Chapter 5 The Lost Hearts

We still haven't talked, since pride wouldn't let me go talk to him because I was waiting for him to come and talk to me first. Until one day Racheal came to me and said her brother, Joseph is really sorry and never intended to hurt me and that he hasn't come to meet me in person because he doesn't know how to face me, I guess because I never gave him attention even though he tried for the past few weeks I thought in my mind and told her to help me tell him that he should come and meet me at home tomorrow, that I was no longer angry.

I never thought that will be my last message to Joseph. When I got home, my Dad called me and told me that hope I haven't forgotten that it's tomorrow that am moving to Houston to my Aunt's place to get a better education there since I will still be going to the university in less than one year. Oh My God I said and he was like what is it, How could I explain that I totally forgot over the emotional break down I was in, I said No Dad and I quickly ran upstairs. Oh no!, I exclaimed immediately when I got to my room, I haven't even packed up yet, and how will I see Joseph tomorrow to reunite our friendship again, I already deleted his cell phone number and blocked him weeks ago when I was still very hurt, because I didn't wanted to ever talk to him again at that moment.

I didn't know what to do so I wrote a letter, sneaked out and quickly went to his apartment, I knocked, no body answered, I guessed they've slept since it's late. So I just left it in the garden in his compound hoping he finds it.

I went back inside my room and started weeping in sadness because I felt like it was all my fault, if it hadn't been me proving hard, I would have told him goodbye and still had, had his cell phone number to reach him.

Now it's the end of our friendship since am going to another country, and I haven't even expressed how I feel to him that I love him not just has a friend. How do I tell him he has been my long time crush, how do I tell him he is my heart beat, how do I explain am deeply in love with him.

I cried and cried till my eyes was swollen, and realized I only had few hours left to park. So I began to pack my things and finally I had pack all my things in my luggage.

Then I started to weep again realising am leaving tomorrow and will never see Joseph again except if fate bring us together, or hopefully I go look for him when am done with university or he comes to look for me.

It's morning already and I spent all my night crying but slept for about 2-3 hours. Immediately when it was 5:30 that morning my Dad knocked saying get ready so we won't be late to the airport. I woke up after hearing his voice. Still sad, how I wish all of this was a dream, I said and went to take my bath. Now it's was time to go, I entered into the car and waved my family goodbye except Joseph. I stared at his apartment through the car's window until the car was out of sight. Out of sight out of mind I said hopefully but I never forgot about Joseph even till I finished University. I came back after I finished my studies in the university and I was overwhelmed to find out that Joseph had moved to another country. I will keep searching till I find him, I said to myself because there's a feeling in my heart saying he loves me too and he his also searching for me. So now our Love is like a love lost in a deep sea hoping to be found, I thought while looking at the sky.