BABY DADDY

She is throwing something across the room again, what could it be this time around, maybe a bucket? Or one of the vases on the stool that she has broken and left only two out of the seven it was before

If I just have my way I will be out of this house every single morning, what is the benefit of being here all day when the noise won't make you have a peaceful day

''It's my fault, if I didn't have a very useless daughter who is nothing but worthless and so very useless then my life would have been better" there was another shattering sound and I closed my ears with my hands pressed on it

Having already turned my eyes from seeing her as she angrily destroys more things I didn't need to even hear the sounds anymore. It will torment me in the night I know. Clinging to the memory of when it was still peaceful I sat on the couch

''What are you doing there sitting idly you worthless child'' she is before me before I could even move my body, and I had to dodge a slap she sent my way falling on the floor

The look on her face is threatening, dead mean and I had to scramble from the floor to prevent another blow been sent my way

My legs are fast as I made for the kitchen jamming the door so tightly I locked myself in there. My heavy breathing slowed, my eyes fluttering close as I whiled the tears to go away. The pounding on the door started, accompanied by so many swear words that I block my ear from hearing

It's been like this for two years now. Anytime I lose a job that had me going for a while she becomes all crazy castigating me and cussing me out

I graduated with good honors in Architecture, having deceived my mother that I was studying Pharmacy and she became all crazy about it. She let me graduate in peace and afterward I couldn't find a job that has anything to do with my course of study and that made her crazier

What does it feel like to be a disappointment to your entire family? Cause I Joseph Sarang have been nothing but. Graduated about 3 years ago and instead of being the apple of my parent's eyes and being the best sibling, at 24 am still living off them no matter the kind of work I seek out for it always ended with me being dropped

The pounding on the door eased, but I will be a fool to open the door. She is still standing there waiting for me to attempt to open it. The tears I have been holding drop from my eyes. I didn't want this, didn't want this life but what can I do?

Imagine going for an interview and not being granted the job even when you are worth it cause you are a female and young too. This has been my fate for a very long fucking time and I am tired of it

''Sister Sarang you can come out she has gone to her room'' a tiny voice said to me

I open the door slowly, then peek outside and only spotted my little sister Josephine. Her sweet adoring eyes she uses to stare at me has now turned pitiful and I felt like crying as I look at her

Young petite, with full black hair that needs my breading, her eyes are warm pitiful, and hurt as they stare at me. I use to be the apple of her eye, someone she adores so much but at fourteen can I still be a that big sister?

The thought flew off my mind as she hugs me. She may be fourteen but she's towering over my 5 ft 6. I held onto her as she embraces me more tightly

''It will be fine Sis'' she says in her comforting voice

If only things were that easy then everything will fall into place. She eases off the hug and handed me a key

''She dropped it while hitting on the door'' I collected my room key from her and thanked her very much before matching to my room

Tears wailed in my heart as I look at how shattered my entire room is. She's turned it upside down scattering every single thing she comes in contact with. Closing the door noiselessly I locked it sliding down till am on the ground

When will this be over, when will this whole life which is nothing but a pure mess be all over? If I just find a job and move away from this god-forsaken house then my life may have lead

I could hear my ringing somewhere in the room. I didn't have much strength in me but decided to move my body as I went in search of my phone. It's under the bed having fallen from the bed stand I kept it. The screen made me chock another cry, shattered and cracked.

I am surrounded by the cry and tears I've been holding all morning, why will my mother hate me because I have no job, does it even make sense? Till now my father cannot speak against the ill-treatment she has been melting onto me for 2 years now.

At first, it was easier for us to accept she was angry because I didn't study Pharmacy since she said it brings lots of money and then it becomes suddenly entirely different, more hatred and wickedness I never thought her of having

Is she even my mother? That thought made me laugh cause hey no matter what I still have her features, all tall and skinny with sizeable boobs and ass.

I may not be the best looking but I know I am beautiful, have always known cause my mother is the definition of beautiful.

Yet knowing she is my mother and treats me this way is the most painful feeling. She wasn't like this and has never been but I will take whatever she brings with her until things get better, cause I know things definitely will

''I've marked out these places and they are not offering anymore'' I say frustratingly to my friend Paula. She sat down beside me pulling out another newspaper. My eyes shine out in gratitude as I thanked her with a hug

''What could I have done without you'' I beamed at her taking my phone and dialing tons of numbers yet again

After last morning event, it would be foolish of me to sit down and be waiting for those companies I have applied my credentials to. I knew within my heart that I needed to leave the house often, at this point I am very much desperate for anything

''It would have been fun to see you with a bandage over your head'' she says laughing as she starts speaking to the phone

Paula will always try to make light of every fight I have with my mother, her words are that these fights are so very unpredictable and my mom has to be a normal mother if she is causing fuse about my unemployment 'This thing happens in every single home, yours is worst cause you didn't study what she expected you to' she always tells me and no matter how I think about it, it doesn't make sense in anyway

As a mother, isn't she supposed to be patient with me as I walk my way through the labor market, ahhh there is no petting wherever she is concerned

Another look at Paula and I know ''they are not available too?" she shook her head

''Am afraid so'' she say slowly ''Look we will figure something out okay?"

Till when? I thought, next time I ever think of dishing a meal from this house she will probably toss me into the river

''You are just too worried for your own good, put these things off your mind, it's that easy'' she says in her comforting voice

Paula is someone I have known all my life, probably from the day I was born. We've been there for each other at our worst. She is plumb and maybe in some people's book she is short but has a catchy figure and her smile is to die for

She carries herself like a goddess and at the early stage teenage stage of our life I was very jealous of her. Now she all fazing over me and tell me how spectacular I am but I know she is one of the best things that have happened in my life

''You know what?'' she drops the newspaper standing up ''this is not working, let's forget about this for now trust me the mood is so fucking off''

She is right, with my sulky mood there is no way in heaven this will work plus my bad luck of calling an entire newspaper without having an opening has rubbed off this very one

''You are right, what do you want to do, watch some movie?" I suggested and she laughs

''E be like you no too like yourself, once she hears the sound of your room TV your own don finish''

I laugh as she says this, she is very correct. My mother is probably lurking around with her hand folded on her back as she walks around the house with her head held up high looking for one disturbing I might do which includes eating her meal

''You are right, I can't believe I didn't think of that. Now what?"

''Very easy. Let's go out, take a stroll together and talk. It will help to calm your nerves down'' she suggested

I took her idea, stood up and started dressing. Wore a black huggy leggings and a black tank top that lays low showing my lower abdomen. Quickly I was done as I wore a flip flop

''Always the master at been fast, any company you work with will be so lucky'' she teased and a smile tug to my lips as I accepted her words

If only such time will come as quickly as I wish it to be then I will be very happy right now. She stands and we left the room walking to the living as we made for the exit

Mother is sitting on a chair outside the house, she spotted me immediately and the look she gave me can freeze anybody to death. Having already gotten used to those looks before I looked away concentrating on where I was walking to

''Good evening mom'' Paula greeted her bending low on her knees

She smiled so lovingly with her and utter adoration ''Good evening my daughter how are you''

''I am fine ma'' she responded

''Alright my good child, don't forget to greet your mother for me when you get home and tell her I will see her tomorrow as schedule'' she said to her

''I will'' we started walking away

''That is some responsible child'' my mother said in a high pitched voice ''She has her own business and striving very well, not some useless child of mine who is nothing but a waste of money and space. I blame her father for making me waste my money''

I closed my eyes tightly as more of her insults are been hurled at me. 'Am use to it' I tell myself there is no way those words should still have any effect on me. But am only deceiving myself because they still do

''Do not listen to her, you are the most intelligent person I know, definitely not worthless in any way'' Paula said holding my hand as the words spilling from my own mother become distant

''I would do anything to get myself a good job right now, I am fucking tired of all this'' I say in a bitter tune

''We will figure something out'' she assures me, like she always does when things take an ugly head start

Why can't I just receive a good phone call, a call back from all those companies I've applied to. Am fucking tired and very exhausted but I believe it will get better someday

A distant ringing interrupted the dream I was having, groaning I press a pillow over my head closing my eyes tightly. The ringing stopped and I sigh in joy relaxing over my sleep again

I probably wouldn't go back to my dream land where everything is okay and I have the most perfect job as an architecture, but then even if I wouldn't dream anymore not having anywhere to go I will just keep sleeping

The ringing started again and with a groan I reach out my hand to take my phone cause that is definitely my ringtone. With a hand stretched out I searched for the phone of my side table but nothing came into hand, where the hell is that goddamn phone

Flinging away the bed cover and pillow at once I sat up cleaned my eyesight and started looking for my phone. Not seeing it on the table as the ringing had already stopped and there was no way to search for it right now. The phone just want me to wake up early than scheduled

The ringing started again and I jump in happiness bending down and finding my phone under the bed where it was ringing

''What the hell?" I grab the phone cleaning it with my dress as the caller ends the call.

I had to repair it almost a week ago after the fight with my mother. She has been pretty silent since then and only but tolerates me. That doesn't mean she doesn't hurl insults at me at every giving opportunity

I shouldn't think about that right now, I should call back who ever had the decency of calling me thrice. I sat back on the bed, unlocking the phone, seeing the caller I smiled and dialed the number

''Three goddamn times'' was the first thing she said as soon as she picked up

''I know I know, I was sleeping and its still very much early you know that'' taking the phone off my ears I look at the time. It's exactly 5:27 am. I mean who calls by that time of the morning. Umm that should be Paula

''I had a news I couldn't wait till morning to share with you'' she said excitedly and my heart started racing

''What sort of news'' I ask quietly

''Oh trust me the one you will love'' it's like she is jumping excitedly where she is, I do not know what she means by that or what sort of news she is talking of but am suddenly curious to know

''Then spill and stop keeping me in suspense'' she laughs loudly then kept quiet for a while, oh well, she is always super dramatic in moments like this. I almost groan out loud with frustration before she started speaking

''So a friend of mine told me about a job, it's actually really good and pricey too. They pay really well. It may not be your type of work considering your credentials but its too good''

''Are you going to tell me what this job is about or are we going to keep waiting?" she laughs at my impatience then continue

''So basically this has to do with working in a hotel, like you know the regular thing, cleaning managing and all that stuffs. Listen before you start groaning and all that this is really good and they pay so well. It's not your usual poverty stricken hotels, this is where the big fishes lounge. Trust me its that good. am thinking of quitting my job to apply'' I knew she was joking, she loves her job too much to quit

''Anyways so what is this price that makes it all good'' I ask her

''Hmm that is 120 dollars a month, if you convert it to our currency according to their payment method that is exactly 75,000 every month just imagine''

For someone who made 20,000 at the last place I work with and the highest I've made so far is 30,000 I am suddenly been convinced without having any other conviction.

''Before you start making your decision, just remember less seeing your mother, more money in your account that you could safe and you could even run into someone that has to do with what you studied and you could pitch those ideas to him. Think about it''

Am totally sold, I do not even need to hear another reason as to why I should take this job, this may not be IT for me but it still goes a long way of making me take that bold step I have been dreaming about

''No wonder you are a marketer, you have me totally hooked'' I say to her and she laughs

''Trust me I am the best at what I do'' that is very true, her words changes people's decision as soon as she starts speaking, she is that good

''Now what cause I am not missing this opportunity'' I can feel her grin all the way from here and tell her excited she is

''I will tell him about it and then your interview can be scheduled, oh trust me you are getting it though"

''Interview? For a cleaning job?" I say in disbelief, what they need that for

''You are joking right? You didn't hear the part I said the 'IT' in the world go there, like renowned people stay there maybe for a weekend visit in Nigeria, of course there is an interview''

If it's so then it makes me more sense that they will request for an interview, but then am not sure of getting the job anymore. I have a very bad history of falling back to back when it comes to job interviews and am sure it will rub off this one

''Before you start thinking of those bad history of yours with interview better just wait for it to be over first''

I smiled, she is not my best friend for nothing, babe can read my mind and mood like nothing dey happen. I assured her I wasn't thinking like that and she sighed, knowing that am lying

''Anyways, between tomorrow and the next I will let you know for your interview and yes I have already applied for you. Yeah hold you thanks'' and she ended the call

I hope I don't flop at this too.....