A Heart's Desire

Love when courting!

So the intellect stands with its hands tied!

After her fifth semester, she thought, there was a job advertisement and she should apply for it, and for that thought, she told Mr Ahmed that it was a good post and let her apply.

Mr. Ahmed picked up her documents and took them to the place where they had to apply, a lot of people were applying, while as usual in Pakistan, the seats were fewer and the candidates were more.

Tara was an intelligent and hardworking girl, this time she was engaged in the preparation very enthusiastically.

Her documents were cleared, and the date of the test came. Mr Ahmed got out of the car and left with her. Tara saw a dream of her father's name brightening and went for the test.

She was scared seeing all the crowd in the examination hall. Suddenly, seeing Mr Ahmed in the hall, she felt like the moon had come down from the sky, Overwhelmed by Father's love, this girl ran to him and said, "Baba, so much crowd"!There are all the people here, how can I win?"

Mr. Ahmed gave a wise answer and said, "My daughter is the best, she can beat everyone."

She sat on the seat and waited for her paper. She found the test very easy because Tara was accompanied by the prayers of her teachers, parents, and hard work.

In this way, Tara, dressed in a yellow scarf and black gown, solved the paper first and happily returned to her father.

On the way, father and daughter returned home talking a lot, they were happy.

In short, Tara passed all the tests, and now they were waiting for the final merit list. Mr Ahmed was satisfied and happy as Tara held the second position in the entire division.

After completing his education, Danesh was pushed hard for a job. One of his uncles was a friend of Mr Ahmed.

Once Mr Ahmed met Danesh, he found out that he needed help with a job, belonged to a very respectable family, and was a person of the best disposition even during this self-centered period. Danesh was a very noble boy and after meeting Mr Ahmed, he respected him a lot.

Mr Ahmed's personality included that he would do it honestly and sincerely when he walked with someone.

Mr Ahmed and Danesh became friends, Mr Ahmed tried as much as he could for the job of Danesh, but nothing came of it. But God never wastes hard work. Finally, Danesh got a job in a good place.

When Mr Ahmed came to know about this, he was happy and congratulated him.

Tara was busy with her work when Danesh's name flashed on the mobile screen. Tara had heard about Danesh from her father, she replied, Send the number of her father to Danesh, and blocked his number from her mobile.

Tara loved her parents very much, as a Muslim girl, she disliked talking to such impermissible men, so if any boy would message her, She would have blocked it because she knew that such relationships only lead to disgrace. Anyway, Tara wanted to marry according to her Father's choice. After all, her parents had fulfilled all her wishes and had the right to decide on her marriage.

Danesh called Mr Ahmed for some reason. The final merit list was about to be brought at that time, so Mr Ahmed told Danesh that Tara had applied for such a job, and her final result was about to come. He said for help that if any help is needed, he will tell him.

Despite doing this, Tara's name did not appear in the final merit list, perhaps it was written in her destiny.

That phase was quite difficult for Tara, Mr. Ahmed, and their entire family. Mr Ahmed ordered Tara to focus only on her studies thus, she started completing her 6th semester syllabus.

It was quite surprising news for Mr Ahmed to tell Danesh about Tara. He also told his family that Uncle Ahmed's daughter had applied for this post, he was impatiently waiting for the final list to see Is Tara's name appeared or not. When Tara was not selected, Danesh did not mention anything to Mr Ahmed again so that he would not feel sad.

The news of Israel's aggression on Palestine was spreading very fast. Since Tara was a serious and gentle girl. So, she could not tolerate such atrocities on Muslims, so she was equally supporting Palestine on all her social media accounts.

Danesh was also actively participating in the support of Palestine and he was seeing Tara's performance on all social media for Palestine. He was very surprised to see Tara's ideological attitude. He always wondered if today's girls can be so ideological, who think so seriously about a nation apart from just running a house. He was very impressed with Tara's effort.

Once a WhatsApp status of Tara forced Danesh to question, he messaged that this news was not official which was uploaded by Tara. And the debate started. Tara also stood her ground. Danesh was also sitting on heaps of proofs and arguments, then finally Danesh made his point clear to Tara and she apologized.

Thus, if there were any official news, Danesh would have sent Tara first but she always reacted with no interest. Besides this, he was trying it again and again and he had more respect for Mr Ahmed after talking to Tara.

Mrs Ahmed was a gentle as well as friendly woman with two daughters and three sons. As a mother, she used to be a friend with her children so that the children could share all their things with the mother and she could give them the best advice, while Mr. Ahmed was a bit strict person and he used strict behavior, believed that children should be given all comforts as well as education, training, and fear, otherwise they should not go on a wrong path due to today's culture.

Tara and Danesh talking like this made them very close to each other, they shared everything and found themselves complete in each other, forcing Tara to tell her mother everything. This was so that she wouldn't feel bad if she found out later.

Mrs. Ahmed was busy cooking dinner when Tara sat down next to her and said, "Mama, I need to talk to you about something".

Tara openly tells her mother everything about Danesh. After thinking for a while, Mrs. Ahmed said that she should not talk to him. If your dad finds out, he won't like it.

She understood that her mother did not feel right talking to Danesh, so she kept quiet.

After thinking for a long time, she decided that she would not talk to Danish anymore, gradually reduce contact with him, and then leave him altogether.

Danesh used to share some important news but Tara mostly ignored him so, a lot of time passed.

One day while scrolling through the TikTok app, she came across a clip of Danesh that he had made with his mother when he came home in uniform for the first time after getting a job his mother was hugging him and she was kissing his Forehead. He loved his parents very much and Danesh was a serious type of person.

She was watching this video again and again and felt the emotions of the mother and son. Tara also shared the clip with her younger sister and her mother.

Then she messaged Danesh for the first time and said "I have seen that clip of yours which is so heart-touching".

Danesh replied with a smile "I love my mom so much".

Tara wanted someone in her life who would understand her and love people like her and she was only seeing all these things in Danesh.

She became silent and stopped talking to Danesh.

He knew Tara didn't want to talk to him, but he wanted Tara to say, "Don't talk to me".

But Tara didn't want to embarrass Danesh by saying all this, she wanted Danesh to understand everything on her own, and step back, while he knew from Tara's words that the way he likes Tara, Tara also likes him. Both could not talk to each other.

Danesh also thought that his good relationship with Mr Ahmed would be damaged.

The surprising thing is that both wanted to talk to each other and also wanted to leave each other but both were unable to talk.

Both of them were knowledgeable and competent people.

Along with Danesh, she also shared her father's love that she loved her father very much. Tara's training and nature greatly influenced Danesh. He thought that such girls were rare.

"You are the daughter of a great father and possess very high thoughts, he always said to her, You live in this backward area and leave everyone behind because of your high and ideological thinking".

She replied, "I am their daughter, they are also such people".

His uncle's training greatly influenced Danesh. He used to tell Tara that your thinking determines your quality.

Tara didn't seem to say anything but she was deeply moved by the thought of Danesh in her heart, she always learned some lesson by talking to Danesh.

Danesh liked to listen to Tara's talk. He believed that Tara was a very innocent and honest girl, so he would share some news after every two to four days. If Tara answered, he would start talking and take her arguments.

As time went on, both became more and more influenced by each other's ideas and became closer.

It is in a woman's nature to learn a man's reality and his opinion about her from what he says. She knew that he was taking more interest in her now, Tara thought she should reduce talking gradually but people aren't always what they think.

Danesh had an elder brother and a younger sister in his family, while he was very attached to his mother. He often told Tara about his mother, her desire to meet Danesh's mother was growing.

Tara also shared everything about Danesh with her mother. Mrs. Ahmed once asked Tara to invite Danesh's mother for dinner, and Danesh was happy about this.

Tara always thought that it was wrong to talk to Danesh like this, "I have to stay away from all this so that Baba doesn't find out".

Danesh knew Tara very well. He felt Tara was confused and not happy either.

He asked, Tara! What's the matter? You are behaving very strangely today!

Tara avoids the conversation and says "I am not well".

Danesh sarcastically said, "Have you fallen in love with anyone as you're reacting like this?"

Tara was shocked and said, "It can't be, who am I going to love?"

This time Danesh came home on leave and went to Tara's house to meet Mr Ahmed.

It was a cold winter evening, Tara was engaged in her usual prayer when suddenly Rumi came running into the room and said Danesh had come to meet you.

Suddenly, Tara was shocked to hear Danesh's name and quickly got up and went to her room.

Mr Ahmed was happy to hear the name of Danesh and went to meet him.

Mrs Ahmed ordered Tara to make tea for the guests.

After talking for a long time, Danesh went to his home. Tara thanked Danesh for coming to our house and he was happy to meet Mr Ahmed.

He told his mother about Mr Ahmed and that I had gone to meet my uncle. Danesh often told his mother about Tara. And her mother would smile and go about her business because she knew that Danesh liked Tara.

Danesh's jokes would drown Tara in a sea of thoughts and she would think that Danesh was also thinking about her the same way as she was thinking.

The situation was obvious. They started liking each other very much but neither of them knew it. It was also in their hearts that if Mr Ahmed got the news of this incident, he would feel bad.

One day there was a fight and everything came out in the open on both sides.

There was an accident in Tara's life earlier which was related to Danesh's caste. One of the boys from the caste of Danesh took away Tara's cousin from home which had the biggest impact on Mr Ahmed's life. Tara's family was deeply shocked by this disrespect.

She said that Mr Ahmed will not have any relationship with Danesh's family, so she wants to separate from Danesh. Tara informs Danesh about the whole situation and says that because of this incident she ignores Danesh.

Danesh was not only listening to Tara's words, but he was also feeling Tara's long and deep sobs while talking. She had cried many times, her words were telling that she didn't want to lose Danesh but she didn't want to hurt her father in any way.

Seeing Tara talking with incomplete thoughts, Danesh said, "Two incomplete thoughts combine to create one perfect thinker"

Tara replied that a complete thought is necessary when we want to be together for the rest of our lives, while we will not be together forever.

She silenced Danesh, he wanted to say I always want to walk with you but seeing Tara already sad, he was silent.

Then the talks continued, and for some time both remained silent.

Danesh could not see Tara upset so he was forcing her to tell what was in her heart so that her heart's burden would be lightened.

When the matter came out in the open, Danesh said that he also respected Mr Ahmed a lot and was afraid that he would feel bad if he found out about it. When we first talked, he didn't know you were Tara, or he wouldn't have continued the conversation when I talked to you, you seemed like the kind of person he only thought about. He said that such people exist in thoughts but not in reality. He was expressing while talking that I do not know Whether I say it or not, but what I said is in my heart, I want to put it on my tongue, "Tara! You are exactly the kind of girl I used to see in my thoughts If you walk with me, I will include you in my life".

Tears were welling up in Tara's eyes and she could feel Danesh's true emotions. Danesh was constantly being talked down to, giving several arguments and he was crying like a baby trying to get a toy again and again.

Tara just said, "You deserve my father's friendship and my love".

Tara was so strong with all the evidence arguments and feelings of Danesh. She said it was important to clear it all up because we were getting so close to each other.

Danesh said, we have become close, I felt many times from your words that you like me and know me more than I do. I also know the state of your heart from your words and tone, That was when we became close!

And now the solution is either stay together forever or separate forever even in separation there will be no more peace just a prick!

Tara had decided that she would end everything, so she insisted that we would never talk after today.

Danesh was listening to everything silently, he was crying in his heart, but he was saying "Always be happy Baba's princess, you are a strong person".

Tara says that Baba said not to meet while leaving, and these words hit Danesh like a dagger, he gives Tara 24 hours to think more and leaves on her own.

But at that time of night, Danesh ran away, leaving her in the lurch, and he could no longer watch Tara walk away from him.

Tara came back and lay on her bed and thought for a long time.

Tara's heart was beating in the name of Danesh and his voice was echoing in her ears. She was constantly thinking about Danesh.

On the other hand, Danesh left in front of Tara but after Tara left he came to the same place and he was moaning continuously.

Maybe for the first time in my life, Danesh had fallen in love and found a person whom his heart loved, but that person did not want to stop near him.

Danesh was crying and praying that Tara was the best partner for me. So, "O God! Put love for me in her heart and return me as same as she wants to leave".

The restless night of two such entangled people passed and the morning dawned.

Danesh had given Tara 24 hours while Tara was adamant about her decision that I should not live with Danesh.

Asking how the night went, Tara said that she couldn't sleep all night and was thinking a lot, so Danesh said that I fell asleep early, while that night he was worried about her that's why, he couldn't sleep all night too, Danesh didn't want to disturb Tara, so he wasn't telling her anything.

Tara asked what is your decision regarding our relationship now, Danesh became silent and said what is written in my destiny is my decision!

Danesh explained that you did not sleep all night because of this worry and now you want to leave forever, how will you stay?

He was saying that decisions are taken calmly, decisions are not taken in haste, you are just being stubborn, so suddenly I can't stop talking, but she was sitting on the same thing, telling him that she don't want to talk to him anymore.

Danesh repeatedly asked Tara why she was doing this, Tara said we can't have any relationship, I can't marry your family!

Danesh said I don't care what people say. Uncle knows me, so why is it not possible to meet you?

But that crazy girl was saying only one thing she can't live with him, go away from her life.

Tara said my destination is very big, I have to leave many people like you along the way to reach my destination. Danesh praised Tara and said that "You will reach your destination and you are a brave person, but the journey of life is never complete alone, you always need some partner".

It was clear that he didn't want to lose Tara but she wasn't willing to stay with him. Danesh was feeling helpless.

Tara replies that I have my father and I don't need anyone in his presence. After my father, only the person whom my father likes and whom I will marry will follow me. All of Tara's words make upset him.

Finally, he asks what is your ultimate goal, Tara says"I want to make my father's name famous, I want to do CSS and grow a lot with my hard work. I want to take the name of my father to the heights of heaven with hard work".

Danesh became silent and said there was still time for you to think but Tara didn't want to think about anything, she just wanted to go.

Finally, Danesh shook his head and said, "Okay, as you wish, I will not stop you, you have given your own decision as a judge, you are acting as a lawyer and I am in front of you as a criminal".

Tara was very embarrassed as she said "Okay! You can decide what you want to do but your words are saying that you don't want to lose me".

Tara's eyes were wet after hearing this and Danesh nodded his head in yes.

Danesh said, "I am 25 years old, I have never felt so weak and helpless, I want to sit in the corner and start crying".

Does Tara criticize Danesh for wanting to console him how can you be so weak for an ordinary girl?

Danesh said, "When one jumps into the soul and begins to feel in the veins, then a person becomes weak".

Danesh's words were embedded in her soul and she felt frail.

Danesh said If Tara wanted, he could have convinced Mr Ahmed and his family then they would have married honorably. Tara also wanted the same, but she knew Danesh could not have a relationship with her family.

The discussion continued for a long time.

Danesh was talking continuously and Tara was burning with fever, Tara suddenly cried and said now if you say anything to me, I will kill you while crying she hugged Danesh in imagination.

Tara's words and innocence were touching the soul of Danesh, he was also crying but was consoling Tara by hiding his tears. Seeing the situation, Danesh could not stop his heart and expressed his love.

"He said, Tara! I don't know when or how you entered my soul but I do know that I love you very much".

Words of Danesh turned Tara into stone. She couldn't tell, she couldn't even say hide me in his arms and she fell at his feet crying, but all she could say was never to see or talk to me again, not even try.

Their intense love had robbed them of their peace, they couldn't imagine living without each other.

The next day, Danesh also asked about Tara's condition. Tara got very angry and said get out of my life, you ruined my peace of mind, Danesh wanted to explain to her that such relationships don't end, it takes time, and you are in a hurry, but she didn't agree. She didn't want to hear anything, she knew that the more time she gave to this relationship, the more problems she would face, but Danesh didn't back down.

Expressing his true feelings, when Tara is not ready to listen to him, Danesh breaks down, Tara feels that Danesh is getting very weak, she can't see Danesh getting weak like this.

In short, Tara became weak, Tara fell and Danesh's true feelings won, Tara comforted Danesh by saying I am with you, I want to be with you, Tara's words got embedded in Danesh's soul and he broke into a sweat.

Danesh's love and prayers had changed Tara's decision but she was still adamant that our meeting was impossible. Similarly, as time passed, the love deepened and both of them began to see their future bright in the fantasy world.

Tara and Danesh had not seen each other physically to date, they only met each other on social media and they never met face to face.

Danesh was a handsome person. In his rescue uniform, he looked like the prince of an empire with a faint smile on his lips. Tara thought that Danesh was a perfect person in every way, she often called Danesh "Prince".

On the other hand, due to her innocence and ideological thinking, Tara also seemed different to Danesh from the rest of the world. Tara's thick eyes were adorable.

She became very calm with Danesh, but when she saw her baba she got shy, often thinking that Baba had too much trust in her and she was getting close to Danesh behind his back. She panicked again.

She used to get scared and then tell Danesh that it is not right for us to talk like this, she felt very guilty.

Danesh said, that now he can't talk to his family about Tara as they have to build a new house before his marriage and now he is not financially stable.

So, Tara decided to stay away from each other and both of them did not talk to each other but sometimes they would take stock of the situation and also told them that she would do CSS after completing her studies. He wants to fulfill Tara's dreams.

Now it was that they did not talk to each other every day, but sometimes they started to talk, but this did not last long, because whenever they talked, it was not known how time passed.

Holding hands, they would go far into the world of fantasy and talk about love till late at night.

The parrot color was the favorite color of Danesh. Tara wore parrot-colored bangles this time and applied henna on her hands for the first time perhaps for Danesh and he kissed her hands in imagination.

He was very happy that Tara was doing so much for him, Tara's love was getting deeper in his heart of Danesh.

Tara had a younger sister Soni who was a college student.

One day, Danesh talks to Soni, Danesh asks about Tara and she says Tara is mentally disturbed and doesn't take care of her health. Mama worries about her a lot. Soni was very worried. Hearing this, Danesh's eyes became wet. Soni also said, Tara used to be fine, but ever since Danesh came into her life, she had been confused. Our parents will not agree with Danesh and Tara's relationship.

Danesh was very upset after hearing all this. He understands that Tara is happy in front of him, but in reality, she is not. Danesh told Soni that for the first time in his life, he has found someone of his quality so he doesn't want to lose Tara and is trying his best to get her. He was worried, he didn't want to lose Tara at any cost, but after listening to Soni, he got worried about Tara.

It was the night of 31st December, Tara was thinking that either she would start the new year with Danesh or she would free herself from Danesh's love tonight. Danesh was thinking that Tara would not be able to live without Danesh even after going through so much trouble.

In his imagination, he wanted to take Tara away from the whole world in his arms. She kissed Danesh's wet eyes and freed herself, she wanted to go but Danesh's love again held her to his chest and Tara forgot everything and fell asleep in Danesh's embrace.

It was a strange scene, both of them were caught in each other's breath, but how long could they live in the world of fantasy?

How cruel the real world is, it does not allow two true hearts to live together.

Tara never revealed how much she loves Danesh, but she always said that she doesn't love Danesh, she just respects his true feelings.

On January 1st, Tara once thought we'll see what happens, but for the whole year, she will never leave Danesh. She knew that no one could give her as much love as this forgetful person did.

On the other hand, that's what he was thinking.

"We will see the beauty of your eyes! Waking you up from a rough sleep".

He used to say "Anyone can enter my heart but Tara you have entered my soul, I will enslave myself if you are sincere".

Their heart desired to "become one".

But unfortunately, some desires remain only desires.