Beginning
"Oh my goodness! This is exactly what I've been saying!" Mikan said, annoyed. "Why do you still refuse to break up with that Jiro? What does he have?"
"M, it's normal for lovers to have disagreements," I replied calmly.
"K, he's always the one causing issues. Aren't you tired of it?" Selena asked me. I shook my head. "I understand him, girls. Sometimes I'm moody too. Maybe his temper just flared up at the wrong time."
I've been defending Jiro to them since we started dating in my second year of high school, and now we're in our fourth year of college. We had another argument recently, and I've been apologizing to him since the other day, even though I didn't know what I did wrong. But he hasn't been answering any of my texts or calls.
So tonight, even though I didn't want to go with them to the Spade Club, I had no choice because they dragged me along. I just hope Jiro doesn't find out about this because he doesn't like it when I go clubbing without him. It might make him even angrier.
"I think there's nothing we can do about Kylie. She's head over heels for Jiro," Ariana said. Ariana isn't this quiet usually when she's drunk. They all laughed while I forced a smile. Go ahead, laugh at me, but when you fall in love, I'll be rolling on the floor laughing.
"Alright, cheers to Kylie's love madness," Mikan raised her shot glass, and A and S followed suit, while I watched them. I just sighed. "Hey! K, don't be a killjoy. Come on, raise your shot glass!" Selena shouted at me because the music was loud in the Spade Club. It was already ten in the evening.
I joined them for a cheer, and they kept ordering different drinks from the menu. "We're not going home until we've tasted all the drinks," Selena said, sounding intoxicated. The other two nodded and signaled the waiter again until...
The three of them stood in front of me while I was the only one sitting on the sofa, and they pulled me up. "Oh no! If having a boring boyfriend is like this, I don't want it anymore!" Selena exclaimed.
"Me too! Kylie is becoming a killjoy! She should run for President of the Killjoys! Haha!" Ariana replied.
"Stop being so prudish, Kylie! Come on, let's dance! It's a rare occasion!" Mikan said, and they all pulled me along. But because they were drunk, they all fell on me, and they found it hilarious, so I ended up laughing too.
"You're going to dance even if you're acting cute!" Selena shouted at me, and she laughed with joy while we were on the dance floor. Even though she couldn't see my annoyance, I still rolled my eyes. They called me cute.
The DJ played the popular song "Twerk It Like Miley," so I looked over at the DJ booth, and there was Mikan twerking! Damn, this girl has an even wilder side! Then I looked at Selena and Ariana, who were facing each other, with their tongues out, and jumping around like crazy.
We had been dancing for a while, and I had been drinking various alcoholic beverages, so when I stopped jumping like S and A, I suddenly felt dizzy. We were in the middle of the dance floor, and I had nothing to hold onto. I was about to fall when...
Someone's hands caught me. He turned me to face him, and I could smell his masculine cologne despite the mix of scents in the club-smoke from cigarettes, alcohol, perfumes, marijuana, and who knows what else.
"Are you okay?" His voice was sexy, and he smelled so good. I felt like he was kissing my ear, and I couldn't help but touch his broad chest. Does he have abs? Hihi!
I nodded because I felt like I would vomit if I spoke. "Wanna go somewhere?" he asked me again. Where are we going? I didn't know why, but it's like my mind had a will of its own, and I kept nodding along.
I felt his kiss on my ear, which sent shivers down my spine, but I quickly stopped him even though I enjoyed what he was doing. Until we reached a red Chevy, and he leaned me against it, bringing his face close to mine.
He kissed me! This isn't my first kiss, but it's the first time I've been kissed by a guy I don't even know or recognize, but I don't care. When he bit my lower lip, I gladly opened my mouth so he could enter with his tongue, and believe me when I say he's a really good kisser.
I kissed him back without thinking twice, without thinking about Jiro. Jiro? I suddenly stopped kissing him and gently pushed him away.
I saw the confusion on his face. I shook my head. "This is all wrong," I said to him before quickly entering the Spade Club to find Mikan and invite her to go home.
To be continued...
Chapter 1
"Kylie, will you stop crying?! You know it wasn't intentional, and nobody else knows about it except the four of us!" Selena shouted at me. We were in my room, and I had just told them about my mistake with Jiro.
Remember last night, I kissed a guy that I just met, and I don't know him, I don't even remember his face! Because I was so drunk, the only thing I remember is that kiss with the mystery guy. I feel so guilty because I cheated on Jiro.
Speaking of him, I've been trying to call him since this morning, but he hasn't been answering. It's been four days. Could my mistake really be that significant to cause him to ignore me for this long?
"We were also drunk last night, and Troy just told me that he saw me twerking, and he thought it was so sexy. So I called him and yelled at him." Mikan held her head while saying that. I wanted to tell her that I just found out about her wild side last night, but I wasn't in the mood.
"I wasn't even that drunk last night, but I can't believe I kissed Ariana!" Selena shouted in frustration while chewing her bubble gum. I saw Ariana roll her eyes at her and continued texting. She went back to her usual self, not saying a word.
I hung my head as my tears kept falling. I really miss Jiro so much. "But even though he doesn't know, I still cheated on him. I really feel sorry about it." My phone rang, and it was from Ariana.
'You really love him? Do you? Well, in my opinion, you didn't really cheat. It was all just a mistake, just forget about it.' Mikan and Selena read the text, and they both nodded in agreement with A's message.
"And besides, if it weren't for him, you wouldn't have been excluded from the club, and none of that would have happened. So Jiro is also at fault." Mikan said. "That's right, K. No one else knew about it except us, so stop crying and just forget about it." Selena suggested.
"Jiro wants an honest relationship, and I can't lie to him." They all looked at me, and my tears subsided. "W-what if I tell him about it?" I asked them, and their eyes widened.
"You're really out of your mind! If you tell him, he'll definitely get angry, and it might make things worse because you kissed someone! And it might lead the both of you to... break up." Selena's voice weakened when she said that.
"Are you even sure that he's being honest to you?" Ariana asked. Selena teased her, saying that she leveled up because she actually spoke instead of texting. I suddenly asked myself, am I even sure?
I can't talk to him now because he doesn't want to talk to me. I don't even know what he's doing or where he's been for the past four days. I have his friends' numbers, but I'm too shy to ask them about Jiro. I don't want them to think I don't trust their friend, and I definitely don't want Jiro to think I don't trust him.
I didn't answer Ariana's question, and I denied Jiro's number, but this time it said that his line was busy. Is he talking to someone else on the phone? I don't want to suspect! I don't want to think that he's with someone else or any other negative thoughts because I'll just cry over it.
Maybe he's just talking to his mom on Viber because she's in another country, yes, that's it! It's just his mom! "Kylie, are you okay?" I looked at my three friends who were also looking at me with concern. I nodded.
"Girls, I think I need to loosen up. Maybe that's why he's not answering my texts or calls because I'm not giving him space. Maybe he needs space, but he can't say it to me, which is why he's not texting or calling. Maybe that's why our disagreement has lasted four days."
I wiped away my tears that kept flowing. Even though I didn't want to, even though I felt upset, I'll do it because maybe that's what he needs... space.
"Let's go back to the Spade Club tonight?" I asked them, getting up from my bed. I need to freshen up. I'll never know, maybe Jiro really misses me, and because he misses me so much, he'll come to my house.
"Are you sure, K?" Mikan asked, worried. I nodded. "This is what I want... for now. Maybe I also need some space, but after tonight, I'll go to Jiro's house and talk to him. I love him so much, and I'll fix this. But for now, I really need to loosen up."
I went to the glass wall of my room where I could see my reflection, and I smiled bitterly. "I looked like sh*t." I laughed softly. My hair was a mess, like it went through a storm, my PJs were wrinkled, and I had dried saliva at the corner of my lips. My face felt sticky from my tears. I had dark circles under my eyes from lack of sleep. I didn't want Jiro to see me like this, so I quickly went to the bathroom.
We arrived at the Spade Club exactly at nine pm, parking Ariana's SUV in the same spot where the guy with the red Chevy parked. Suddenly, my heartbeat quickened as I remembered.
I couldn't help but ask myself if I would see him tonight. Or was that night the last time we would see each other?
To be continued...
Chapter 2
"We're even drunk last night and Troy just told me that he saw me twerking last night and he finds it so sexy, that's why I called him and cursed him." Mikan was holding her head while saying that.
I wanted to tell him that I just found out last night that he's my wild side but I'm really not in the mood.
"I am not really that drunk last night but I can't really imagine that Ariana and I kissed!" Selena yelled in annoyance as she chewed bubble gum, I saw Ariana stare at her and continue texting. He is now back to his old self, not speaking anymore.
I bowed down because my tears started falling again, I really miss Jiro. "But even if he didn't know I still cheated on him. I'm really sorry about it." My phone rang and it was from Ariana.
'You really love him? Do you? Well, for me you didn't really cheat it was all just a mistake, just forget about it.' Mikan and Selena read it to me and they both nodded at A's text.
"Besides, if he didn't fight asana, we wouldn't have included you in the club and that wouldn't have happened, so Jiro is also at fault." Mikan said. "Yes of course K, it didn't hurt anyone besides the four of us, so don't be a kid, it's okay to cry and forget about it." Selena's suggestion.
"Jiro wants an honest relationship and I can't lie to him." They looked at me, my tears fell.
"W-what if I tell him?" I asked them and his eyes widened.
"You're really out of your mind! If you tell him this for sure he'll be angry and even if you say goodbye you might just get angrier because you kissed someone! And it might lead the both of you to.. break up ." S don's voice weakened as he said.
"Are you even sure that he's being honest with you?" Ariana asked. Selena even joked that she had leveled up because she spoke and didn't text. Suddenly I asked myself, am I even sure?
I can't talk to him now because he doesn't want to talk to me. I don't even know what he's doing and where he is for the past four days. His friends have my number but I'm too shy to ask them about Jiro, I don't want them to think that I didn't trust their friend, and I don't want Jiro to think that I don't trust him.
I didn't answer Ariana's question and I just dialed Jiro's number but this time his line told me it was busy. Is he talking to someone else on his phone? I don't want to doubt! I don't want to think that he is different from me or anything else negative because that will just make me cry.
Maybe it's just his mommy he's talking to on viber because she's in another country, that's right it's just his mommy! "Kylie are you okay?" I looked at my three friends who were also looking at me seriously but you could see in their faces that they were worried. I nodded.
"Girls, I think I need to loosen up. Maybe that's why Jiro isn't answering my texts and calls because I'm not giving him space. Maybe he needs space and he just can't tell me that's why he's not texting or calling me. Maybe that's why it took four days for us to meet."
I wiped my tears that fell one after another. Even if I don't want to, even if I feel bad, I will do it because maybe this is what he needs.. space.
"Let's go back to Spade Club tonight?" I asked them and then I stood up from my bed. It needs to be fixed, I'll never know maybe later Jiro will miss me and because he misses me so much, he will come to my house.
"Are you sure?" Mikan asked worriedly, I nodded. "This is what I want.. for now. Maybe I also need some space, but after this night I'll go to Jiro's house and talk to him, I love him so much and I'll fix it. But for now I really need to loosen up."
I went to the glass wall of my room where I could clearly see my reflection, I smiled bitterly. "I looked like sh.it" And then I laughed softly, my hair was messy as if it had been hit by a storm, my PJ's were tangled and my saliva was still smeared on the side of my lips, my face felt sticky because of my tears My dark circles are my eyes because of staying up late. I didn't want Jiro to see me like this, so I immediately went to the bathroom. At exactly nine pm we arrived at the Spade Club, where Ariana's SUV was parked right where the man parked my red chevy. Suddenly, my heart beat faster because of what I remembered.
I can't help but ask myself if I can see him here tonight? Or was that the last night we met?
"Hey! What are you staring at? Are you reminiscing about your kiss with the mystery guy?" I immediately pinched Selena's side when she said she was shocked. "Your mouth is really strong!" I told him and I put my arm around A who was just shaking.
We sat on the same sofa we were sitting on last night and then Mikan signaled the waiter to give us a menu.
"Oh girls! Don't try all their drinks, Mommy scolded me this morning because my credit card bill was so big!" Selena said loudly because it was already noisy inside.
As usual, there are a lot of people on the dance floor and they are all complaining about what you are doing. "Also, do you know that he took away two credit cards from me, I only have two credit cards."
"Haha! Poor kid! I'm fine, Mommy's okay." Mikan said. We ordered Jack Daniels and talked about not getting drunk but.. "Sh.it! I'm sick!" Mikan said and then she immediately stood up and went straight to the comfort room.