Chapter 1 No.1

The camera flashes were not stars. They were aggressive, stroboscopic bursts of lightning that left purple spots dancing in Sienna Vance's vision. She stood on the red carpet outside the Metropolitan Museum of Art, her left hand gripping the crook of Julian Sterling's arm so tightly her knuckles had turned the color of old bone.

"Smile, darling," Julian whispered. His voice was low, a velvet texture that usually calmed her, but tonight it felt like a wire tightening around her throat. "They just want to see the woman who tamed the beast."

Sienna forced the corners of her mouth upward. It was a muscle memory from a life she no longer lived-the life of a principal ballerina who knew how to project radiance even when her toes were bleeding inside satin shoes. Now, the bleeding was internal, and the shoes were sensible, flat-soled designer loafers hidden beneath the hem of her emerald gown.

"Julian! Over here! Mr. Sterling, is it true the Foundation is donating another ten million to the PTSD recovery wing?"

Julian turned, his movement fluid and practiced. He was beautiful in the way a statue was beautiful-chiseled, imposing, and cold to the touch. He placed his other hand over Sienna's, his thumb stroking her skin in a rhythm that felt less like comfort and more like a warning.

"My wife is the inspiration for everything I do," Julian told the reporter, his eyes locking onto Sienna's with a look of such profound devotion that a collective sigh rippled through the press line. "Her strength in the face of... personal challenges... is the beacon that guides the Sterling family."

Sienna felt the heat rise in her cheeks. Personal challenges. That was the code. The polite Manhattan shorthand for Sienna is broken. Sienna is fragile. Sienna is the crazy wife of the Saint of Wall Street.

A sharp, hot needle of pain shot up from her left ankle. She flinched, a microscopic movement, but Julian caught it. He always caught it.

"We need to go inside," he announced, his tone shifting to that of a protective guardian. "Sienna has been on her feet too long."

He swept her away from the cameras, guiding her toward the entrance. As they passed through the heavy glass doors, the noise of the city was severed, replaced by the hushed, expensive air of the museum.

"I was fine, Julian," Sienna said, her voice sounding thin to her own ears. "I could have stood there a little longer."

Julian stopped. He turned to her, his blue eyes searching her face. He reached out and tucked a stray strand of blonde hair behind her ear. His fingers lingered on her neck, resting on her pulse point.

"You were trembling, Si," he said softly. "You were dissociating again. I saw your eyes glaze over. You were about to have an episode right there on the stairs."

Sienna blinked. Had she? She remembered the flashes. She remembered the pain in her ankle. But the panic? The dissociation? She searched her memory, but it was like trying to catch smoke. The gaps were happening more often lately.

"I... I didn't think I was," she stammered.

"That's the scary part, isn't it?" Julian's expression was a masterpiece of pity. "You never know when it's happening until I pull you back. Thank God I'm here."

He leaned down and kissed her forehead. His lips were dry.

"Thank God," Sienna repeated, the words tasting like ash. She looked down at her left foot. The ankle that had shattered her career three years ago throbbed in agreement. The doctors said it should have healed by now. They said the pain was psychosomatic. A manifestation of her trauma.

Julian offered his arm again. "Come. Eleanor is waiting by the bar. Try not to drink too much tonight, darling. You know how it interacts with your medication."

Sienna hadn't had a drink in six months. But as she took his arm, she wondered if she had forgotten that, too.