A BROKEN MARRIAGE

"Enough! I'm tired of your explanation!" Bella shrieked sharply, challenging his face in front of her husband. The husband began to harden his jaw. Bella put her clothes back into the suitcase quickly. The man with close-cropped hair and a thin mustache gripped his wife's arm hard. "Bel, we can talk about this properly. Don't be like this Bella!" Bella didn't care one bit. He walked down the stairs carrying a heavy suitcase. The woman with a rectangular satin hijab has made her decision to leave the house. "Bella!" shouted Bara who was now right in the middle of the door.

"You can't act like this on your own, Bella. We also have to think about Mama's feelings," said Bara with bulging eyes. Seeing her husband so hot. The clear-eyed woman could only lower her head. This time he tried to contain his anger. Bella took a deep breath and exhaled. His eyes closed briefly and then opened again.

"Sit down Bella," said the husband, holding Bella's arm as he led her to sit on the sofa. The living room seemed to witness how hurt Bella was when she saw her husband kissing in a car with a woman. "Everything is clear right, Mas? You cheated on me!" Bella's voice was hoarse. The man was confused to explain the sentence said by his wife. Bara's eyes flickered with confused thoughts. "The woman you see in the car is just my friend, Bella. Her name is Arum. We just kiss normally, nothing more. We both don't have sex," explained Bara. "Friends? Is it permissible in our religion to act like that?" Bella asked furiously then shook her head in disbelief of what her husband had done. While Bara just glanced at him in annoyance. "Man, if you don't love me anymore, you can divorce me. I'm sincere, rather than you hurting me by having an affair like this," Bella said despite the tightness in her chest. Divorce and being cheated on are two painful things. He wouldn't even choose either of them if fate wanted. However, he chose to divorce if it was like this situation.

"I can't divorce you Bella. Poor Mama," Bara replied with an innocent face. The oval-faced man with a thin mustache and sideburns looked stupid when he faced Bella. "You are selfish, Mas. You have hurt two people at once, Mas. Me and Mama too. You are having fun while there are people who are hurt because of you," Bella said, pointing at Bara's chest in disgust. "Bella, I'm honest with you. If Arum was just my friend. He was the one who stepped in first. I promised I would stay away from Arum. Trust me Bella," Bara defended himself. "I don't believe you," Bella said, looking in a different direction. Bara looked nervous but he tried to hold Bella's arm with his hand. "Bella, you have to trust me. I can't cheat on you. We've been in this household for five years. I can't betray our love that easily," said Bara in a sad tone. "I'm really sick, Mas. If you cheat," Bella said holding her chest. "I'm not cheating on Bella, trust me," Bara Mahesa gently hugged the woman in front of him. The hug really made Bella feel very warm. It is no doubt that a gentle touch can make a woman calmer. Now Bella is trying to believe in her husband. She hoped her husband's words were not a lie. The next day Bara was getting ready to go to the office. But Bella was worried why her husband left for work so early. "Mas, it's still five in the morning. Are you serious about leaving at this time?" asked Bella while putting breakfast containing toast in the lunch box. Bara's hand put the blue object into the briefcase quickly "Bella, my job is the creative team on the tv program. Today I want to survey the shooting location. The location is at the top. I have to leave early so I can go home quickly. Hopefully, I can go home quickly." Bara's explanation made Bella unsure. Because according to him, Bara explained doubtfully. But she tried to convince herself that her husband wasn't lying. "Yes, sir, I know what kind of work you do. Your work really doesn't know the time. I pray that you don't glance at other women there. What's her name, then?" Bella asked with a thinking face. "Arum you mean?" "Yeah, let's just hope he doesn't hit you again. Just be careful if you get close to him," Bella said in a sharp tone. "I won't mess with other women. You just take it easy with me. I really love you Bella," an intimate kiss landed on his wife's lips. Bella of course blushed and was very happy. "Okay, be careful then, honey," Bella said, hugging Bara gently.

A few minutes later, Bara was now in the car. Bella saw from the gate then waved to her husband. Now Bella entered the house with slow steps. In fact, right now he felt really bad. She felt that her husband was hiding something. "God, I don't feel so good. I really hope that Mas Bara can be a loyal husband. When I think of yesterday's bad image, it really hurts. The two of them actually kiss in the car. Even though Mas Bara said that Arum was the one who came first, I think Mas Bara really enjoyed it." Bella was very worried about what she saw yesterday. He still half believed Bara's explanation. How could Bella just believe that. The woman with her face covered in Maryam's hijab sits in the dining room sipping hot tea. Beside it the window is quite big. White curtains with morning sunlight that penetrates so beautifully.

"Man, what time are you coming home?" asked Bella in her soft voice. That afternoon she was looking forward to her husband coming home. "I don't know, I think it's still a long time. Please be patient. Mas will definitely come home!" The voice sounded forced by Bella. The woman with chest-length hair had a sour face. He was annoyed to hear the answer from her husband. "What else do you have to do, Mas. It's late at this time and it's not over yet," Bella said grumblingly. "I'll wait for it after maghrib. You have to go home. I miss you, Mas. Hehehe . . . " Bella said with a smile to herself.

Yes, to be honest, Bella really wanted to hug her husband. An image of how beautiful Arum looked. Bella thought that she shouldn't let Mas Bara be owned by someone else. He's the only one who will forever have Mas Bara. "Hmm... yes, I'll try!" Bara exclaimed lazily. He ended the call from his wife quickly. "Why, turn it off! Even though I wanted to say I love you," Bella grumbled as she plopped herself onto the bed. "Should I try calling again?" she asked herself. She immediately called her husband back. "Hello, Mas, I want to tell you something," Bella said quickly. She was afraid to disturb her husband who was working. Basic women are unstable. "Yeah, what's wrong Bella?" asked Bara with an irritated face on the other side. "I love you, Mas," the sentence sounds soft but accompanied by a feeling of love. "Yes, I love you too Bella. It's been a long time. Mas, I'm still working," it sounded short, but Bella felt relieved now. "Okay. Assalamualaikum." "Walikumsalam." Bella exhaled slowly. Now he's starting to feel calm. The simple sentences spoken by the two of them were ordinary. But it makes a more beautiful change than usual. ***

"Miss, wake up sis," Mirna's palm gently shook the white-faced woman's arm. Bella opened her eyes in shock. Window view with orange glowing white curtains. "Miss Bella, it's almost sunset, miss, wake up," said Mirna, the household assistant tirelessly. Bella finally sat down slowly. He looked at the box wall clock attached to the wall. half past six in the afternoon. Bella mouth beristighfar because sleeping until almost night like this. "Why did you just wake me up, Mir?" "Oh my God, Ms. Bella, I've woken up several times since four o'clock. But I haven't woken up," said Mirna with pursed lips. "Have you come home, Mir?" Bella asked while rubbing her eyes. "Not yet, Ma'am. Maybe after maghrib we'll be here," Mirna said casually. After that Bella took a warm bath and got ready for the maghrib prayer. After the prayer he prayed very fervently. "O Allah, the most merciful. Heal my heart's wounds, so that I can repay my heartache with a smile. O Allah, to be honest, I really felt very sick when I saw Mas Bara and that woman in the car kissing. I hope what I saw was not my husband's affair . I hope what my husband explained is true. If he doesn't really do that scene. O Allah, strengthen this weak servant of yours. Forgive my sins, O Allah. If because of my sins you test me like this. Please forgive my sins, O Allah. Amen ya rabbal natural," Bella's palms rubbed her face warmly. Now he feels so relieved because everything that is in his heart has now been poured out to the Almighty. Eleven o'clock came. Bella's eyes began to feel sleepy. He yawned and blinked continuously. Trying to keep his eyes wide open. "Oh my God! Where are you, Mas Bara? Why hasn't he come home at this hour yet?" she asked herself. He stood now peeking out by slightly opening the gray curtains. It looks very quiet at night. like his lonely heart. Feelings of anxiety began to appear when I looked at the clock and saw that it was twelve o'clock in the evening. Bella exhaled furiously. "I ask forgiveness from Allah the Almighty!" Bella said sitting back leaning back while stroking her chest. "Mas, mas, why did your cellphone turn off? Where are you, sir? Oh my God, rabbi. . . . " Instantly Bella was shocked when the sound of lightning struck. "Subhan Allah!" Bella said holding her chest. The sound of thunder was really scary but it was even scarier if her husband dared to have an affair.

"Oh God, don't rain yet, I beg you. The problem is Mas Bara hasn't come home yet," Bella said with a worried face. He looked at the screen again and saw his husband's contact name. Immediately he called. But no answer at all. Now Bella heard the sound of a car. He immediately opened the gate that is not too big belonging to the house. The car enters the parking lot of the house which looks perfect for the size of the car. Now the man in the white shirt and black jacket got out of the car. The oval face looked exhausted. His eyes didn't even see his wife's face in front of him. His feet just walked into the house. "Oh God! Mas, why are you just coming home?" "I'm tired Bella. You better make me warm white milk," said the man who now opened his jacket and put it on the bed. "Tired? I'm tired too, Mas. I've been waiting for you to get really sleepy like this. I've been waiting for you to get really late like this. Why didn't you answer my phone? Just then the phone went off again. You should have just let me know, bro." I am your wife, mas!" Bella's annoyance overflowed in front of her husband's face. "My husband just got home and is being scolded like this! I'm working my ass off until late at night like this! For you Bella!" cried the husband while opening his white shirt. Then he rushed to change clothes with white underwear. Then sat on the bed with a face still upset. Bella took her husband's jacket and shirt and bag. He put the things in their places. After that she sat beside her husband. "Mas! Do you know that there is a hadith which explains that it is sunnah to hasten to return to his family, after completing your assignments you should not delay doing things that are not your duty or purpose of traveling," Bella said firmly. The husband glanced at the indifferent. "You must be finished with work, continue to play with your friends, OK, Mas? Coffee is not clear or playing futsal or don't you be with Arum," Bella's eyes were intimidating. "Bella stop," now those shady eyes turned ferocious looking at Bella's face full of anger. "Don't accuse Bella carelessly. Your brain never thinks positively about me. You don't have to talk about Arum either. He's just my friend Bella!" "Yeah," Bella called out in a loud voice. "Now you explain to me why you can come home so late like this ha?" the voice sounded so high that it boomed throughout the room making their household assistant. Mirna opened her eyes slowly. Mirna was very surprised to hear her employer arguing.

CHAPTER THREE

"I'm lazy to explain everything to you. Because you definitely won't believe me. You always think negatively about me. Isn't that right?" Bara said as if shooting his wife's feelings in pain.

Bella let out an annoyed breath.

"Okay, if you don't want to explain to me, I already know how bad you are now, Mas," that sentence made this husband and wife stop talking again.

Those are the last words for tonight. Bella stood up quickly and walked out then closed the door roughly.

Bara is tired of everything that happened in the day. He slept soundly in the room.

While Bella sat on the couch in the living room. He looked at the beautiful photo frame. A very compatible pair of brides.

Bella's heart could not hold back the feeling of annoyance mixed with sadness. Her eyes were now flooded with warm tears. His shoulders rose and fell with the sound of a blocked nose from crying.

"Miss Bella..." called the hesitant voice from behind.

Bella didn't look at her because she didn't want Marni to know that she was crying. Bella tried to keep her voice from hoarse.

"I want to sleep here, Mir. Please don't disturb, Mirna," Bella said firmly.

Mirna could only look pityingly at her master's back.

It was dawn but Mirna did not wake her master. He felt sorry because at that time Bella was really sleeping soundly.

At seven o'clock Bella opened her eyes. He inhaled the smell of cooking in the kitchen. His head is a little dizzy. He tried to sit up and see through the light coming into the living room.

"It's really late, O Allah! I haven't prayed my dawn prayer yet," he said and then immediately headed to the toilet which was in the back.

It turned out that today she had her period. Immediately he used sanitary napkins. Because the first day is always heavy for a woman.

"Miss Mirna is cooking fried rice. It must be really delicious," said Mirna with a beaming face.

Bella didn't say anything. He immediately spooned the fried rice that had been provided on a white plate.

Bella chewed solemnly. Since the night his stomach was hungry but he was reluctant to go to the kitchen. Right now it really is like heaven. Wake up immediately there is food in front of the eye. His favorite food again.

Ma'am, what happened last night? Are you crying?" Mirna asked after seeing Bella finish her breakfast. Bella's eyes were so puffy it made Mirna feel sorry for her. Bella didn't answer. He cleans food residue around the lips with a tissue. He really didn't want to talk about what happened that night. "Last night Mirna woke up because she heard a loud voice from Ms. Bella. It was really loud! Ma'am. It's the first time! Mirna heard Ms.'s voice that loud," said Mirna, a woman who talked a lot. "It's okay, Mir. I'm having my period again and I don't want to tell you much. I'll wake up Mas Bara first, OK? Have you cleaned the kitchen yet? Go clean up the kitchen first," Bella said and then went to her room. Thankfully the door was not locked by the husband. He saw a plain gray sheet messy. Then there is a man sleeping with his face soundly. Bella sat on the side of the bed. She looked at her husband's face with great affection. The face that accompanied him since these five years. Patient face. Although they both have not been blessed with a tiny baby. That sweet face really made Bella's heart give thanks. Bella's hand gently stroked her husband's cheek. The cheeks with a bit of thin hair on the sides of both of them made Bella feel amused. "I'm sorry, Mas. Last night maybe I was too angry with you. I really love you, Mas," Bella said in her deepest heart. Now Bella saw a small table on which was Bara's cell phone. The phone is on. His hand immediately grabbed the thin rectangular object. It's been a few days he did not look see what's in her husband's cell phone. It finds incoming WhatsApp messages. Her eyes widened as she saw the many rows of chats. All female profile photos. "I don't accept that these women chat with my husband. They really don't have much work to do," Bella exclaimed with a petrified feeling. "Man, wake up man!" Bella patted Bara's arm several times. "Still sleepy Bella, you're already out there," Bara answered half-consciously. "Wake up Mas, it's noon. It's already eight o'clock," Bella said annoyed. Bara sat down quickly. His face showed anger to his wife. His body squirmed for a moment then rubbed his eyes. "What's this mean?" Bella asked, showing the cellphone screen right in front of the wrinkled-faced man's face. "Here," Bara's hand grabbed his cell phone hard. "What are you doing, holding my cellphone?" asked Bara with a furious face without looking at his wife. He was focused on opening the message on his cellphone screen.

I can't really! Take a look at what's on your cellphone. Since when, Mas?" "Yes, you can, but ask permission first," Bara replied, still grumbling. "Permission? Who am I? Someone else? I'm your wife, Mas. You're really weird, you just need permission to borrow a cellphone," Bella grumbled. "What if data is suddenly deleted? Part of my work is also on this phone," Bara defended himself with his eyes wide open looking at his wife. "Okay okay, I'm sorry" Bella said resignedly. He took a deep breath and then uttered another sentence. "I don't like girls chatting with you like that," Bella said, turning her back to her husband while folding her arms. "What the heck, what chat?" asked Bara who was now standing in front of Bella. "Yes, you just read it on your cellphone!" "Okay, I've read it, so what?" asked her husband, confused. "Your office friends don't really matter, you know, they chat with you like that. How are you? Have a good day, what are you doing? Have you eaten yet?" Bella said while speaking in annoyance. "So what's wrong? They're just my friends," Bara said without any guilt. "But bro, chatting like that will actually be more frequent and then you'll be attracted to your friends. Chat every day, send photos to each other after that, fall in love with each other, right?" "Yes, it's impossible, they already know I have a wife," said Bara firmly. "I already have a wife. So why should I fall in love with another girl?" Bella looked down at her husband's words. What had he done wrong all this time? she is too jealous of her husband. Bara walked out of the room leaving Bella standing still in front of the bright bedroom window.

A white shirt and short black skirt and women's undergarments lay on the floor. Everything looks messy. As if accidentally thrown on the white tiled floor.

Bella's eyes suddenly opened wide. His heart was pounding. His mind was really messed up. Immediately he stepped foot into Bara's room. A spoiled woman's voice was heard. Bella's hand immediately opened the door quickly. I didn't think there was a stunning sight in front of my eyes.

Bara and Arum with their panicked eyes saw Bella's arrival. They were both covered in bed.

"Get you out of here!" Bella shouted hoarsely. Her tears were unstoppable.

Bara and Arum looked at each other in panic.

"Get out of here pelakor!" Bella pointed her index finger at Arum who was still covering his body with a blanket.

Arum's face showed an annoyed look. He didn't seem to care about Bella's cursing. But after being persuaded gently by Bara. Finally Arum wants to leave Bara and Bella's house.

Remember, Mas. We're not done yet!" whispered Arum clearly right in his lover's ear.

The woman who didn't know herself left wearing a white shirt wrapped in a navy jacket and a black short skirt.

Bella's eyes focused sharply on Arum's back, which was starting to move away. Bella really hated that slut. The woman who managed to get herself seriously injured. Bella felt a sharp pain in her heart.

Now Bella began to approach her husband furiously.

"Now everything is clear. You lied to me. You said Arum was just your friend but in fact Arum even slept in the room with you. Are you crazy, Mas?"

"I'm sorry Bella. I promise I won't do that again. The two of us haven't gotten to that direction yet. We're just making love," Bara explained defensively.

"I don't care about that, Mas. One thing's for sure. You've cheated on me and I won't forgive you. I want it all to end. Let me go. You and Arum. I'm already sick, Mas. It hurts!" Bella said with tears in her eyes while pointing at her own chest.

"Bella, don't be like that Bella. I can't possibly be separated from you. I'm sorry for my mother," said Bara with a frustrated face. The short-haired man brushed his forehead.