What We Want

"Shut the fuck up!" He hit my face for the third time.

I choked on my tears and my weakness as I dropped with a loud thud on the bedroom floor.

What did I do wrong?

I trembled at the sight of him coming towards me as I hurriedly crawled back in total fear before he finally caught me and came on top of me to continue his assault.

"Stop..." I croaked out. I couldn't even recognize my voice.

All I did was love him. Unfortunately.

He didn't even bother to heed my words to stop or pay attention to my pain and groans. If anything, he enjoyed that sight of me in total squirm.

I grabbed his hands, clothes and anything for me to be able to fight him off of me but who am I kidding?

"Stop it Abel!" I tried to scream but he hit me so hard that I coughed up blood.

"I said shut the fuck up bitch!" He bellowed as I frail body gave up fighting his assault.

Then he laughed maniacally and tore my clothes away from my body.

I coughed up more blood as I tried once again to fight him off of me. I had to do this much because I couldn't afford to let him have his way with me.

His rough hands tugged at my undies.

"Nooo!!!"

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On that rainy day, my clothes were torn and I was barely even standing straight and collected in the middle of the road and in the middle of the night. I couldn't tell where I was or how I got there, it was so dark and I felt my feet ache. I looked down at my feet and saw blood, dried blood and more blood all over me. I don't remember anything but strange thing is that, I wasn't shocked or terrified at the sight of it. I just felt...

Just then, bright headlights shown on me, followed by the car halt. I felt numb. The driver's side opened and the car driver got down and came towards me. I didn't move, I couldn't, cause my feet seemed rooted in the ground. It was a he, I couldn't see his face because the lights concentrated on my sleepy eyes and that same light seem to illuminate him.

He appeared to be a giant coming to just flip me out of the way so he could continue his voyage but he didn't do that, yet. He just looked down at me patiently and didn't budge. Is he a psycho? Oh God! I can't deal with such a personality at this time or anytime at all especially this time because I feel a mix of numb and I feel shitty and out of this world at the same time. Or is he someone who had caused the crash and has come to finish me off? I fully noticed a Lexus Rx pressed in two from the corner of my eye. So this is it! This is finally it! This is my end! I'm finally going to be wiped out of this world with no trace, with no family.

Wait, who are my parents? I felt a sharp tug at my heart and I discovered that I couldn't remember a face, or name, or where or how I ended up in the middle of the road and without that information, it was devastating enough and I guess I should feel automatically inclined to completely and ultimately disappear from the face of the world.

I felt cold and I could tell my insides also shiver but one thing that was happening that I begged the stars not to let happen was the fact that my eyes didn't feel like mine. It continued shutting down without my permission and I didn't need it to and not at this time that I'm obviously at the mercy of my captor. Yes him. I still don't understand why he's still quiet in front of me and if not for my current state, I would have toppled him over with my tiny frame and beat the hell outta him but guess what, I'm numb. I'm tired and devastatingly numb!

My orbs hate me. They shouldn't be so tired and weak and sleepy, not at this time at least not until I'm privileged enough to witness my impending fate in the hands of this stranger right now. I'm torn between whether life or death awaits me, but I guess my eyes has decided the latter. Oh God, I'm coming home soon!

Finally, my eyes failed me. They completely close and I felt my frame dissolve to the earth.

I opened my eyes and was immediately met with a pair of dark orbs staring back at me. I jerk upwards and solid hands held me still.

"Stay still", he spoke calmly and my body obeyed without question. I took in his features. Aside his beautiful dark orbs, his... Wait, have you ever seen a Greek god? He's in front of me right now and while I'm resisting the urge to drool at his amazing features and body build, I know I'm not meant to be here in the first place. So I laid back. I remember the incident from last night and the fact that I could have died in his hands but here I am, on a king sized bed, his bed I suppose, because the deco and the photographs plastered on the walls of the room, screamed his face and his calm demeanor. If anything, I like it. I stared at him, I felt a pang of debt. I owe him. He ... wait, I blinked severally, felt my toes and hands under the sheets, my body parts and organs were still intact. So, oh yeah! He saved my life.

"Do you feel better?" He asked. If anything, his concerned look took to my heart and I felt mushy and I immediately jerked out of the bed, surprised I did that without help. I shouldn't feel mushy and I definitely shouldn't be here and here with a stranger that would have cut me in half and thrashed me but chose to let me in his luxurious house and his beautiful room. All the more reason I shouldn't be here. Yes, I feel grateful to him for having saved me but it's starting to feel so good and too comfortable, a part of me didn't want that plus my feet felt jelly.

"Uh.. yes.. yes, I feel better", I said not looking at him, I shouldn't look at him. Something about him was starting to irk me and I want to disappear and not be here in this room and.. and in this house, my eyes searched for the door. But where will I rather be? I remember nothing before the accident and I sure as hell don't even remember my own name!

"You're sure?" His voice came again and this time, I feel his breath tickle my ears and then his cologne filled my nostrils. My feet didn't feel like mine and my heart was doing a double take and heaving, I couldn't stay still. Why is he so close?

"Ye..ss..", I couldn't even hear myself.

"Even without clothes?" He asked with no trace of surprise in his voice and then I froze. Without clothes? I mentally kicked myself. I'm done! Here I am completely naked and I didn't even realize it until he made it obvious. I shouldn't have gotten off from under those sheets that protected my frame and now I have a stranger this close and I'm still numb and unmoving and obviously can't think of a way out.

"I.. I..." I tried to form words.

"The clothes you had on were torn and messy, I had to get it off of you and hey, I didn't look, I tried not to but you shouldn't have jerked off. Now you make me come so close to you this way because I don't want to absorb what I shouldn't." He muttered to my hearing, his frame towered over me as I slowly turn on my heel to face him. He looked so innocent, like someone who's not capable of doing the worst, but I noticed he looks restrained, like someone who's also trying to keep it in his pants. I looked into his eyes and I know I shouldn't tempt him this way.

"Get me yours." I said, which made his look question me .

"Let me wear your clothes.." I looked down to his nose.

"Please.."I mumbled as my eyes settled on his lips. God no! This is wrong, this feelings are wrong, my thoughts are wrong and I am wrong. I looked down, avoiding that part of his face as I behold my naked self standing bare in front of this man who's only an inch away from me. I almost choked on my anxiety and then I closed my eyes and then I felt him move away from me and was immediately back to his initial place again. Then I felt him put cloth over my head. I opened my eyes and submitted my cooperation to cover up myself. He was gentle.

"There you go." He whispered.

"Thanks." I said not sure if he heard me.

He walked away from me and then I felt I could breathe again.

"Come with me", he spoke with ease. I blinked severally, then noticed my wet eyes. I touched my face, I felt my own tears trickle down my cheeks. I had.. cried? I'm so messed up! I resolved to follow him when I felt my head spin accompanied with a blasting headache. I winced and then heard my groans. Soon, the headache was gone and I felt revitalized and full of unknown energy but my legs were still jelly.

"Fuck! She ended up like this and.." I looked around the room. "Here."

I observed my surroundings. I felt full surge over my body.

I smiled mischievously. "You got yourself a good bang Faye!" I screamed, unknown thrill at the pit of my stomach.

"You have to stay back now." I grabbed an ash coloured pant from the wardrobe, slipped into it and straightened my hair with my hands. "It's my turn now." I dashed out of the room.