Chapter 3 Ariane

Chapitre 3

Ariane (United States)

To cheer you up, are we going to a club this weekend?

-no, I don't want anything at the moment, my friend tells me.

- don't be like that, are you sure he doesn't have another explanation?

like what do you think? maybe she's the one heating it?

-do you think so? she asks me full of hope.

- perhaps I say cautiously, not wanting to give him too much hope

- when is your job search? she asks to change the subject.

- I have deposited in several companies, I am waiting for someone to call me. So fingers crossed.

- so for the exit?

- we'll see.... currently I'm tired and discouraged.

- so go and rest, everything will be fine, we will find a solution. kisses, I love you.

- me too my dear.

good night darling ?

-you too.

I wake up in the morning to check my emails...no messages.

I have no luck, for once may the Lord have pity on me..

why does this only happen to other people, I've never had a chance in this damn life. Nothing was given to me on a platter, I always have to try harder than everyone else. I must take what I want from humanity.

since my birth everything has been a struggle for me. according to my mother's writings, it was not sure that I would be born because the pregnancy was at risk, the doctors said that I was not viable. but against all odds I I've passed nine months.

the day of my birth had to be inscribed on a white stone because she didn't believe in it. It was so grandiose...

my mother got pregnant by her high school sweetheart, she loved him so much... until she learned it was a bet to see how long the naive little high school virgin would take her underwear down. ..

as soon as he slept with her, he changed, he despised her, the humiliation. She thought she had hit rock bottom... but no, it was worse, she got pregnant.

she never forgets that day when she saw the two lines on the pregnancy test... she was in shock, paralyzed, stopped like a statue. that's how her mother surprised her with the test

the idiot never recognized the pregnancy. His mother, instead of supporting her, kicked him out because she couldn't bear this shame.

my mother moved to another city, there was a shelter for single mothers. She was forced to go there because she had no money. They helped her during the pregnancy and after without ever asking for anything.

my mother died when I was fifteen following a car accident, the drunk driver died instantly.

I had so many dreams for both of us...I wanted so much for her to be proud of me...may your soul rest in peace, darling mom?.

When he died I spotted his meager belongings, and I found his diary, that's where I learned my story.

I promised myself to never trust any man...because my mother died heartbroken, alone, far from her family, because of whom? a man.they are not worth one the punishment.

I want to become rich, very rich, to make my mother's family and her ex-boyfriend drool.

I am gifted, I skipped several classes to get my diploma. I speak four languages fluently: English, French, German and Russian.

I am still a virgin because I decided to keep my virginity and see if I can meet someone rich who will know the value of what I offer.

I don't care about feelings, that won't do anything, whereas I need money for my revenge.

Yes, I will take revenge on everyone who hurt my mother. I promise you, Mom.

so going to a club would be a good idea to sniff out a big fish.