can cause me a heart attack.

"Okay? Come on, so we can get ready for the party later." He anchored his hand to my hand which I didn't bother to focus on.

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"Hi, Tita!"

She kissed me on my cheek before pinching it. "You're really beautiful, Miriana. You two look good together."

"Mudra ..."

"Tita, don't expect me to, your son is into a handsome man. Besides, he's even more girly than me," I said jokingly, frowning.

She told me that she wanted many grandchildren but it looked vague. Dale is too soft to marry someone like me. It would be a miracle if he would be attracted to them.

"I will get her from you, Mudra. There's something Miriania and I need to do." He pulled me away from his mother and before we could get away, she shouted something.

"It's really okay with me if you're going to do a miracle!"

I laughed but Dale just frowned.

"Why don't you grant the wish of your mother?" I said when we got to his room. He went inside first before me.

"Yuck Miriana, I really don't want to have sex with you."

"Stupid! I'm not going to have sex with you! What I mean is, another girl beside me." I sat on his bed as he went straight to the walk-in closet. There are clothes there for women because he likes to dress me.

"Never Miriana, I will never like a woman. Besides, there are many men out there like me. I just need to find the right one. Here, try it."

I took what he reached and examined. I also laid it on the bed first before taking off the clothes one by one. Even if I undress in front of him, Dale would not care. He only turns on when a man is in front of him.

"What if one day you fall in love with a girl? What will you do?" I suddenly asked.

"Stop talking to me."

I approached him to help me close the zipper of the dress. "Come on... just give me an answer."

"If I'm going to like a girl, I don't know what to do because sis, I'm gay, you can't convince someone to be straight because he likes girls in just a day. Maybe my own actions will dictate if I like a woman or not."

Well... he has a point. Our actions are the one who governs our entire system.

"But when you fall for a girl, I'll throw a big party for you."

"It's up to you to party because it will never gonna happen."

"Sis!" Dale shouted sharply when he saw some of our friends.

The music is loud here in the bar but his mouth is even louder. I shook my head at his behavior and followed him to the table they had reserved.

"Oh, Miriana... you're really a grown woman. You're now wearing a slit blue dress," Richard said foolishly as he handed me a drink.

I took it and sat beside him.

"Let her sis so that she can get a boyfriend already," Liana replied, making me smirk.

"Sis, if I were you, don't annoy her. She's not in the mood," Dale said, which made everyone laugh.

Richard came to me close which I just let him because I'm used to it. "Why sis? What happened?" he asked.

I leaned my head on his hand before drinking from the glass I was holding. "Let's just say I was stressed at school."

"In that situation? You look like you're blooming rather than stressed."

I shrugged at his answer.

"Just drink that, we're here to party not frowning and feeling depressed."

"Look who's talking, who is just here to find a man," Liana said, fueling Dale's sudden words.

"Of course that's my first priority! I'll leave you here guys, I'll be there on the dance floor," Dale said softly as he left our table. The others just watched and followed him.

The ending? Richard and I were the only ones left.

"Your hand," I said threateningly as I felt his hand on my thigh.

He's not just gay, he's bisexual that's why he can also be quickly attracted to girls. In fact, he prefers women to men. He is picky when it comes to men.

"Hahaha... why? I'm just being respectful."

I left leaning on him because I was running out of what I was drinking. "Richard, stop your innocent acts, it's not effective."

I would have liked to refill my glass but Richard preceded me and he put them on himself. Based on what I'm seeing, the way he looks at me now is very seductive and I know very well what he wants to convey.

He's always like that when we're the only two left. I don't know if he likes me or he just wants sex. He even kissed me one... three times or even more when no one was around but only until then because I stopped him immediately.

He's my friend and I trust him more than anyone else just like Dale, but I know my limits and he knows it too. Sometimes, he couldn't avoid the call of the flesh. In fact, because of him I learned to kiss but not have sex.

"Come on Miriana..." he whispered following the caress of his hand on my legs.

His flirting has no real effect on me. I don't know, because he's my friend?

I held his hand as he was about to reach what should not be reached. I also stared him in the eye and shook my head. He frowned at my behavior and seemed to surrender.

"I wouldn't really attract a De Guzman like you," he says with a laugh. He poured a drink into a glass and drank it.

"Maybe you can, if you're not a friend." I lean on his hand again. I am comfortable when I lean on him.

He's not chubby or fat if that's what you think. In fact, he has a big body because he always goes to the gym. He has this unique face that can attract women who can see him. But not me, yes he is handsome and almost perfect but I can't really be attracted to him no matter how handsome he is in the eyes of others. Maybe because I treat him like my family? Especially now that I don't have a family unlike others.

"Oh really? Then should I unfriend you?"

"To what? Have sex with me?"

He laughed at my answer and approached me. He's doing it again.

I felt his breath on my neck that I just ignored. Just like what I've said, I'm used to him.

"Hmm... I really like your scent," he whispered. He brought himself even closer to me and began to slowly kiss my neck.

"Richard..." I called him to stop him.

"Just this night Miriana. I... I just want to touch and kiss you," he said in the middle of his kiss on my neck.

I gasped at what he said, I looked at the curtain on the side of the table we were sitting at. I pulled it to cover our table and have privacy which is a good thing here at this bar.

"Fine. But promise me, this will be the last."

He smiled at what I said. He stood up from his seat and closed the curtain himself. After that he came back to me without saying a word and kissed me on the lips. I wrapped my hand around his neck and kissed him back. He lifted one of my feet where he placed it on one of his feet and stroked it gently.

His other hand went to my chest and massaged it which made me moan for a while. His kiss moved to my cheek so I clung to his neck and chose to sit in front of him. I could feel his smile with every kiss he made and I knew he liked it more than I can think of.

"You're driving me crazy, Miriana," he said almost hoarsely as he stopped kissing me. He fixed me at his feet and made sure I would not fall into our current position. I hadn't been in his shelter that long when I could feel his bulging and hard manhood hitting, right on mine.

"You really hit it off."

"Of course, so you can feel how long it's been waiting for you."

I laughed softly, frowning at him. "Sad to say but that's all he is."

"I know," he replied before kissing me again. He moves himself towards me so I can feel his manhood that I don't know how big. Who knows right?

His hand began to crawl on my chest and again massaged it slowly. His other hand was behind me to support me as he raised his chin to caress it.

"Oh, ghad!" I said in shock as he bit my neck and sucked it.

"I just left a mark."

I was stunned by what he said and was about to speak when he lifted me up a little and kissed my chest even though there was a cloth covering it. His two hands went to my buttocks to lift me. So I adjusted and immediately knelt down on the chair so that he could kiss my chest properly.

As a result, he removed one of his hands that was holding me and used it to remove the zipper of my dress. He acted quickly so my chests were quickly exposed to him. I grabbed his hair as he dipped his face into my chest and started kissing it. He's like a kid who hasn't eaten for a few days with the sucking he does on one of my chest.

I was even tweaking his hair when I felt his finger curl around the outside of my underwear. It was as if it was tempting me with what he was doing to my womanhood. He took turns sucking my chest as if there was no tomorrow. As for me, I only hold tight every time he does something that arches my body.

Am I still right to let him? Ghad.

"Chard..." I moaned his name as he inserted his finger inside my panty. He inserted his two fingers into it that caused my eyes to shut close.

He started to put his finger in and out of me, which made me close even more. "Call my name Miriana."

My body moved spontaneously to meet his finger inside my panty and just ignored what he just said.

"Shit, Richard..."

"That's right Miriana..." he said before making his fingers accelerate into mine which I was meeting.

This is my first time but I don't know why my body knows it like this is not my first time and I'm doing this with my friend. Is it because of the alcohol or because I want it to?

"Why did you stop?" I disappointedly said when he removed his finger from me.

He smirked, "I should taste it first."

I watched him as he put the finger he used on me into his mouth as if he was tasting food while staring at me.

"As expected... it tastes perfect," he said as he continued to suck his finger.

After that, he kissed my chest before lifting me up and sitting me back on the chair. He removed a few bottles from the table which he had set down on the chair. Then he kissed me before being lifted to sit on the empty table. He put my dress back on and made sure it was properly zipped.

"Let me fix your dress."

While he was doing that, he didn't stop kissing my shoulder which made my eyes close.

"Can you spread your legs for me, Miriana?"

I obeyed what he said and waited for him to take his next step. He sat down in the chair and I approached him. He grabbed my two thighs and opened them even more. He looked at it for a moment before starting to bring his head closer to me. I cling to the table when his lips make contact with my femininity covered by panties.

"Ah... please..." I muttered as he kissed it like it was just my mouth. Even if there was an obstacle for him to continue eating my jewel, that did not become an obstacle for him to continue to claim it. I even brought myself closer to him when he put his hand in my panty.

"Shit Richard... stop," I said as if I couldn't stand the taste of his sinful mouth.

Instead of following what I said, I was shocked when I felt him tear my panties and kiss my jewel soaked in what he was doing. I would have been annoyed by what he did but that disappeared when he put his tongue in mine.

I hugged his head and scratched his hair because of the feeling that is new to me. "Ah... shit!"

It's a good thing the music is loud here in the bar so that others will not hear my growl because of this man.

"Hahaha! Of course--"

I opened my eyes to hear Dale's shrill voice and startled to look at him. He blinked a little when he saw Richard and I's position. So I pushed his head immediately and closed my two thighs. I can even see Richard holding my torn panty while wiping his mouth.

"You two are terrible! All right, just keep doing what you're doing. Enjoy," Dale said with a smile, winking at me before closing the curtain again.

I was speechless because of that and annoyed to look at Richard. I adjusted myself, I don't know how it's going to make me go home without panties. Gosh this man.

"Why did you tear my panties?"

For pete's sake! The slit of my dress is too high.

"Hmm... a souvenir?" he replied smiling, he even licked his lips while lifting my lace panty he was holding.

"Not funny." I folded my arms out of annoyance but the madman just laughed.

He winked before pocketing my panties he was holding, "Don't worry, I'll take the responsibility. Of course I won't let you be overlooked. You can wrap my jacket around your waist until you get home. I will accompany you to your home."

"And are you really going to take that home?" I said wryly pointing at my underwear he just put in his pocket.

"I told you, it's a souvenir. Come closer to me so I can clean you." He pointed mine using his lips which made me come closer to him and opened my two thighs again. He took wet wipes from Liana's bag and wiped them on me, after which he took a tissue to dry it.

"I was hanged but that's enough. Maybe someone else will see us. I can get another round--"

I slapped his arm but he just laughed at me.

He fooled me and I've been fooled.

Epilogue

When he stopped the car, he proceeded to remove the seat belt I was wearing.

"Richard..." I called to him without him even moving away after he removed the seatbelt.

He looked at me but on the other side of my face his eyes were focused.

"Can I take-out?" He brought his face even closer to mine but I just stayed in my position. This guy sometimes really annoys me. He looked up, that's why our eyes met.

"It's okay. But don't show up ever again."

I don't know but his eyes seem to be shining as he looks at me. Is this even possible in real life? Where can you see that his eyes shine like what I've read in books? Or am I just imagining things?

"In that case, I'll just take my take-out next time." When he pulled himself away, I silently got out of the car.

I was only taking a few steps when I stopped and faced his car. "Make sure you get home safely in case your take-out comes true."

A smile flashed on his lips.

Am I really drunk? Or am I possessed by someone? Gosh.