Chapter 1 Sinking Feelings

Kelly's POV

Was it a blessing to marry your best friend?

I wasn't very sure what Pierce thought, but marrying him was a dream come true for me. And now, what was even more exciting was that we were about to welcome our first child.

"It's a good thing you're cautious. You could've lost your baby, Miss Monroe," the GYN told me seriously as she could see the shock in my eyes.

I subconsciously touched my belly, still unable to believe a baby was lying there. Had I heard it right? I was pregnant? I was pregnant with a baby for Pierce-my best friend and my first crush!

On the way out of the hospital, I couldn't wait to tell Pierce about our baby. I wondered what his reaction would be. Would he scream in happiness? Would he kiss me? God! I couldn't contain my happiness.

I cupped my flushed face as I fantasized, but the moment I felt the cold of the simple ring on my finger, my wildly beating heart calmed down. I almost forgot that Pierce wasn't the type to be keen on having children, especially since our marriage was arranged by his family.

Pierce was a complete gentleman, both as a friend and a husband. Every time we had sex, he was considerate yet cautious, saying there was no need to add extra shackles when we weren't ready.

This baby, in a way, was out of the plan.

My mind was becoming restless as I sat in my car. Would this be good news for him? What if Pierce still wasn't ready for a baby?

"Ma'am, is everything okay? Do you need to call the boss?" my private driver, Luke, asked worriedly as he noticed my frown. Luke was reliable, like family, but if I chose to share, I still wanted Pierce to be the first to know this news. He was my baby's father.

"No," I shook my head, giving Luke a reassuring smile. "He's on a flight. I'll talk to him later myself." I wanted to sense his answer directly from his raw expressions. I was always good at that.

I closed my eyes, recalling the first day we met. His bright smile in the sunlight was so dazzling; he was a Prince. Long before we became best friends, I fell in love with him at first sight. But it was only unrequited love; I knew that well.

I slid down the car window to get some fresh air but accidentally caught a glimpse of our old high school. That bitter feeling filled my chest once again. Pierce was my first love, but I wasn't his.

In high school, I was just a boring nerd in others' eyes while Pierce Anderson was the shining quarterback. Everyone was surprised that we could be friends. Though envy arose, I enjoyed being around him. I slowly realized that I didn't just want to be his friend.

However, right when I was about to confess my feelings to him, another girl came into his life.

I shook my head, trying to rid myself of those sad memories. I gripped the cold wedding ring on my finger, telling myself the past was the past. Pierce said they were over, and I was his wife now. I was his wife who was carrying his baby.

I wiped the tears from the corners of my eyes and opened the door to our house. My heart calmed as I breathed in the scent of home. Our home. It wasn't as luxurious as his family's villa, but it was cozy. Pierce and I decorated it together with our own hands. We enjoyed it. Yes, I must have been overthinking. That woman had been out of our lives for a long time, and my marriage with Pierce had been as beautiful as a fairy tale for the past three years.

I glanced at the clock on the wall. At this point, Pierce should have gotten off the plane. He had been traveling for over a month for the sake of our family's business. Pierce was the President of ADE, the leading fashion magazine company in Asia, and I was actually the Vice President. We were not only life partners but also good partners at work.

I really missed him. I dialed his number immediately. I wanted to hear his voice now, to know when he would arrive home. I would prepare a good meal for him, and he would reward me with a sweet kiss. Then we might have passionate sex like what he gave me the night before his business trip. Oops, I almost forgot I was pregnant now. I needed to tell him this first before we could do anything else.

I was happily envisioning our lovely reunion when my heart dropped as a woman's voice came over the line.

[Hello?]

I snapped the phone as just one word came out. My phone fell to the floor, and my body started shaking uncontrollably. NO! It couldn't be her! It couldn't be Lexi! She was already out of our lives! I must have misheard.

I rushed to the fridge, attempting to calm myself with some alcohol. But the moment I touched the wine bottle, I was reminded of the doctor's words and my baby. I needed to be cautious for my baby's sake. I turned to grab a box of milk and walked toward the sofa.

I didn't know what made me recognize that as Lexi's voice at that moment. I meant Lexi and I were never close. Lexi Gilbert was a typical blonde beauty that men would go crazy for. She was the popular cheerleader in high school while Pierce was the star quarterback. A better match than he and a nerd like me, right? It wasn't surprising that he had fallen for her.

My pride couldn't stand watching the man I loved go crazy for another woman. So I had once tried to stay away from them silently, but Pierce refused to quit my life. Every time I drowned myself in a sea of books and studies to forget them, Pierce would appear at my doorstep asking me out. I couldn't say no to his charming smile; I couldn't refuse when he claimed it was his duty as my best friend to take me out to enjoy the real world.

To avoid ruining our friendship, I could only hide my broken heart, silently playing the role of his best friend while watching his happy face as he pursued another girl. I finally mustered the courage to study abroad when I learned that Pierce was planning to propose to Lexi. However, I never expected Grams would call to beg me to return.

I hurried back only to see a lifeless Pierce. His heart was shattered, thanks to Lexi. My beloved sunshine boy was nowhere to be seen, and my heart bled for him. I started to hate Lexi from that moment. I gave up my cherished man for her, and how dared she harm him so badly! That witch!

Pierce didn't tell anyone what happened except that he was done with Lexi. Grams arranged our marriage. I didn't understand why he agreed until the day I heard him say that marrying anyone but Lexi would be the same for him.

It hurt like hell, but I still walked into this marriage without a second thought. My cherished boy was broken, and I wanted to fix him, not caring if I ruined myself in the process.

I fell asleep at home, feeling insecure and worried. I woke up in the middle of the night when I felt someone caressing my cheek.

Slowly, I opened my eyes and realized I had fallen asleep in the living room.

Someone lifted me from the couch. I immediately recognized his scent and touch as I looked at him with heavy-lidded eyes.

"Pierce..."

"Hmm," he hummed as he walked toward the stairs. "Why did you sleep on the couch?"

I stared at his face as he gently placed me down on the bed. He caressed my hair and kissed my forehead. He was always so gentle, and that was why I loved him so much. Even when making love, he was very considerate of my feelings. We'd been apart for over a month; my body missed him, and my heart wanted him.

"Where have you been? I've been waiting for you," I said as I caressed his cheek.

"Just met a friend. You said you were waiting for me; is it something urgent?"

Looking at his gentle face, I suddenly didn't want to ruin the moment, so I closed my parted lips and swallowed the truth back down. Tomorrow, maybe tomorrow, I would have the courage to face all the puzzles.

I shook my head and pouted, signaling that I was sleepy. He chuckled and carefully carried me to the bed. Just as he was about to leave me after giving me a goodnight kiss, I panicked for some reason. I quickly grabbed him and kissed him with all my passion, trying to undress him, trying to make him touch me more and deeper. I missed him. I wanted him. I felt that the only way I could feel at ease was to let him inside me again, to ensure he was still mine.

"Wait, Kels," he said, stopping me by pinning my hands to the bed. "I thought you said you were sleepy and needed to rest."

"But I think I miss you more now." I looked at him with innocence and caught the desire flashing in his eyes, but I didn't know why it faded so quickly. He used to be happy when I took the initiative.

As if noticing my confusion, he chuckled and playfully pinched my nose. "I'll just take a shower. I smell like alcohol."

I nodded and watched him as he walked toward the bathroom. But drowsiness struck again, so I closed my eyes to take a nap. However, it was already morning when I opened my eyes again, and Pierce was beside me, putting a tray of food on the bedside table.

"Hey!" I greeted, smiling when I realized what he'd done. He had prepared breakfast for me. In bed. The sweetest.

He smiled and sat on the edge of the bed. "Good morning."

I grinned as I sat up. He carried the tray and put it beside me. I shot an eyebrow up, tilting my head as I stared at his handsome face. His deep brown eyes and thick, black eyebrows complemented his striking features. His nose was proud and pointed and his lips were red and thin. He literally looked like a sexy bad boy. Even Damon Salvatore would feel overshadowed beside him. No one stood a chance against this man.

"What is this? Is this a bribe? You stood me up last night, bad boy."

He didn't laugh. Instead, he heaved a sigh, gently tucking my hair behind my ear before taking my hand and staring into my eyes. "I have something to tell you."

My heart raced. I thought about our baby. He had something to say, and I did too.

"W-What is it?" I asked, feeling my voice tremble.

He took a deep breath. "You know you're important to me, right?"

I slowly nodded, my lips parted. I couldn't speak; I was scared of what he was about to say. I had a bad feeling about this.

"You were my best friend before we got married. You're one of the few people I treasure..."

I hid my clenched fists under the sheets. I didn't understand why he was telling me this, but I felt tears pooling in the corner of my eyes already.

"Kelly..." He paused, squeezing his eyes shut before looking into mine again. "I-I think it's time for us to divorce."

"P-Pierce..." My heart clenched.

He smiled sadly. "I know you don't have feelings for me either. You only married me because of my grandparents. You just did this because you love them. Now it's time for our real happiness, Kelly."

I shook my head. "W-What are you talking about, Pierce?"

"Lexi is back, Kelly. My first love is back."