FIXED ON YOU
I FELT ALIVE.
The alternating flashes of dark and soft lights, the throbbing pulse from
an Ellie Goulding club mix, the movement of sweaty bodies dancing,
grinding, enjoying each other-The Sky Launch Nightclub got into my
blood and turned me on in a way that I hadn't let anyone or anything else do
in quite some time. When I was there-working the bar, assisting the wait
staff, attending to the DJs-I felt more free than at any other time of my
day. The club held magic.
And, for me, healing.
For all its vibrancy and life, the club was a safe haven for me. It was a
place I could attach myself without worry of going overboard. No one was
going to sue me for focusing too hard or long on my job. But rumor was
The Sky Launch, which had been up for sale for quite some time, was about
to be sold. A new owner could change everything.
"Laynie." Sasha, the waitress working the upper floor, pulled me from
my thoughts and back to my job. "I need a vodka tonic, a White Russian,
and two Butterballs."
"Got it." I pulled the vodka from the shelf behind me.
"I can't believe how busy we are for a Thursday," she said as I worked
on her order.
"It's the summer crowd. Give it a week, and the place will explode." I
couldn't wait. Summer at the club was a total blast.
"That's when things around here get fun." David Lindt, the general
manager of the club, joined our conversation, a sparkle showing in his eyes
as the bright white light that lit the bar illuminated his face.
"Real fun." I gave David a wide smile and winked while I placed the
drinks on Sasha's tray, my stomach tensing with a flicker of desire.
He answered my wink with one of his own, stirring the flicker in my
belly to a low flame.
David wasn't the love of my life-not even the love of the moment-
but his shared passion for the club sparked something in me. My interest in
learning more and moving up from bartending had seemed to interest him
as well. More than one late night of showing me the ropes had ended in
heavy make-out sessions. Though I hadn't been instantly attracted to him,
his small stature, curly blonde hair and blue eyes had grown on me. Also,
his keen business sense and exceptional management style were qualities I
required in a man. And, truthfully, the lack of effect he had on my emotions
provided half the draw. We had decent chemistry, but he didn't have me
freaking out all over him like I had over other guys. He was safe and solid
and that was my definition of the perfect man.
I rang up Sasha's order while David filled shot glasses-Todd's order, I
suspected, another waiter standing next to Sasha. David rarely stepped
behind the bar anymore, but we were short-staffed for the night and I
welcomed his help. Especially with the way we were picking up. A regular
and his friends had leaned against the bar waiting for my attention, and out
of the corner of my eye, I saw a suit taking a spot at the far end of the
counter.
I handed Sasha her ticket, but David stopped her before she could take
off. "Hold on. While there's at least a few of us here, I think we should toast
to Laynie." He passed around the shots he'd been filling. Tequila-my
liquor of choice.
I peered at him suspiciously. While it wasn't unusual to have a shot or
two while working a shift, it was always kept on the down-low, never in
front of our manager and certainly not at his encouragement.
"No worries," David said, bumping my shoulder with his. "It's a special
occasion."
With a shrug, I smiled and took the shot he offered me. "You're the
boss."
"We're too busy for a proper toast, so let's just say this is to Laynie.
We're proud of you, girl."
I blushed and clinked glasses as everyone around, including the regular
customer and his friends, shouted out "hear, hear" and "cheers."
"Woo hoo!" I screamed my own excitement. I'd worked hard to get my
degree. I was proud of myself too. I slammed the shot back, enjoying the
burn as it lined my throat and spread through my veins. "Goddamn, that's
nice!"
Aware that the crowd was getting antsy, Sasha took off with her order
while David filled Todd's. I turned my attention first to the regular, a guy
whose name deserted me. He leaned in to give me a hug, which I returned. I
might not remember him, but I knew how to earn my tips.
"Four of whatever's on tap," he said, raising his voice over the music
which seemed to have gotten louder in the last few minutes. "Where's
Liesl?"
I handed him his first two mugs and began work on the next two. "Since
she's covering all my shifts next week she has tonight off." That's right-
this was the guy that usually flirted with Liesl, another bartender.
"That's cool. So what are you doing on your vacation?" With Liesl not
around, Regular turned his charm on me. His eyes travelled to my breasts
that were admittedly hard to miss. Especially with my low-cut neckline. I
had some nice girls, who could blame me for showing them off?
"Absolutely nothing." I hoped my delivery sounded like I was looking
forward to my vacation. Truth was I'd taken the time off so I could go home
and spend time with my older brother. But only that morning, Brian had
called the trip off, saying that he was too swamped with work. He wouldn't
even be able to make it to my graduation.
I swallowed the emotions that threatened to show on my face. On top of
being disappointed, I was terrified. Me with nothing to occupy my time was
not an attractive me. I'd almost told David several times to go ahead and
put me on the schedule, but every time I started, I felt like a total loser.
Maybe a week off would be good for me. I could handle it. Right?
Now wasn't the time to fret about the week to come. I finished the
transaction with Regular and slid down the bar to take care of the suit at the
end of the counter.
"Now what can I get...you...?" My words trailed off as my eyes met
the suit's, the air leaving my lungs, suddenly sucked out by the sight that
met me. The man...he was...gorgeous.
Incredibly gorgeous.
I couldn't look away, his appearance magnetizing. Which meant he was
exactly the type of man I should avoid.
After the numerous heartaches that had dotted my past, I'd discovered
that I could divide the men I was attracted to into two categories. The first
category could be described as fuck and forget. These were the men that got
me going in the bedroom, but were easy to leave behind if necessary. It was
the only group I bothered with anymore.
They were the safe ones. David
fell into this category.
Then there were the men that were anything but safe. They weren't fuck
and forget-they were, "Oh, fuck!" They drew me to them so intensely that
I became consumed by them, absolutely focused on everything they did,
said and were. I ran from these men, far and fast.
Two seconds after locking eyes with this man, I knew I should be
running.
He seemed familiar-he must have been in the club before. But if he
had been, I couldn't imagine that I'd have forgotten. He was the most
breathtaking man on the planet-his chiseled cheekbones and strong jaw sat
beneath perfectly floppy brown hair and the most intense gray eyes I'd ever
seen. His five o'clock shadow made my skin itch, yearning to feel the burn
of it against my face-against my inner thighs. From what I could see, his
expensive three-piece navy suit was fitted and of excellent taste. And his
smell-a distinct fragrance of unscented soap and aftershave and pure male
goodness-nearly had me sniffing at the air in front of him like a dog in
heat.
But it wasn't just his incomparable beauty and exquisite display of male
sex that had me burning between my legs and searching for the nearest exit.
It was how he looked at me, in a way that no man had ever looked at me, a
hungry possessiveness present in his stare as if he not only had undressed
me in his mind, but had claimed me to be sated by no one ever again except
him.
I wanted him instantly, a prickle of fixation taking root in my belly-an
old familiar feeling. But that I desired him didn't matter. The expression on
his face said that he would have me whether I wanted it or not, that it was
as inevitable as if it had already happened.
It scared the hell out of me. The hair on my skin stood up as witness to
my fear.
Or perhaps it rose in delight.
Oh, fuck.
"Single-malt Scotch. Neat, please."
I'd almost forgotten I was supposed to be serving him. And the idea of
serving him seemed so sexy, that when he reminded me of my job, I nearly
fell over myself to get his drink. "I have a 12-year-old Macallan."
"Fine." It was all he said, but the delivery in his low thick voice had my
pulse fluttering.
As I handed him his Scotch, his fingers brushed mine and I shivered.
Visibly. His eyebrows rose ever so slightly at my reaction, as if he were
pleased.
I jerked my hand back, tucking it against the bodice of my sheath dress
as if the fabric could erase the warmth that had already traveled from where
he'd touched me to the needy core between my legs.
I never brushed fingers with customers-why had I done that?
Because I couldn't not touch him. I was so drawn to him, so eager for
something I couldn't name that I'd take whatever contact I could get.
Not this again. Not now.
Not ever.
I moved away from him. Far and fast. Well, as far as I could get, curling
into the opposite corner of the bar. David could serve the guy if he wanted
anything else. I needed to be nowhere near him.
And then, as if on cue in the bad luck life I led, Sasha returned. "David,
that group in Bubble Five is harassing the waitress again."
"On it." He turned to me. "You can handle it for a minute?"
"I so got this." I so didn't have it. Not with Mr. Draw-Laynie-To-MeWhatever-The-Cost-To-Her-Sanity sitting at the end of the bar.
But my declaration was convincing. David slipped out from behind the
counter, leaving me alone with the suit. Even Regular and his friends had
joined a group of giggly girls at a nearby table. I scanned the dance floor
hoping I could attract customers by glaring at the sea of faces. I needed
drink orders. Otherwise, Suit might think I was avoiding him by hiding in
my corner, which, of course, I was. But, honestly, the distance between us
did nothing to dim the tight ball of desire rolling around in my stomach. It
was pointless avoidance.
I sighed and wiped down the counter in front of me, though it didn't
seem to need it, just to keep myself occupied. When I braved a glance over
at the hottie who had invaded my space, I noticed his Scotch was nearing
empty.
I also noticed his eyes pinned on me. His penetrating gaze felt more
than the typical stare of a customer trying to attract the bartender, but
knowing I had a tendency to exaggerate the meanings of other people's
actions, I dismissed the idea. Summoning my courage, I forced myself over
to check on him.
Who am I kidding? No forcing was necessary. I glided to him as if he
were pulling me with an invisible rope. "Another?"
"No, I'm good." He handed me a hundred. Of course. I'd been hoping
he'd give me a credit card so I could glean his name.
No, no, I was not hoping for that. I did not care for his name. Nor did I
notice that his left hand was absent of any ring. Or that he was still
watching my every move as I took the cash he'd given me and rung his
order into the register.
"Special occasion?" he asked.
I furrowed my brow then remembered he'd seen our toast. "Uh, yeah.
My graduation. I walk tomorrow for my MBA."
His face lit up in honest admiration. "Congratulations. Here's to your
every success." He raised his drink toward me and downed the final
swallow.
"Thank you." I was transfixed on his mouth, his tongue darting out to
clean the last drop of liquid off his lips. Yum.
When he set his glass down, I reached out my hand to give him his
change, bracing myself for the thrill of contact that would inevitably happen
when he took it from me.
But the contact never came. "Keep it."
"I can't." He'd given me a hundred. For one glass of Scotch. I couldn't
take that.
"You can and you will." His commanding tone should have rankled me,
but instead it got my juices flowing. "Consider it a graduation gift."
"Okay." His demeanor took away my will to argue. "Thanks." I turned
to stuff the money into my tip jar on the back counter, pissed at myself for
the effect this stranger had on me.
"Is this also a goodbye party?" His voice called from behind me,
drawing me back to face him. "I don't imagine you'll be using your MBA
to continue bartending."
Of course that's what a suit would assume. He was probably some
business type that shared the opinion of my brother-there were jobs worth
having and jobs for other people. Bartending was the latter.
But I loved bartending. More, I loved the club. I'd only started my
graduate work because I needed more to do. Something to keep me
"occupied" was what Brian had said when he offered to pay for my
expenses beyond what my scholarship and financial aid covered.
It was a good decision-the right decision since it essentially stopped
my life from spiraling out of control. For the past three years I'd thrown my
life into school and the nightclub. Problem was that graduation took most of
my preoccupation away. And now bogged down with student loans, I had to
figure out how to make ends meet without having to leave The Sky Launch.
But I had a plan. I wanted a promotion. I'd been helping with
supervisory duties for the last year, but had been unable to get an official
title since managers had to work full-time. Now that school was over, I was
available for more hours. David had been grooming me for the position.
The only wrinkle in my trajectory could be a new owner. But I wasn't going
to worry about that. Yet.
Explaining my intent to strangers was never easy, though. How wise
was it to use an MBA from Stern for a career in nightclub management?
Probably not wise at all. So I swallowed before answering the suit.
"Actually, I'd like to move up here. I love the nightclub scene."
To my surprise, he nodded, his eyes shimmering as he sat forward into
the bright white light of the bar. "It makes you alive."
"Exactly." I couldn't keep back my smile. How had he known?
"It shows."
Hot, rich, and in tune with me. He was precisely the kind of man that I
could obsess over, and not in the healthy way.
"Laynie!" The shout of the Regular from earlier drew me away from the
intense gray eyes of the stranger. "I'm out of here. Wanted to say congrats
again and good luck. And, hey, here's my number. Give me a call
sometime. I can help you occupy your week off."
"Thanks, uh," I read the name he'd written on the napkin he'd handed
me, "Matt." I waited until he'd walked away before tossing it in the trash
under the counter, catching the suit's eye as I did so.
"Do you do that with every number you receive?"
I paused. It wasn't like I hadn't hooked up with customers before, but
never with regulars. That was a rule. I didn't want to see them again. Too
much temptation to go crazy over them.
But I had no interest in having that conversation with the suit. And with
his eyes constantly on me, I finally believed that my attraction to him
wasn't one-sided. Not when he'd tipped me so generously. "Are you trying
to figure out if I'd throw away your number?"
He laughed. "Maybe."
His reaction made me smile and made the moisture between my thighs
thicken. He was fun to flirt with. Too bad I had to end it. I placed my hands
on the counter and leaned toward him so he could hear me better over the
music, trying not to delight in the searing look he gave my bosom as I did
so. "I wouldn't throw yours away. I wouldn't take yours at all."
His eyes narrowed, but the laughter from earlier still danced in them.
"Not your type?"
"Not necessarily." Pretending I wasn't attracted to him was futile. He
had to be aware of my reaction to him.
"Why then?"
"Because you're looking for something temporary. Something fun to
play with." I leaned even closer to deliver my punch line-the one that
would deter even the horniest of men. "And I get attached." I stood back up
to my full height so I could take in his reaction. "Now doesn't that just scare
you shitless?"
I'd expected to see panic flash through his face. Instead, I saw a flicker
of amusement. "You, Alayna Withers, do anything but scare me." But
despite his words, he stood, buttoning his suit coat as he did.
"Congratulations again. Quite an accomplishment."
I watched him for far too long as he walked away, more crestfallen
about his abrupt departure than I wanted to admit.
It took me a good five minutes after he left to realize I'd never given
him my name.
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CHAPTER TWO
"HAVE you met the new owner yet?"
I glanced up from my clipboard at Liesl's backside as she studied the
contents of the small fridge behind the bar, her cascading purple hair
dancing with her movements. My brow furrowed. I hadn't forgotten about
the new owner but had tried not to think about him, knowing I'd obsess.
Irritation at being reminded of him now filled my response. "When
would I have met him?" I hadn't been at the nightclub since my graduation
more than a week before.
Liesl closed the door to the fridge and shrugged. "I don't know. You
could have stopped by or something."
She knew me too well. I'd stopped myself several times that past week
from wandering over. It had been a battle, but I'd stayed away. "Nope.
Actually, I spent most of the week at a spa near Poughkeepsie."
"Well, la de da!" Liesl raised a studded eyebrow. "Did you win the lotto
when I wasn't looking?"
"Hardly. It was a gift from Brian." He hadn't bothered with a card, just
an envelope containing the train ticket and voucher for the resort delivered
to me by my doorman the morning of my graduation. It was thoughtful.
And so very unlike my brother. Maybe it had been his wife's idea.
"How...nice." Liesl detested Brian and never bothered to hide it. One of
the few people in my life who knew my history, she was fiercely loyal and
always on my side. My brother, not so much. That automatically put them
at odds.
"Don't sound so shitty. It was nice. I did a bunch of crap I'd never done
before-horseback riding, rock climbing. Tons of spa treatments-feel my
skin!" I held out my hand for her to feel. "My hands have never been this
soft."
"You're not kidding. Baby smooth."
"It was good for me. Really. Exactly what I needed. Relaxing but still
kept me preoccupied."
"Wow. Score one for Brian. Maybe he's finally growing up." Her voice
lightened. "And how was your time not at the spa?"
Miserable. The five days at the spa had been perfect, but after the trip
was over, I had to return to my real life, which meant an empty apartment
and a mind that refused to stop working. "I'm glad to be back, if that's what
you're asking. And I may have four or five files of new ideas for the club."
She laughed. "Hey, at least that's healthy obsessing."
I smiled sheepishly. "Healthyish." I searched for the Skyy Vodka that
my report said should be on the shelf and marked its presence on my paper
when I found it. There were benefits to an active mind. I always had perfect
inventories and flawless presentations. It was in relating with people-men,
to be precise-that obsessing had its disadvantage.