"Mom, I swear it was a mistake, I didn't mean to, I just..." I tried to explain myself but she passed me a death stare and I knew to keep shut immediately. She didn't even ask who the father of my baby was. I was somewhat relieved, but it was short lived. She took me to the hospital, and when it was confirmed that I was Indeed pregnant, we landed in this situation
"You've brought nothing but shame to me Marie, after everything I thought you, after all the warnings, after every goddamn thing I told you, this is what you choose to do?, get pregnant, be the talk of the town, be the headlines on the internet in a very bad way, you just ruined my reputation, I am DISAPPOINTED in you Marie – that word rang and echoed deeply in my head, all the years of my life, I had tried and had always succeeded In making her proud, just this once that I made a mistake, just this once that I failed, just this once that I was far from being a perfect daughter, she kicked me out of her house - get yourself out of my house, go meet the father of that bastard you're carrying, and don't ever think of stepping your feet into my house again" words could never express how broken I felt, I cried my eyes to a puff, pleading, begging and apologizing, Sam didn't fail to help me plead too, it all fell on deaf ears
"Mom, mom, mom please"
"And also don't ever call me your mother, I am no longer your mother, because as of this day, I disown you, get yourself out before I call the cops on you" what? She did not just disown me, I slapped and pinched myself really hard, I needed to wake up from this nightmare, too bad it was reality, in pain, anger and disbelief, I ran away, leaving all the things she threw out
Before I left, I said
"I am also disappointed in you mom, very disappointed. I am disappointed that you would throw your daughter out on the streets in this cruel world, knowing fully well how vulnerable she is. This is one mistake, just one mistake on my part. I am disappointed and I hate you. I hate you with all I've got" The tears I thought I didn't have rolled freely down my cheeks. I looked into her eyes and she didn't feel any remorse, she turned her back to me and walked away. That was the last I heard from that woman in almost a decade
Sam tried to stop me, but I was too hurt to look back, I kept running, like a headless chicken, I had no direction nor destination all I knew was that I wanted to be far from this place, far from that woman, far from all of these people who looking at me funny, whispering to each other as I passed
I ran as far as I could, leaving the city where I spent all my life behind, did I forget to mention that people mocked me on my way out, instead of helping me or at least saying some words of comfort
I wanted to disappear from this world, I wanted to be wiped off the surface of the earth, I gave up on life, on any hope, moreover, I was now a pregnant helpless and hopeless college dropout, what meaning was my life? Nothingness. I didn't want to bring a child to the world and not be able to cater for it. Not being able to give it a decent life. I didn't want to suffer.
Just when I was about jumping off the bridge, I heard the voice of a young lady
"I know you, you're the college girl trending on the internet" She said. I turned to her and shook my head. How fast does the Internet spread news? I made to jump off again but she held me by the shoulder
"Don't end your life, and that of the innocent baby or babies you're carrying, all because of the comments online. Don't lose hope. I was also a bastard baby, people said awful and horrible things to my mom when she got pregnant with me, but my old woman never gave up, she never let those words get to her, she stood her ground, fast forward to today, she would be the mother of a college graduate tomorrow, she said she could never be more prouder, please do not lose hope, go back home girl, give birth to your baby and nurture it till adulthood, I assure you, it would never be a thing of regret" those words sank to the depth of my heart, I listened to her and moved far away from the bridge rim. She was right. I couldn't let the words of people get to my head. It had been done and can't be undone
But there was a problem, I didn't have a home, I didn't have money, not even a penny to my name. How would I survive as a single mother? After explaining my ordeal to her, she offered to take me home to live with her and her mother, I could never be more grateful, and today, I haven't gotten to where I intended, but so long as there is life, there is hope, I'll keep pushing and striving to cater for my three bundles of joy
Kira, and my two boys
Everyone in the room was already teary as they listened to all that I had narrated
"I'm so sorry you had to pass through that Marie" Mama Gracie said and I nodded with a smile
You all might be wondering why I gave such a long speech, well, today was the day of awareness, where we enlighten people out there, that getting pregnant out of wedlock isn't a bad thing, though it is not advisable, so I had to share my story
The program was soon over, and I had to go back to my daily life, taking care of my five year old triplets, and working three jobs at a time. Trust me it isn't an easy thing to do, but as long as there's life, there's hope. Sometimes I want to give up, but I look at my kids and shake my head. I need to keep pushing for them. They were my inspiration and all
"Hey Marie, I have super good news for you" Carrie, the girl who saved me from ending my life years ago, who was now my sister, said and I raised a brow
"What's the good news?" I asked and she drew me to a corner.
Your application to work at L-Tech Enterprise was approved, so you don't have to work three jobs and stress yourself anymore" did I hear her right, oh my God!
"Wow, that's so good to hear, what position did I get to work at?" I had to ask, she saying I wouldn't need to work my ass off any longer was surprising, cause how much was the pay
"Why don't you open the appointment letter and find out yourself" she said handing the envelope over to me
I applied for the post of a janitor, because I had no college certificate, but what was I seeing in this write up?
"There must have been a misunderstanding somewhere Carrie, I applied for the post of a janitor, why can I see the post of the secretary to the CEO?" I was confused, all these organizations going by big names and stuff, why would they be silly to make such a mistake
"There is nothing there to be confused about, why did you think I said you didn't have to work your ass off any longer? Because you got that post, and guess how much is the pay? Hundred thousand dollars per month" okay, I just got more and more confused
"What are you talking about? I'm confused as fuck right now, who pays HUNDRED THOUSAND to just a secretary? Are you sure there isn't more to this job than you think?" any sane person would have to ask, it is just too good to be true
"Come on now, don't be silly, do you know the organization we're talking about here? Its L freaking tech enterprise" sigh!
"So what if it is? I just don't want to get myself into something I'll regret for the rest of my life, okay? I'm not that desperate you know?" I moved away from her and handed back the paper, then made my way to the door, all she did was stare at me in irritation but I couldn't care less, I knew just what I was talking about cause I have had lots of bad experiences during my job hunting era that I told no one about
"You really have to think about this Marie, I mean, there's no harm in knowing what the job is about" she said half my way to the door, I didn't look backwards, neither did I give any response. I am not putting myself at risk ever again